Xia Tian lost his strength and couldn't scream anymore, but he still showed a triumphant smile to Bai Lin, expressing his victory. That person viciously resisted his sensitive point again, a violent collision, Xia Tian's body trembled almost convulsively, there was no image at all.
He could only feel that the man was holding him tightly all the time.
He climaxed in this overwhelming desire, and ejaculated in Xiaobai's hand without hesitation. The semen melted in the water, he trembled and couldn't say anything, and almost slipped under the water.
Bai Lin hugged him all the time, they both slipped, but then floated up together, the two panted and intertwined, as if they had become one person, unable to distinguish each other.
Bai Lin leaned over to kiss him unconsciously again, muttering something, probably saying... He will be fine, they will be fine, they will always be together. The voice carries the naive and desperate longing of youth.
He was out of his mind, and he knew better than anyone that it was a foolish thing to say, and how dangerous hope was. But Xia Tian couldn't think rationally, and he was also addicted to it, unable to extricate himself, believing that they could be together forever, and the future was full of hope...his life had never been so full of hope.
He felt that no matter how difficult the future was, they would work it out, be together, and live a carefree life—
How could they, after so many catastrophes, find themselves in such a dire situation, knowing that hope is fatal
Xia Tian stroked Bai Lin's hair, and finally said that sentence that he thought he would never say again, that blind sentence that would only hurt people in the end.
He also kissed Xiaobai, his tone of innocence was exactly the same as that person's.
"Well," he said, "we're all going to be fine."
-over-
"Dream"
0.
The downtown area is always dark, and the lights from the zenith are turned on, cutting up the light and shadow of the city. The whole city is broken.
Bai Jing'an lay on the roof looking at the zenith. It is now 10:30 in the morning of August 19th. In midsummer, the sun is shining brightly, but none of it will fall on this land. Only the heat will seep down and burn this dark city.
He was pretty sure he would stay here for the rest of his life and never return to the sun.
1.
That day they went to the repair shop to see a batch of newly arrived parts, and a dog followed them.
It had been badly beaten, half-blind in one eye, bleeding, and stood dazed by the side of the road. Bai Lin glanced at it, and it followed, limping, trying to pretend to be with them.
Uptown movies described the dogs below as alien reincarnations, but when you went downtown, you discovered that they were actually skinny mongrel dogs with serious genetic pollution, gathering in dark corners. They can only live for a few months, and most of them will soon become minced meat in the garbage dump. The meat is not edible, but someone will pack it up and go to the feed factory to make a few small money. In state-of-the-art purification equipment, these disgusting-looking animals are quickly reduced to clean bags of high-protein feed.
Lai Shang Bai Lin's dog was bigger than the other mongrel dogs, but at best it could be seen as a dog.
It followed all the way, and could not be chased away. Bai Xu said: "I told you, don't make eye contact with animals casually, if you stare at them, you won't be able to get rid of them."
"That's how Bai Jing'an came here." Bai Sang said.
Bai Jing'an threw her with a screw cap.
Bai Sang threw it back.
The two of them threw parts at each other, and Bai Xu took a video with his mobile phone and said that he would post it on the Internet, so that everyone could comment on this childish behavior. With a popsicle in his mouth, Bai Lin commented on the fighting methods of the two—"Xiao Sang, don't throw away such expensive parts, pick heavy and cheap ones."
"You newcomer, your accuracy is too bad, I'll go, where are you going?"
The dog followed along, pretending to be happy to be part of the group.
Two days ago, Bai Lin got a magnetic power engine and worked with Bai Sang for several days. Today, the Hellfire repair shop got a piece of scrapped maglev road debris. They are going to repair it and make a hanging billboard.
Bai Jing'an saw a lot of maglev vehicles in the upper city, so he was looking forward to this little trick for some reason.
He was lying on the roof fishing, listening to the noise of a group of people below.
"I want to make a super-large light sign here," Bai Xu said, making a "super-big" gesture, "I want that kind of light that is particularly bright, like the sun!"
Bai Jing'an curled his lips, not knowing what a hellfire repair shop would do with a sun-like light.
"Ah!" Bai Sang yelled, "It's spinning, it's spinning! How did you do it, bro—"
Bai Lin accepted the worship triumphantly. The engine was spinning, the light was changing, Bai Jing'an could hear laughter from far away, the group turned off the lights, the display screen was brightly lit, as if a corner of the sky had leaked, and the pure light illuminated the courtyard.
