Gu Yanshu's physique is very special, it can be said that he can get drunk when he touches alcohol.
Thinking of the few times Gu Yanshu looked drunk in his memory, Shen Jue quickened his pace, fearing that something would happen to Gu Yanshu if he was a second late.
After opening the door and entering, I saw that the room was quiet, only when the quilt was bulging, I was slightly relieved.
After explaining a few words to the host, he locked the door and walked to the bed.
With such a big bed, Gu Yanshu wrapped himself up in a tight ball and curled up in a corner.
The cold and pale face became softer under the warm-toned light, the eyelashes drooped quietly, forming a layer of light shadow on the lower eyelid, hooking the strange flush on the corner of the eye, showing the beauty between the eyebrows and eyes. The provocative beauty who is suppressed by indifference on weekdays.
Shen Jue touched Xiaomei's forehead.
Fortunately, not hot.
Looks like he should be asleep.
Relieved, he took off his coat, lightly lifted the quilt and got on the bed.
He wasn't worried about Gu Yanshu's drunkenness. On the contrary, he liked Gu Yanshu's appearance when he was drunk, but he liked it anyway. If Gu Yanshu was alone in the same room, if Gu Yanshu made a fuss again, he might not be able to withstand it, nor might he Hold it.
After all, he hadn't chased him down yet, so he couldn't control himself anymore, and there was nothing he could do. In the end, Gu Yanshu woke up and turned his back on him, and the only one who was tortured was himself.
So it's good to fall asleep.
However, the host only prepared one quilt, and just as Shen Jue squeezed into the quilt, Gu Yanshu, who had been sleeping dizzily, was woken up, opened his eyes, and looked at Shen Jue ignorantly.
Shen Jue covered the quilt halfway, and didn't move.
Gu Yanshu looked at him with his head tilted, and blinked.
Shen Jue lowered his head, looked at him, and blinked.
After a while, Gu Yanshu suddenly "meowed".
Shen Jue:
Before he could realize what Gu Yanshu's meow meant, Gu Yanshu sat up and hooked his neck, then buried his head in the socket of his neck, rubbing back and forth, meowing.
Shen Jue's heart was melted by the meow, he wrapped his arms around his waist with one hand, rubbed his head with the other, and asked in a low voice: "What are you meowing?"
Because you like kittens.
Gu Yanshu wanted to answer, but his brain was blunt and confused, his mouth couldn't control him, he wanted to answer but couldn't, so he simply refused to answer, and hugged Shen Jue tightly, refusing to let go.
You have to hug, if you don't hug Shen Jue, you will die again.
With Shen Jue gone, he would be an unwanted kitten again.
He didn't want to be an unwanted kitten.
Thinking about it, he hugged Shen Jue even tighter, and pressed his whole thin body against it, as if intending to melt himself into Shen Jue's body temperature.
Because the room is warm, both of them only wore a short-sleeved T-shirt. When they hugged each other like this, the body temperature was transmitted through the thin fabric, their little heads rubbed back and forth, and their wet hair scratched their necks heavily. The skin on his chest was itchy and crispy, and the slender waist under the palm was still twisting and twisting, rubbing against Shen Jue's lower abdomen, making Shen Jue feel distracted.
As a strong young man, if he is rubbed against by someone he likes like this, it is inevitable that his gun will go off the rails.
Shen is by no means a gentleman who can sit still, but he feels that this timing and this location are a bit inappropriate.
So he coaxed in a low voice: "Gu Xiaomao is good, don't move, let's sleep well."
"Okay." Gu Yanshu said obediently, "But I want to sleep with you in my arms."
"You can hug, but you are not allowed to rub around."
"I didn't mess around." As if feeling that he had been wronged, Gu Yanshu became aggrieved and rubbed even harder.
Shen Jue said helplessly: "You haven't."
"I didn't!"
"You have it!"
"You kill me!"
""
Where did I kill you
Shen Jue was angry and funny, he pulled Gu Yanshu out of his arms, held his face in his hands, pretending to be fierce, "I'll kill you, what's wrong?"
Gu Yanshu's mouth was held up like a chicken's mouth by him, and he replied fiercely: "Then I will beat you."
