In this world, no one can be with someone all the time. Even the person you love the most, he will have his own mission and responsibility, you can be his center, but you can't be his everything.
Cen Ning never blamed his words and deeds, even though his words and deeds would often disappear and would not be by her side for a long time, she never had any complaints against him.
He wants to guard the country, what she wants to do is to accompany him and understand him.
One month later, Cen Ning saw Yin Li on the news.
He held a press conference and personally revealed the real owner of the work that once made him famous. His reputation was ruined all of a sudden, and the dead man named Yin Rui entered everyone's memory.
Cen Ning should have been happy when she saw the news, but she couldn't feel happy when she saw Yin Li's face that seemed to have aged ten years.
She blamed him, but for so long, Yin Li's teaching and kindness to her could not be erased at will. So the last thing she can do is to be an indifferent bystander, not to add insult to injury, nor to forgive casually.
"Ning Ning, let's go." Yan Xingzhi bought lunch and planned to go upstairs to Tang Zheng's ward with Cen Ning.
Cen Ning took one last look at the person in the news, and threw the phone into his bag.
Words and deeds glanced at her: "Haven't you contacted Yin Li again?"
Cen Ning nodded: "I don't know how to face him, I think, he doesn't know how to face me either."
Words and deeds: "He didn't wait for you to reveal this secret and chose to tell it himself. In fact, this ending is good for you, and no one will feel guilty anymore."
Cen Ning held Yan Xingzhi's hand, showing a brief smile: "Yes."
Words and deeds: "Go up, Tang Zheng should be hungry."
"good."
When the two of them walked outside the ward, they heard Zhang Ziyi's cursing voice: "Tang Zheng, you stinking idiot, let's break up, share your height, see if you can find someone as dignified and beautiful as me in the future, you can't find it !"
"Zhang Ziyi, did you not listen to what I just said?"
"What did you say? Oh, you said you're going to be a cripple when you're limping, and you're not good enough for me. Who the hell do you think you are, making it look like you're good enough for me if you're not crippled?"
"Zhang Ziyi, please be serious! I'm serious!"
"I can't be lame! Don't force me, my mother will find you the best doctor in the world tomorrow. If you are lame, I will take my surname."
"..."
"Besides, you broke up with me even though you were lame? Shouldn't you cry and keep a good girl like me?!"
Outside the ward, Cen Ning and Yan Xingzhi looked at each other.
This month, this drama has been staged for the third time.
Cen Ning pushed the door open and walked in: "It's time to eat."
Tang Zheng turned his head away when he saw someone coming in, and Zhang Ziyi threw himself at Cen Ning's side with a slumped face, "Look at him, is he insane? Before the rehabilitation started, he felt unfounded and thought he was going to be useless." .”
Tang Zheng: "..."
Cen Ning: "Tang Zheng, it's fine. The doctor said that he can recover with proper rehabilitation."
In words and deeds, he put down his lunch and sat on the edge of the hospital bed: "Break up every now and then, are you acting in a bitter scene?"
Zhang Ziyi: "Exactly!"
Tang Zheng pretended to cry twice, took Yan and Deedzhi's hand and put it next to his face, and began to complain miserably: "Brother Yan, I didn't act, it's because this woman is old-fashioned, I suggest we break up and she will kill my ancestors." Eighteen generations have been scolded, so I am not for her, if I am really lame, she will feel wronged by following me."
Zhang Ziyi rolled her eyes: "How many times do you want me to say it, you can't fucking limp, don't add drama yourself, okay?"
The corner of his mouth twitched slightly, and he took his hand back: "... let's eat."
Tang Zheng: "Hey Brother Yan, did you hear that this woman—"
"I do not want to hear."
Cen Ning smiled sullenly, regardless of their messing about, and took out the food from the bag one by one.
During this period of time, Tang Zheng's physical condition has improved a lot, but he still can't get out of bed because of his legs. After a while, he can get out of bed and then he can go for rehabilitation.
As for lame or something, it basically doesn't exist. It's just that it's impossible to do those dangerous things like before, and he feels ashamed of his words and deeds, so no matter how much Tang Zheng and Zhang Ziyi are arguing, he still insists on coming to the hospital to take care of him.
After eating, Cen Ning went out to buy some things with Zhang Ziyi. Lying on the hospital bed, Tang Zheng glanced at the words and deeds of peeling apples.
"The team is so busy, you don't have to come every day."
Words and deeds stopped the hand holding the knife: "It's okay."
"Brother Yan, what I said to Zhang Ziyi was just for fun, you know. Let me tell you, I'm actually very happy. Really, we special forces are so tired." Tang Zheng chuckled, "I can do it now. It’s a good job to get a clerical job in the team after being transferred.”
From childhood to adulthood, Tang Zheng and Xin Zechuan played and trained together in words and deeds. Later, Xin Zechuan gave up joining the army due to family pressure, and the two of them were the only ones left to persevere.