Bai Jing'an heard the dog barking, and the stupid animal joined in, circling around the others. Bai Sang patted its head, showing a sense of teamwork.
Bai Jing'an thought this was stupid, but after thinking about it, he jumped off the roof and prepared to provide some labor. That lighting program was too ridiculous, he could laugh at Bai Xu.
Then the dog was nowhere to be found.
It will definitely not disappear by itself. Once some gangsters beat it to half, and it fled into the sewer, but when it was time for Bai Lin to go out, it still insisted on crawling to the side of the road and waited, dragging a long road behind it. Dirt and blood stains are unbearable to look at.
Bai Lin healed its wounds and warned those who were thinking of it, that it really looked like his dog.
Life in the lower city is not easy, the food supply is so-so, Bai Lin's family is good, and sometimes he finds some crude dog food for him to eat, but he doesn't starve to death.
That's all Bai Lin took care of a bad life.
It's useless to raise this thing, but no one talks about him, he seems to have such a right naturally.
And it is also useful, it can recognize acquaintances, and strangers will call when they come to the house. After training for a while, it can clearly recognize plastic bags, woven bags, wrenches and crowbars, and it will grab them when it calls.
Bai Lin inquired about it and found it in the dog fighting arena.
It's not surprising at all, mongrel dogs mostly end up here for a little fun.
Dog fighting is a regular activity in the downtown area. They inject the dogs with mutant drugs to turn them into nightmare creatures one by one, and then broadcast it with the tone of a killing show.
When they passed by, the dog fighting arena was brightly lit, there was a lot of voices, and the expressions of the audience were frenzied, no different from the audience in the killing show. After entering, you can smell the smell of excrement and blood, and the sounds of animals can be heard everywhere, not like living things, but like ghosts in horror stories.
The Lower City was a dungeon, a cage for livestock, filled with people the "society elite" no longer wanted to see. In such a place, the evil of human nature will always fester and ferment. It's just that the upper city is more terrifying, and the fester never only spreads in one place.
Bai Lin swept through the pile of dying creatures for people's entertainment, and found the dog in a broken cage. It had fought three times, but it was difficult to distinguish its shape, yet it was still alive. However, it is not easy to die after taking star medicine.
Its body swelled more than three times, its eyes were blood red, and it grew two heads, one of which was only the size of a fist, hanging on its neck like a tumor. It kept bleeding from its mouth, which came from its internal organs, where it was in constant growth and severe pain, but the medicine would continue to treat it, so that it would not die immediately and fall into extreme pain and violence.
Seeing Bai Lin, it whined. It was hard to believe that animals could make such a sound, like a human crying.
Instead of attacking him, it turned over, stood up with difficulty, and wagged its tail. It begs the one who can fix everything to help it, so that it doesn't hurt so much.
Bai Lin looked down at it.
Bai Jing'an could only see his back, the lights of the Colosseum shone on him, he was wearing a light-colored T-shirt, his figure was still very thin, and his lines were tightly stretched.
The dog looked at him hopefully.
Bai Jingan curled up in the corner.
It was very bright outside, and most of the lights in the lower town were turned off, but there were many self-lit lights in the upper town, and the street was like the center of the stage.
It was a virus that randomly infects mammals, and some people will turn into monsters. These days, he has seen a lot of strange and weird creatures that are as imaginative as the Uptown Gene Studio. Most will be preyed upon by monsters who were once their loved ones.
No one in this world can escape from horror entertainment games. Here, death is no longer the end, soured in Uptown's lust for entertainment, ratings, and revelry.
Bai Jing'an sat in the corner of a temporary medical station, turned to look at Bai Lin who was curled up in a ball.
Bai Lin was infected yesterday.
The light cast from the window was as dazzling as snow, and Bai Jing'an couldn't think about the problem. He couldn't move forward, he could only stand in a stalemate with this abyss.
A monster with a flesh-colored tail walked across the street, bent low, oddly shaped like a kangaroo, wearing a baggy plaid shirt from a gas station. Its face was covered in blood and flesh, and rotting flesh and black blood flowed from its mouth.