Ouch, it's so fierce, it scared me to death.
Shen Jue was so adorable by him, he smiled lightly and said: "Okay, then you hit me."
Gu Yanshu didn't move.
She pursed her lips and thought about it for a while, then limply buried her body back in Shen Jue's arms: "No, you are the best for me, I can't hit you."
In that instant, Shen Jue suddenly felt his heart go sour.
So good.
How could Gu Yanshu be so obedient.
Then Gu Yanshu raised his head in the next second, looked at him, and said seriously: "That's why I want to kiss you."
"?"
Shen Jue was so flattered that he didn't know how to react for a moment.
Gu Yanshu explained seriously: "You treat me well, so I want to kiss you."
Shen Jue looked into his eyes and coaxed in a low voice: "Because I treat you well, you will kiss me, so if others treat you well, will you also kiss others?"
Gu Yanshu blinked.
The brain works hard.
Others treat him well. Mom is good to him. He had kissed his mother on the cheek when he was a child.
So he nodded obediently: "Yes."
Shen Jue: ""
Want to strangle this little bastard.
And the little bastard had already ridden on his body without knowing when, hooked his neck, leaned over his face, and said softly: "Give me a kiss."
"no."
"I want to kiss."
"No. You can't kiss me just because I'm nice to you. You have to like me to kiss me. So do you like me?" Shen Jue looked at Gu Yanshu with his deep and dark eyes patiently and gently.
However, Gu Yanshu didn't seem to hear his question, so he stuck to his body tightly, and said coquettishly: "You let me kiss."
No matter how bastard Shen Jue is, he still has principles, so he couldn't just let Gu Yanshu kiss him without knowing it, and turned his head: "You first tell me whether you like me or not."
"You let me kiss." Gu Yanshu was a little anxious, and rubbed hard, trying to touch Shen Jue's face.
However, with this rubbing, his thighs rubbed back and forth against Shen Jue's lower abdomen, and suddenly a burst of anger shot up from his lower abdomen.
Shen Jue groaned and held him down: "Don't move."
His voice was hoarse and magnetic, and he lost control for a moment.
This feeling of being out of control reminded him of the first time Gu Yanshu got drunk.
It should be the Spring Festival seven years ago. He had an argument with his family, so he didn't go home. Gu Yanshu couldn't bear the travel expenses, so he didn't go back.
So there were only the two of them left in the dormitory, so they ordered takeaway with a few cans of beer, which was regarded as a holiday.
He had a good relationship with Gu Yanshu before that, but he didn't realize his feelings for Gu Yanshu. He just felt sorry for him, wanted to take care of him, and wanted to see him happy. He thought it was just an ordinary friend and brother. feelings between.
Until that night after Gu Yanshu drank a small can of beer, the usually cold and awkward child suddenly turned into a sticky, soft and sticky kitten. Now, the whole person is still pressed against the body and rubbed back and forth, regardless of the part, it will rub everywhere.
It's so uncomfortable to rub, but the cold little face is still stained red, so beautiful that people can't refuse.
So for the first time, Shen Jue had a physical reaction to someone else.
Not just on a physical level, but also on a psychological level.
When the youth's beauty and softness crawled on him, he felt for the first time what lust was, what was attempted aggression and possession. It was also the first time that I had the idea of grabbing someone's ankle, imprisoning his waist, and holding him down to watch him cry.
At that time, they were all innocent young boys. They were shocked and overwhelmed by this sudden desire between the same sex, and even felt a strong sense of guilt.
Especially after having a beautiful dream about Gu Yanshu all night, Shen Jue dared not face Gu Yanshu at all the next day.
He hid from Gu Yanshu for a whole week, not knowing what kind of feelings he had for Gu Yanshu.
It wasn't until he saw Gu Yanshu talking and making physical contact with other people on a variety show that his strong possessiveness and jealousy convinced him that he liked Gu Yanshu.
There will be desire, there will be greed, and the kind of liking that wants to be monopolized.
It has been out of control ever since.
But Gu Yanshu himself knew nothing about what happened that night.
He didn't get angry when he avoided him by himself, and when he lost his temper because he was cuddling with other teammates, he even said with a cold face that he was making trouble for no reason.
Thinking about it now, it's just heartless.
