In the dark confinement room, Qin Xingyan, who looked haggard, hugged her knees and curled up on the slightly damp and moldy pile of straw.
The small room without windows is filled with the smell of moldy straw, and the hot temperature is even more unbearable.
Because there is nothing to refer to the time, except for the first two days when the phone was still on, Qin Xingyan has lost the concept of time now.
How long did I stay in this dark house, a week? ten days? Still more than a month
Not far from the straw pile was the iron door of the confinement room, and there was a bowl of untouched food in the small opening under the iron door.
The person who took care of her had changed her meals several times, but she hadn't touched her chopsticks for a long time.
Although she hasn't reached the level of bigu, but if she just doesn't eat for a few days, she can still bear it.
Qin Xingyan felt that her mind was filled with lead, and she was so drowsy that she couldn't get up.
The meridians of her whole body are also in a state of near paralysis at this moment, and she can't extract any mana.
She who was able to dominate the cultivation world in this era is no different from an ordinary mortal weak woman.
How long has it been since I didn't feel any powerlessness
Qin Xingyan leaned against the plaster wall, most of which had been peeled off, exposing the red brick wall inside, and stared at a light leak the size of an egg on the roof with some ecstasy. Although it would be troublesome to leak rain there on rainy days, on weekdays it would It is the only light source in the room.
"This feeling of powerlessness... is exactly the same as that time..."
She whispered softly, and her thoughts gradually sank into memories.
Qin Xingyan is an orphan.
As for whether her parents abandoned her, or whether her parents had already passed away, because the time was too long, even Qin Xingyan herself couldn't remember.
For as long as she can remember, she has lived in a hospital.
At that time, her body was very weak and she had to lie on the hospital bed all day long, and she could not take a walk for more than half an hour every day.
Whenever she sees other people's healthy children, she can't help thinking that the world is so unfair.
Why does everyone else have a healthy body, but she has to drag this sick body and lie on the hospital bed all the time
It may be because there is no relationship between parents, Qin Xingyan matured much earlier than children of the same age.
She is very clear that she is a useless person. Although she can't remember the name of the disease now, it is undoubtedly something similar to terminal illness for ordinary people. No matter how much money is invested, it cannot be cured. Like a bottomless pit, it keeps devouring a lot of money.
She was raised by a charity with a fairly good reputation, but the other party would not invest a lot of money for a terminally ill child—one million yuan could not cure Qin Xingyan, but it could save more unfortunate children.
The disease would eat away at her life little by little, causing her to die of organ failure at the age of six or seven.
If it's just like this, then this can only be regarded as the life of an unfortunate child at best, but Qin Xingyan has a decisive difference from others.
—She can see supernatural creatures that ordinary people cannot see with the naked eye.
In this big hospital where life and death are very common, this ability has brought her quite a lot of trouble.
"Doctor Chen, this little girl is talking nonsense again."
"what happened again?"
"She said there was a woman with hair hanging down to her feet at the door. I went to the surveillance station and adjusted the video, but there was no such person!"
"Children like to tell such lies. You can get her some sleeping pills so that she can fall asleep earlier."
This kind of dialogue has been staged at the door of Qin Xingyan's ward more than once. At first, Qin Xingyan didn't know why there was a woman in white clothes with shaggy hair hanging down to her feet and no pupils smiling strangely at the room, but no one else could see her and kept saying she was lying.
It wasn't until later that she vaguely understood that only she could see those things.
It's just that at this time, no matter if it's the nurse or the doctor, they already think that she is a weird, chattering brat, and they have already alienated Qin Xingyan subtly.
Why was I born? Is it really a good thing that I live in this world? Why am I the only one so unlucky
The lonely little girl would always sit on the hospital bed alone, staring at the bright light between the curtains in a daze.
Because her illness is somewhat sensitive to sunlight, the curtains are drawn all year round in the ward. Even if she wants to see the scenery outside, she can only take advantage of the rainy days or nights.
Until one night, when the little girl was half asleep and half awake, she heard someone knocking on the window.
"Who is it?" Because the drip was still on her hand, the girl couldn't run over and open the curtains. At the same time, she didn't intend to ring the bell to call the nurses... anyway, even if she called, they wouldn't believe her words.
Because her ward is on the fifth floor.
"Hello, my name is Qingmeng." A voice from a boy or a girl came from outside the window: "My friend and I came to play around here, but got separated accidentally."
"I don't know your friend." Qin Xingyan turned her head to look at the window curiously, but unfortunately the window was covered by heavy canvas curtains as usual.
"Well, I know." The voice outside sounded a little frustrated: "But they will definitely come to me."
"Then what are you doing here?" Qin Xingyan asked strangely.
"Sorry, actually I haven't eaten for several days." The voice of the person outside sounded a little embarrassed: "This world is too dangerous... There are iron sheets running around farting in all directions Boxes, I was almost hit by them several times, and there was no chance to forage."
After a pause, it continued: "I heard from some other guys that there is a little human girl who can see us, so I came here to try my luck."
Sure enough, it is also that kind of thing...
"What do you want to eat?" Although she was somewhat resistant to the supernatural creatures that made her life more difficult, the little girl hesitated for a moment, and asked tentatively: "Let me tell you first, cannibalism is absolutely not allowed."
"Don't worry, I'm not some monster that eats people. I eat fruits or nuts. If it's not enough, rice and the like will do."
The other party answered readily.
After a long illness, Qin Xingyan looked up at her IV bottle, and found that there was not much left in it, so she pulled out the needle by herself, then rummaged in the drawer of the bedside table, and took out a small packet from it. sunflower seeds.
It was the last time the charity sent someone to visit her (and make a promotional video for the agency itself), but not only did the person not eat it, but he forgot it here.
The little girl herself was not interested in melon seeds, she threw them in the drawer and forgot about them, until today she brought them back to the sun...