Bai Jing'an bit his cuff and didn't make a sound.
He counted the few bullets in the gun, listened to it go by, and knew that it would not be too long before they would die in this darkness with the greatest pain, or "live" for the pleasure of those people.
I've got to kill him, he thought, I've got to, I can't reduce him to a monster in the street, he's going to be a downtown kid to the end of his life. I should do this for him.
Bai Jing'an thought of the dog a long time ago, who was dying, and looked at Bai Lin with hope.
The man stood in the cold light, took a breath, and raised his gun.
He seemed to say something, but Bai Jing'an didn't hear it.
The dog that hadn't been named at the end didn't know what was going to happen, it just looked at Bai Lin expectantly and wagged its tail laboriously. It was the only one who could see Bai Lin's expression. Bai Jing'an didn't dare to go over.
Bai Lin shot it in the head.
It whined, and Bai Lin fired another shot, hitting the other deformed head.
It screamed, but it still didn't die. The last fist-sized head was able to support its body, and Bai Lin fired a third shot.
He moves quickly, without hesitation.
The surrounding area is very quiet... In fact, it is not very quiet, the surrounding area is very noisy, betting on winning or losing, saying which dog has mutated so much that it is a "monster". But when Bai Jing'an recalled it, he always felt that it was very quiet at that time, which set off the sound of gunshots.
The dog fell down, its limbs still kicking.
Bai Lin fired two more shots at it until it was completely silent.
Few people in downtown care about mutts, they're having a hard time, and that's one of the cathartic outlets. But no one came to stop him, no one cared.
Bai Jing'an thought that Bai Lin would turn around and leave after shooting, but he put the gun in his back, walked over, bent over and carried the bloody corpse, and walked out of the cage.
No one stopped him either. Bai Lin went straight to the pickup truck outside and put the dog's corpse on it. The corpse suddenly trembled again, and there was a gurgling sound from its throat. Bai Lin quickly raised his hand and shot two more shots at its heart.
Bai Jing'an saw that his face under the street lamp was spattered with blood, so he wiped it casually.
Bai Lin turned to drive, Bai Jingan silently followed him.
They found a place to bury the dog in the repair shop, and they didn't say a word from the beginning to the end.
2.
Bai Jing'an's wound was very painful, it was a kind of aimless and unstoppable pain.
No more painkillers, the missing arm was always itchy, and he sometimes felt like someone was grabbing the wrist and pulling him somewhere. He told himself it was a hallucination, that the brain couldn't adjust to the loss of limbs.
That monster didn't look like Bai Xu at all, it looked...
Much scarier than the dog's last look.
Bai Lin killed him. One gun emptied, twenty bullets, and that's always what he did in the end.
Bai Jing'an had a dream in a daze. In the dream, he was robbed by a group of gangsters before he parked his car. He had no power to fight back, these people robbed his clothes and money, they couldn't hack into the car, and asked him to transfer the authority himself, Bai Jing'an spat out the blood from his mouth, smiled at them, and said that he was so stupid as to be a thief.
The result was not so good. This group of people taught him a severe lesson, and planned to kill him and sell him to a feed factory for a profit. They don't care about human lives, neither does Bai Jing'an himself.
At this time, he vaguely saw that person, passing by the alley, and turned his head to look in this direction. The man was wearing a white T-shirt, the street lights shone on him, and he was wearing a headset. He was still not thinking about it, and looked a little dazed.
After three seconds, when Bai Jing'an thought the man was going to leave, he suddenly turned around and walked in, taking out a gun from behind.
He walked very fast, Bai Jing'an didn't know if the person who robbed him saw it, and he didn't remember whether he was beaten again at that time, but he only remembered that the person who walked over fired without saying a word.
He used a concussion gun, which he modified without knowing how, forming a fan-shaped concussion area, and the debris on the walls on both sides flew around and fell down in a flutter.
The shock wave brushed past Bai Jing'an, and several robbers fell to the ground. The man rushed over, yelling something in the local dialect—Bai Jing'an couldn't understand, but he was probably cursing.
There were seven robbers, but they ran away when they saw him coming, and hurriedly threw all the things they robbed of Bai Jingan on the ground, and scattered them all over the ground.
The man chased for several steps, fired two more shots, and then walked back indignantly.
