I haven't seen Chang'an for six years. That place bears almost all my joys and sorrows, and everything about me is deeply branded with its shadow. People say it has been turned into ruins, so I have been wandering, wanting to see it, but afraid of seeing it no longer what it used to be, which will only increase my sadness.
So when Wei Tan asked me, I hesitated a bit. But when I think of Wei Tan leaving, I will stay in the Wei Mansion alone, what happened in the paddock today, and the pregnant Xu Ji, I am tired of everything. In contrast, although Wei Tan had a little trouble with me in the morning, staying by his side is much easier than dealing with those people.
"How long will my husband be going?" I asked.
"Two days." Wei Tan said.
I nodded: "The concubine will go with my husband."
Behind them, Zhou Shi and Mao Shi smiled softly. I glanced at them angrily and got out of the car.
I spent the past two days resting in the wild, and I have some daily necessities in the car. Wei Tan wanted to go on his way, but he didn't go back home. After stuffing me and my belongings into a smaller carriage, he set off immediately.
Yongzhou is not far from Chang'an. Because of the destruction of Chang'an, the emperor could not return to court.
He stayed in a small county town at night, the county magistrate and the county lieutenant heard that Wei Tan was coming, and planned to have a banquet, but Wei Tan said that he was tired from the journey and would have to get up early tomorrow, so he politely declined. There was nothing to do at night, Wei Tan and I lay on the couch at the same time, this was the first time in a few days.
I just washed my feet with hot water and it was warm. But the mat was not thick enough, and the board was a bit hard, so I tossed and turned.
"Cold?" Wei Tan asked.
"Not cold." I said.
Wei Tan didn't seem to hear it, and reached out to hug her.
"It's better to hold my wife and sleep comfortably." In the dark, he pressed against my neck, speaking with a smile, "Last night in the camp, I shared the bed with Zixian, and he snored, and almost kicked me into the bed."
I smiled and said, "Husband was busy yesterday?"
"Well," Wei Tan said, "Yong needs to be guarded, and even more so around the paddock. After a quick sleep in Xiliu Camp, we have to rush back to the paddock in the early morning."
Then I went to meet Empress Xu. I couldn't help but add something in my heart.
The two seemed quite tacit, and fell silent for a while.
"Does Madam's arm still hurt?" Wei Tan asked suddenly.
"It doesn't hurt." I said.
Wei Tan didn't answer. Not long after, I was suddenly pressed by his hand on my arm.
"Ah..." I cried out in pain.
"Apply medicine." Wei Tan sounded stern, got up and lit the lamp.
When the light came back on, I squinted my eyes and looked back, only to see him get off the couch and fetch the small porcelain vase I had seen in the morning.
"Shall I take it off for you?" When he came back, he raised his eyebrows when he saw that I was not moving in the quilt.
I had to roll up my sleeves and stretch out my arms. The cold air touched the skin, causing a shiver.
Wei Tan put on his coat, sat under the quilt, poured the medicine into the palm of his hand, rubbed it, and put it on my arm. The smell is very strong, it seems to be the medicinal wine I rubbed for him last time.
"It's okay if the bruise is so deep." Wei Tan glanced at me.
"My concubine thinks it will be better soon." I said shyly.
"A child's opinion." Wei Tan said, "How do you know it will heal? Small injuries and pains, you don't care about them. When you encounter new injuries, they will accumulate, and it will become a disease for a long time. It is you who suffer."
She said this quite like a nursing mother, holding a medicine bottle and chattering as if she had become a Bian Que.
I responded perfunctorily, "Understood."
Wei Tan looked at me and continued rubbing the medicine.
His hands were so strong that I frowned in pain. Wei Tan was merciless, saying that if he wanted to recover quickly, he should not be afraid of pain. It took a moment before he finally gave up and put away the medicine bottle.
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My arm was hot, and I thought the injury might be worse.
"Go to sleep." Wei Tan took off his coat and blew on the lamp.
He got under the covers again, hugged me, and stretched his feet under and over again. He just landed on the ground, and it was a bit icy, so I quickly avoided it. Wei Tan didn't let go, not only sticking to me, but also sandwiching my feet in the middle.
I:"… "
"Drug fee." Wei Tan whispered behind me, feeling at ease.
When I was young, I often went outing with my family in the countryside, and I am no stranger to the scenery in the countryside of Chang'an. But in winter, the fields and villages are covered with heavy snow, and nothing can be recognized in the vast expanse of whiteness.
My mother once pointed to the double towers standing tall in front of the city gate and asked me what they looked like.
I looked at the huge figure, thought for a while, and said it looked like a big mushroom.
My mother smiled and said, in the future, if you can't find your way home, you will know that Chang'an is here when you see these two big mushrooms...