He knew Tang Zheng well in words and deeds, just as Tang Zheng knew him well.
He must be saying this now because he is afraid that he will blame himself. Tang Zheng understands how passionate he is and how much he loves everything in the past.
Tang Zheng: "Hey, you have to help me talk to my superiors and give me a slightly useful post. Although I want to be happy, I don't want to be too idle... Brother Yan, Brother Yan?"
"Um?"
"Did you listen to me?"
After peeling the last bit of apple peel after words and deeds, he smiled faintly: "Well, I see."
"Hey, good brother!"
Tacitly, look to the future.
They both understand each other and trust each other. In this line of work, accidents are inevitable, but the belief in this line of work will always be there.
**
After coming out of the hospital, he sent Cen Ning back to school according to his words and deeds.
Cen Ning originally wanted to go to his thesis advisor to get his thesis done, but before he could go, he received a call from Duan Xiaoquan.
After that film festival, Cen Ning and Duan Xiaoquan had each other's contact information. The two of them got along very well about photography, and Duan Xiaoquan also admired her ability, so he always took care of her.
Half an hour later, Duan Xiaoquan and Cen Ning sat down in a coffee shop outside the school. Duan Xiaoquan was as gentle and courteous as ever, and after ordering coffee for Cen Ning, he asked, "What do you think about the matter of going to New York Visual that I mentioned earlier?"
Cen Ning paused for a moment: "I plan to go."
Duan Xiaoquan was very happy to hear that; "I think you will go too."
"Well," Cen Ning took a sip of coffee and said calmly, "After all, we still need to go through some serious and systematic studies."
Duan Xiaoquan took a look at her, and since he hadn't seen her for a few days, her impression had changed a bit. This change is revealed from the inside out, like Nirvana in growth.
Duan Xiaoquan: "If your father is still alive, he must also want you to go."
Cen Ning was startled for a moment, then nodded slowly.
"You must know about Yin Li, Cen Ning. In fact, Mr. Yin talked to me before apologizing publicly. I didn't stop him, because it was indeed his fault, and he has been suffering."
Cen Ning: "Are you here to intercede with him?"
Duan Xiaoquan shook his head: "I just want you to know that it's one thing for him to do something wrong, but another thing for him to be sincere to you. Don't hate him too much."
Cen Ning smiled slightly: "It's actually meaningless to say these things now, no one can go back."
"Yeah... No one can go back, even the dead can't come back."
**
Cen Ning bought some question banks and books needed for the TOEFL test, but in fact, the TOEFL test is not very difficult for her as an English major, but she still wants to prepare for it just to be on the safe side.
After returning to the apartment, Cen Ning put the book on the coffee table, turned around and went to take a shower. Later, when I came out with my hair wrapped up after taking a shower, I saw the words and deeds of sitting on the sofa and reading books.
Cen Ning was stunned for a moment, feeling inexplicably uncomfortable: "When did you come back?"
His gaze lifted from the TOEFL book: "Ten minutes ago."
Cen Ning groaned: "Before the housekeeping aunt left, she said that the food can be eaten after a little heat."
There was no words or deeds, only silence for a moment and said: "Have you decided?"
Cen Ning knew what he was talking about. He had heard from her two days ago that she wanted to study abroad. He was silent when he heard her say this. I bought them all, and I probably knew in my heart that she would not be able to bring back nine cows with this decision.
In words and deeds: "Actually, you have always thought this way, haven't you?"
Cen Ning nodded, then shook his head again: "Not really, I used to be envious but never thought that I was really capable and qualified to go. At that time, I felt that my mother would not understand me, and I also felt that I could no longer owe... owe There are too many grandpas, so I thought it would be good to learn from the seniors like this."
"why did not you tell me."
"What?"
"Since you want to go, why don't you tell me? Do you think I can't help you, or do you not want to owe me?"
Cen Ning: "I owe you... I owe grandpa, what difference does it make?"
"you-"
"Brother Xingzhi, this is my personal business, and I'm not someone from the Yan family. Your family has no obligation to do these things for me."
Standing up suddenly: "Cen Ning, don't forget that you are my fiancee!"
"It's because I am! That's why I don't want to rely on you for everything!" Cen Ning turned his head away, "I'm not a waste, nor an embroidered pillow... If you keep asking for me and are not satisfied, then what am I?"
The pupils of words and deeds shrank: "Do you have to be so clear with me?"
"I just… "
"I can't even give you what you want, so what am I going to do?" Anger was hidden in the eyes of words and deeds, "Cen Ning, no one in the Yan family treats you as an outsider! No matter what you owe, only you have been paying attention. That line is clearly drawn, only you keep pushing yourself out!"
He seldom spoke loudly to her, and Cen Ning had been restless for a while, and now that he was being said like that again, the hairs all over his body seemed to be aroused.
"Yes! I've been drawing lines, I've been pushing myself out! You don't understand anything at all! You are the pride of heaven. You have always lived in the center of others. You are the focus wherever you go. No one will Look down on you! But I'm different! Don't put your aristocratic young master on me!"
