Xu Xiaowen slept alone in the study, just like every time in the past, as long as something happened to her, Xu Wenqing would not allow her to enter the master bedroom, and the reasons were the same every time—
"Dirty things on you will ruin my luck. You love me so much, you won't want to see me unlucky with you, will you?"
"Why did you fail in the college entrance examination? It was because you had been bleeding dirty, and you hadn't recovered for more than half a month. Didn't your luck just flow out along with the dirty blood?"
"I don't dislike you. I do it for your own good. All of this is for our future."
"Think about it, your life has been ruined, do you want my life to be ruined by your dirty things together like yours?"
Xu Xiaowen was lying on the creaking single bed in the study room, but all kinds of past events emerged in her mind. Her mind at this time was extremely clear, completely different from the person in the past whose brain was swallowed by emotions.
In fact, going back to the source, she was raped by Xu Wenqing for the first time, but in the end, she was beautified by Xu Wenqing as two people having sex after drinking, and then she let him succeed again in a daze. The reason for my credulity, but the culprit is still that scumbag Xu Wenqing.
She is obviously such a proud person. She is beautiful and has good grades. She is a good girl in the eyes of her parents, a good student in the eyes of her teachers, a top student admired by her classmates, and a top student. Everyone thinks she She could be admitted to Qingbei smoothly, but in the end her grades gave those people a heavy blow.
After she failed the college entrance examination, her parents once wanted her to repeat the exam, thinking that she just failed accidentally this time. With her ability, even if she can't pass the 985 next year, she can at least pass the 211 exam. No matter what, she is better than a junior college. .
At that time, Xu Xiaowen actually thought the same way. She obviously worked so hard for so long. She spent all the time spent on eating, drinking and having fun in her studies. In order to maintain her position as the number one in the age, she paid too much. She was not reconciled to the waste of all her years of hard work.
But why did she not choose to repeat her studies in the end, but entered that junior college to study
Xu Xiaowen remembered that after she decided to repeat the study, she found Xu Wenqing and told him that she was going to repeat the study. What did Xu Wenqing say at that time
"Xiaowen, think about it clearly, are you really fit to repeat?"
"Xiaowen, do you know that you are different from other classmates, they can study without distraction, can you? Don't you think of the child you knocked out?"
"If you repeat the study, we will definitely be separated. I can't wait for you. You also know what a man is like. A man can't bear loneliness. Don't blame me when the time comes."
"Actually, I don't want to break up with you either. You forced me to let me break up with you. I'm a big man. Finding a girlfriend is a matter of waving, but you are different."
"You were pregnant with my child once in your womb, but someone died in your womb, and you beat another man's child before you were an adult. Can you still find a good man like this?"
"Anyway, if you think about it, I can't wait for you. If you insist on repeating the study, then let's forget it."
"As for whether I will keep it a secret for you? Xiaowen, why are you so naive? I will keep it a secret for you when you were my girlfriend, but you are not my girlfriend anymore. Do you think I will still keep it for you? Do you keep it a secret?"
"I think the students will be surprised. They want to know why a top student suddenly failed the college entrance examination. If they knew that you were pregnant with my child and aborted him at that time, what do you think the students would think of you? "
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Where had Xu Xiaowen seen such a scene at that time? She didn't understand at all why a man who had been so good to her turned his face and said such terrible things to herself.
If she wants to repeat the exam, those secrets that she doesn't want to be known by outsiders will be known to others after all. If they know why she failed the college entrance examination, if they know...
Xu Xiaowen couldn't accept such a result, she finally chose to give in, she succumbed to Xu Wenqing, obeyed his words, gave up repeating her studies, and went to college.
She remembered that her father didn't sleep for several days and nights when she knew she was not going to study again. Every morning when she woke up, she could see that the ashtray in the living room was full of cigarette butts.
But her mother kept crying and asked her why she refused to repeat, and asked her if she knew how important the college entrance examination was to a person.
"Xiaowen, there is no turning back when you open the bow. If you take this step, you will never be able to turn back in the future. It is impossible to turn back in life."
"Xiaowen, can't you tell mom and dad, why don't you go?"
But no matter how much they begged and asked her, Xu Xiaowen refused to tell them the truth—after she agreed not to read again, Xu Wenqing seemed to have returned to his original appearance. He would buy all kinds of gadgets for her, and he would apologize to her, saying that all the things he said before were not sincere.
