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Regarding this night, what Chen Pingping in the wheelchair said to His Majesty the Emperor sitting on the Dragon Throne remains a mystery until many years later, because no one is qualified to listen, even Eunuch Yao, who is close to His Majesty. .
This conversation was actually similar to the two conversations outside the imperial study within a year. The words came from the lips of the emperor and entered the ears of the minister, and did not pass on to a third person. However, the current capital already knows that what happened in the past few months was all secretly arranged by His Majesty and Dean Chen. The dean's teaming up is really too powerful, and they were able to keep the whole capital in the dark for half a month.
Until now, people did not realize that many years ago, Dean Chen accompanied His Majesty in his great cause of unifying the world. The old man in a wheelchair had saved His Majesty several times, and His Majesty had given him the greatest trust and respect. Rong Guang, people of the older generation have never doubted Chen Pingping's loyalty to His Majesty. This is a fact that history has proven long ago, but it has only been manifested again now.
Regarding this conversation, everyone in Kyoto had much speculation in their hearts.
That night, when Fan Xian left the palace and rushed to the mansion, he didn't pay attention to the conversation in the imperial study, nor did he think that the conversation might be related to him, because he guessed that His Majesty was just a little lonely, while Chen Pingping It is to play the role of a loyal subject and temporary friend.
The fact is not far from his guess, because from a certain point of view, Fan Xian and his emperor Lao Tzu are really similar. If Emperor Qing is the best actor in the world and has kept it from the world for twenty years, then Fan Xian Xian is naturally the second best actor, he hides his thoughts in his heart and hides it from Emperor Qing.
This was an unprecedented struggle of acting skills, and it was a battle of hearts. Fan Xian lifted the curtains of the carriage and stared blankly at the quiet and restless night streets of Kyoto outside. This fight is another one I won, but... why do I have to fight? How will we fight in the future
The worry and anxiety on his face are not acted out, but really come from the depths of his heart, especially the extremely complicated joy, worry, and bewilderment between his eyebrows and eyes, which fully expresses his mood at this time.
Passing by the wheelchair, Fan Xian bowed his head and saluted. Then he saw the gentleness and congratulations in Chen Pingping's old eyes. He immediately understood that Sisi was indeed taken away by the dean. Since he Having already returned to Beijing, Sisi has naturally returned to the mansion, but she doesn't know if she has given birth, whether it is a boy or a girl.
As soon as he thought of this, he didn't have the mood to think about the conversation in the imperial study, his whole heart had already returned to Fan Mansion, urging his subordinates to whip the horses pulling the cart. It's just that too many people have died in the past few days, so even though he knew that he might have become a father, Fan Xian was only slightly satisfied, but not too ecstatic. I really don't know how to deal with it.
The carriage did not stop at the main entrance of Fan Mansion, but went directly through the side alley, and stopped at the corner door specially reserved in the back garden. Before the carriage came to a complete stop, Fan Xian had already jumped out of the carriage. He smiled and glanced at the daughter-in-law of Master Fuji who welcomed him at the door, and then walked to his house. After taking a few steps, his smile faded away. up.
It's not that he deliberately made a fuss, it's really that in today's bloody and parting capital, the arrival of a new life really can't wash away the bloody smell brought by so many deaths.
Walking through the flower hall to the east wing, it is no surprise to find that the light is still slightly on, and his father and Liu Shi are waiting for him in the room. The dim light shines on Fan Shangshu's face, revealing his wrinkles, And the joy in the wrinkles. At this moment, Fan Shangshu was looking at a baby in Liu's arms, although he managed to maintain the appearance of Master Zhuang Su, he couldn't hide the joy in his eyes.
Fan Xian came in, and first saluted his father and Mrs. Liu, but he didn't look at the baby in Mrs. Liu's arms. He turned his eyes directly to the bedside, and saw Wan'er sitting beside the bed, holding her hand. Sisi's hands were whispering something.
Wan'er's eyes are red and swollen, like pink peaches, she looks really pitiful, her face has lost a lot of weight, she is haggard, but she forced a smile, chatting small gossips with Sisi who was lying on the bed. After being slightly startled, Fan Xian walked over, not caring that the two elders were in the room, and sat directly beside Wan'er, smiling at Sisi who was leaning on the pillow, and at the big girl from back then. , Said: "I'm a mother, why don't you sleep at such a night?"
Although Sisi was a little frightened during her labor this month, she was protected by the Overwatch Council, and was taken by Mr. Chen to travel around the wilderness of the capital. Looking up, the spirit is also better than that of ordinary pregnant women. In addition, this girl grew up with Fan Xian since she was a child, and she was also cultivated by life to be a bit free and easy, with a broad mind, and she did not emaciate due to the birth of the fetus in her arms. A lovely young woman.
