In the end, Yu Luoyin didn't have the blessing to eat the dishes that Ji Huiying personally cooked last year.
After seeing those pieces of wrapping paper, he had no appetite, he just wanted to leave quickly to find a quiet place to sort out the messed up emotions, and in the end he almost ran away.
"I'm sorry auntie, I suddenly..." Yu Luoyin's thin lips turned pale, and smiled reluctantly: "Suddenly I feel a little uncomfortable. I'm going home first."
"Why does her complexion suddenly become so ugly?" Looking at Yu Luoyin's suddenly pale expression, Ji Huiying walked over with a bit of surprise and asked with concern: "Are you wearing too thin?"
"It's okay." Yu Luoyin shook his head: "I'll go back and sleep for a while."
"That's it, I will invite you to dinner next time, thank you today." Ji Huiying murmured regretfully, opening her mouth to ask Bai Xunyin to come out to see the guests: "Yin..."
"Don't." Yu Luoyin interrupted her quickly: "Auntie, don't call Bai Xunyin, she might be doing homework."
Ji Huiying withdrew her voice subconsciously.
"No need to send it, we will see it tomorrow at school anyway." Yu Luoyin reluctantly retrieved some'smart' sanity, with a gentle smile looking impeccable: "Goodbye, Auntie."
"All right." Ji Huiying had to help him open the door.
"By the way, Auntie." Yu Luoyin paused, and his eyes floated to the waste paper box unconsciously. He made an excuse: "I'll help you throw away the trash."
Ji Huiying was startled, and said hesitantly: "This seventh floor is too high, you..."
"It's okay." Yu Luoyin smiled, and said without any doubt: "I have the strength to help you."
Even if the time to get along is very short, but from Yu Luoyin’s life, Ji Huiying thinks he is a “enthusiastic” child—similar to the kind of boy who doesn’t help people with some uncomfortable tasks, so she didn’t insist on it, and put it away. The carton was handed to him.
"Then trouble you."
"It's not troublesome." Yu Luoyin shook his head, very well-behaved: "Goodbye, Auntie."
It wasn't until he left Bai Xunyin's home and this building that the'so neat' mask on Yu Luoyin's face slowly shattered in this community, and he slowly exhaled the long-suffering depression in his chest.
I just feel uncomfortable with a choking breath.
Yu Luoyin didn't let the waste paper box soul in his arms return to the trash can, but took it all the way back to his'home'—not the detached house he lived with Yu Yuan Gu Yuan, but the house he rented near No. 3 Middle School.
The arm wrapped in bandages felt pain at first in the biting cold wind, but then he didn't feel it at all.
When I went back, I found that the room was brightly lit. Zhou Xin came over and rubbed it again. He was eating instant noodles as crispy noodles with the exercise book in the living room.
Hearing the movement of the door opening, he said to Yu Luoyin who entered the door without raising his head without opening his eyes: "The relatives are here at home. It is noisy. Come to hide here."
Zhou Xin always likes to be quiet, and comes to him a lot. Yu Luoyin was also accustomed to it, and treated him lazily. He walked in with the broken box in his arms expressionlessly, his expression numb.
He put the things on the table, his black eyes drooping slightly, staring at the colorful patches inside.
Zhou Xin passed by when he woke up and threw the trash. He raised his eyebrows in surprise when he saw Yu Luoyin's "lost soul" appearance, and walked over and glanced at the things he brought back—
"Yu Luoyin." Zhou Xin sipped his saliva while holding the cup, sneered unceremoniously: "Do you look like you are going to pick up the tatters?"
He was a little bit dumbfounded, his slender fingers twisted a piece of packaging and looked at it, thinking about what kind of mess
The conscience of heaven and earth, even if you want to give gifts to the box packaging these years, you will not choose this kind of wrapping paper.
"Let it down." Yu Luoyin said coldly, knocking out Zhou Xinsui's hand and snatching the wrapping paper back, and then he took the box back to the room like a treasure.
Zhou Xinsui: "Have you taken the wrong medicine?"
