When Ruan Yihan knew that Xiaohai wanted to see her, her first reaction was to refuse outright.
She had just finished a meeting and was reviewing documents in the office. The new secretary Fang Fei was carefully serving beside her. She clearly felt that the president's aura seemed to have changed all of a sudden, from the dullness just now, to the anxiety later, and then to... uneasy? She was newly promoted by Ruan Yihan. She was very capable at work and had been with President Ruan for three or four months. She was in awe of Ruan Yihan and had been through many business occasions, big and small, with her. President Ruan could handle them calmly. It was the first time Fang Fei saw President Ruan so... flustered.
Ruan Yihan was holding her phone and dodging in the room, her lips pressed into a straight line, her breathing quickened.
It seemed as if the wind was blowing over there, and Jiang Zhenyue's voice was a little distorted: "I know, you are afraid that meeting Xiao Hai will irritate her, but Ah Han, are you really going to never see her again in your life?"
She knew Ruan Yihan's proud nature and did not expose her secret visit to Xiaohai.
Ruan Yihan remained silent, biting her lips tightly.
Jiang Zhenyue understands her.
After so many days and nights of missing him, and suffering again and again, does she really not want to see Xiaohai
She thought about it so much that she was going crazy, so mad, and her heart ached to death.
When she was no longer in her life, the years began to settle down, loneliness and memories mixed together, all of which were broken by her greatest fear.
Xiao Hai, she finally came back to life and forgot all the pain.
If she just passed away like this.
What if Xiao Hai gets upset... and remembers all the pain he's suffered before? Wouldn't all their efforts be wasted
Jiang Zhenyue knew Ruan Yihan's personality, so she didn't force her and gave her time.
Xiao Hai was very thoughtful. She asked Lazhen to send her the photos so that she could take a look at them when she had nothing to do.
Jiang Zhenyue didn't bring the person over, and she didn't ask much. She just silently became concerned about the stranger.
It's a very strange feeling.
It seems a bit like a star-chasing girl.
Qin Haiyao would look at those photos from time to time and see the people in the photos. She always felt that Ruan Yihan's eyes and eyebrows were very attractive, no matter she was happy or sad.
She once didn't know why the children in the village were so fond of the stars on TV.
After all, paper people are just on the big screen, not the people around you.
But now that it happened to her, Qin Haiyao actually felt a bit like a star chaser, liking the star but being able to only secretly watch him through photos.
She would take it out and look at it from time to time. Jiang Zhenyue felt sad when she looked at it, because after all, those photos were taken by Lazhen unintentionally and were not very clear. She thought about it and gave Qin Haiyao a work photo of Ruan Yihan.
In fact, when giving it to Xiao Hai, Jiang Zhenyue was a little nervous, her heart was pounding, she was afraid that after she saw it... something unexpected would happen.
This photo was secretly taken by Jiang Zhenyue when she was working as Ruan Yihan's secretary.
The angle is well chosen.
Ruan Yihan was in a meeting wearing a suit. At that time, there was always a hint of gloom and sadness in her eyes. She was wearing a sapphire blue shirt inside, with her long hair tied up, and she had an extraordinary temperament.
Qin Haiyao stared at him without blinking her dark eyes.
Most people who see this photo will be attracted by Ruan Yihan’s beauty and temperament.
Jiang Zhenyue held her breath and looked at her. Qin Haiyao stared at the photo for a long time and said slowly: "She is still very sad."
…
Jiang Zhenyue pursed her lips. At this moment, she had to admit it.
Some things, although separated, are like being covered with a layer of cloth. Only the surface is hidden, and the inside will never change.
It's like she is yours, forever yours.
No matter how much time passes, no matter how many people come close, that heart will not change.
She is always there.
As Qin Haiyao's health recovered day by day and the New Year was approaching, Huang Lan cried again and again. She, Qin Shan and Mo Mo couldn't help it and came to see Qin Haiyao.
Qin Haiyao was told two days ago that a former family member was coming to see her.
Said it was her adoptive parents and sister.
Jiang Zhenyue also showed her a family photo of four.
Qin Haiyao felt a little uneasy. Humans are very strange creatures. They are suitable for living in groups, but sometimes when they stay alone for a long time and see strangers, they will get nervous.
