Xia Jiujiu spoke seriously, and Jiang Huaian continued: "I have been dissatisfied with him since I was a child. He said I could only take 90, so I took 100. He said I could take second, so I took first. He never praised me. , that is, my mother..."
"But my dad always scolds me. No matter how good I am in the exam, he always likes to say, is this your score? Look, so and so, others are much better than you. Don't be arrogant and complacent. There are many people better than you. went."
Xia Jiujiu burst out laughing, and Jiang Huaian was a little embarrassed: "Don't laugh."
"It's not easy for people like him. We are all very ordinary people, just like me. In fact, I thought Shen Sui was very powerful since I was a child. I just thought, one day it would be great if I could be like him. But I I still want to sleep in, I still get distracted in class, and I still want to go home and watch cartoons every day after school. My parents love me. They always tell me that I just want to live a happy life. Everyone seems to always think, Xia Jiujiu, fate. It’s so good, do you still need to work hard?”
"He always thinks that I will be very good and awesome in the future, but if I don't like it, I will make him mad to death. The more he wants me to be good, the worse I will be."
You see, even his grandfather, who always believed in him, encouraged him, and believed in him, gave up on him.
Xia Jiujiu's voice was very calm, but Jiang Huaian still heard some bitterness in it. She seemed to have hidden these words in her heart for many years, and when she suddenly said them out, it became doubly bitter, because wine that has been brewing for too many years is always too strong. It's hard to swallow, but it is indeed a good wine that will come back to you.
Jiang Huaian was a little curious. Xia Jiujiu thought for a while and came up with a person's name: "Shen Sui?"
"But, he has good grades," Xia Jiujiu said with a serious face: "Although he is scumbag and vulgar, he can indeed speak very good English, has very good grades, and is also good at basketball. Don't look down on him. Do you know why his English is so standard? He used to get up and read English at six o'clock every morning while I was still sleeping. This has always been the case since I met him, so even though his character is terrible. , but he works really hard.”
"Actually," she said slowly, "everyone is like this. Like me, I actually envy those who have good grades, good looks, smart and powerful people. I also really want to be like them... "
"I also know that I can tell myself now that I am quite smart, but I just don't work hard, but if it doesn't work if I try hard, I will be particularly desperate."
If you want the trust of others, you must earn it with your own efforts.
Xia Jiujiu didn't say anything. His hair slowly dried, but she still didn't stop moving.
"Um?"
"At that time, my grandpa always came to persuade me and told me, Huai'an, don't ruin yourself, don't abuse yourself. He wanted to take me home, but I wouldn't come back. I especially liked to see Jiang Cheng being pissed to death by me. With that face, the more he hits me, the less happy I am. If he wants me to study, I won’t. I don’t care about him.”
"Like who?"
After a long time, he finally spoke, his voice hoarse.
"Jiang Huaian," Xia Jiujiu said in a calm voice, "you are really childish."
"Yes," Jiang Huai'an smiled: "I also know that I am very naive. But I can't control myself. It's not that I don't want to learn well. I also think that I am wrong at first. I read books occasionally, but every time I read a book "He's going to scold me for pretending. Ha," Jiang Huaian's voice sounded mocking: "Then what else am I pretending to do?"
But I have long forgotten that when I was young, I once thought that I would become such a person.
Jack Ma is not from a prestigious school, and Ma Huateng is not from Tsinghua University. Success in this world never requires you to be a student from a top prestigious school.
"Yes," he said slowly, "my mother would be so sad if she saw it."
Jiang Huaian was a little strange. There was still moisture on his eyelashes, and he looked a little silly.
She's not particularly good at doing these things, and her movements are obviously clumsy. However, she was cautious, and in her behavior, it was not difficult to see her efforts, as if she wanted to give Jiang Huai the greatest tenderness at this moment.
"But these are not important," Xia Jiujiu's expression was full of seriousness: "You only have one life, and you only have one when you are sixteen years old. I want to fight regardless of everything at the bravest age in my life."
"I also know that I actually have very little self-control. I procrastinate and I am lazy. Maybe I won't be able to finish a paper, and my enthusiasm will be exhausted."
"Well," Xia Jiujiu softened her gaze, "I'm not going to laugh anymore, just tell me."
Xia Jiujiu listened to his words and wiped his hair carefully.
Until one day, I saw the person I thought I would become when I was young walking by with envious eyes. However, I only took a quick look and sighed, "How amazing."
Jiang Huai'an lowered his voice. After a long time, he finally said slowly: "As I grew up, I understood that in his heart he hoped that I would be good. He always thought that scolding me and hitting me would make me happy. Okay. But I don’t. I’m just not good. Doesn’t he always call me rubbish? Then I’ll treat him like rubbish.”
"Jiang Huaian, can you do me a favor?"
"You can just watch cartoons and sleep in. There's no need to work hard. Anyway," she lowered her voice: "That's all I want."
"Um."
All love will be squandered, and friendship cannot be trampled endlessly.
"Exactly," Jiang Huai'an laughed disdainfully: "What's so good about him? Trash."
"At least, I have paid. Even if it is only for one hour."
Jiang Huaian didn't speak. He turned his back to her and didn't even look at her.
"So after a long time, I felt that I was probably like this too."
When Jiang Huaian heard this, he didn't speak.
The standards are lowered again and again, and every time I make a choice, I can tell myself with peace of mind that it is actually not bad.
"Even if this struggle only lasted for one day or one hour, I was defeated by laziness. But I fought hard every day, every week, or even once a month. When I think about it in the future, I just won't feel that I have really been complete in my life." Completely and casually."
Jiang Huaian pursed his lips, feeling that every word Xia Jiujiu said seemed to fall on his heart.
Just go to any school, find a job, marry someone, and live your life casually.
"I was very strong when I was young." He spoke slowly, and Xia Jiujiu smiled: "I am still strong now."
He couldn't deny Shen Sui's efforts. Even if he was a scumbag, everyone's shining points were worthy of applause.
"At that time, I failed in the exam. I could hide in bed and cry all night, doing the questions while crying."
Jiang Huaian closed his eyes and trembled slightly. Xia Jiujiu looked at Jiang Huaian like this, put the towel aside, and raised his hand to put on his shoulder.
Jiang Huai looked at her quietly. Xia Jiujiu said slowly: "I know, my foundation is very poor. I am almost a sophomore in high school now. I may not have time."
As Jiang Huaian spoke, his voice began to become hoarse.
Xia Jiujiu took out the make-up lesson card given to her by Jiang Huaian from her pocket, smiled and said, "I want to change, can you come with me?"
It's good to get a college entrance examination, and it's not bad to get a second degree. Anyway, there are a lot of college students now. If they are not from those two top schools, who is different
"Jiang Huai'an," Xia Jiujiu sighed: "I have seen a lot of rebellious people. It is really rare to be rebellious like you. Your mother will be so sad if she sees you like this."
Jiang Huaian turned to look at her. The little girl's eyes were round and full of smiles.
That's it.