Bai Xunyin would never fail to hear his'boyfriend' voice.
The cold wind in the twelfth lunar month of New Year's Eve was wet and cold, and I could not stop wearing a thick cotton coat, especially in the ventilated corridors, blowing gently over the biting cold.
Bai Xunyin's stiff brain nerves were also agitated by the cold wind, and he realized where he was now and what he heard.
For an instant, she turned around and covered Amo's mouth with swift hands and eyes.
The latter was already furious. A pair of big eyes that didn't dare to make big expressions for fear of wrinkles were almost out of their sockets at this moment. There was nothing like a bright girl full of vitality on weekdays—they were full of fright and anger.
After all, she also heard what Yu Luoyin was talking about, the bullshit.
Amo, don't... Bai Xunyin looked at her, begging silently: Don't be like this, please.
She didn't want to be found out loud at this time, she didn't want to be so embarrassed.
The young girl Liuli's eyes were full of shaky brokenness, and even the cold fingers covering Amo's face were shaking slightly.
Countless thoughts flashed back in Bai Xunyin's mind—
'What is Yu Luoyin talking about? Why can't I understand it by myself? '
'Is he kidding? That bet... is it about yourself? Does he treat his feelings as a bet? '
'Then what is this period of time? '
…
All inexplicable approaches have been explained, all because of a whim.
Therefore, all the sweetness and tenderness in the past few months are all wrong and fake. They are all her one-man dramas... Yu Luoyin has been sober from beginning to end, so what is he using? How do you look at yourself with such a look and attitude
Would he find himself ridiculous and extremely ignorant, would he be triumphant because he liked him and took the initiative to kiss him
After sending her home again, she turned around and replaced it with an unknown skin, and said to others: Look, how stupid is that little dumb? I was deceived in the palm of my hand, and I was deceived round and round.
Oh, she is indeed stupid.
Bai Xunyin realized that he had never known Yu Luoyin thoroughly.
The proud son of heaven, the school grass, the academic master, the gentle and undisciplined, seemingly lazy and careless under the handsome appearance... What kind of heart is it, has she ever understood
For this boy, she thought too simple.
Bai Xunyin suddenly felt extreme panic.
She didn't know how she pulled the dilapidated teaching building in the playground after Amo silently left, as if her soul had been drained, leaving only a muddy empty shell.
Nothing, nothing, she just heard the truth, but she was awake from the utopia like a girl’s dream, nothing...
Bai Xunyin kept repeating to herself in her mind, feeling that she was behaving normally—until she saw Amo crying.
Tears burst into those big eyes, and Amora held her with a trembling voice: "Yinyin, you are scary like this, can you type a word with me?"
Bai Xunyin was startled slightly.
very scary? Where is she scary
It was Amo who was too exaggerated, but she was thinking too much, and she was not scary. Bai Xunyin smiled slightly, not knowing that his smile was worse than crying.
[Amo. Bai Xunyin took out his cell phone and sent her a message: [Don’t tell me about it. ]
[I want to solve it myself. ]
Senior high school students have a week off for rest and New Year.
She wanted to use this week to calm her mood and cooperate with Yu Luoyin in acting.
Bai Xunyin now knew exactly why Yu Luoyin approached her, and what he thought of her. So now it's her turn to see how Yu Luoyin'acts'.
Or maybe it is possible that after Yu Luoyin said that, he didn't want to continue acting.
So... when will he come over and talk about breaking up
Bai Xunyin's brain is almost empty, and he walks home unconsciously. This is the problem in his mind.
She was wearing a dark gray wool coat, her slender white fingers were exposed and flushed with cold. When she came home and knocked on the door, Ji Huiying who came to open the door for her was taken aback for a moment—
"Yinyin, what's the matter?" She greeted people in quickly, looked at Bai Xunyin and asked softly: "Why are you so desperate? Because of the exam results?"
…
Bai Xunyin couldn't help but want to laugh a little, but she thought she was good, and it turned out that Ji Huiying could tell something was wrong at a glance.
No, the exam results are pretty good.
Mom, I feel uncomfortable because of other things.
I can't say what I want to say, this voice seems to never say what I want to say, complaining, happiness, joy, sadness... She can only hold back forever.