Waiting for the family to arrive.
Qin Haiyao deliberately did not go to the clinic to help.
She waited at home, thinking of preparing all kinds of delicious meals for them.
There is nothing to entertain people in the countryside, but she has also seen on TV that people in cities may be under too much pressure nowadays, and they want to go out whenever they have a break or a holiday, to feel the mountains and rivers of the countryside, to connect with the ground, and to experience the beautiful scenery of the world.
Many people in the village yearn for the city, especially the young people. They leave their hometowns and want to work hard for a future of their own in the prosperous areas and give their families a good life.
The doctor in the town also came to see Qin Haiyao. He thought she was a promising person and wanted to take her out.
But Qin Haiyao refused. She didn't say much. Just a simple smile and a shake of her head kept people at a distance.
Qin Haiyao was thinking about making some special side dishes for them and showing them around, right
After staying here for a long time, she became simpler and simpler.
Jiang Zhenyue was the one who went to pick up Qin Haiyao at the station. After all, she was afraid of directly irritating Qin Haiyao, so she had a buffer in the middle.
On the way, Qin Shan talked to Huang Lan for a long time, "You said this is a good thing, why do you always cry?"
Huang Lan didn't say anything, she just shed tears. During this period of time, she missed her daughter so much that she was going crazy. She knew what Xiao Hai had been through and how badly she had been injured. With motherly feelings, if she hadn't been afraid of upsetting her, she would have come a long time ago.
Qin Momo had grown up a bit, her voice had fully recovered, and when she smiled her eyes swung into cute crescents. She looked at Jiang Zhenyue and said, "Sister Yueyue, do you really not remember my sister at all?"
Her voice is very charming, like the voice of a midnight radio DJ, gentle and soothing.
"kindness."
Jiang Zhenyue rubbed her hair and said, "It's okay. She is happier than before."
—She is happier than before.
…
Hearing this, the whole family felt both relieved and sad.
The paths in the village were not easy to walk on. Huang Lan looked around and felt a little distressed. "Shall we take Xiao Hai back later?"
She wanted to see her daughter and take care of her.
Xiao Hai had lived such a hard life, and she couldn't bear to leave her alone in the mountains and forests any longer.
Qin Shan's face was gloomy. "What nonsense are you talking about? Isn't this the life she wants?"
"But… "
Huang Lan's tears fell again. She also knew that this was the peaceful and calm life her daughter wanted.
But who can stay with whom for a lifetime
Jiang Zhenyue couldn't stay with her like this forever.
She still has her parents, family, and friends in the city.
After she left, wouldn't Xiaohai be helpless again
…
With a complicated mind.
The family of three arrived at the gate of the courtyard.
The yard was swept cleanly. It was not a very big courtyard, but Qin Haiyao kept it very clean.
There were even clothes drying on the railings, fluttering in the wind, and the air was filled with a faint fragrance.
The straw and firewood were arranged neatly. The lazy big yellow dog in the yard didn't even bark when it saw people. It immediately went into the dog hole and looked at them vigilantly.
It was rescued by Qin Haiyao. It was blind and had a lame leg. When it first came, it was very alert and didn't let people hold it. Qin Haiyao didn't approach it deliberately, but just occasionally gave it a bath and cleaned its wounds. Within a few months, it actually grew fat.
Gradually, the sounds of a person and a dog were heard at the entrance of the village.
People are beautiful people.
The dog is an ugly and fat dog.
Qin Haiyao touched it and often looked at the entrance of the village, as if waiting for something.
Jiang Zhenyue once asked her, "Xiao Hai, give this ugly dog a name. It has no one to call it even though you carry it around like this every day."
Qin Haiyao looked at the dog. The dog had a bad temper. Even though they were both beauties, it bared its teeth and showed no mercy to Jiang Zhenyue. But it became more and more docile towards Xiao Hai. It noticed the gaze of its owner and wagged its tail.
Qin Haiyao thought for a long time and asked, "Can I call you Ruanruan?" It feels soft and comfortable to the touch.
Jiang Zhenyue was drinking tea at the time and almost spit out a mouthful of tea, "What?"
Ruan Ruan
Qin Haiyao touched the dog's belly and said, "Yeah, don't you think this name is nice?"
