Regarding this night, what Chen Pingping in the wheelchair said to His Majesty the Emperor sitting on the dragon chair remained a mystery until many years later, because no one was qualified to listen, even Eunuch Yao, who was close to His Majesty. .
This conversation was actually similar to the two conversations outside the imperial study within a year. The words came from the lips of the emperor and entered the ears of the minister, and did not pass on to a third person. However, the current capital already knows that what happened in the past few months was all secretly arranged by His Majesty and Dean Chen. The dean's teaming up is really too powerful, and they were able to keep the whole capital in the dark for half a month.
Until now, people did not realize that many years ago, Dean Chen accompanied His Majesty in his great cause of unifying the world. The old man in a wheelchair had saved His Majesty several times, and His Majesty had given him the greatest trust and respect. Rong Guang, people of the older generation have never doubted Chen Pingping's loyalty to His Majesty. This is a fact that history has proven long ago, but it has only been manifested again now.
Regarding this conversation, there are many speculations in the hearts of everyone in Kyoto.
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That night, when Fan Xian left the palace and rushed to the mansion, he didn't pay attention to the conversation in the imperial study, nor did he think that the conversation might be related to him, because he guessed that His Majesty was just a little lonely, while Chen Pingping It is to play the role of a loyal subject and temporary friend.
The truth is not far from his guess. Because from a certain point of view, Fan Xian and his emperor Lao Tzu were too similar. If Emperor Qing is the best actor in the world and has kept it a secret from the world for twenty years, then Fan Xian is naturally the second best actor, hiding his thoughts in his heart and hiding it from Emperor Qing.
This is an unprecedented struggle of acting skills, and the fight is about the heart. Fan Xian lifted the curtains of the carriage and stared blankly at the quiet and restless night streets of Kyoto outside. He thought slightly, now that he has gained His Majesty's absolute trust, this fight is another victory for him, but...why fight? How will we fight in the future
The worry and anxiety on his face are not acted out, but really come from the depths of his heart, especially the extremely complicated joy, worry, and bewilderment between his eyebrows and eyes, which fully expresses his mood at this time.
Passing by the wheelchair, Fan Xian bowed his head and saluted, and saw the tenderness and congratulations in Chen Pingping's old eyes. He immediately understood that Sisi was indeed picked up by the principal. Since he had returned to the capital, Sisi had naturally returned to the mansion, but he didn't know if she had given birth, whether it was a boy or a girl.
As soon as he thought of this, he didn't have the mood to think about the conversation in the imperial study, his whole heart had already returned to Fan Mansion, urging his subordinates to whip the horses pulling the cart. It's just that too many people died in the past few days, so even though he knew that he might have become a father, Fan Xian was only slightly satisfied, but not too much ecstasy. Wan'er was in the center of the mansion at this time when she was saddened by the death of her biological mother, and she really didn't know how to deal with it after returning to the mansion.
The carriage did not stop at the main entrance of Fan Mansion, but went directly through the side alley, and stopped at the corner door specially reserved in the back garden. Before the carriage came to a complete stop, Fan Xian jumped out of the carriage, smiled and glanced at the daughter-in-law of Master Teng who greeted him at the door, and then walked to his house. After walking a few steps, the smile faded away.
It's not that he deliberately pretended, it's really that in today's capital where there is a lot of blood and rain and parting, the arrival of a new life really can't wash away the bloody smell brought by so many deaths.
Walking through the flower hall to the east wing, it was not surprising to find that the light was still slightly on, and his father and Liu Shi were waiting for him in the room. The dim light shone on Fan Shangshu's face, revealing his wrinkles and the joy in them. At this moment, Fan Shangshu was looking at a baby in Liu's arms, although he managed to maintain the appearance of Master Zhuang Su, he couldn't hide the joy in his eyes.
Fan Xian came in, and first saluted his father and Mrs. Liu, but he didn't look at the baby in Mrs. Liu's arms. He turned his eyes directly to the bedside, and saw Wan'er sitting beside the bed, holding her hand. Sisi's hands were whispering something.
Wan'er's eyes are red and swollen, like pink peaches, she looks really pitiful, her face has lost a lot of weight, she is haggard, but she forced a smile, chatting small gossips with Sisi who was lying on the bed. After being slightly startled, Fan Xian walked over, not caring that the two elders were in the room, and sat directly beside Wan'er, smiling at Sisi who was leaning on the pillow, and at the big girl from back then. , Said: "I'm a mother, why don't you sleep at such a night?"
Although Sisi was a little frightened during her labor this month, she was protected by the Overwatch Council, and was taken on a tour in the wilds of Kyoto by old cripple Chen. She had never been exposed to cold, but she exercised more than ordinary mothers, so she looked energetic It was also better than the average puerpera. In addition, this girl grew up with Fan Xian since she was a child, and she was also nurtured by life to be a little free and easy. Smear plump, more and more like a lovely young woman.