"Master, I sleep during the day, so I can't sleep." Sisi is still used to calling him "Master", her eyes are full of joy and the pride of being a new mother, but she is restrained in her words. Not a heartless fool, knowing that too many things have happened in Beijing, the young mistress is deeply saddened, so she is unwilling to behave too much at this moment.
Just watching the young master come to the bed without looking at the baby in Liu's arms after entering the house, Sisi also began to ponder in her heart, could it be possible that she gave birth to a daughter and made the young master unhappy? The eyes dimmed three points.
Even though Fan Xian had a delicate heart, he still couldn't figure out the little thoughts of the girls in the backyard of the house. Looking at the girl's expression, he thought she was sad because she was unaccompanied during childbirth, so he smiled and was about to speak A few words of relief.
He didn't understand, but Lin Wan'er would not fail to understand, and neither would Liu Shi. Seeing Liu Shi walking towards the bed with the child in her arms, Wan'er smiled slightly, winked at Fan Xian, and said softly, "Go and see the little girl."
Fan Xian was taken aback, then looked back at Mrs. Liu looking at him with a slightly reproachful expression, and realized where the problem was. With a wry smile, he took the baby from Mrs. Liu's arms, held it carefully in his hand, and looked at it intently. , found the baby in swaddling...
This little baby girl is really not good-looking, not to mention her own appearance, even Sisi's big eyes are much less affectionate. Looking at it, he couldn't help laughing, feeling that he was really a little confused —A newborn baby is naturally not good-looking, as long as it is healthy.
The three women of Mrs. Liu were taken aback when they saw him take the baby carelessly, but they didn't react. They looked at him nervously, for fear that he would not hold the baby. It was expected that Fan Xian's left elbow was slightly bent, he rested his neck on his arm, and patted his right hand lightly.
Seeing this scene, everyone breathed a sigh of relief, including Fan Shangshu, looked at Fan Xian with surprise eyes, and Wan'er, who had been depressed for a long time, couldn't help but secretly smiled. At this time, Fan Xian only cared about his daughter, how could he care about the eyes of others, and never thought that in this world, there are very few men in this world who are willing to hold children, especially those from big families like theirs, and such a man like him Familiarity, like an old nanny, made everyone stare even more.
Fan Xian hugged the child, and said gently to Sisi: "Recently, the current situation is not stable, and you have suffered... But you know me. It's not that you don't like my daughter when you go into the house and don't look at the child. It's just that in my eyes, little Children are always less important than adults, and your safety is the most important thing."
With Liu's and Wan'er's secret reprimands, Fan Xian naturally knew why Sisi's previous depression was born, and explained a few words with a smile, but he didn't take it seriously, but he didn't expect these words to fall into the hearts of Wan'er and Sisi , have different feelings.
Sisi's heart felt sweet for a while, and then she thought about the nonsense that when she was a child, the young master kept muttering that giving birth to a child is the most difficult for a mother, and that giving birth to boys and girls is the same. Although she was sweet in her heart, she didn't dare to act too much in front of Wan'er, because she knew that the young mistress had always been extremely lenient to her, and that she had been determined to have a child in the past two years, but she had been...
Thinking about it this way, Sisi missed Fan Xian's last two sentences, and Xiaoyi glanced at the young mistress who was still bowing her head and smiling gently, feeling sad for some reason, feeling sad for the young mistress.
The women in this room have complicated thoughts, but Fan Xian hugged his daughter and watched carefully. The more he watched, the happier he became. When he entered the room earlier, he only cared about Sisi's body and Wan'er's emotions. Taking this daughter seriously, holding her until now, feeling the softness and tenderness of this small body through the cloth, looking at the wrinkles on her forehead, watching her pursing her lips from time to time, the tip of her heart is getting softer and softer stand up.
This is the biggest difference between a man and a woman. A woman gave birth to her child after ten months of pregnancy. She has already cultivated a relationship for ten months. In addition to the hard work and pain, she naturally has a deep and unspeakable interest in the child. warmth. But a man's feelings need to be watched, held, and experienced, so that they will become stronger and stronger.
Especially for the most busy people in the world like Fan Xian, Sisi was basically not around when she was pregnant, so naturally she didn't have a strong feeling for this child. Just hugging and hugging, this feeling came, Fan Xian hugged more and more carefully, staring blankly at the little girl in his arms, thinking, could this be his daughter? It will definitely be very beautiful in the future, it will be very pungent in the future, and in the future... these small eyes that are tightly closed will grow bigger and more beautiful.