"A Sui." Yu Luoyin took a bottle of ice water out of the refrigerator and poured half of the bottle with his head up, feeling that his brain and limbs were sober by the half bottle of ice water before sitting on the sofa. His eyes were hollow. Staring at his fingers, as if talking to the air: "I broke up with Bai Xunyin, we split."
Zhou Xin paused with his fingers as he wrote the question, then looked back at Yu Luoyin like an eggplant smashed by the cream. After a pause, he still said straightforwardly: "We all know."
…
"The two of you ignore each other these days. Bai Xunyin sees you as if you are looking at class enemies." Zhou Xin frankly'beats' him: "Who can't tell?"
That is to say, Yu Luoyin has been upset these days and has no time to pay attention to the people around him.
The latter was stunned for a moment after hearing this, with a somewhat self-deprecating smile, he slowly said, "So you all know it."
He is really stupid.
"But what are you doing in such a stunned look? You can't bear to find the sound?" Zhou Xin smiled: "Don't you say that it is for gambling appointments, playing with her?"
Is this what I said before? Yu Luoyin couldn't help but feel a little dazed when he heard those jerk things he had said from Zhou Xinsui's mouth.
"Now..." Zhou Xin looked at his expression and couldn't help but smile: "Do you regret it? Do you like others?"
Yu Luoyin leaned on the soft sofa back in a leisurely manner, but his spine was tight. He asked softly, "Can't it?"
"It's not impossible, but I think you deserve it." Zhou Xinsui shrugged: "But there is nothing surprising, Bai Xunyin is still the kind of attractive girl."
Zhou Xin rarely "praised" others. After hearing his words, Yu Luoyin's black eyes suddenly became a little dangerous.
He fixedly stared at Zhou Xinsui: "Do you like her?"
"Stupid." Zhou Xin laughed out loud and glanced at him sarcastically: "I like my sister."
He has a unique taste and doesn't like girls who are'sister type'.
Yu Luoyin realized afterwards that this product was only able to study hard because of some'unspeakable' reason, and desperately wanted to enter a university with their'sister'... rest assured.
When you like someone to treat her as a treasure, you always feel that the whole world is a coveted'rival in love' and it's dying.
"I like her, and I regret it." Yu Luoyin confessed joyfully. He looked up at the ceiling, the curve from the mandible to the neck was exquisite and neat, and muttered, "I did something wrong."
From seeing the wrapping paper in the waste paper box at Bai Xunyin's house, Yu Luoyin knew how thoroughly he was wrong.
Bai Xunyin was willing to collect those pieces of broken plastic leather that was not worth a dollar, but he refused to accept the limited Tiffany bracelet he sent.
And before, I thought she was making a child's temper, thought that the jerk about gambling that he said was not important, thought that using money and a little bit of coquettish tricks could coax her back...
Yu Luoyin, you are such a bastard, he laughed self-deprecatingly, a little depressed.
"If you know you regret it, please apologize for forgiveness. What's the use of decadence?" Zhou Xin casually wrote the exercise book without looking up, and said coldly, "Who let you commit a crime before, deserve it."
Yu Luoyin was silent for a moment, and shook his head—he only now truly realized that Bai Xunyin would not forgive him casually, and it was useless to apologize.
"Brother Yu, your sighing here is not the key to solving the problem." Zhou Xin raised his eyebrows, and turned his slender fingers around: "If it were me, I would try my best to save it."
Apologize, coax people, do whatever is useful.
However, what Zhou Xinsui didn't know was that Yu Luoyin had tried these methods before, but they were useless.
Bai Xunyin is not a girl who can be coaxed back with an apology and a few sweet words. If you want to impress her... you may have to know what she has experienced and what will be impressed by her.
Today I saw the environment in which Bai Xunyin lived, the cramped room, the father lying in the hospital, and her own low self-esteem for being a mute...
Yu Luoyin faintly understood why Bai Xunyin was so sensitive to the word'gambling appointment'.
This girl is not a child who grew up in a perfect family. It is harder to heal the word'trauma'.
But how can he understand Bai Xunyin, and know what she has experienced
At this time, Yu Luoyin realized that he really didn't know much about the little girl. When he was together before, he just enjoyed her caring and never tried to understand her heart deeply.
