She didn't feel ashamed at all.
Feng Jiuge only thinks that maybe she has been with Gu Beiyan for a long time on weekdays, and she has some Gu Beiyan habits with her, and once these habits are formed, they will never be erased.
As soon as Feng Jiuge lifted his eyes, he could see the man's face that couldn't be more beautiful, and the white sandalwood scent that smelled good on his body, all the time, tempting her to fall.
"Wait—" Just when Gu Beiyan leaned down and was about to kiss the woman's red lips, Feng Jiuge said at an untimely moment.
Although she knew that it was a disappointment to speak now, it was supposed to be a scene that couldn't be more confusing, but she was completely broken by her.
But, what she wants to do more than these is...
Feng Jiuge no longer has the slightest words, but her pure hands touched the man's unwieldy body, her fingertips were cold, and the man's body was obviously startled when she touched it, but it was not because of being cold, but astonished. .
Feng Jiuge's hand moved up slowly along the direction of the scar.
There are countless large and small scars on Gu Beiyan's body, but the deepest one is extremely hideous.
He is King Tan. He should have been the one who cherishes his body the most and his appearance, but Gu Beiyan doesn't seem to be so entangled this time. The scar is extremely long and terrifying.
It's hard to imagine how this scar appeared on Gu Beiyan, and how painful he would feel.
Even if Feng Jiuge recalled the past, she had almost forgotten about it after a year, and then when she remembered and recalled the things that could be called the past, it felt like a lifetime. a feeling of.
Perhaps Gu Beiyan never cared about whether she had forgotten those things, but in Feng Jiuge's heart, forgetting meant betrayal.
She didn't participate in Gu Beiyan's past, and disappeared for nearly a year. Feng Jiuge didn't know how Gu Beiyan experienced it during this year, but what she knew was that it was definitely not an excellent experience.
Otherwise, he wouldn't be so bruised and bruised like this, and he would only feel distressed when he looked at it.
Gu Beiyan noticed the woman's hand and slowly stroked his upper body. Although it was a bit cool when the skin was exposed, he liked the touch of Feng Jiuge more than this.
It's a pity that the scars on his body are hideous, but what he fears most is still scaring Feng Jiuge.
"Don't look at it." The man's hand covered it to stop Feng Jiuge's next move.
He was afraid that these scars would scare Feng Jiuge. Besides, this was not an experience worth talking about. Feng Jiuge still didn't know it.
But this time, Feng Jiuge didn't help Gu Beiyan's temperament.
The past he didn't want to talk about was what she wanted to know most this time.
The world only knows the scenery of Gu Beiyan, but how many people really understand Gu Beiyan's past.
The Gu family was massacred, Ning Guo was destroyed, and Luo Yuesheng stepped on the corpses of many people all the way up. People only knew that life was the priority, no one dared to speak up at that time, and even if only a few people happened, they all died Under Luoyuesheng's butcher knife.
It's not that they don't remember history, it's just that they want to save their lives more than in the world.
"It must be painful." Feng Jiuge murmured.
Needless to say, she knew it must be very painful. With so many scars and countless tortures, she thought she knew Gu Beiyan, but she knew nothing except Gu Beiyan's past with her.
The past that she didn't understand was the last thing Gu Beiyan wanted to say.
But what to do? She didn’t want to uncover Gu Beiyan’s scars, but she felt that she should know something about Gu Beiyan’s past, the past that she did not participate in, and the time he had carried it alone, she wanted to know, nothing happened. big and small.
Feng Jiuge said, the movement of his hand slowly stopped.
Her hand stopped on the longest and deepest scar, and she retracted her hand slightly for fear that her fingertips might hurt Gu Beiyan, lest she hurt him.
Feng Jiuge's tone inevitably brought sadness, but Gu Beiyan could hear this sadness clearly.
What he fears most is Feng Jiuge blaming herself, and he is also most afraid that she will feel owed to herself for it.
He is a man, and he deserves some injuries along the way. What's more, he is not a blessed person, and he has a thicker skin and can't feel any pain. It's just that Feng Jiuge, he was afraid that Feng Jiuge would blame herself and she was also afraid of her sadness.
It finally made her smile a little, he didn't want to give up all his previous work, and he didn't want this worry to be brought to her by himself.
"It doesn't hurt." Those things have passed, not to mention that he doesn't hurt, it really doesn't hurt.
As long as Feng Jiuge is by her side, as long as she is safe and sound, nothing matters. He could be wounded all over, or completely wounded, but Feng Jiuge could not be hurt by half.
The man downplayed a sentence, but concealed the scar and the things behind it. Does he still want to hide it like this? He thinks he is doing it perfectly
Feng Jiuge only felt that her heart hurts more and more, as if she had been screwed tightly. The pain made her want to curl up and warm herself as much as possible.
She didn't think that Gu Beiyan was pitiful, on the contrary, she felt so empathetic that she felt that he must have been tortured to where he is today.
Feng Jiuge did not answer, but his movements became more and more cautious.
She was afraid of hurting Gu Beiyan. Although these scars were scabs and even looked particularly hideous, she didn't think it was ugly at all. On the contrary, these were all witnesses of Gu Beiyan's journey along the way, witnessing his slow transformation and growth. .
Without getting Feng Jiuge's answer, Gu Beiyan visibly frowned.
This woman can't listen to what he said, it's still like this...
"Don't look." He didn't want Feng Jiuge to feel his eyes dirty.
These scars have been accumulated over the years, and the one that Feng Jiuge touched just now was nothing but a fall from the fight with Luoyuesheng. In the end, it would be because he was inferior to others, and it is not surprising that he was injured.
It's just that he doesn't want Feng Jiuge to know the past. As long as Feng Jiuge knows, he will always be with her, and it is enough that he will not leave.
In Feng Jiuge's eyes, Gu Beiyan's actions are more like trying to cover up.
That's how he is, to endure everything alone and take everything down, making people feel that he is invulnerable. But Feng Jiuge wanted to ask, is he really tired
Going all the way to the present, not only because of her, but also by thousands of people, didn't Gu Beiyan feel the slightest fatigue
He is not a man of God, so he will definitely feel tired. It's just that Gu Beiyan has always been getting used to it, even if he feels exhausted physically and mentally, he won't show it in the end.