Yang Qiuhe thought to himself, after smoking a few cigarettes, he turned around and walked towards Yang Xuerong's room.
Standing outside his daughter's room, Yang Qiuhe raised his hand to open the door, but after turning the doorknob twice, he found that the door had been locked from the inside. He let out a long breath and muffled asked.
"Xiao Xue, I'm Dad, I want to talk to you, can you let me in?"
He waited for a long time before Yang Xuerong's response came from the room. Her voice was a little hoarse, as if she had just cried.
"No, I want to sleep now."
The little girl's rejection was very straightforward, and she didn't want to communicate with Yang Qiuhe.
Yang Qiuhe looked at the closed door in front of him, thinking that Yang Xuerong might be hiding in the room and crying secretly, his heart became softer, and his voice became softer than before.
"Xiaoxue, what happened just now is that your mother was wrong. I'm here to apologize to you. Don't blame us, okay? You are an obedient little girl, you will understand us, won't you?"
This time the little girl in the room did not speak, Yang Qiuhe waited patiently for a long time before hearing Yang Xuerong's voice.
"I don't blame you, I know you also have difficulties, I was just too impulsive just now, I'm sorry, Dad, I know I was wrong."
The little girl's voice had returned to normal at this time. Listening to her apology, Yang Qiuhe always felt that something was wrong. After pondering for a while, he said cautiously: "Dad promises that this will not happen again next time." what happened, you are our daughter and we will always love you."
Away from a thin wooden door, Yang Xuerong stood at the door holding a small worn-out doll. She listened to the disgusting words of the man outside the door, and she felt extremely disgusted. With a mocking smile, he said in his mouth: "I know Dad, I love you and Mom the most, how can I blame you?"
As if he got a satisfactory answer, the man outside the door said a few more words before leaving contentedly.
Hearing the footsteps of the other party leaving, Yang Xuerong's small face showed a coldness that did not match his age.
Deceitful, self-deceiving, he should be talking about people like Yang Qiuhe, obviously everything has been unfolded under his eyes, but he still pretends to know nothing to whitewash the peace, as if as long as others say it doesn't matter. , it really doesn't matter.
Yang Xuerong leaned against the thin door, and began to count silently in her heart.
One, two, three... fifty.
When counting to the fiftieth, a woman's high and low voice came from the next room. The corners of her mouth curled up, and the sarcasm in her eyes became stronger.
This man's method of appeasing people has never changed. With her, it is full of empty words and promises. When it comes to the next door, it is the things on the bed.
The woman's voice seemed to be a demonstration, one higher than the other, and the man stopped her, but the woman remained unmoved.
In the past, she would at least cover up her dirty thoughts, but after the previous conflict, the woman who was supposed to be her mother seemed to have completely given up on continuing to pretend.
She was demonstrating to her in this way, declaring sovereignty to her, telling her that the man belonged to her alone.
Bai Qianmiao's methods were clumsy and ridiculous. The young Yang Xuerong once didn't understand why, but after that magical experience, she was no longer the innocent little girl she used to be.
The world of adults is filthy, full of unimaginable and disgusting things, all kinds of unreasonable things, not something that any normal family can do, but this couple can take it for granted.
And her three views and cognition of the world were also influenced by them. For many years to come, she didn't think there was anything wrong with it.
Yang Xuerong hugged the small broken doll in her arms, and moved it back to her bed step by step.
The violent collision and screaming in the next room did not affect her at all. She pinched the little doll in her hand, and a layer of light that ordinary people could not see overflowed from the little doll, and soon enveloped the whole room Inside.
Then, those dirty and discordant voices disappeared, and she could only hear her own breathing in her ears.
The world became quiet. Yang Xuerong turned over and lifted up the little doll. She shook the doll and whispered, "Has my future changed?"
There was a red light in the eyes of the little doll, and as the red light suddenly appeared, a layer of shallow ripples appeared on the little doll's body, and then its body began to elongate continuously, and finally turned into a red doll. Shadows of light.