When they were together, Bai Xunyin seemed to always be happy, and he believed wherever he had been sad.
Yu Luoyin thinks that people who are young and frivolous together are just "playing". Since he was a child, he has been accustomed to not getting to know a person in depth, and he does not want others to understand him-habits and everyone are not far from each other. Close to the'polite distance'.
But until he needed to get to know a person, he didn't realize how cold his habit was.
Yu Luoyin thought without a clue, rubbed his fingertips unconsciously, and was irritated and wanted to smoke a cigarette.
But after a few days of quitting, the pockets of the school uniform are empty, very lonely.
Yu Luoyin Qingjun's long eyebrows frowned subconsciously, and he planned to go directly to the room to sleep-after falling asleep, he didn't need to think about anything for the time being.
It was just that the moment he stood up, a person's name was skipped in his mind, Yu Luoyin paused, his eyes flashed.
The next day, while Bai Xunyin was not paying attention, Yu Luoyin blocked Ning Shumo in the corner.
"Hey hey hey." Amo suddenly felt a black shadow falling in front of him. He looked up at Yu Luoyin's'Sima face', which shocked her abruptly. He stepped back subconsciously and hugged his shoulders, very defensive. Sexually asked: "Why are you blocking me? Is something wrong?"
"Something's going on." Since I broke up with Bai Xunyin, even Amo's black face and the daily sarcasm of talking with guns and sticks have become accustomed to him. He asked politely: "I want to ask you about Bai Xunyin. A few things about the sound."
As soon as he heard the three words'Bai Xun Yin', Amo's face sank, and the anger in his heart surged upwards, unable to suppress it.
"Go away." Amo sneered coldly: "Don't ask me, you don't dub the name of the voice at all."
"You think I'm shameless." Yu Luoyin smiled bitterly, completely dismissing the face he used to be the most fancy and most sought-after: "I know I don't deserve it, but I still want to ask."
Amo was taken aback.
"Can you tell me she is..." Yu Luoyin paused, and asked with difficulty: "What happened to her because of her inability to speak?"
A cold on his face, Amo pushed away his hand against the wall fiercely.
"Yu Luoyin, unworthy is unworthy, what did you ask Yinyin doing? Do you want to pretend to be a lover or continue to play tricks?" Amo sneered, his voice said quickly—
"I really don't understand where our family voice provokes you? You want to treat her this way, do you have hatred with a girl? It's really mean!"
"Ordinary people can't do something that deliberately makes people fall and kick away because of a gambling contract, deliberately chasing people, right? You're really serious enough."
"Yinyin has never been in love since she was a child, and she has been bullied by Sheng Chulan because she couldn't speak her words when she was in high school. She doesn't trust her classmates around her at all, and her life has always been very depressing. Did you understand?"
"You don't know how much construction she has done in her heart, how much determination she has made to accept you, but what kind of gambling did you say because of the bad guy! You gave her a wonderful mirage and smashed her soberly. , Yu Luoyin, do you careless people want to get to know her in the past?"
"You never thought about it, otherwise you wouldn't approach her because of a shit bet!"
"You don't deserve to be close to Yinyin, stay away from her in the future!"
…
These words, after hearing Yu Luoyin say the damn word'gambling agreement' in the back of the school that day, Amo has been holding back in his heart.
Suffering from no chance, she never said it.
Now that it was so easy to encounter Yu Luoyin took the initiative to send him to the door to find a curse, of course Amo cursed happily without being polite.
It's just that at the end, it's me who loves me. The eye circles on her fair face turned red unconsciously, and she didn't want to be embarrassed, she wiped it hard and gave Yu Luoyin a fierce look before turning and running away.
All the way back to the class, Amo's teeth and hands shook unconsciously, sitting in the seat for a long time, unable to calm down, just like a young patient of Parkinson.
Bai Xunyin glanced at her sideways, and asked unclearly on the paper: [What's wrong? ]
Amo lowered her voice, and said viciously in her ear: "Just now that bastard Yu Luoyin came over to look for me."
Bai Xunyin was startled.