The words spoken many years ago are still clear, but when I go back to the city gate, the majestic double towers have changed beyond recognition. Under the leaden clouds, there were only two half-destroyed high platforms, and the tops were covered with heavy snow, like dead trees that had lost their branches and leaves.
I looked at them, put down the car curtain silently, and didn't look out again. Cars and horses stop and go, and I can tell when I pass through the doorway and when I walk onto the street. From time to time there are voices of passers-by outside, it is a local accent that I have not heard for many years.
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After getting out of the car, I looked around. The streets are flat and wide, the roofs of the houses are covered with snow, and the sparrows are chirping and flying over the bare branches. I recognized it, this is Chengnan. I am not familiar with this place, but I still recognize it because I saw the roof of Huguo Temple.
There are hundreds of thousands of households in Chang'an, and the people are divided into nine classes. Over time, they live in clusters. It is very simple to know the origin of a person, just ask where his family is. Those who answered the north of the city were either royal relatives or high-ranking officials; those who answered the south of the city were from middle and lower families; those who answered the east and west of the city were ordinary people. And if you can't answer Chang'an, then it's the same everywhere, they are all country people.
My home is in the north of the city, and the people around me, including Pei Qian and Ruochan, are also there. Chang'an is too big, and I looked to the north, but I couldn't see anything except the snow-white roofs.
"It's almost dusk today, if madam wants to see it, I'll go with you tomorrow."
I turned around, and Wei Tan came over at some point. It was very cold, but he still didn't like to ride a car. His cheeks and the tip of his nose were red because of the wind blowing all the way.
"Yeah." I smiled and entered the house with him.
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However, when I saw a pair of leather armor in the corner, I paid attention to it for a while.
It was Habayashi's leather armor. Back then when the late emperor was so talented and set up the juvenile feather forest, Terry made leather armor for each of them. The leather armor of Juvenile Habayashi is more refined than that of ordinary Habayashi. The edges of the shoulder armor and breastplate are inlaid with gold and silver, and the copper buckle on the leather belt is made to look like a cirrus beast. The young Habayashi are fully armored and running in the forbidden palace, with high spirits, which can often make people's eyes shine.
At that time, I was often attracted by this beautiful armor and looked around secretly when I entered the palace, but maybe there were too many people, so I had no impression of Wei Tan.
"Does it look good?" Wei Tan asked as he watched me wait and see.
"It's beautiful." I said, "Your husband doesn't live in Chang'an, why do you keep it here?"
"I can't wear it anymore." Wei Tan walked over and touched the feathers on the helmet, "And it's so well done, I'm afraid people won't know I'm Habayashiro if I wear it out?"
I couldn't help smiling, and looked at the leather armor: "If you put it out like this, won't your husband be afraid of moths and mildew?"
"The armor loses its murderous aura when it is put into the closet, and I have family members to take care of it for me." Wei Tan said, after finishing speaking, he suddenly looked at me, "Did Madam see me at that time?"
I am embarrassed, a little embarrassed: "No."
"I have seen Madam." Wei Tan smiled.
This is not surprising, I also had days of arrogance. With the backing of the queen mother, I can snatch pastries from the prince, not to mention the frequent bans in and out of the palace.
"Really?" I also laughed, and I should be humble when I should be humble, "Did the husband know about the concubine when she entered the palace?"
"No." Wei Tan said, "Earlier."
I was surprised: "Earlier?"
Wei Tan didn't answer, and stood in front of me and looked at me. The sky light reflected from the half-closed door, his eyelashes were lowered, and the corners of his lips were slightly curved. After a while, he hooked his finger on my chin: "I'll talk about it later, go eat first." After saying that, he put his arm around my shoulder and walked outside.
The family members were still hanging lanterns on the porch, and when they saw us coming out, they all saluted.
I saw their peeping looks, and I felt a little uncomfortable. But Wei Tan couldn't move his arms, and he walked so fast that I was being led by him, so I had to struggle to keep up.
earlier? I was still thinking about what he said just now, and after a while, I understood. At that time Wei Tan knew Pei Qian, of course he knew me from Pei Qian.
It gets dark very early in winter, and after dinner, it is already dark.
Wei Tan and I are the only owners of the house, and we don't need to serve our aunt, we can already prepare to wash and rest when we get back to the house. After two days of running on the road, I was already very tired, but Wei Tan was full of energy. He sat on the couch and asked for tea, but before the tea was ready, his paw stretched out.
He hugged me on his lap, bit my earlobe first, and after a while, kissed him on his lips.
I haven't been tender for many days, I am a little uncomfortable, and soon I was entangled by him and I was slightly out of breath. Hearing the sound of "cuckoo" on the tea stove, I hurriedly said, "Didn't my husband want to drink tea..."