"Xiaowen, I know that what I said before made you sad, but you have to understand that I didn't want to say those words, and I really have nothing to do."
"I like you so much. If you repeat your studies, you will definitely be admitted to a famous university in the future. If we separate the two places, then there will be other even better men around you. If you are with them, then what should I do? manage?"
"Xiaowen, women and men are different. You don't have to be so good. Anyway, in the future, you will be at home with your husband and children. Too high a degree and being too capable is of no use. I will support you."
This is how the young and ignorant Xu Xiaowen fell slowly, and then slipped into the abyss step by step.
Xu Wenqing also told her that parents' love for their children is all about profit. They invest in their children and require their children to give them something in return. Once the return is not up to standard, they will withdraw their love for them.
"Actually, your parents are very selfish. I know it's tiring to be the number one all the time. I know you don't want to work so hard all the time, but because of your parents' persecution, you have to become outstanding and powerful, just to Satisfy their vanity."
"Think about it, does a little girl need to work so hard? Anyway, you will get married in the future, and you don't need to do a big career, so why are you so good?"
"Look at how many successful women have lived happily ever after? Even in this era, those successful career women who are still alone are envious of women who are housewives."
"I'm different from your parents. I never seek anything from you, nor do I want you to pay for me or give me anything in return. I only think about one thing from the beginning to the end, and that is to let You are happy, as long as you can be happy, I don't care about anything."
Xu Wenqing has always been brainwashing her in this way, telling her that her parents have schemes for her good, and that what they love is not her at all, but the interests they invested.
"If you don't believe me, just try it. The worse you behave, the more they will insult you, humiliate you, and think that you are not worthy of being their daughter."
"Look, I'm not wrong, am I? Have you been scolded again? They let you take the postgraduate entrance examination just to continue to exploit you, so as to squeeze out all the benefits from you."
"Except for me, no one in this world treats you sincerely, even your parents."
"You can only trust me, I am the only one in this world who loves you."
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It was obviously ridiculous words, but at that time Xu Xiaowen seemed to be possessed, she couldn't listen to her parents' words, she couldn't listen to her friends' words, she listened to Xu Wenqing's words wholeheartedly, regarded him as a god, and regarded his words as the standard , Never dared to violate even the slightest bit.
Obviously her parents are doing it for her own good, they want her to improve, they want her to have a better life, they see her degenerate, they hate iron, and they want to encourage her to work hard, but she is provoking dissension under Xu Wenqing. The distance between him and his parents is getting farther and farther.
She hates and hates her parents, and her relationship with them is getting worse and worse. Even under Xu Wenqing's brainwashing, she thinks that she shouldn't be nice to her parents—they brought you into this world without your consent, and they just They should treat you well, but they persecute you, oppress you, and enslave you, you have to learn to resist.
Xu Xiaowen, who is as stupid as a pig, really listened to Xu Wenqing's words, and treated her parents as enemies. She refused to go home even during the holidays, and she didn't have a phone call or a text message on weekdays. Even if they called When sending text messages to ask her about her situation, Xu Xiaowen just made a fool of herself and never said anything more to them.
"Your parents don't show any kindness to you, they just oppress you. They are black-hearted slave owners. Don't be soft-hearted."
As more and more things were recalled, Xu Xiaowen's body began to tremble uncontrollably. The intense despair and pain swept towards her like an avalanche, engulfing her whole body. The pain couldn't be vented, Xu Xiaowen wanted to scream, but finally endured it, she opened her mouth, bit her arm fiercely, and used the pain in her body to fight the pain in her heart.
For a moment, Xu Xiaowen regretted that she had regained her senses, and saw clearly how rubbish and hateful the things her past self was, but soon, she began to spurn the self who wanted to escape.
She has committed a lot of crimes, is she going to be so muddled forever
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I really know I was wrong..."
Xu Xiaowen burst into tears, and kept apologizing to her parents in her heart, begging for their forgiveness, she really knew she was wrong.
However, the night was getting dark, no one could hear the words of apology that Xu Xiaowen said in her heart when curled up on the small single bed, Xu Xiaowen curled up her body even tighter, if possible, she wished she could just disappear in the World.
But she can't.
Only she can undo the sins she has done. How she turned into human scum step by step, now she has to turn herself into a normal person step by step.
****
A long night passed, and the night swallowed many things. The huge waves that seemed to be able to swallow everything seemed to have disappeared, and everything seemed to return to normal.
