It has been a week since Yan Xingzhi left, and Cen Ning failed to tell him in time that she wanted to pursue further studies. But after thinking about it later, I didn't worry, after all, it will take some time to prepare for this matter.
But she didn't know what her first reaction would be after she said it, because if she really went to the United States, then maybe...they would not see each other for a long time.
This is also the reason for her hesitation the most.
"Ningning, please show this information to the teacher for me." Dabei hurried over and handed her a document, "I'm going to the bathroom, please, please."
Cen Ning nodded, picked up the folder and walked towards Yin Li's office.
Yin Li's office is far away from their office area. Yin Li works in it for a long time, so his office is very large, with a darkroom and even a sleeping room.
When Cen Ning reached the door, he knocked on the door, but there was no response from inside. Cen Ning hesitated, and pressed the doorknob.
The door opened a second, walked in, and put the documents on the nearest table. Just as she was about to turn around and go out, she suddenly heard Yin Li's voice coming from the next room. The door was not closed tightly, so the voice was quite clear.
Eavesdropping on other people's phone calls is not a good thing. Cen Ning didn't intend to stay, but after walking a few steps, he heard her name.
Cen Ning froze for a moment, then stopped.
"What does it mean that I care more about Cen Ning than my daughter, Qing Yao, a daughter is a daughter, and Cen Ning is Cen Ning, you clearly know how much I feel guilty for her."
"I'll take care of my daughter. Don't be angry. I'll have a good talk with her when I get back at night."
"Cen Ning, I will naturally take care of it to the end. You clearly know that his father's accident happened because of me...don't talk so much anymore. How could I be where I am now without Cen Rui? Yes! I depended on him to get here One more step, if it wasn't for his work, I wouldn't have won the gold medal in the international competition, you don't have to use these to mock me... Do you think I don't regret it? I regret it every minute! So I'm making up for it now!"
Cen Ning stood where he was, the more he listened, the more confused he became, and the more he listened, the more sinking his heart became.
She knew who Qingyao was, she was Yin Li's wife. She has been here many times, and every time she comes here, they bring her delicious food, which is very kind to her.
But... what are they talking about.
guilt? compensate
Teacher Yin Li actually knew her father
And... He said that what happened to his father was because of him, and it was also because of his father that he got to where he is today. What do these mean
"Qingyao, you—" the words came to an abrupt end, Yin Li pushed open the door, looked at Cen Ning who was standing motionless outside, and froze suddenly.
He put down his phone very slowly, and looked at Cen Ning with an ugly expression on his face.
"How do you..."
"Teacher Yin." Cen Ning frowned, and said stiffly, "So you know my father."
Yin Li's shocked face slowly disappeared, replaced by a dazed expression. It was a sigh of relief, but also a silent sigh.
"Do you know my father?" Cen Ning stepped forward and grabbed his arm, and said anxiously, "Teacher! I heard it all! But, you said you didn't know him before, why did you lie to me?"
"Cen Ning..." Yin Li's eyes were red, he turned his head, and his voice was desolate, "I know your father."
"..."
"In the past, I was a companion who went out to take pictures with your father. We are... good friends."
"But why are you keeping it from me?"
Yin Li opened his mouth, but couldn't speak.
Cen Ning: "You just said that my father's accident happened because of you... What do you mean? Could it be that you were there when the accident happened in Tibet?"
Seeing Yin Li startled suddenly, Cen Ning's eyes became even more frightened. Her heart sank, and some things gradually became clear.
"Cen Ning, I am indeed here." Yin Li sat down on the sofa, and the man in his forties had tears in his eyes, "If I hadn't insisted on driving over that road at that time, we would not have overturned, your father Also... nothing will happen, it's my fault, I hurt him. "
Cen Ning: "So...you treat me so well, take care of me everywhere, and bring me to know so many outstanding seniors, it's actually because of my father."
"This is one, but naturally you are capable." Yin Li sighed, "You are better than us."
"But I don't understand. What happened at that time can be said to be an accident, and I can also believe that you didn't do it on purpose, but why did you keep it secret like this? You said that my father's work... won the gold medal in the International Natural Landscape Photography Annual Competition?" Cen Ning was a little ridiculous , "Isn't it what I thought?"
Yin Li is like a stick in his throat. They had such a good relationship back then, and both of them had great ambitions in their hearts. Both of them were very capable, but they didn't have a chance to make their mark at that time.
After the trip to Tibet, he was heartbroken because of Cen Rui's death, but he was young at that time, and he was also dizzy in front of fame and fortune.