"Young master, I sleep during the day, how can I sleep." Sisi is still used to calling him young master, her eyes are full of joy and the pride of being a new mother, but she is restrained in her words. Although she has a cheerful temperament, she is not a heartless fool. Knowing that too many things have happened in Beijing, the young mistress is deeply saddened, so she is unwilling to behave too much at this moment.
Just watching the young master come to the bed without looking at the baby in Liu's arms after entering the house, Sisi also began to ponder in her heart, could it be possible that she gave birth to a daughter and made the young master unhappy? The eyes dimmed three points.
Even though Fan Xian had a delicate heart, he still couldn't figure out the little thoughts of the girls in the backyard of the house. Looking at the girl's expression, he thought that she was sad because she had no one to accompany her during childbirth, so she smiled and prepared to give birth. Say a few words of relief.
He didn't understand, but Lin Wan'er would not fail to understand, and neither would Liu Shi. Seeing Liu Shi walking towards the bed with the child in her arms, Wan'er smiled slightly, winked at Fan Xian, and said softly, "Go and see the little girl."
Fan Xian was startled, then looked back at Liu Shi looking at him with a slightly reproachful expression, and then realized what the problem was. With a wry smile, he took the baby from Liu's arms, carefully held it in his hand, looked closely, and found the baby in the swaddling...
This little baby girl is really not good-looking, not to mention her own appearance, even Sisi's big eyes are much less affectionate. Looking at it, he couldn't help laughing, feeling that he was a little confused - a newborn baby is naturally not good-looking, as long as it is healthy.
The three women of Mrs. Liu were taken aback when they saw him take the baby carelessly, but they didn't react. They looked at him nervously, afraid that he would not be able to hold the baby, and Mrs. Liu was even more ready to reach out to snatch it back. Unexpectedly, Fan Xian bent his left elbow slightly, supported his neck with his arm, and patted his right hand lightly, hugging him in a decent manner.
Seeing this scene, everyone breathed a sigh of relief, including Fan Shangshu, looked at Fan Xian with surprise eyes, and Wan'er, who had been depressed for a long time, couldn't help but secretly smiled. At this moment, Fan Xian only focused on looking at his daughter, how could he care about other people's eyes, and he never thought that in this world, there are very few men in this world who are willing to hold a child, especially a rich family like them, and they are so familiar with her. , who looks like an old nanny, is even more shocking to everyone.
Fan Xian hugged the child, and said gently to Sisi: "Recently, the current situation is not stable, and you have suffered... But you know me. It's not that you don't like my daughter when you go into the house and don't look at the child. It's just that in my eyes, little Children are always less important than adults, and your safety is the most important thing."
With Liu's and Wan'er's secret reprimands, Fan Xian naturally knew why Sisi's previous depression was born, and explained a few words with a smile, but he didn't take it seriously, but he didn't expect these words to fall into the hearts of Wan'er and Sisi , have different feelings.
Sisi felt sweet for a while, and then remembered that when she was a child, the young master kept muttering nonsense about giving birth to a mother who is the most difficult, and that boys and girls are the same. Although she was sweet in her heart, she didn't dare to behave too much in front of Wan'er, because she knew that the young mistress had always been extremely lenient to her, and that she had been determined to have a child in the past two years, but she had been...
Thinking about it this way, Sisi missed Fan Xian's last two sentences, and Xiaoyi glanced at the young mistress who was still bowing her head and smiling gently, feeling sad for some reason, feeling sad for the young mistress.
The girls here had complicated thoughts, but Fan Xian hugged his daughter and watched carefully. The more he looked at it, the happier he became. When I entered the room earlier, I only cared about Sisi's body and Wan'er's emotions, and didn't take this daughter seriously. Until now, I hugged her, felt the softness and tenderness of this small body through the cloth, and looked at her. The wrinkles on the daughter's forehead, watching the daughter purse her lips from time to time, the tip of her heart became softer and softer.
This is the biggest difference between a man and a woman. A woman gave birth to her child after ten months of pregnancy. She has already cultivated a relationship for ten months. In addition to the hard work and pain, she is naturally born with a strong and unspeakable interest in the child. The warmth of a man, but the feelings of a man need to be watched, held, and felt, so that it will become stronger and stronger.
Especially for a busy person like Fan Xian, Sisi was basically not around when she was pregnant, so naturally she didn't have a strong feeling for this child. Just hugging and hugging, this feeling came, Fan Xian hugged more and more carefully, staring blankly at the little girl in his arms, thinking, could this be his daughter? It will definitely be very beautiful in the future, it will be very pungent in the future, and in the future... these small eyes that are tightly closed will grow bigger and more beautiful.