Xu Wenqing returned to work in the bakery with faint expectations. As the time approached Qi Feifei's working time, Xu Wenqing frequently looked towards the door of the shop.
After the two of them fell in love, Qi Feifei would come to the store every morning to buy some cakes and the like. He wanted to know if Qi Feifei would come today, because it was related to what he should do in the future.
As the time drew closer, the person he was thinking of still did not come, Xu Wenqing's heart sank slowly, just after he thought that Qi Feifei was really not coming, the wind chimes at the door rang , a familiar figure walked in from the door.
Xu Wenqing's dying heart instantly came to life, a big smile appeared on his face, and he quickly walked towards Qi Feifei.
"Feifei, you are here."
When facing Xu Xiaowen, Xu Wenqing is used to putting on an arrogant appearance, making the other party submit to his feet. He is used to being the 'master', but when facing Qi Feifei, he dare not put on Show your true colors.
Being low-key and petty, being gentle and careless, these are all his methods. Who would let a woman do this
But seeing him, Qi Feifei's pretty face sank, she pouted and said unhappily: "Is there no one else in the store? I don't want him to serve me."
Qi Feifei is very beautiful, even when she is wayward, she is still unbelievably beautiful, Xu Wenqing is obsessed with her beauty, and covets the benefits brought by her status, so naturally let her lose her temper without showing any dissatisfaction Come.
"Beifei, don't be angry with me, okay? I know I'm wrong, can you forgive me?"
Everyone in the cake shop knew that Qi Feifei was Xu Wenqing's boyfriend, so naturally they wouldn't come forward to make trouble for him. The young couple had conflicts, and they would only go over to disturb the young couple's love unless they were blind.
But when they heard how Xu Wenqing coaxed Qi Feifei, these colleagues secretly thought that it was no wonder why Xu Wenqing, a man who was not very good-looking and his family conditions were not very good, could have such a good girlfriend.
Aside from other things, his shameless and self-respecting approach just to please his girlfriend is not something ordinary people can do. They ask themselves, they can coax their girlfriend like this in private, but if there are outsiders around If not, it is impossible for them to say such a breakthrough offline.
"Feifei, I was wrong, please forgive me, can I sing you your favorite "Little Frog Leaping"?"
As he said that, Xu Wenqing sang Little Leaping Frog in front of the crowd, while imitating the jumping of the frog in it, his appearance looked ridiculous.
Qi Feifei, who intentionally pretended to be a monster to torment Xu Wenqing: "..."
The thickness of this guy's skin is simply breathtaking, no wonder that emotional personality can't handle it, this kind of coaxing method, any little girl who doesn't have a clear mind can't handle it.
In fact, Qi Feifei really wanted to hit Xu Wenqing's face in her heart, but she still endured it when she thought of what she and Qi Huang had discussed to do.
Forget it, if you can't bear it, you can make big plans. In order to have a bright future in the future, she should bear it.
"Okay, don't play tricks here, can't I forgive you?"
Hearing that Qi Feifei finally let go and forgave him, Xu Wenqing was indescribably happy. In his joy, he quickly kissed Qi Feifei's cheek.
Qi Feifei: "..."
My casserole-sized iron fist is almost unbearable, okay
Fortunately, Xu Wenqing still remembers that he is at work now, and this is a cake shop. He did not do anything more outrageous. As usual, he packed Qi Feifei's favorite cakes, and Xu Wenqing followed suit and sent Qi Feifei out of the bread. shop.
The smile on Qi Feifei's face could hardly be maintained anymore, and fortunately Xu Wenqing had to go to work, so she couldn't follow her out. After Qi Feifei left the bakery, she finally didn't have to be abused by him.
With such a clumsy and greasy method, why on earth can he deceive the two women, knowing that he has other women, who love him so much that they don't regret it? Brain kicked by a donkey
At noon, Qi Feifei took Xu Xiaowen to the rooftop and repeated what Qi Wang told her.
"My father said that this is a kind of personality reshaping. First, you suppress your original normal personality through abnormal means, so that you have the idea of self-denial, thinking that you are a piece of trash, and you can't do anything well. Subtly planting his anchor in your heart, this is the first step in controlling you."
Xu Xiaowen twitched the corners of his mouth, and said sullenly: "In the end, it's because I'm stupid."
Qi Feifei nodded seriously: "It's really stupid, but you were able to take the first place in the grade, and there is really no problem in terms of IQ. You were just deceived by his pretended love."