"Tell me about you. Obviously, you will never die." Amo coldly snorted, triumphantly: "Don't be afraid, baby, I'll scold you back for you."
It can be regarded as a bad breath in my heart!
Amo's emotions were more intense than Bai Xunyin's, and she felt it was not worth it—Bai Xunyin's heart and first love were so easy to open to such a bastard, she was so angry to die after thinking about it.
If it were not for taking into account that class is about to start, she could still curse Yu Luoyin for an hour!
Bai Xunyin looked at her indignant and couldn't help smiling slightly.
Whenever, it is a good thing to have such a friend who is all about herself. She wrote on the paper: [Amo, thank you. ]
It's just that she doesn't care what Yu Luoyin does now.
With only four months left before the college entrance examination, she was not in the mood to pay attention to what Yu Luoyin wanted to do.
The only thing that high school students need to pay attention to is the college entrance examination.
It is almost the most important exam in life.
I don't know if it's because Amo said that he swears at Yu Luoyin severely. The next week Bai Xunyin passed through quite a bit.
Yu Luoyin finally stopped pestering her in pervasiveness, even sitting behind Bai Xunyin, he was quiet, only looking at the girl's thin and straight back in a daze.
He lost weight inexplicably, and now he seems to be more'depressed' compared to the dead skinny face before.
The moody look also made the friends around me a little worried. Li Yuan and Lu Ye, who were in Cao Yingxin and Han Han, ran over from time to time, and Yu Luoyin, who was sitting by the window, couldn't help but sigh—just like It looked like a terminally ill patient.
"Brother Yu, isn't it just a breakup? How many buddies have not split up a few times?" Li Yuan said without embarrassment, patted his shoulder to'comfort': "The next one will be better."
Yu Luoyin lifted his eyelids expressionlessly, admiring his eyes that cared for children with intellectual disabilities.
"Brother Yu, I heard that Bai Xunyin was because... because of the gambling?" Lu Ye chased after Bai Xunyin because he had also participated in this matter before. There was a little vain, and he hesitated and asked, "Am I right?" Have to apologize?"
…
Yu Luoyin didn't answer, only curled the corners of his lips coldly.
He thought to himself: What's the use of an apology? Bai Xunyin didn't even forgive him, would he just take care of Lu Ye
Looking at Yu Luoyin's uncertain appearance with anxiety, Li Yuan and Lu Ye glanced at each other, only to feel that an inexplicable storm was brewing between the person's eyebrows, which was extremely frightening.
They quickly slipped away tacitly.
There was no noisy annoying ghost next to him, and Yu Luoyin's gaze fell on his empty front desk again-during get out of class time, Bai Xunyin went out, but he still felt a little empty if he didn't stare at it.
Yu Luoyin couldn't help but stretched out his hand and gently pinched the center of his eyebrows.
For a week, the words Ning Shumo had said were like burials in his mind, which would detonate at some point, making him uneasy.
He even felt that he was covered with thorns and muddy dirt, and he didn't dare to approach Bai Xunyin.
Those words of Amo made it impossible for him to continue to be a shameless dog.
There is karma in this world. A month ago, he used to control Bai Xunyin to knead it in his palm as a pleasure. He was content with it, but now it is like needle felt, and every step close to her is like walking on thin ice.
'You don't know how much construction she has done in her heart, how much determination she has made to accept you! '
This sentence impressed him the most, making Yu Luoyin feel that his heart was held tightly every time he thought of it. What is Bai Xunyin's reason for... So much psychological construction is required for a relationship
Because of what
He eagerly wanted to know what was the reason for this girl to protect herself from layers of barriers.
Yu Luoyin used to open her heart for a few months before, but it was a pity that she was broken when she couldn't catch anything.
He really didn't want to let it go.
The phone in the desk drawer suddenly hummed restlessly.
Yu Luoyin lowered his head and took a look, then frowned slightly, "Hello?"
"Yu Shao, what you asked me to investigate two days ago is almost done." A low male voice came from the other side, with a respectful attitude: "When will I give it to you? Will I have time to meet in the evening?"