After the apex of his heart softened, it gradually became sour and sweet. For some reason, Fan Xian felt his nose was a little stuffy, but this emotion was too complicated, and even he himself didn't know what words to use to describe it. He only knew one thing, how much he was. The two lives, which were disastrous but very lucky, finally got a continuation in this world.
At this moment, he thought in his heart that even if he died on the spot, there was always something left in this world. It is different from looking at the rows of books at Yinsun's house in Kyoto Prefecture. This feeling is stronger, more vivid, and even more inexplicably touching.
After hugging for a while, Wan'er, who was watching from the side, took the child over under Liu's guidance and Fan Xian's demonstration, and held her in her arms distressedly.
According to the rules of this world, this is also her child, and this kind of heartache is real. Fan Xian smiled and looked at the pity and curiosity in his wife's eyes. Then he realized that his wife was not too old. Under his care, she was actually not much different from a young girl. But seeing Wan'er holding the child, it seemed that the grief in his heart was relieved a little, and he felt much better.
It was already late at night, and everyone was a little tired, but the first life of the third generation of the Fan family made everyone a little excited. Even Fan Shangshu stayed in this room without hesitation, watching happily. This scene, refused to go to rest.
In the end, Mrs. Liu joked a few words, let the old mother and nurse who had been waiting outside come in, hugged the child and stood aside, and urged everyone to rest early.
When Fan Shangshu was leaving, he suddenly thought of something. He was going to ask Fan Xian to go to the study to ask about the situation in the palace today and His Majesty's mood. He immediately thought that this child has been exhausted these days, and finally there is a happy event. Why bother? , then did not speak.
Instead, when the two elders left, Fan Xian happily asked, "Father, when I was in Jiangnan, please name me. I don't know what name you gave this girl."
He was happy to ask, but Fan Shangshu glanced at Liu Shi, his eyes were a little complicated, and he said calmly, "Daughter's family, don't worry about choosing a name, just choose a nickname first."
"Fan Xiaohua." Fan Xian said with a smile, "I've already thought about my nickname."
As soon as these words came out, both Lin Wan'er and Sisi were a little dissatisfied, wondering why a family like themselves had such a vulgar name. But Sisi didn't dare to speak in front of everyone, but Wan'er noticed her father-in-law's expression, she was startled, and didn't say anything.
Fan Xian and Wan'er looked at each other, and then remembered something, and their faces became a little unhappy. After Fan Shangshu and Liu Shi went out, he couldn't help but shook his head, sighed, looked at the daughter in the arms of the old mother, and said, "Is it possible that this little girl's name has to be given by the palace?" ?”
When Sisi heard this, she was taken aback and thought to herself, what is this saying? Immediately thinking of another identity of the young master, he quickly pursed his lips, not daring to express any opinions.
Lin Wan'er looked at him and said softly: "I heard from the master that your characters... were also taken in the palace. I don't know more than the name. At the latest, the day after tomorrow, His Majesty will let you take the child into the palace. Giving a name is a matter. I'm afraid the palace will send a group of old nuns and wet nurses for you to choose."
Fan Xian raised his eyebrows slightly, and said with a sneer, "The old miscellaneous things in the palace... come as you come, just keep them."
Now he speaks with confidence, even the Queen Mother dares to slap people, let alone those old fish-eyed people. It's just that as soon as these words came out, my own nanny who was holding the baby girl in the East Wing became frightened, and the nanny behind her even lowered her head, not daring to make a sound.
Fan Xian glanced at them, and said calmly: "It always takes hard work for you to take good care of the young lady on weekdays, but there is no need for the nanny. The young mistress will go and talk to the madam tomorrow."
Lin Wan'er glanced at him in bewilderment, wondering what Xianggong is doing? Why should the nanny be kicked out? Fan Xian sat back on the bed and asked Sisi with a smile, "Do you have milk?"
Sisi was slightly ashamed and nodded. Fan Xian smiled and said, "That's it. The child has to be raised by himself. It's nothing to have a nanny to nurse the child."
Fan Xian thought to himself how do you people know the importance of breastfeeding? How much does bovine colostrum cost in the world? The doctor said about the psychological impact of breastfeeding by a mother on the baby... He knew that no one in this world could understand these things when he said them, so he made a very arbitrary decision without discussing it with the two women.
The nanny on the side lowered her head and didn't dare to say anything, secretly slandering what happened to the nanny? Your old Fan family can make a fortune, not because the ancestors in Danzhou nursed a few children of the royal family. However, the old mother of the family heard something else and looked at the young master dumbfounded, wondering if the young master was going to let his aunt to raise the young lady himself? This is breaking the rules, tomorrow I will always talk to the master and wife.
Fan Xian didn't know what the old woman was thinking, and he didn't care too much. After working hard in this world for twenty years, if others gossip about how to raise his daughter, he would have lived in vain. .