Bai Xunyin's eyes held back the soreness, and after a long while, he still didn't express anything-he just took out the transcript and handed it to Ji Huiying.
Then in Ji Huiying's somewhat surprised gaze, Bai Xunyin turned and returned to the room.
Back in her own airtight private space, a clear crack finally appeared on her frozen face.
Can't stand it, really can't stand it.
Bai Xunyin's slender and red fingers were cold, and slowly blocked her face. She squatted down slowly against the door behind her, shrinking into a small ball like a baby seeking protection from her mother. .
She buried her face in her knees, her shoulders trembling slightly.
Just like a skinny wounded, even Ping Ning is silent.
Until the phone fell on the ground with a'buzz' vibrating, a small white face lifted from his knees, Bai Xun's glazed eyes looked down at the screen through a mist of fog, gradually clearing—
Yu Luoyin: [Did you go home by yourself? No one can be found at the school. ]
In the small room, there was a deadly silence that could be heard from the needle drop. After a long while, Bai Xunyin's face was set against the dim light with a sneer smile.
The water color at the corner of Peach Blossom's eyes has not faded, and it is almost as weird as a monster.
[Ok. ] She typed with stiff fingers, and she responded as if she was out of her body: [I'm back first. ]
Yu Luoyin's news came back quickly, as if complaining: [Why go so fast, can we still meet before the New Year? ]
Bai Xunyin replied word by word: [Maybe not, my mother wants to take me to my aunt's house. ]
Actually because of her father’s illness, because of their family’s previous debts like snowballs... Where else would any relatives want to see them? It's just that she can't see Yu Luoyin, and when she sees him, she is afraid that she will be stretched.
[When? ] Yu Luoyin’s messages are sent one by one—
[Going for a few days, won’t you come back on New Year’s Eve? ]
[I'll go to your house to find you, the New Year gift has not been given to you yet. ]
[Don’t come here. ] Bai Xunyin quickly stopped.
The opposite seemed to be embarrassed, and no news came over for a while.
She stared mockingly at the WeChat dialogs of the two people, and now she feels that this is Yu Luoyin.
In the previous chat, if Yu Luoyin didn't reply to the news for a long time, Bai Xunyin would always feel that he had said something wrong.
She had never thought that Yu Luoyin might be trying to catch it.
Only oneself, like a fool, keep getting the bait.
But this time, she still took the initiative to send a message in the'cold field'—
[No. ] Bai Xunyin smiled slightly: [You have already sent it. ]
The'gift' Yu Luoyin gave her is unforgettable forever.
It's a lesson, it's a sobriety, and it's something that you can't buy with money.
Bai Xunyin's mind uncontrollably recalled the past few months, even some small fragments when she and Yu Luoyin first met.
The thin back of the teenager helping her move the table in the rain.
Give her a casual smile of five hundred dollars in the playground.
Two people pretended to "make up lessons" in the library.
There are also evidence of'ambiguity' left in various places in the school.
…
It all looks like a joke now.
But she still feels damn tempted.
Bai Xunyin suddenly remembered the day of Christmas a month ago.
Because of the dumb and Sheng Churan's instigation, she was not well-known in the third middle school. When she was in high school, she was accompanied by Amo. When she was in high school, there was no lone friend around her.
It is said that the long and beautiful girl will be treated well in the crowd, but if the long beautiful and the physical defect exist in one person at the same time, she is the object of everyone's bullying, especially when someone is guided.
Compassion is too extravagant, and it is not enough to share with others.
Bai Xunyin remembers that the school was closed for Christmas in the second year of high school. Everyone in the class was smiling and exchanging Christmas fruits, only she was an'outsider'.
She knew that no one would give her an apple, and no one would need her, so Bai Xunyin was not prepared at all, so she sat in the corner by herself and continued to do her own papers without hearing anything outside the window. .
But the truth that people don't offend me and I don't offend people doesn't exist. There was no teacher in the class that day, and it was surprisingly'relaxed'.
Sheng Chulan walked up to Bai Xunyin with a smile, his big eyes gleaming with evil and cunning light.
"Bai Xunyin, you are really lonely. You don't give apples to your classmates at Christmas." Sheng Churan smiled with two dimples, looked at her provocatively, and then slapped in Bai Xunyin's expressionless gaze. With a click, I patted the core of the fruit I just gnawed on to her table—
"Here, I sent you off." Sheng Churan said like a'charity': "For your poor sake, a dumb."