Bai Jing'an raised his head and saw a huge cartoon graffiti on the wall, which read: No robbery!
He laughed nervously.
The person who saved his life stopped in front of Bai Jing'an, took off his earphones, and looked at him strangely, as if an unknown animal had entered his home.
He said, "What's the matter?"
Bai Jing'an didn't say a word for a while, no one asked him "what's the matter" for a long time, it's always like this when you are in trouble. He didn't know how to answer.
Bai Lin took him home, treated the wound, and Bai Ziming brought him something to eat.
But Bai Jing'an didn't eat a few mouthfuls, and Bai Lin solved more than half of it.
This man was not a few years older than him, with gray eyes, messy hair, handsome appearance, and high energy. He was the kind of young man who was not afraid of anything and would cause trouble at any time.
"I thought you were Xiaodong," Bai Lin said vaguely to him while eating a snack, "You both look a little alike."
——The Bai Xiaodong he was talking about was a distant relative, and he was also good at fighting and picking quarrels and provoking troubles. He often fought for Bai Lin. He mutated a week ago, it was hard for Bai Jingan to describe what it was, it was also Bai Lin who killed him.
"You are all short, and you look like you have no love in your life." Bai Lin said.
"Xiao Bai, how polite!" His father said in another room.
Bai Lin continued to eat nonchalantly, and said, "So, you are relatives?"
Bai Jing'an was stunned for a while, Bai Lin's voice was brisk, and he asked the question as a matter of course, and even dragged the snack plate onto his lap.
"Where are you going?" the man asked again.
"I'm not sure." Bai Jing'an said, his voice dry.
Bai Lin looked ready to listen, so he started talking. He stammered about how he came from, what had happened, which he had never said before, so the words did not convey the meaning. He said he didn't know why he had come.
Bai Sang listened curiously. When Bai Jingan was talking about the funeral, she ran to get the pet rabbit she made—made of old clothes and parts, very ugly—and put it on his lap, thinking it would have a comforting effect.
She looked very clear in the dream, she was a very good-looking child with the same gray eyes as her brother. She didn't even manage to grow up.
Bai Lin smiled at him, Bai Jingan also laughed, he knew he had found the place.
Although he doesn't know anything yet, he likes it here.
Bai Lin was lying on a makeshift bed in the corner of the room, his gray pupils blanked by a high fever.
The air was filled with a terrible stench and the buzzing of flies, and the Lower Town was reduced to a huge, highly putrid dump.
In the end no one was left.
Bai Jing'an curled up in the temporary hut, thinking tirelessly about how to take Bai Lin out. He has the authority to go out, but he can't go to the edge of the packaging area at all. It is even more impossible to bring Bai Lin.
Bai Lin led him out of the darkness and rescued him countless times, but now the man had exhausted his last ounce of strength and couldn't even stand up. You have to figure out a way yourself.
Losing too much blood, it was difficult to concentrate, and Bai Jingan thought of the dog aimlessly again.
It is cleaner than other dogs, gregarious, and understands human language. Could it have been a dog with an owner? Someone, or a family, loved it, but its owner died, and it's easy to die these days. He lives on the streets, here the genetic pollution is very serious, he is injured and infected, or he becomes deformed by eating something he shouldn't eat. No one knows that he was once a dog with a family and a yearning for a better time in his heart.
If the owner is still alive, it will be very sad to know that it has suffered so much.
But most likely there is no master at all, he is just imagining foolishly.
They are in hell and it will eat you from the inside and destroy you. And uptown people were laughing and watching in front of the TV.
How many people are watching? There are 120 main stations of Fujin TV Station, and there are as many TV stations below as sandstone, not to mention countless private channels.
Bai Jing'an once told Bai Lin that if he mutated, let him kill him. Bai Lin stared at the boots for a long time and said "hmm".
He agreed because he knew that in the end he could only end the pain of his loved one in such a humble and desperate way, instead of falling into the abyss again. He protected them, and when they needed one, he shot.
Even if he failed to protect anyone in the end, no one could protect anyone here. He couldn't protect himself either.
Bai Lin stared at the gun on the floor, moved his finger, Bai Jing'an took a sudden step forward, and kicked the gun away.