Wei Tan acted as if he had never heard of it, but his lips and tongue lingered even deeper. It took a long time before he let me go, rubbed the bridge of his nose against my cheek, and said in a low and intoxicated voice, "Madam is more fragrant than tea..." After finishing speaking, he buried his head in gnawing on my neck again.
I:"… "
Just when I thought he would skip washing and lie down directly on the couch, the voices of family members came from outside, saying that there was a visitor.
When Wei Tan raised his head, he was a little annoyed.
He responded, let go of his hand, smiled helplessly at me, and touched my face regretfully: "My husband has a visitor tonight, Madam, don't worry, we will continue later."
Of course I will not wait foolishly while making tea. After Wei Tan left, I asked my family to turn off the tea stove, and went to wash and change by myself.
But when I finished packing, seeing the night getting darker, Wei Tan hadn't come back yet. I thought about it, put on my coat and went to the front hall to watch.
Hiding behind the curtain, I saw a few people sitting in the hall, and listening to those words, they were all officials stationed in Chang'an. I stood there for a while, feeling that they were going to talk for a while, and was about to turn around when I heard Wei Tan talking about wound medicine, so I couldn't help but stop.
I only heard the first person say: "...to the eldest son, a certain person once sent people to visit the medicine market and the countryside medicine people. After years of wars, it is hard to find the usual herbs to stop bleeding and treat wounds. Now it is also cold and snowy, and the vegetation is dead. Covered under the snow, it is difficult to produce even in the wilderness. If you want to find medicine, you have to wait until the warmer spring, when the ice and snow melt and the vegetation grows, maybe you can harvest some."
Wei Tan pondered for a moment, and said: "All the heroes in the world are separated. Although the Son of Heaven has ruled the north, there are still worries in the south. When the war will come, we don't know. Please pay more attention to such urgent things."
Everyone is unique.
I listened to them talking about other things, gathered up their coats, and went back to the house quietly.
Wei Tan stayed in the hall for a long time. When he came back, I had already fallen asleep and only heard the sound of him changing clothes. After some time, the lights went out, and there was a warm chest behind me.
"I'm back..." I asked in a daze.
"Yeah." Wei Tan whispered in my ear, with a soft voice, "Go to sleep."
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The next day, I was woken up by the chirping of birds outside the window, and Wei Tan was no longer by my side. When I got up and asked my family, they said that Wei Tan had left the house half an hour ago and said he would return in the afternoon.
I agreed and looked at the sky, feeling a little hesitant.
Wei Tan said yesterday that he would accompany me to the north of the city. To be honest, I really want to go when I come back for the first time after being away for many years, but I don't want to go with him. There is my home, it belongs to me and my parents and brother. For a long time, I didn't dare to touch it, and I didn't want others to touch it. Even if I was so sad that I wanted to die, I just wanted to cry for myself.
I can probably imagine what it looks like there. Ruochan once told me that when she left Chang'an, the homes of the rich and powerful families in the northern city were looted, robbed or burned, and none of them survived. She didn't say what Fu's house is like, but I can guess it without her telling.
When I drove towards the north of the city in a car, there were pedestrians passing by along the way, and several markets could be found in the same way as they were back then. However, the beautiful high-rise buildings, the ubiquitous cars and BMWs and the pretty dandies on the streets in the past have disappeared, leaving only the commoners hurrying on the road and the beggars huddled in the corner.
Passing by the gate of the imperial city, the gate is closed tightly, and there are no towers on the thick city wall. Heavy snow has accumulated on the top, but you can still see the scorched black color of the once magnificent veranda burnt and collapsed. And when Fu's house appeared on the other side of the ruins, my heart seemed to be tightly clenched by something.
The wall still stands, but the door is gone. Thick basil grew on the top of the wall, and when pressed under the snow, black and hard stems emerged.
I got out of the car, walked through a field of broken bricks covered with ice and snow, and stepped into my home.
If the outer wall still makes me feel a little familiar, when I walk into the atrium, there is a complete stranger in front of me. The main hall built by the grandfather himself, the Library Pavilion that the father was proud of, the west building that the mother loved most, the waterside pavilion where the elder brothers drank...all of them no longer exist.
Only a few sections of remnant walls are still standing in the white snow, the color can no longer be discerned on the surface, and the thick black smoke shows what happened here.
I thought I was going to cry a lot, but when I saw this, I couldn't cry. There were only tears, with warmth when they gushed out of the eye sockets, and slowly turned into embarrassing coldness.
It's good to burn out. I took a deep breath and wiped away my tears. With nothing left, no one will bother them anymore.