"A monster that feeds on memories. Oh my god, there is such a thing in the world of reversal..."
After listening to Tianyang's story, Xun sighed with emotion. The girl closed her eyes, sorted out her thoughts, and opened them again after a moment, smiling like a flower.
"I understand. Now, let's start the treatment."
"First, relax and imagine yourself lying on a boat..."
Xun's voice was gentle, like the wind, blowing slowly.
Tianyang lay in the reclining chair, closed his eyes, relaxed his body and mind, and gradually immersed himself in a peaceful atmosphere.
"Now, how do you feel?"
Xun began to provide psychological guidance.
Tian Yang breathed slowly and said softly, "I felt confused, after the 'Soul Devouring Bug'. Well, that's the name I gave to that monster. After the Soul Devouring Bug stuffed a lot of memories belonging to other people into my head."
“Although I know who I am, I feel dazed when I relax.”
“Like now.”
"I know I'm Tianyang, from the Lower City, and I became an Ascendant only last year."
"But I have a feeling that this period of life is just an artificially imposed 'experience'. It is just clearer than other 'memories', but in essence, they seem to be the same."
At this point, Tianyang clenched his fists unconsciously: "But I know this is wrong. I am who I am, and that's the problem."
"I know this is an illusion, but I can't convince myself..."
"It doesn't matter."
Xun held the boy's hand and said with a smile: "I can guarantee that you are Tianyang, you are yourself, not someone else."
"You are simply being forced into a state of cognitive confusion because you have been forced into too many memories belonging to other people. I admit that if this situation is not intervened and treated in time, you will be lost over time."
"But don't worry, I'm here. I can heal you, and I won't let anything happen to you."
Hearing Xun's affirmative tone, Tianyang relaxed unconsciously and a smile spread across the corners of his mouth.
"I know."
"I trust you."
"So I came to you."
Xun gently patted the back of his hand and said in a cheerful and sunny tone: "In fact, this kind of mild cognitive confusion is very easy to treat. You just need to keep giving yourself one stage goal after another."
"These phased goals must be something you can accomplish in the short term. For example, I want to eat fried fish today, and I want to read a book tomorrow."
“Every time you complete a goal, set yourself the next one. By repeating this, you will continue to complete these goals. In this process, you will constantly affirm yourself and strengthen your cognition.”
"After a while, your confused feeling of not being able to tell who you are will naturally disappear."
Tian Yang closed his eyes and whispered, "Really? It's that simple?"
Xun nodded and responded: "Your situation is like a turbulent river of memory, which suddenly swept over you when you were caught off guard."
"You are like a boat carried by a rapid current. You cannot stop and are just drifting with the current. If you don't find a way to stop on the river, you will be carried away and eventually drowned in the river."
"So at this time, you need one thing."
"anchor!"
Tianyang murmured, "Anchor?"
Xun nodded and said, "Yes, the anchor will keep the boat in place so that you don't
was carried away on a swift river.”
“Setting periodic goals for yourself is like casting an ‘anchor of self’ on the river of memory. As you accomplish one goal after another, your understanding of yourself will continue to sink, and your anchor will become heavier and heavier.”
"In the end, no matter how fast the river flows, it cannot carry away the boat on the river. And as you become more and more confident in yourself, those memories that were forced upon you will gradually fade away and eventually disappear, and will not affect you anymore."
Tianyang breathed a sigh of relief unconsciously, feeling his tense spirit relieved.
"I see."
"I can rest assured that."
He opened his eyes, looked at the girl who was so close to him, and said sincerely: "Thank you, Xun."
"You're welcome. However, in addition to what I just said, you still have to take your medicine on time."
Xun stood up and said, "I will prescribe some medicine to soothe your nerves and calm your mood. You must follow the doctor's orders and take the medicine on time."
"Also, you have to rest in the base vehicle for a week and come talk to me every day."
"After a week, if I think you are basically back to normal, you can return to the team. Do you understand?"
Tian Yang said seriously: "I'll do as you say, doctor."
Xun laughed, prescribed some medicine for him, and wrote down the dosage and usage before letting him go.
The girl looked at the other boy again.
"Now it's your turn."
Kun Lan pointed at Tian Yang who had just left and said, "I'm the same as Bai Mao, so there's no need to chat with you. I'll also set a phased goal for myself, so just prescribe some medicine for me."
Xun said seriously, "Do you think I'm an irresponsible doctor?"
"Everyone's psychological condition is different. Even if you have the same experience, the environment you grew up in, your temperament and other external factors can lead to different psychological disorders."
"If you still want to receive treatment, please cooperate with me."