After the apex of his heart softened, it gradually became sour and sweet. For some reason, Fan Xian felt his nose was a little stuffy, but this emotion was too complicated, and even he himself didn't know what words to use to describe it. He only knew one thing, how much he was. The two lives, which were disastrous but very lucky, finally got a continuation in this world.
At this moment, he thought in his heart that even if he died on the spot, there was always something left in this world. It is different from looking at the rows of books at Yinsun's house in Kyoto Prefecture. This feeling is stronger, more vivid, and even more inexplicably touching.
After hugging for a while, Wan'er, who was watching from the side, took the child over under Liu's guidance and Fan Xian's demonstration, and held her in her arms distressedly.
According to the rules of this world, this is also her child, and this kind of heartache is real. Fan Xian smiled and looked at the pity and curiosity in his wife's eyes. Then he realized that his wife was not too old. Under his care, she was actually not much different from a young girl. But seeing Wan'er holding the child, it seemed that the grief in his heart was relieved a little, and he felt much better.
It was already late at night, and everyone was a little tired, but the first life of the third generation of the Fan family made everyone a little excited, and even Fan Shangshu stayed in this room without hesitation, watching happily This scene, refused to rest.
In the end, Mrs. Liu joked a few words, let the old mother and nurse who had been waiting outside come in, hugged the child and stood aside, and urged everyone to rest early.
When Fan Shangshu was leaving, he suddenly thought of something. He was going to ask Fan Xian to go to the study to ask about the situation in the palace today and His Majesty's mood. He immediately thought that this child has been exhausted these days, and finally there is a happy event. Why bother? , then did not speak.
Instead, when the two elders left, Fan Xian happily asked, "Father, when I was in Jiangnan, please name me. I don't know what name you gave this girl."
He was happy to ask, but Fan Shangshu glanced at Liu Shi with complicated eyes, and immediately said calmly: "Daughter's family, don't worry about choosing a name, just choose a nickname first."
"Fan Xiaohua." Fan Xian said with a smile, "I've already thought about my nickname."
As soon as these words came out, both Lin Wan'er and Sisi were a little dissatisfied, thinking to themselves why a family of their own had such a vulgar name, but Sisi dared not speak in front of everyone, but Wan'er noticed the look on her father-in-law's face, and felt in her heart I was startled and didn't say anything.
Fan Xian and Wan'er looked at each other, and then remembered something, and their faces became a little unhappy. After Fan Shangshu and Liu Shi went out, he couldn't help but shook his head, sighed, looked at the daughter in the arms of the old mother, and said, "Is it possible that this little girl's name has to be given by the palace?" ?”
When Sisi heard this, she was taken aback and thought to herself, what is this saying? Immediately thinking of another identity of the young master, he quickly pursed his lips, not daring to express any opinions.
Lin Wan'er looked at him and said softly: "I heard from the master that your characters... were also taken in the palace. I can't see more than the name. At the latest, the day after tomorrow, His Majesty will let you carry the child into the palace. Giving the name is a matter of course. I'm afraid the palace will send a group of old nuns and wet nurses for you to choose."
Fan Xian raised his eyebrows slightly, and said with a sneer, "The old miscellaneous things in the palace... come as you come, just keep them."
Now he speaks with confidence, even the Queen Mother dares to slap people, let alone those old fish-eyed people. It's just that as soon as these words came out, my own nanny who was holding the baby girl in the East Wing became frightened, and the nanny behind her even lowered her head, not daring to make a sound.
Fan Xian glanced at them, and said calmly: "It always takes hard work for you to take good care of the young lady on weekdays, but there is no need for the nanny. The young mistress will go and talk to the madam tomorrow."
Lin Wan'er glanced at him in bewilderment, wondering what Xianggong is doing? Why should the nanny be kicked out? Fan Xian sat back on the bed and asked Sisi with a smile, "Do you have milk?"
Sisi was slightly ashamed and nodded. Fan Xian smiled and said, "That's the end of it. The child has to be raised by himself. It's nothing to have a nanny to nurse the child."
Fan Xian thought to himself how do you people know the importance of breastfeeding? How much does bovine colostrum cost in the world? The doctor said about the psychological impact of breastfeeding by a mother on the baby... He knew that no one in this world could understand these things when he said them, so he made a very arbitrary decision without discussing it with the two women.
The nanny on the side lowered her head and didn't dare to say anything, secretly slandering what happened to the nanny? Your old Fan family can make a fortune, not because the ancestors in Danzhou nursed a few children of the royal family. However, the old mother of the family heard something else and looked at the young master dumbfounded, wondering if the young master was going to let his aunt to raise the young lady himself? This is breaking the rules, tomorrow I will always talk to the master and wife.
Fan Xian didn't know what the old woman was thinking, and he didn't care too much. After working hard in this world for twenty years, if others gossip about how to raise his daughter, he would have lived in vain. .