Jiang Zhenyue: …
I think if Mr. Ruan hears this, he will definitely get furious.
The family reached the door.
Hearing the sound, Qin Haiyao walked out of the house, looking at several people with a smile on her face.
She was wearing a long cotton house dress, her hair was loose, and there was a gentle smile between her eyebrows.
Long time no see.
Xiaohai looks good, but his eyes are a little different from before.
Eyes are the windows to the soul, probably...if a person's mentality changes, his eyes will also change.
That moment…
Huang Lan promised not to cry, but she still broke down. She rushed forward and hugged her daughter in her arms.
Qin Momo also called "Sister" and "Sister" again and again, with tears all over the floor. Qin Shan stood alone at the door, and the man who had been strong all his life looked up with tears in his eyes.
Qin Haiyao was not used to being so close to others on a normal day, but in Huang Lan's arms, she felt a warm feeling.
Huang Lan smelled of shampoo. Her embrace was warm. She held Xiao Hai in her arms and cried, "Xiao Hai, Xiao Hai, I'm sorry. I'm here to see you..."
Qin Haiyao's eyes were red, and she leaned against Huang Lan obediently. Qin Momo looked at her with tears in her eyes: "Sister, I am Momo. My voice is better now, and I can sing for you."
…
A family reunited under such circumstances.
Although Qin Haiyao still didn't know who they were, she was in a good mood. At noon, she specially prepared a large table of food for several people.
Huang Lan went to help halfway. She felt a little sad when she saw Xiao Hai busy in the kitchen.
I forgot it after all.
Although my daughter is not averse to them, she feels awkward and distant from them.
This made Huang Lan feel a little uncomfortable, but wasn't this the best outcome
In this life.
Their family can still be reunited.
No matter what, Huang Lan was satisfied. In the future, she only hoped that her family would not be separated.
While eating.
Jiang Zhenyue's alcohol addiction came back again. She dug out the wine buried in the cellar and drank it with Qin Shan.
Qin Shan had been through a lot in his life, and his heart had long been tempered and polished to be incomparably vast. He looked at his eldest daughter and his youngest daughter, and the huge stone that had been weighing on his heart for a long time was completely let go, and he drank happily with Jiang Zhenyue.
Qin Momo is very protective of her throat and she would not drink spicy things. Halfway through, she sat next to her sister and slowly leaned her head on her shoulder.
Qin Momo could clearly feel her sister's body stiffen for a moment. After all, she was a child who had never experienced anything. She couldn't hide her depression and her eyes were red.
She still couldn't forget how warm her sister had been to her.
Although Qin Haiyao is still very friendly now, she is less intimate than before.
Qin Haiyao looked down at Qin Momo and asked, "Would you like some skewers?"
Qin nodded silently and said "hmm".
At the end of the meal, Qin Momo sang a song for her sister. After her voice got better, with the help of her sister, she found a professional teacher abroad for training. Now she has become famous in Australia.
She couldn't stay for too long, her studies and her life had been transferred to Australia.
At the end of the singing, Jiang Zhenyue joined in. She sang a Tibetan song with a melodious and long-lasting tune, with a hint of loneliness.
Lazhen was listening with tears in her eyes. Although they couldn't speak the same language, they were all moved.
Qin Momo and Lazhen were about the same age, and she couldn't help asking, "Lazhen, what is your sister singing?"
Lazhen choked up and said: "This is the song "Asking the Buddha" made by Tibetans based on the poem of Tsangyang Gyatso."
—I asked the Buddha: Why are there so many regrets in the world
Buddha said: This is a Saha world. Saha means regret. Without regret, you will not feel happy even if you have too much happiness.
I asked the Buddha: What should I do if I meet someone I can love but who can't love me
Buddha said: Leave as much love as possible in the world to face the thousand changes of the world.
Do happy things with your lover.
Don't ask if it's a calamity or fate...
During those days, Qin Haiyao's usually calm and quiet courtyard became bustling for many days.
Qin Momo was the first to leave. She still had studies to attend and couldn't delay for too long.
Qin Shan and Huang Lan wanted to take Xiao Hai home for the New Year, but Qin Haiyao did not agree. Their daughter smiled more than before, but the slight estrangement between them remained unchanged.
They tried their best to warm her, but there seemed to be a wall always standing in the way, and they could not get close to Xiaohai's heart.