Kun Lan was overwhelmed by the girl's aura and could only walk towards the armchair helplessly: "Okay, you are a doctor, I will listen to you."
After leaving the consultation room, Tianyang first reported Xun's diagnosis to Liang Sen and was given a week's vacation.
After putting down the communicator and standing at the fork in the corridor, Tianyang felt dazed again. It was as if he had been somewhere, in a hospital, standing at the fork in the corridor like he was now, feeling lost and not knowing where to go.
He even heard an illusory cry.
Tianyang quickly shook his head vigorously to make himself more awake, and then followed Xun's instructions and set a goal for himself.
Go to the restaurant and enjoy a great meal!
He immediately took action and went to the small restaurant in the multi-purpose compartment.
After ordering the food and sitting down, I suddenly saw someone sitting opposite me.
Tianyang was stunned for a moment. It turned out to be Zhang Dongcheng.
He smiled and said, "Long time no see. I heard you had a conflict with the church. Is everything okay?"
Tianyang shook his head: "Successfully solved."
"That's good."
Zhang Dongcheng suddenly slapped his head and said, "By the way, do you mind if I sit here?"
You've already sat down... Tianyang shrugged his shoulders to show that he didn't mind.
Soon the dishes they ordered arrived, Zhang Dongcheng picked up the chopsticks and started eating.
He took the dishes Tianyang ordered without hesitation and asked while eating, "I heard that you used to live in the downtown area?"
Tianyang hummed. No.
I was in a hurry to eat, so I drank a bowl of thick soup first. I felt warm inside my body and the coldness was dispelled.
"I go to the downtown area often. Where do you live? Maybe I've been there before."
Tianyang quietly glanced at the man opposite him, and seeing Zhang Dongcheng's unnatural expression, he couldn't help but make associations.
Is he trying to trick me? Why is he doing this
Is it because of Su Lie
He is with Yin Qi, so he should have no ill will towards Su Lie. Hmm, is he testing the relationship between me and Su Lie
"I live on Shadow Street, but my family lives downtown and has changed residences several times."
Tianyang took a mouthful of rice, picked up a vegetable and put it into his mouth.
Zhang Dongcheng put down his bowl and chopsticks, a little surprised: "Your family, um, who else is in your family?"
“My parents.”
Tian Yang stopped, his face a little sad: "But they are all gone. My father left when I was eight years old, and my mother left last year."
Zhang Dongcheng knew what "left" meant, and said quickly, "I'm sorry for reminding you of something unpleasant."
Tianyang shook his head and went back to eating: "It doesn't matter, as long as I'm alive and well, they will be happy."
"Um."
Zhang Dongcheng took a piece of steak from his plate and put it in Tianyang's bowl: "Eat more, eat more, your parents will be happy."
"good."
The meal is finished.
Zhang Dongcheng is gone.
Tianyang whispered "sorry" in his heart. He didn't want Su Lie's former friends to be in danger because of him.
Before that.
Liu Jinglin is dead.
Zuo Mohan also died.
He didn't want anything to happen to Zhang Dongcheng and Yin Qi again, so he deliberately misled the information.
Outside the restaurant, Zhang Dongcheng was walking, biting a toothpick, and then he stopped.
Next to the aisle, Yin Qi leaned against the wall and glanced at him calmly: "How is it?"
Zhang Dongcheng scratched his hair and said, "Maybe that kid has nothing to do with the captain."
"How to say?"
Zhang Dongcheng smiled bitterly: "He has parents. His father passed away when he was 8 years old, and his mother just passed away last year."
"so what?"
Yin Qi said unmoved: "At that time, we only knew that the captain fell in love with a civilian woman in Shangcheng District and had a child."
"But we never knew the identity of the captain's beloved wife. The captain wanted to give us a surprise, so this matter was kept secret from us."
"In the end, the surprise didn't come, and that incident happened..."
"In short, it's possible that the civilian woman was pregnant with the captain's child and fled to the lower city. She found another man. The so-called father of the child might just be his adoptive father."
Zhang Dongcheng looked at his companion and sighed: "After all these years, you still can't let go."
Yin Qi sneered: "Can you let it go?"
Zhang Dongcheng looked helpless: "I can't let go of mine, it's a little different from yours."
Yin Qi rolled her eyes at him and said, "In any case, don't jump to conclusions too soon. Keep observing, but be careful. Don't be so brazen in approaching that kid next time."
"Gu Yun is in the car. You don't want him to connect Tian Yang with the captain, do you?"
Zhang Dongcheng's expression immediately became ferocious. He just smiled and said nothing.