He took Cen Rui's work as his own and participated in the competition. He thought it would be nothing, but he didn't expect that this time he would become famous overnight. With his good friend, he became one of the most famous photographers in China...
The sudden applause and money overwhelmed him. He was very happy at first, but as time went by, he began to regret every night for his past mistakes, but he... didn't have the courage to admit it all.
Later, he met Cen Ning, Cen Rui's daughter.
So from the moment he recognized her, he treated her wholeheartedly, taught her what he had learned all his life, created a better environment for her, and paved a better road for her...
Cen Ning looked at the silent Yin Li, and his doubts were confirmed. She looked at Yin Li incredulously, because of the absurdity and disappointment, she even laughed out loud.
"Cen Ning..."
"Mr. Yin, do you know that my father is an extremely useless person in the eyes of our family. My mother... my mother hates him so much. She has never believed in his dream for a moment in all these years." Cen Ning covered his hands Eyes, but tears overflowed through the fingers, "No one believes him, no one thinks highly of him... But who knows, it turns out that he could really be the best person..."
"Teacher, I thought you were kind to me because of how much capital I had, and I always regarded you as my idol and goal, but it turns out that this is all fake!"
…
Magnificent buildings and neighborhoods.
After Cen Ning came out of the Eternal Camera Club, night had already fallen. Standing on the side of the road, she looked at the buildings and mansions placed in front of her like models. They were lit with clusters of lights, red, orange, yellow and green, like a colorful sea of stars.
But none of these colors belong to me.
Cen Ning squatted on the ground and suddenly cried bitterly.
She regards Yin Li as her elder and her master as her guiding light, but in the end she finds out that this man actually stole her father's achievements, and after her father died lonely, he became a figure at the top of the pyramid by him!
"Cen Ning, I know I was very wrong, if you want to tell everyone, just say it..."
Say, why didn't she say it!
Her father never realized his ideal in this life, not only the world didn't know him, even his own family didn't understand him!
How suffocated he was!
By the way, family...
Cen Ning paused and stood up abruptly.
"Master, please go to the East District compound." Cen Ning hurriedly stopped a taxi without wiping away his tears.
She wanted to go home, she wanted to tell Wei Pinfang, she wanted to tell her father that he wasn't doing nothing or acting recklessly, she wanted to tell her that she was wrong!
She's been wrong all along!
The taxi was on the way back to Yan's house, and after more than forty minutes, the car stopped at the gate of the compound.
The taxi couldn't get in, so Cen Ning paid, got out of the car and ran inside.
She ran home in a hurry, but Cen Ning rushed back to the small building, but Wei Pinfang was nowhere to be seen. She took out her cell phone to make a call, but found Wei Pinfang's cell phone rang on the sofa.
Cen Ning: "..."
She frowned, and went out of the small building to look for her, but after looking around outside, she found that there seemed to be no one in the Yan family, not even Aunt Chen.
"Where are people?"
"Cen Ning?" At this moment, a young man in military uniform hurried outside, and when he saw her, his footsteps stopped obviously.
Cen Ning remembered him, he often sent some military materials to Yan Guofeng at Yan's house.
"You are at home..."
Cen Ning frowned: "What's the matter?"
"Uh... Isn't the chief saying that there is no one at home?"
Cen Ning: "Did Grandpa ask you to come back to pick up things? By the way, what about others, why is there no one at home today?"
The young man hesitated for a moment: "Well, Cen Ning, do you want to take my car to the hospital?"
Cen Ning: "Hospital? What happened?"
"The chief must have not had time to inform you. Your mother's condition suddenly worsened. I was the one who drove her to the hospital just now. Everyone went—"
Cen Ning swayed and almost stopped: "Take me to..."
**
How could the road to the hospital become so long, it made her head dizzy and her eyes darkened.
After arriving at the hospital, Cen Ning only knew that he followed the people around him to the operating room. Everyone was there, and they were silent when they saw her coming.
Aunt Chen came over and hugged her to wipe away her tears. Cen Ning mechanically patted Aunt Chen on the shoulder and told her that nothing would happen, it would be fine.
She would comfort others, because her heart was full of hope, and she never believed that people like Wei Pinfang would leave so casually.
But in this world, nothing seems impossible.
Maybe the person who was wandering around your world in good health one moment ago can leave your eyes in the next second. You never cared about her or paid attention to her. It wasn't until she left that you realized why I don't have any relatives by my side.
Cen Ning watched the doctor who had been busy for an hour come out, he opened and closed his mouth, saying things she didn't like to hear.
"Patient's heart is acutely hypoxic-ischemic, and cardiac arrest leads to death..."
"Congratulations."