"No need, Mom and Dad, you can go back."
Qin Shan said nothing, lowering his head a little sadly, but Huang Lan was unwilling to give up, "Xiao Hai, when the New Year comes, Yueyue will also go home, why don't you go home when you are here alone?"
Why don’t you go home
yes…
Qin Haiyao looked at the road in the distance and wondered why she didn't want to go home.
Qin Shan raised his head and looked at his daughter. "Are you... waiting for someone?"
Waiting for someone...
These days, she was very happy and enjoyed the warmth of her family, so she should be happy.
But she felt incomplete. Qin Haiyao always felt like there was a void in her heart, as if she was waiting for something.
Another half week passed.
Jiang Zhenyue had already started packing her luggage for the return trip. Her father had called her and was furious. He told her that if she didn't even come back for the New Year and was out having fun, she would never have to come back again. She was almost eardrum perforated by the yelling and had no choice but to pack her luggage and prepare to go back.
Lazhen also follows her two sisters day by day. After the New Year, she will really go back. She doesn’t know when they will see each other again.
The three of them often sit together to eat, drink, and watch the moon and stars.
Life is still carefree.
But everyone knows that such reunions will come one day less every day.
Tonight.
Qin Haiyao was a bit of a drinker, and Jiang Zhenyue seemed to have something on her mind. She, who usually could drink a thousand cups without getting drunk, was completely drunk. She and Lazhen slept on the kang next to Xiaohai.
Xiao Hai went over to wash the two people's faces, wiped their hands, and tucked in the quilt.
It’s getting dark.
Life in the countryside is simple, day after day, clean and simple.
There isn't so much intrigue.
Although Yueyue would occasionally tell her about her past experiences, Qin Haiyao felt very tired just by listening.
She didn't yearn for it at all.
She likes this leisurely life very much.
It was just that time passed too slowly, and gradually, for some reason, a sense of grievance arose in her heart.
Jiang Zhenyue asked her if she was too lonely.
Qin Haiyao couldn't explain it clearly. With her current conditions, those who coveted her, not to mention those from her own village, could hardly come to her. There were many young and promising talents in the town, but she didn't like any of them.
At first, she didn't know why.
Her mind was always blank.
But slowly... her heart began to outline a heart and a paper crane. She thought that might be related to what she was waiting for.
But what exactly is it? She couldn't figure it out no matter how hard she tried. Sometimes, Qin Haiyao almost broke down.
The feeling of confusion she had when she first woke up was gone, and was replaced by an eagerness to regain that blank space.
But Yueyue told her that she had a very hard time in the past, and no one wanted her to think about the past anymore...
Under the moonlight.
Qin Haiyao was drinking and looking at the stars in the sky.
The stars are bright and deep, dotted in the vast sky, making people feel happy.
The inexplicable sense of familiarity spread again.
Qin Haiyao walked to the piano in the middle of the courtyard. Her hands gently touched the keys. She was silent for a while, feeling the cool breeze on her face. Her fingertips danced, and she couldn't help but play the piano music of the night.
That moment.
Everything seemed to become quiet.
Everything around me seems to be there, yet not there.
Qin Haiyao closed her eyes, and the familiar music filled her mind. After a moment, tears rolled down her eyes.
At this moment, under the moonlight, Ruan Yihan pushed open the door and walked in slowly.
She was wearing a white windbreaker, her long hair and the hem of her coat fluttering lonely in the wind. On her neck, Ruan Yihan wore the r necklace that she had worn when Xiao Hai confessed everything to her.
There is a faint mint scent in the air.
Qin Haiyao slowly opened her eyes, but the wind had no time to wipe away the tears on her face.
She stared at Ruan Yihan in a daze, her eyes seemed to be frozen at that moment.
Ruan Yihan was also looking at her. She didn't move, her eyes fixed on Xiaohai.
If life could only be like our first encounter...
Their eyes turned red at the same time.
—You will die in my hands one day.
When this is over, let's go, take grandma with us, find a beautiful place with green mountains and clear waters, and you... marry me.
Qin Haiyao, do you believe in karma
If there is an afterlife, do you want to see me again
Ah Han, I love you and I have never regretted it.
…
—Xiao Hai, here I come.