…
For a whole year in high school, she reminded others all the time-Bai Xunyin is a dumb.
In fact, why bother? She didn't say it, she knew it.
Bai Xunyin smiled indifferently, hugged the core with a paper towel and threw it away, then lowered his head to continue learning, not seemingly caring.
It's just that since then, she has been a little repulsive about Christmas in school.
And on Christmas a month ago, there was still no holiday, and the whole class was still giving each other apples with a smile.
The difference is that there are a bunch of them on the table in front of her.
"I don't know what kind of apples you like to eat." While no one noticed them in the noisy classroom, Yu Luoyin probed her back table and leaned into Bai Xunyin's ear and said softly: I bought it-do you like Ping An fruit?"
He bought all kinds of apples.
Bai Xunyin withdrew his stunned gaze and tilted his head slightly to see the handsome and creamy young boy Qingjun looking at her with his eyes slightly bent.
At that time, Bai Xunyin almost felt that Yu Luoyin had stars in his eyes, how could there be... such a deceiving boy
At that time, the liar looked at her and asked as if he was still very sad: "Why don't you prepare an apple for me? I've got so many for you."
Yu Luoyin didn't know that Christmas was a bad memory for Bai Xunyin.
He didn't even know that starting from this Christmas, she suddenly felt that this holiday was worth spending.
It's a pity... It's a pity that a liar is a liar, how could it be true
Bai Xunyin withdrew from the memory, his clear eyes were a little dry and red.
She stood up, her legs numb from squatting for a long time, and she almost staggered and slipped, and she was able to hold the table next to her steady—the fingertips just hit the slippery, plastic-like thing. .
Looking sideways, it happened to be the colorful wrappers of Christmas fruits.
Apple can't be kept for that long, but she is reluctant to throw it away while packaging it.
The jokes are all jokes.
These things she cherishes most may be nothing more than rubbish to'coax her to play' in Yu Luoyin's eyes.
Yu Luoyin may be the cruelest executioner in the world, and he knows how to make a girl desperate.
Bai Xunyin chuckled lightly, and reached out and swept these things into the trash can.
On New Year's Eve, Bai Xunyin spent his time at home.
During the whole vacation, she refused the invitation of everyone in Amo and stayed at home honestly, in the room... healed her injuries.
On New Year's Eve, she helped Ji Huiying to cook a few dishes, and the cold and deserted house posted Spring Festival couplets with the word "Fu", and barely had a little'New Year' atmosphere.
"Yin Yin, I feel that you have suffered a lot recently. Is it too stressful to study in high school?" During the meal, Ji Huiying looked at Bai Xun Yin’s pale face with some worry, always feeling that since the holiday, her daughter has not Enjoying the holiday and taking a good rest, I feel even more tired.
Bai Xunyin smiled, shook his head at Ji Huiying, and then pointed to the location of the medicine box in the living room-indicating that he was just a little cold.
And have taken medicine.
Many "truths" wrapped in honey are often astringent and bitter when they are knocked open, enough to convey bitterness to the heart through the tip of the tongue.
But so what? The thoughts in the minds of adolescence are often volatile and treacherous, and no one cares.
Heartache is not a pain that can be treated in the hospital. At best, it is... a little bit of pain.
From the outside, it doesn't hurt or itchy.
It is said that 21 days is a process that can polish pain and form a habit, but Bai Xunyin only took three days to get used to it.
I'm used to the feeling of returning from the false light to the real obscurity, and I'm used to losing... Pain that I have never really owned that person.
Not only are you used to it, but you can also use it. After all, pain is always better than comfort, which can make people sensible and can make people grow faster.
Bai Xunyin thought, a strange smile appeared unknowingly on the corners of his lips.
"Don't forget to take the medicine again tonight." Ji Huiying sighed and lowered her head to eat. She is already a little old middle-aged, even though she was so elegant and intellectual when she was young, she can't help but get a touch of middle-aged now. Talking about, asking back and forth, and finally said to Bai Xunyin—
"Eat, let's go to the hospital to see your father after eating."
On New Year's Eve, when the people of the whole country are reunited with their families, the three of their families should also be'reunited'.