The gun hit the wall, knocking off a piece of paint, Bai Jing'an rushed over, took away all the guns around Bai Lin, and put them where he couldn't reach them. He went to search for the weapon on Bai Lin's body again, but he didn't know why he did this, he didn't dare to look Bai Lin in the eye.
"Bai Jing'an..." Bai Lin said, his voice hoarse, "Don't be like this."
"It's not necessarily going to happen," Bai Jing'an said, not looking at him, "I know Star Mansion Studio, they did a mutant show, there were similar things in it, sometimes it's just a fever, nothing happened..."
Bai Lin went to grab his gun, but Bai Jing'an broke his hand away and took the gun away.
The man had no strength in his hand and kept shaking, unable to stop it.
Bai Jing'an also took away the two knives on his body. He felt that he was confronting something unknown and terrifying. He didn't dare to look at it, and he refused to take a step back.
"The new guy..." Bai Lin said.
That's what he always calls him.
"It will be fine, there will be a solution..." Bai Jing'an said, taking the last knife away.
Bai Lin didn't plead any more, he curled up very small, looking very pitiful.
His shoulders were shaking, Bai Jingan wasn't sure if he was crying or not. He dare not look.
3.
Bai Lin convulsed, Bai Jing'an took a torn towel for him to bite.
Blood flowed from the man's nose, Bai Jing'an felt hot and humid liquid flowing down his hands, and his ears were also bleeding. Viruses are destroying the brain.
The man's eyes were filled with gray chaos, and he fell into the bottom of the abyss. He was in great pain, but he couldn't cry out.
Bai Jing'an hugged him, recalled the properties of the virus, and guessed to what extent his brain had been eroded...
He didn't take any protection against Bai Lin's possible mutation, he just sat there, feeling the blood of that man flowing from his fingers, hot and humid, suffocating. From this moment on, Bai Lin will never return to the way he was before.
The virus will first swallow, chew and mutate everything that belongs to him as Bai Lin.
Everyone believes that Xiaobai can handle everything...but it doesn't. He's going to die, it's going to be miserable, no good ends like that dog.
His light was extinguished and crushed, crumbling like the flesh of those animals in the dark mud of the Lower City. No one in this world can save anyone.
He knew he had no chance...
It's just that when he thinks about it now, Bai Jingan's mind is full of those things in the past.
The last time she saw Bai Sang, the little girl told him firmly that she never believed that there was anything more delicious than sugar water popsicles in the world. Bai Xu made an ugly light advertisement, and a group of people specially came to watch and laugh at it. They played billiards together, Bai Jing'an didn't remember what he said, they were all meaningless words, he only remembered that he laughed happily.
They pushed Bai Lin to the seat in the center, and the firelight illuminated the man's face. A group of people got excited and yelled, thinking they could change the world. Bai Lin stood in front of the holographic sand table, looking very tired, and said, "We have to get rid of this army."
Bai Lin asked him what sunshine looks like.
Bai Lin was laughing, saying that he would cover him.
Bai Lin looked at the dying dog...
Bai Jing'an suddenly opened his eyes and woke up. He didn't know when he fell asleep again. When he woke up, he was covered in sweat, and the wound was very painful. He had cleaned the wound hastily before, but it was of little use, and the wound was seriously infected. However, there was not much left of the medicine he found before, and he didn't want to waste it.
The air was filled with a lingering rancid smell, no clean water could be found, and the sound of flies was overwhelming, buzzing and buzzing, swallowing one's mind.
Bai Jing'an heard footsteps outside.
Like a human, kind of limping, dragging something... probably a tail. He didn't know what they would be like, only that they were approaching and hungry.
Bai Jing'an struggled to get up, opened the floating screen, he hacked into a group of nearby cameras, and could see the environment around the house. He always wanted to use the hand that was gone, as if he was still whole.
On the flickering screen, he saw a creature approaching... It looked like a human being, about two meters tall, with a long tail and fangs sticking out. They even produced some kind of culture, made of human skin cloak and smeared blood on his body. Nightmarish, makeshift cannibal culture.
The virus has undergone unimaginable distortion in this huge area.
Bai Jing'an was expressionless, thinking that he might have collapsed, but he didn't realize it. Uptown meltdowns are so often that you don't even know you're crazy.
Bai Xu always said that he was pretending to be cool, as if he had an idea.