This unimaginable scene was staged in front of Yang Xuerong, but the six-year-old girl seemed to have gotten used to it, she stretched out her hand towards the phantom, and finally showed a well-behaved expression suitable for her age.
"You're here."
"Can you give me a hug?"
The phantom fell down without a sound and lay down next to the little girl, while Yang Xuerong slipped into the other's arms familiarly, and hugged her tightly.
It is clearly a phantom, but it can be hugged by Yang Xuerong. Her body is not the same as that of a human being. Some are like jelly, and some are like a hot water bottle for winter. It is soft and feels good to the touch.
"I am obedient, I am very brave today, and I am not fooled by them!"
Yang Xuerong buried her head in the soft body of the opponent, her tone was full of pride.
"That man still wants to coax me like in the past, but I am not the same me in the past. I have listened to you. He coaxed me, and I coaxed him. Sure enough, he is just like what you said. He is very simple-minded. I coaxed him casually, and he believed me."
Yang Xuerong babbled about what she had done, with the tenderness unique to a little girl in her tone, she buried her face in the opponent's arms, and said softly.
"It turns out that adults are nothing special, they are all stupid, and they will be easily deceived."
After finishing what she had done, the little girl raised her head, looked at the other person's face shrouded in a faint red light, and asked again.
"Am I great? Does this change my future?"
After a long time, that phantom finally spoke. Her voice carried an ethereal meaning. Just listening to her voice made people's hearts gradually calm down.
"As long as you keep working hard, the future will definitely change."
After hearing this sentence, Yang Xuerong was overjoyed, and she rubbed against Xuying's arms again, as if her whole body was about to be squeezed into the other's arms.
She needs to be on guard against all the people in this world, and she can't give her sincerity, but she doesn't need it for this person, because she came back from the future through time and space, she is her, the future her.
I saw this future self more than half a month ago. At that time, my father took my mother out to relax, and she was the only one in the house.
They didn't leave much food when they left, and she couldn't reach them by phone, and there was no money in the phone watch. Yang Xuerong was so hungry that her stomach hurt, and she drank a few glasses of plain water, but her stomach still felt terrible. .
My mother once told her that if you are hungry, go to bed and sleep, and you will not be hungry when you fall asleep. She obediently went back to the room and lay on her bed to sleep.
But her stomach was so hungry that she couldn't fall asleep even if she closed her eyes and forced herself to sleep.
Why is what mother said wrong? If you are really hungry to the extreme, it is impossible to fall asleep.
She is really hungry, why are mom and dad still not coming back? Why does she want to starve alone at home
Just when Yang Xuerong was about to faint from hunger, she smelled a particularly pleasant smell, which injected strength into her body, and she struggled to get up from the bed, and followed the scent to the in the kitchen.
The first thing she saw was a bowl of egg noodles with scallion oil on the kitchen counter. A bowl of noodles suddenly appeared. People who are extremely hungry are irrational. She rushed up and ate up the bowl of noodles in two or three strokes.
The empty stomach was filled with food, she touched the stomach that finally stopped the cramping, and sighed contentedly.
At that moment, she heard a voice ringing in her ear.
"Are you full?"
After hearing that strange yet inexplicably familiar voice, Yang Xuerong suddenly looked back, and then she saw a faint phantom appearing in front of her.
But a six-year-old child still doesn't know what fear is. For this strange creature that suddenly appeared in her home and gave her a bowl of egg noodles with scallion oil, Yang Xuerong didn't feel scared, but boldly asked who it was.
Then, Yang Xuerong was led by the other party to see the future—
Her parents died of grief when she was twelve years old, and because her grandparents were too old to raise her, Yang Xuerong was sent to an orphanage.
In fact, the life in the orphanage seems to be much better than the life at home. At least she can eat meals on time and order, and she is accompanied every day, and there are children of the same age who can talk to her.