He sat next to Sisi and said a few more words, and found that the girl was sleepy, forced her eyes to speak, a little unbearable, Fan Xian said with a smile: "Hurry up and sleep, when you were in Danzhou in previous years, you were worse than me." lazy."
Seeing Sisi hesitate to speak, Fan Xian smiled and said, "I've been in the capital for a few years, I really confused you. I said when I was a child that boys and girls are the same. Although it is not a national policy, it is also a family rule."
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When they got back to the master bedroom, the maid who was rubbing her sleepy eyes brought hot water and was about to serve the two masters to bed. Fan Xian drove them out with a wave of his hand, helped Wan'er to sit by the bed, and seriously Looking into her eyes, he said: "I know the rules in the mansion, all children born to my aunt have to live with the mansion."
There were tears in Lin Wan'er's eyes, but they didn't flow down. In the past few days, she didn't know how much she had been hit, how much sadness she had in her heart, but she had nowhere to pour out. Sisi went home today, although she remembered The baby girl was Fan Xian's flesh and blood, and she was also happy in her heart, and she was slightly grateful for Sisi, but her emotions were extremely complicated after all.
In particular, Fan Xian faintly expressed the intention of not letting himself participate, and several mixed emotions made Wan'er unstoppably sad. She was of noble birth, with a bizarre life experience, and her nature was like ice and snow. Untapped intelligence, but she is a woman after all, and every woman always has a woman's delicate thoughts.
Fan Xian looked at her quietly, knowing that the death of the eldest princess, the death of the second prince, and the bloody royal family had made his wife feel overwhelmed, so he said in as soft a tone as possible: "Isn't it wrong? I just don't want those nannies Defiled our child... This child is always ours, but Sisi is her biological mother after all, so she can't just hug her here."
Lin Wan'er sighed, looked at the face of her husband in front of her knees, and said softly: "You don't have to be so careless in front of me, I know you are worried about me." She smiled somewhat reluctantly, "But sometimes It's really tasteful, like what you and Sisi say sometimes, I can't quite understand it, what kind of national policy and family rules are there."
Fan Xian smiled helplessly. After all, Sisi grew up with him, just like his younger sister who was educated by letters. Naturally, he had something to share with that life. He held his wife's hands and said softly: "In the future ... I'll tell you everything, only we know, other people want to know... Hey, why don't you tell him."
After a pause, he held his wife's hands tightly and said with a smile, "I'll tell you all about carriages, sedan chairs, cars and cannons."
Lin Wan'er was confused when she heard this, thinking that she knew about carriages and sedan chairs, but what were car cannons? But he also knew that he was coaxing himself carelessly, so he forcibly hid the sadness on his face, lowered his head slightly and said: "I really... want a child. Seeing how my brothers are going to end up now, I don't know what will happen in the future. If you have a child, you will look forward to it."
These words were said indifferently, but it made Fan Xian's heart sour, especially when he saw Wan'er's thin cheeks at this time, how much thinner she was than two years ago. It's like losing your body just after giving birth, which makes me even more sympathetic. He knew what his wife was thinking, and the research and development of the medicine should be almost done, so he said with 80% confidence in his heart, "Of course the child is going to be born, let's give Xiao Hua'er a younger brother. It's lively."
Wan'er only thought he was coaxing herself, smiled and said nothing, but Fan Xian looked at him wickedly and said, "However, there seem to be many steps to be taken to have a baby. Speaking of which, we are already grown up." I haven't been intimate for half a year."
Lin Wan'er spat at him with a smile, and immediately thought that Xianggong was deliberately amusing herself, and thought of his benefits and care, which made her even more sad. Fan Xian was just joking, so many people died in the palace, how could the couple be in the mood to do this, he stood up, brought the pot of slightly warmed water over, put it in front of the bed, and directly poured Wan My son took off her shoes and socks, which surprised her.
"Wash your feet. You must have suffered a lot running around in and out of the palace these days." Fan Xian lowered his head, put his wife's bare feet into the basin, picked up hot water, and rubbed them gently. .
Lin Wan'er looked at his hair, felt the warmth from his feet, her nose was sore, and she cried silently. Fan Xian lowered his head, and knew she was crying even without looking up. He knew his wife's suffering, but he couldn't find any words to comfort her. He could only wash her feet silently, and couldn't help but feel countless sorrows in his heart.
The sound of the water gradually subsided, and Fan Xian, who had been exhausted for countless days, held Lin Waner's bare feet with both hands, leaned on her knees, and fell asleep like this, sleeping very peacefully, like a child. Lin Wan'er gently stroked his face with pity, the tears at the corners of her eyes gradually dried, and said softly, "It won't be hard if I have you." )