Moreover, someone has done this kind of thing of turning faces and denying people after drinking more than once.
Little Laipi should always pay a price.
Thinking about it, Shen Jue pulled Gu Yanshu out of his arms, looked at him, and asked in a low voice, "Want to hug me?"
"Yes." Gu Yanshu nodded obediently.
"You still want to kiss me?"
"Yes." Gu Yanshu still nodded obediently.
"Then sit alone."
"don't want."
"After sitting alone, I'll let you hug me for a whole night."
Gu Yanshu sat upright obediently.
Shen Jue's lips curled into a smile.
It's really too obedient, it seems that his next behavior is like a beast.
But even if you are a beast, you have to do it, otherwise someone will play tricks, and when will this account be settled.
Get out of bed, take out your phone, turn on the video, and then point the camera at the kid Gu Yanshu: "Today we're going to do an exclusive interview with a habitual offender who was drunk and hit and run. What's the name of this kid?"
The kid replied softly, "Gu Yanshu."
"Okay, how old is this year?"
"Three years old."
""
also.
"Do you know who I am?"
"team leader."
"Am I nice to you?"
"good."
"Then are you going to take the initiative to hug me tonight?"
"yes."
"Are you going to kiss me?"
"yes."
"Kiss me because you like me?"
""
Gu Yanshu, who had been answering honestly, suddenly stopped talking.
Shen Jue changed the question: "Then who is your favorite person?"
Gu Yanshu pursed his lips, lowered his eyelashes, and did not speak.
Shen Jue repeated in a soft voice: "Hey, tell the captain who is your favorite?"
Gu Yanshu shook his head lightly: "I can't say that."
His tone sounded a little sad.
Shen Jue's tone became more gentle: "Why can't you say it?"
"Just can't say."
Gu Yanshu bit the corner of his lips and lowered his head.
"It's a secret."
The light came down from the roof, revealing a thin silhouette in the corner, looking stubborn and pitiful.
There was a brief silence.
Gu Yanshu opened his mouth in a hoarse voice: "Someone will be sad if I say it. I can't make her sad."
At that moment, Shen Xin suddenly felt a pain. How much shackles are it that makes Gu Yanshu so unwilling to face the thoughts in his heart? This tight-lipped, as if afraid of violating some kind of taboo.
Gu Yanshu was very sad.
So he didn't plan to ask any more, he couldn't bully people like this.
Anyway, after seven years of waiting, he waited a little longer, waiting for Gu Yanshu to open his heart and face it honestly, and he couldn't afford to wait.
He was just about to put down his phone and go to coax Gu Yanshu.
Gu Yanshu had already raised his head, his eyes were moist, and his voice was a little choked up: "You said you wanted to hug me, why didn't you hug me? What's wrong with you hugging me? Don't you want me anymore?"
It's all unbearable grievances.
Shen Jue panicked all of a sudden, before he even had time to quit the recording, he threw the phone away, hugged Gu Yanshu, and coaxed in a low voice, "I didn't want to hug you, and I didn't want you either."
"You have it, you just don't want me." Gu Yanshu buried his face on his shoulder, his voice was crying softly, "You don't come when I'm dressed up for my birthday, and you don't come when my mother is gone. , My legs hurt so much you don’t care about me, my throat hurts so much you don’t care about me, they bully me and you don’t care about me, you said you would stay with me all the time, you are a big liar, a liar”
Shen Jue felt liquid soaking the cloth on his shoulders.
He tightly hugged Gu Yanshu in his arms, wrapped him with his own strength and warmth, and said in a low voice, "I didn't want you. I saw that you were dressed beautifully for your birthday. That little suit is beautiful, white Yes, there is also Little Swallowtail. I went there on the day my mother left, and it was raining very hard, so I stayed with you all night, and I didn't want you."
"You obviously didn't come, and my mother left, you don't want me anymore, no one wants me anymore, Shen Jue, no one wants me anymore." Gu Yanshu choked up so hard that he let out a sob.
Hearing the throbbing pain in Shen's determination, he held Gu Yanshu's face in his hands, and gently stroked the corners of his flushed eyes with his fingertips: "I'm here, I really don't want you."