Yu Luoyin's slender fingertips tapped the desk unconsciously, his eyes swept across the glass window of the classroom to see the figure of Bai Xunyin coming back, he said'um', lowered his voice and quickly said something to the phone.' I'll go to you at night', and then hung up the phone.
Watching Bai Xunyin back to his seat, Yu Luoyin lowered his eyes slightly, his white and skinny fingers curled up.
In fact, he knows that he is mean and scum... But he is used to being'scheming,' and he can't help but do some despicable things.
The class bell rang, and Yu Shen walked into the classroom with a bunch of lesson plans. He stood on the podium and looked at the buzzing fly-like underneath. He took the pointer and knocked on the blackboard—
"Quiet, the mock test results from a week ago have come down."
In the school days,'school is over' and'graduates have come down' can be called Dinghai Shenzhen, which can make the messy classroom quiet down at any time.
After all, even the worst students want to know what virtue they have become in the exam, let alone the top class.
It was just that Yu Shen shot back his carbine and said calmly: "After class, I will go to the big list in the corridor to watch."
After that, he did not delay a minute, and calmly began to lecture in the silent and contemptuous eyes of the students.
At the end of get out of class, all the students rushed towards the place in the hallway, which was overcrowded for a while.
Bai Xunyin lazily went to squeeze around with a group of people, thinking that he might as well wait for the'ebbing period' five minutes later, and rejected the impatient Amo. Not slow.
She seems... She always knows when to do the right thing, and she always looks so tepid.
Yu Luoyin didn't look either, but sat in his seat and looked at Bai Xunyin's back, thinking beyond the margins.
The students in the class dispersed quickly, leaving them two for a while.
When Bai Xunyin finished a question and looked up and found the surrounding scene, he subconsciously wanted to get up and leave. However, it was too late and was stopped by the tall and thin boy two or three steps.
Relying on no one, Yu Luoyin dared to be so unscrupulous.
Bai Xunyin's first reaction was to take a step back, Liuli-like eyes looking at him vigilantly, full of precautions.
"I just want to say something to you." Seeing Bai Xunyin's subconscious reaction, Yu Luoyin couldn't help but smile, "Don't be afraid."
Bai Xunyin frowned slightly.
Yu Luoyin could see the meaning written in her eyes—she was not afraid of him, but disgusted with him.
It's like seeing flies, the kind of uncontrollable response when seeing rogues, and nausea.
The boy's fingers dangling by his side unconsciously folded into a fist, and he looked at her fixedly, and his voice was very soft, almost as if he was talking to himself: "Bai Xunyin... Tell me, what else can I do?"
What can I do to make her not hate him so much
Yu Luoyin finds himself very ridiculous, even more ridiculous than the harlequin in the movie-when you have it, you don't know how to cherish it, and what if you lose it even if you regret it
He himself felt that he was hypocritical, how could he expect Bai Xunyin to "pity" him.
The classroom was silent. Yu Luoyin didn't even think that Bai Xunyin could care about him, but unexpectedly, Bai Xunyin bent over and wrote a line on the paper after watching him for a few seconds: [你去看一Movies. ]
Movie
Yu Luoyin looked at her in surprise.
Bai Xunyin wrote the name of the movie: [She doesn't actually like you that much. ]
The girl's delicate and neat fonts resembled a sickle, making Yu Luoyin's bones glow unconsciously blue and white.
He knows what Bai Xunyin means—
The girl changed'he' to'she' to tell him that she didn't really like herself that much, so she didn't have to be narcissistic and sentimental. She continued to rack her brains to save something. If she missed it, she missed it.
But…
Yu Luoyin grinned reluctantly, and said, "You can watch another movie."
A daze flashed in Bai Xunyin's eyes.
So Yu Luoyin said the name of the movie he had made, as if vomiting a bloody heart: "He doesn't actually dislike you."
Bai Xunyin told herself that she didn't like him as much as he thought, regardless of whether it was true or not, Yu Luoyin admitted.
But he also had to tell Bai Xunyin that he was not all falsehood before... because Bai Xunyin would definitely misunderstand him.
"Yinyin." Yu Luoyin stared at the stunned girl, her voice was low, like a babbling begging: "Can I chase you once?"
In any case, he wanted to try again.