Whether it is Mid-Autumn Festival or New Year's Eve, the hospital has nurses on duty. Because accidents happen from time to time, it doesn't matter whether you celebrate the New Year or not.
The angels in white had no mood swings about any festival for a long time. It was not surprising to see someone coming to visit on New Year's Eve. They numbly registered and let them in.
Unlike the cold and wet chill outside, the hospital has air-conditioning turned on in all directions, and it has a comfortable constant temperature all the year round—but Bai Xunyin felt cold instantly when he walked into Bai Hongsheng’s ward.
Almost all the pores opened up, swarming up into the chill of the cold air.
She looked at her pale and skinny father, who was lying on the hospital bed and could only live on nutrients. Her eyes were red in an instant, and she bit her lip and couldn't shed tears.
"Girls' tears are all golden beans, but they can't be shed easily." Through the misty eyes, Bai Xunyin unconsciously remembered that her father was still tall, and when he was healthy, he once fell to the ground without crying. The picture of holding himself on his knees, chuckling softly.
The man smiled brightly and gently, and the hands rubbing her head were dry and warm: "If Yinyin shed tears, my father should be heartbroken to death."
But as Bai Hongsheng said, he wiped out the "Golden Beans" on Bai Xunyin's little apple face, as if they were really treasured.
In the past, he could rely on, act like a baby, and Bai Xunyin could shed tears without fear, wantonly, and felt that someone was backing him.
So after Bai Hongsheng got into trouble... Bai Xunyin gradually didn't like to cry. She preferred to hold back her tears and interpret it with a blank face—because she didn't want to or was used to let others wipe her tears.
"Because of this appearance, I didn't let you come to the hospital." After Ji Huiying came in, she walked over to help Bai Hongsheng massage. She turned around and saw the loss of Bai Xunyin's red eyes. She couldn't help but sighed: "Yin Sounds, don’t be affected. In fact, your father’s condition has not deteriorated. He has been in a fairly stable state. Maybe someday..."
As she spoke, her voice stopped abruptly.
Bai Xunyin knew that this was because Ji Huiying couldn't give a promise and didn't want to lie to her, so she could only stop silently.
When Bai Hongsheng can wake up, it is the same concept as when she can restore her voice—it is something that no doctor can be sure of.
It may be tomorrow, or it may be for a lifetime.
Bai Xunyin was just pitiful Ji Huiying, a single person carried the two of them like a'shot'-like burden.
Her mother's spine seemed weak, but she couldn't easily be crushed.
Just thinking about it, the phone in Bai Xun's jeans hummed.
When he took it out, it was a call from Yu Luoyin.
Now that she sees these three words, her pupils will shrink unconsciously, depressed and anxious.
Bai Xunyin's slender fingers squeezed tightly, hung up impatiently, and simply turned on silent. She threw the phone on the table without seeing her and was upset, and then went to the bed to help Ji Huiying massage Bai Hongsheng together.
Yu Luoyin, who was hung up, looked at the phone screen in a bit of amazement, and chuckled briefly after a while.
The laughter was particularly harsh in the deserted and empty corridor.
He felt like a joke.
For the New Year, he ran out regardless of family members' dissuasion and scolding, and drove all the way into the broken corridor of Bai Xunyin's home... As a result, there was no one at home.
Could it be that he guessed wrong, and Bai Xunyin really went to his relatives to celebrate the New Year
But even if you go to a relative's house, you won't hang up, right? Yu Luoyin Qingjun frowned slightly, stared at the phone for a long time, and dialed a call again.
The ringtone fends for itself, and no one answers it.
Yu Luoyin's frowning brow couldn't help but become a little irritable, and there was a slight anxiety.
He couldn't help even lighting a cigarette.
In the narrow corridors of Smoke Owl, people passing by with lively talk will unconsciously freeze their voices when they see this handsome and conspicuous young man—then lower the movement, and walk away whisperingly.
After all, Yu Luoyin's eyebrows are heavy now, and his whole body is full of aura of'don't come near any stranger'.
He casually played with the steel lighter in his hand, always feeling that something was wrong with Bai Xunyin.
Since a few days ago, I have not answered the phone, and I can reply to WeChat with no one word...Compared with the obedient and obedient before, it is completely like a different person.