He sat next to Sisi and said a few more words, and found that the girl was sleepy, forced her eyes to speak, a little unbearable, Fan Xian said with a smile: "Hurry up and sleep, when you were in Danzhou in previous years, you were worse than me." lazy."
Seeing Sisi hesitate to speak, Fan Xian smiled and said, "I've been in the capital for a few years, I really confused you. I said when I was a child that boys and girls are the same. Although it is not a national policy, it is also a family rule."
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When I got back to the master bedroom, the maid who was rubbing her sleepy eyes brought hot water, ready to serve the two masters to bed. Fan Xian drove them out with a wave of his hand, helped Wan'er to sit on the side of the bed, looked her seriously in the eyes, and said, "I know the rules in the mansion, all children born to my aunt have to live with the man. "
There were tears in Lin Wan'er's eyes, but they didn't flow down. She didn't know how much she had suffered in the past few days, how much sorrow she had in her heart, but she had nowhere to confide in. Today Sisi came home, even though she remembered that the baby girl was Fan Xian's flesh and blood, she was also happy in her heart, and she felt happy for Sisi. Si still feels a little grateful, but the emotions are extremely complicated after all.
In particular, Fan Xian had the faint intention of not letting himself participate, and several mixed emotions made Wan'er uncontrollably sad. She comes from a noble background, her life experience is bizarre, her personality is like ice and snow, and she has a hidden wisdom in her simple joy, but she is a woman after all, and every woman always has a woman's delicate thoughts.
Fan Xian looked at her quietly, knowing that the death of the eldest princess, the death of the second prince, and the bloodshed of the royal family had made his wife feel overwhelmed, so he said in as gentle a tone as possible: "Isn't it wrong? I just don't want those nannies Defiled our child... This child is always ours, but Sisi is her biological mother after all, so she can't just hug her here."
Lin Wan'er sighed, looked at the face of her husband in front of her knees, and said softly: "You don't have to be so careless in front of me, I know you are worried about me." She smiled somewhat reluctantly, "But sometimes It's really tasteful, like what you and Sisi say sometimes, I can't quite understand it, what kind of national policy and family rules are there."
Fan Xian smiled helplessly. After all, Sisi grew up with him, just like a younger sister who was educated by letters. Naturally, she had something to share with that life. He held his wife's hands and said softly: "In the future... I will tell you everything, only we know, other people want to know... Hey, I still don't tell him."
After a pause, he held his wife's hands tightly and said with a smile, "I'll tell you all about carriages, sedan chairs, cars and cannons."
Lin Wan'er was confused when she heard this, thinking that she knew about carriages and sedan chairs, but what were car cannons? But he also knew that he was coaxing himself carelessly, so he forcibly hid the sadness on his face, lowered his head slightly and said: "I... want a child. Seeing how my brothers are going to end up now, I don't know what will happen in the future. If you have a child, you will look forward to it."
These words were said indifferently, but it made Fan Xian's heart sour, especially when he saw Wan'er's thin cheeks at this time, how much thinner she was than two years ago. It's like losing your body just after giving birth, which makes me even more sympathetic. He knew what his wife was thinking, and the research and development of the medicine should be almost done, so he said with 80% confidence in his heart, "Of course the child is going to be born, let's give Xiao Hua'er a younger brother. It's lively."
Wan'er only thought he was coaxing herself, smiled and didn't say anything. Fan Xian, however, looked at him mischievously, and said, "However, there seem to be many steps to be followed to give birth to a child. Speaking of which, we haven't been intimate for more than half a year."
Lin Wan'er spat at him with a smile, and immediately thought that Xianggong was deliberately amusing herself, and thought of his benefits and care, which made her even more sad. Fan Xian was just joking, so many people died in the palace, how could the couple be in the mood to do this, he stood up, brought the pot of slightly warmed water over, put it in front of the bed, and directly poured Wan My son took off her shoes and socks, which surprised her.
"Wash your feet. You must have suffered a lot running around in and out of the palace these days." Fan Xian lowered his head, put his wife's bare feet into the basin, picked up hot water, and rubbed them gently. .
Lin Wan'er looked at his hair, felt the warmth from his feet, her nose was sore, and she cried silently. Fan Xian lowered his head, and knew she was crying even without looking up. He knew his wife's suffering, but he couldn't find any words to comfort her. He could only wash her feet silently, and couldn't help but feel countless sorrows in his heart.
The sound of the water gradually subsided, and Fan Xian, who had been exhausted for countless days, held Lin Wan'er's bare feet with both hands, leaned on her knees, and fell asleep like this, sleeping extremely peacefully, just like a child. Lin Wan'er gently stroked his face with pity, the tears at the corners of her eyes gradually dried, and said softly: "With you, I won't suffer."