"It stands to reason that this would not be the case. Did the patient take the medicine as prescribed by the doctor at home?"
"The family members go in and have a look..."
Death, sorry.
Cen Ning stood by the hospital bed and looked at Wei Pinfang lying on the bed. She closed her eyes, as if she was just sleeping.
Cen Ning squatted down slowly, looking at Wei Pinfang without blinking.
It seemed like the first time in a long time that she had gotten a good look at her. Looking at her so closely, I realized that she was really old. The cheeks were thin and wrinkled, and the face that was always indifferent to her on weekdays was too pale to look deterrent at the moment.
"How can you die?" After Cen Ning said this lightly, a tear fell vertically on the pale quilt.
"I haven't told you about my father, I haven't told you that you are wrong, how can you die..."
Aunt Chen wiped away her tears: "Son, if you're sad, just cry, you, don't hold back."
Cen Ning suddenly felt so desperate, she wanted to cry loudly, cry hard. But looking at Wei Pinfang at this moment, her heart felt as if it was crushed tightly by a big rock, she couldn't cry, she just wanted to shake her hard to wake her up!
She wanted to tell her that she was not entitled to die. She hasn't known her father's difficulties, nor has she apologized to her.
She had been indifferent to her all her life, and never gave her a little tenderness or a hug.
She wants her to know her mistake! Make her regret it! Ask her to change!
She wants her too...
love her.
**
Yan Guofeng made good arrangements for the funeral and other matters.
What worried everyone was that Cen Ning was abnormal during this time. Before and after the funeral, she didn't say a word, and often stared at somewhere in a daze. She seemed to be in a trance, always in a trance.
She didn't cry, make noise, or complain to anyone. She handled everything that needed to be done at the funeral in an orderly manner. She was obviously a girl in her early twenties, but standing beside the photos of the deceased, she looked like a dying old man who could see through life and death.
"Ningning, let's have a meal first." Aunt Chen came over to persuade.
Cen Ning shook his head: "Aunt Chen, go eat, I'll go back and sort out my mother's belongings."
"How can I not eat, I will sort out the relics."
"It's okay, I want to do her things myself."
Aunt Chen watched Cen Ning walk away, and she sighed: "It would be great if it works, this girl won't be so stubborn..."
Cen Ning returned to the small building and began to organize Wei Pinfang's things.
She first put the bedding and daily necessities in the same box, then opened the closet and started packing the clothes.
When Cen Ning packed his clothes, he found that Wei Pinfang's clothes were actually very few, and there seemed to be only a few pieces throughout the year. After she packed up all these clothes, she suddenly saw a large square box at the bottom.
The paint on the top of the box is all peeling off, I think it has been a few years. After she opened the box casually, she saw two envelopes inside. Cen Ning was stunned for a moment, and his heart suddenly started beating wildly.
Quickly opened an envelope, and a bank card and a stack of photos fell out of it.
Judging from the pixels, the photo should be taken by a mobile phone and then washed out later.
In the photos, she is of different ages and time periods. She was eating, she was doing homework, she was watching TV, and she was talking to the photographers at the film festival that day.
That day, her mother went to the film festival, the first day, the first time, she went...
Another envelope was opened, and it was a piece of letter paper.
By this time, Cen Ning's hands were already shaking uncontrollably, she sat down on the ground as if she was exhausted, slowly opened the letter paper, and smoothed out the thin wrinkles...
"Daughter, you have to be fine.
I know you don't like communicating with me very much, and I'm not very good at communicating with others. Over the years, you must blame me for being too strict and indifferent to you. Here, my mother wants to say sorry to you.
Have you seen that bank card, there are 300,000 in it, and the password is your date of birth. Don't worry, it's not the Yan family's money, it's saved by my mother selling embroidery over the past seven years. This money is left to you, and you can spend it with confidence in the future. This is from your mother, not others, so you don't have to have so much pressure.
Some time ago, I saw you were checking foreign schools. You must be silent because you don’t want to owe Yan’s family any more, so now, you can use this money to study abroad. With this money, at least you won’t be so tired for the first year, but after that, you may have to work hard on your own, mom Can't help you. Also, after you finish your studies, you must remember to repay your grandfather Yan, he is really good to you.
Daughter, I have never told you. I was really relieved when I heard you said that you wanted to support me by yourself. I also saw that you have been working hard. But later I heard that you are with Xingzhi, I know you like him very much, but Mom doesn't want you to lose yourself for anyone, so you must do whatever you want. Now without my bondage, you are free.
In the end, Mom is sorry for bringing you into this world and making you so lonely.
I hope that in the next life, you will never meet me again. "