Could it be that he offended her somewhere
A cigarette burned out, and I didn't think of any clues, and the phone was ringing restlessly-all calls from all directions to him, the most of which was the group of people at home calling him back.
Yu Luoyin buckled the phone anxiously, stepped on the cigarette butt and went downstairs.
Before driving away, he sent a message to Bai Xunyin slightly stiffly: [Give me a reason not to answer the phone. ]
And this message didn't get a response when he drove into his yard.
The little girl seemed determined to ignore him, irritating.
Yu Luoyin's heart was on fire, and the joints were creaked unconsciously by him. When the boy walked in with a layer of cold air, he seemed incompatible with the warmth like spring in the whole house.
He almost smelled of'cold and murder'.
"Ayin, what's the matter?" Yu Shiqin, a cousin who played with Yu Luoyin, walked over and asked, "Who annoyed you?"
Yu Shiqin studied abroad all the year round, and only rarely came back during the New Year. Yu Luoyin didn't want to show his face, so after a pause, he lazily pulled his lips.
"Who can provoke me?" Yu Luoyin narrowed his eyes slightly and said arrogantly: "I have always made others angry."
Bai Xunyin is the same, don't want to affect him.
The young man is full of spirits, arrogantly like a fierce leopard, but elegant and gentle on the outside like a lazy cat.
The two temperaments merged together, unexpectedly harmonious.
As if he was born to be so arbitrary, no one could stand to hit him at all.
Yu Shiqin couldn't help but feel relieved looking at it—
Having not seen each other for two years, Yu Luoyin has become more mature and has a more "Yu family" posture.
"Brother, cousin." Yu Shitian is also Yu Shiqin's younger sister, and Yu Luoyin's cousin came to call for someone. She is one year younger than Yu Luoyin, and she is also in high school. She is in a sweet and cute princess dress, and she is impatient and annoying. There was a faint look in her appearance: "What are you doing? They told you to come over and eat."
Yu Shiqin spoiled her sister very much, and his big slender hand gently rubbed her head: "Little devil, here is going."
However, Yu Luoyin's gaze stopped for a moment on the cascading chain on Yu Shitian's wrist, which shimmered after shaking. Then he thoughtfully asked: "Tiantian, where did you buy this bracelet? ?"
"Hehe, T's latest model, is it good-looking?" Yu Shitian's white wrist swayed in front of Yu Luoyin, and after smiling, he asked curiously: "Hey, cousin, why are you curious about these girls? "
"Find a way for me to get one, before the day after tomorrow at the latest." Yu Luoyin drew a black card from her wallet and threw it to Yu Shitian, and then faintly said in the grumble that the latter was about to blurt out: "By the way, give it to yourself. Buy something and I will pay the bill."
"Thank you cousin!" Yu Shitian just yelled, "What are you kidding?" Yu Shitian immediately turned abruptly, bending his eyes with a smile: "I promise to get it for you-what do you want this for? ?"
Yu Luoyin said'um'.
At this time, even Yu Shiqin was a little surprised, and looked at him jokingly, "Who is it for you? Are you kidding in love or chasing girls?"
"Neither." Thinking of the phone that had just been hung up, and the information that had been ignored in the past few days, Yu Luoyin's eyes dimmed, and an unnoticeable dark bird flashed.
He said softly: "I am teasing a pet."
"What kind of pet? Cousin, do you keep a cat or a dog?" Yu Shitian felt inexplicable: "You have to use a bracelet to tease, can't you make a cat stick?"
"Yuangui, I seem to be angry lately." Yu Luoyin snorted, and smiled casually: "It has to be coaxed."
Cats like shiny things, don't girls also like diamonds
After the long meal was over, Yu Luoyin received Bai Xunyin's reply.
The words in the dialog box are just as boring as the Man Han banquet at night: [It’s too noisy, I didn’t hear it. 】
Being able to contact people, Yu Luoyin's inexplicable anxiety only eased slightly. He lowered his eyes and asked: [When will I be back? 】
Bai Xunyin returned quickly: [Tomorrow. 】
【good. ] Yu Luoyin said softly, and quickly returned: [Wait for me at home. 】
Then he called Yu Shitian again and said lazily—
"Find a way, get me the bracelet by noon tomorrow."