"You!" The words and deeds were so angry that it seemed that if Cen Ning said one more sentence, he could directly strangle her to death. But it was just what it looked like, he endured it, and walked into the room angrily in the next second, with a bang, the door slammed loudly.
Cen Ning was also angry, she walked back to her room where she hadn't slept in for a long time, the door slammed louder than him.
This was the first time they had quarreled and said harsh words.
Cen Ning was lying on the bed, his eyes were red with sadness.
She knew that she said bad things to him, and she knew that he had never had the style of the young master of the family, but she said it in a moment of desperation.
He was probably really angry, angry that she didn't want him to help her, angry that she drew lines clearly, and angry that she included him in the ranks of outsiders.
But in fact, she didn't see him as an outsider, nor did she see anyone from the Yan family as an outsider.
It's just that she will really feel inferior and embarrassed. Say she is hypocritical, say she is contrived, say she asks for guilt, she accepts them all. It's just that she decided to do it by herself.
**
Cen Ning stayed in the room for an unknown amount of time, when he was half asleep and half awake, the door of the room was pushed in.
Cen Ning opened his eyes in a daze, and saw a figure standing beside him.
"..."
"..."
The two looked at each other, and the air froze a bit.
"Get up." The words and deeds frowned, looking serious.
Cen Ning felt aggrieved looking at him, so he pursed his lips and remained silent.
Taking a few steps forward, he directly picked her up from the bed, reached out and took off the towel she was still wearing on her head.
As soon as the towel was removed, all her black hair fell out, and it hung half dry and half wet on Cen Ning's face, making her look very embarrassed.
"What are you doing..." Cen Ning's eyes flickered in shock behind a few strands of hair.
He looked down at her in words and deeds: "You don't even dry your hair, what do you want to do?"
Cen Ning bit his lips and muttered, "I'm arguing... What about hair?"
"say what?"
"No… "
Yan Zhizhi glared at her, turned and went out, but he came back after a while, still holding a hair dryer in his hand.
"Sit down."
Cen Ning: "..."
"Did you hear that?"
Cen Ning finally sat up obediently, she watched Yan Xingzhi plug in the hair dryer, and watched him dry her hair with a cold face.
With the sound of the hot wind, his fingers ran through her hair, quickly but gently stroking her messy hair.
He doesn't speak, and she doesn't speak either. The two of them were silent amidst the noise.
Cen Ning lowered his eyes, held a corner of his clothes in his hand, and silently tugged at it. At this moment, the sudden irritability gradually cooled down.
Cen Ning knows how kind her words and deeds are to her, and she also knows that she can speak well just now, there is no need to blow her nose and stare...
"What I just said is nonsense, and I want to take it back."
The sound of the hair dryer was right next to her ears, and since Cen Ning lowered his head, he didn't notice her talking. Cen Ning knew it, so she did this on purpose, taking advantage of the confusion to admit her mistake.
"I know you are good to me, I shouldn't be so white-eyed, I shouldn't be unscrupulous, you are not a son, you are different from them."
The electric wind stopped suddenly.
In words and deeds: "Have you spoken?"
Cen Ning: "...No."
The electric wind blows and continues to blow.
Cen Ning: "Grandpa is also very kind to me, everyone is very kind to me, that's why I want to be independent and strong, I want to repay them, and..."
The electric wind stopped blowing again, Cen Ning paused, and looked up at him.
"Are you talking?" His words and deeds frowned.
Cen Ning tightened his clothes, and did not deny it again. This time, she continued what she said just now: "And you are my most important person, how could you be an outsider. But brother of words and deeds, I should also grow up , I can’t rely on you for everything, can I?”
His hair was dry, so he put down the hair dryer and reached out to manage it.
He was provoked by her just now, but he has always known that she looks simple on the surface but has a heavy heart, and he also knows that she has always been more cautious.
It's just that he selfishly wants to protect her all the time, and doesn't want her to escape from his palm.
But his little girl has grown up after all.
Words and deeds sighed silently: "Yes."
Cen Ning's eyes lit up: "Then you think I'm reasonable, are you not angry?"
"Why am I not angry anymore?"
Cen Ning said in a low voice, "Then why are you still coming in to blow-dry my hair when you're angry?"
The words and deeds almost made me laugh again: "Didn't I see that you are so stupid, with your hair wrapped up, and you can't come out for a long time?"
"... You still think about this at this time."
With words and deeds, he pinched her face, annoyed her but was reluctant to use force: "Then what should I think, thinking that you are going to fly to a place where I can't touch? Or thinking that your wings are so hard that I won't even protect you." ?”
"no… "
"Ning Ning, I will let you go, I will give you the freedom to do what you want, I will not tie you down." Words and deeds slowly let go, and touched her cheeks that turned red when touched, "But you remember Hold on, don't hold on when you're tired, you still have me."