Shen Jue pulled down the soaked collar on his left shoulder, revealing a tattoo like a poppy flower totem on his shoulder, and guided Gu Yanshu's finger to put it on it: "Do you remember this? The one hidden underneath is yours. Tooth marks. You said how your little teeth grow, and you bite so deeply that they all leave scars. "
Gu Yanshu gently stroked the tattoo with his fingertips, his eyes were blank and innocent.
Shen Jue explained in a low voice: "When I arrived that day, you drank wine, held me and cried all night, and even bit me. But later you said you hated me and wanted to drive me away, so I left. You can't be negligent."
click-
A tear fell down.
Gu Yanshu lowered his head, held the tear in his lips, then covered the tattoo with his teeth, and closed his eyes, as if recalling the scene at that time.
Shen Jue took a breath and didn't hide: "Bite if you want. It's my fault, I should have come to you earlier. But Gu Yanshu, I really didn't want you. I just thought you didn't like me."
After a pause, her voice was slightly hoarse: "Besides, you said first not to meet, and you said you don't like me. How can you say that I don't want you anymore?"
In fact, Shen Jue had thought many times why he was willing to leave Gu Yanshu.
He thought maybe it was because of his father Shen Ji's threat, if he didn't go home or compromise, then Gu Yanshu couldn't terminate the contract peacefully, nor could he perform surgery on his mother.
Or maybe it was because that day, when his father took him to the hospital, he heard Gu Yanshu's mother say, "Xiao Shu, my mother just hopes that you can get married and have children, and have the most ordinary happiness", and Gu Yanshu replied, "Don't worry, Mom, I don't like Shen Jue, don't worry, you'll get better soon."
So at that time, he thought, can he make Gu Yanshu live well.
This world is a reality, the sexual orientation of minorities, the incomprehension of family members, huge debts, expensive medical bills, and the long dream of teenagers.
He can have a bad life, but his Gu Yanshu can't have a bad life.
The boy who always practices the hardest should get his stage, the boy who takes every page of notes carefully should return to his campus, and the beautiful and kind boy should also have a good girl who loves him.
All of this was what he wanted to give to Gu Yanshu five years ago.
He thinks liking and loving is a kind of fulfillment, fulfilling the peace and joy of that person's life.
If Gu Yanshu doesn't like him, then he should quit Gu Yanshu.
It's just that he didn't expect to quit for five years, because all previous efforts would be wasted after meeting him once.
On the night of Gu Yanshu's mother's funeral, Gu Yanshu hugged him and cried in despair and grief, just like today, saying that Shen would never want him anymore, crying hysterically and feeling extremely wronged, and when he bit his shoulder, it was like some kind of pain that went deep into the bone marrow. resentment.
After he returned home, he didn't sleep well for almost a whole month. He was wondering why Gu Yanshu was like this, and whether Gu Yanshu might miss himself as much as he missed him.
So he accelerated the process of getting back his equity, and also accelerated the accumulation of bargaining chips that could fight against Shen Ji. When Gu Yanshu called again after drinking, he didn't care about anything.
He didn't care about anything, he just wanted to see if Gu Yanshu might like him.
Like that little line of English under the tattoo of the poppy.
i can't quit you.
He couldn't get rid of Gu Yanshu.
Even if they haven't seen each other for a long time, even if they are strangers to each other, as long as Gu Yanshu takes a look at him, he will become addicted again.
"So Gu Yanshu, I never wanted you, I was just waiting for you to say that you like me, do you understand?"
Shen Jue hugged Gu Yanshu, his voice was deep and hoarse.
All the arrogance and domineering, dissolute playboys in his bones are gone, only patient and gentle explanations are left.
And Gu Yanshu didn't know if he heard it or not, but just buried in his arms, clutching his skirt tightly, choked up and said, "Brother, don't want me."
Shen decided to feel pain, and kissed the top of his head: "Okay. I won't want you. I like you so much, how could I not want you."
Gu Yanshu's arms around his neck became tighter: "Then hug me and kiss me, okay?"
Shen Jue smiled lowly: "I'm afraid that if I kiss you, you'll lose your temper again..."
The words are not finished.
Shen Jue froze.
Gu Yanshu lightly touched his lips.