Her grandma would visit her every two weeks, and every time she saw her, grandma would tell her that her parents died from worrying too much, that they felt sorry for one person, and that they let them down because they were too guilty. No life.
Children always have expectations of their parents, even if they have done a lot of wrong things, but she has lived in that environment since she was a child and has never experienced a normal family, so she does not know that it is wrong.
Yang Xuerong took grandma's words to heart.
Many things happened later, and the young Yang Xuerong saw many absurd and weird things that happened in the future.
When she was young, she didn't understand why she did that. She asked this self who came back from the future why she did those things.
"You...how could my future me have such terrible thoughts? Obviously that ghost baby did something wrong, it killed people indiscriminately, no matter how pitiful it was in the past, that's not the reason for it to kill people."
"Debts are paid back, murder is paid for with life, ghost baby killed that person's girlfriend, he should want revenge, why should I avenge ghost baby?"
"How could I be so cruel? That's not me! It must not be me."
The young Yang Xuerong still retains a kind nature. Her character has not been completely distorted by those irresponsible parents. She has her own concept of right and wrong, kindness and bottom line. After seeing everything that her future self will do, She instinctively hated all that.
"That's all wrong."
The future Yang Xuerong told the six-year-old Yang Xuerong that everything can be changed.
"Did you always think that your parents love you very much?"
Yang Xuerong nodded: "They all said they love me very much."
Both parents have told her that she is their baby, their only daughter, and they love her very much.
"Since they love you, why do they let you go to school alone?"
"Since they love you, why can they leave you alone at home, and don't even prepare food for you?"
"If they love you, why don't they accompany you when you have nightmares?"
The future Yang Xuerong asked the current Yang Xuerong many, many questions, and she couldn't even answer those questions.
Yeah, why is that
"Is it love that only comes out of words? Do they tell you they love you with their actions?"
Then, she from the future told six-year-old Yang Xuerong what true parental love is.
It turned out that her father left her alone to take care of her mother, and taking her to travel and relax is not called love.
It turns out that my mother revolves around my coughing father, and it is not love to only drink cold water to cool her down when she has a fever.
It turns out that parents who really love their children will cook for the child on time, bathe and dress her, send her to school, and accompany her when she is scared, instead of sleeping when she has nightmares and is afraid at night. No, when they went to knock on the door of their room, they locked the door to prevent her from entering.
It turned out that her parents never loved her.
That she from the future asked six-year-old Yang Xuerong to do an experiment to prove her words.
"After your parents come back, you go to their room, tell them that you have a nightmare, let them sleep with you, and see if they agree."
At that time, Yang Xuerong still firmly believed that her parents also loved her, so she agreed without hesitation.
After the husband and wife returned from their short trip, Yang Xuerong found the opportunity and came outside the room of the husband and wife with the rag doll that he had held for many years.
"Mom and Dad, Xiaoxue is scared."
…
However, the result of the experiment was exactly the same as what she from the future said.
The couple rejected her request, and even when she begged them to stay with her, the man who kept saying that he loved her and that she was their baby scolded her impatiently, telling her to be obedient , don't mess around.
At that moment, she realized that her previous understanding of her parents was all wrong.
It turns out that what she said from the future is correct, and it turns out that her parents never really loved her.
In the future, she will appear every three to five times, and she will teach her how to distinguish the hypocrisy of her parents, how to deal with them, and how to make her life better.
Yang Xuerong learned to use the gas stove to cook by herself. Although it was only a simple meal, it was enough for her to fill her stomach when the couple didn't care about her life or death. She didn't need to drink cold water to satisfy her hunger, or eat spoiled food.
She learned to wash by herself, learned to take care of herself, and the future one taught her many things.
Only very occasionally, Yang Xuerong also has expectations for her parents. She holds weak expectations, thinking that her parents may just temporarily forget her existence. up.
However, no matter how much she expected, she would be disappointed. They would only pour cold water on her again and again, and use practical actions to let her see clearly what she was to their husband and wife.