In addition to the monitoring screen, the most lit screen around Bai Jing'an was the background interface of the World Identity Administration.
He skillfully introduces genetic verification, resets data, and covers up traces. He has never played so well and seamlessly.
He is Bai Jing'an, the man from the upper city, he knows what the world is like, he knows the rules, he has left the back door, and he has participated in the fragmentation hacking operation against the TV station, he must do something.
No one knew what he was doing, only he was thinking, planning.
In a trance, he saw Bai Sang sitting beside him, and Bai Xu... all those people who died. Sitting next to him like before, discussing tactics, the atmosphere is still very relaxed.
"I told you earlier, it won't work." Bai Jing'an said.
"You didn't say it earlier." Bai Xu said, "You have been very happy."
Bai Jing'an wanted to say that he didn't, but he was sure he did, he was the one who was against the sum team. But he just opened his lower lip, his throat was too dry to make a sound. He knew that he was really happy all the time.
Bai Jing'an walked up to Bai Lin, who was lying there lifelessly.
He tried the temperature on his forehead, and the fever seemed to have subsided a little, but it was probably a hallucination, and there was no thermometer here.
From the data point of view, there is indeed a three-in-a-thousand chance that someone will be infected but not cause mutations.
Maybe he'll mutate after all and become one of Hell's nightmares, or maybe he'll actually have his brain completely blown out and become demented. But maybe not, just a fever, just a manageable brain injury, and he'll get up and fight again.
Bai Jing'an knew that he couldn't survive.
He's never been one to survive. But Bai Lin yes, if nothing happened, he could walk to the edge of the encapsulation area alive.
He thought to himself, this is the best choice, the last chance. Bai Lin's chance.
The monster's footsteps were getting closer and closer, Bai Jing'an knelt down and looked at him tenderly.
The man also looked at him, his eyes were almost completely blank, and he lost the ability to act. The dim light outside the window shines in the small room, casting gentle light on the garbage dump.
"You are leaving..." Bai Jing'an said, touching the man's shoulder, "If you survive... you will meet someone else, you will have a new life, new friends... Forget about this, you did your best , no one can do as much as you. I also tried my best, and I can only do this."
Bai Jing'an really wanted to cry like a child, but he never cried when his parents died, and he still can't do it now. He remained expressionless, thinking about his chances.
"If you really go out," he added, "you can look at the sun. You've always wanted to see it... I can't describe it. The sun I heard is completely different from what I saw."
He stroked Bai Lin's hair, then stood up, and picked up the combustible materials collected in the bag.
He put all the weapons back in front of Bai Lin, and he only took a gun.
He didn't have any cards in his hand, but he still looked confident. Always calm and feels like he knows what he's doing.
He will play his last card well.
"I'm leaving," he said to Bai Lin, "you don't have to look after me."
He felt Bai Lin's fingertips tremble and touch his trousers, Bai Jing'an just stood still for a few seconds, then turned and left.
When he went out he turned off the light and locked the door from the outside. The monster would come in sooner or later, there was only so much he could do.
Holding a gun, he walked towards a higher place, trying to stay away from Bai Lin. The creatures saw him, but two farther away were still peering into the house. Bai Jing'an fired a shot, the sound was very loud, and now all the monsters noticed his direction.
He continued walking while picking up the fuel canister in his bag, throwing it behind him, hitting it and bursting into flames.
His marksmanship has never been very good, Bai Lin said that his motor nerves are suspicious, but at this moment he played very well.
Bai Jing'an came to the roof of the furthest house he could go to, but it wasn't that far, he was not good at this.
From a height, he saw countless monsters gathering towards him, broken and deformed. A fallen city. The normal streets were twisted and made up of monsters, he had never seen anything like it, it was hard to believe it was human. Those twisted limbs make up the whole world.
Bai Lin led him back, rescued him, and told him things would get better.
But the darkness is too deep, so someone has to sacrifice, and Bai Jing'an will be one of them without hesitation.
The monster started to climb the stairs, Bai Jingan only had one bullet in his gun.
Bai Lin would have done a better job here, he wouldn't have fired so many guns, he was very good at this kind of thing, as everyone expected, he could react with precise timing and kill monsters. He is reassuring, will make a decision when there is no way out, and never give up.
In the end... he was the one who shot those people. He makes decisions, he suffers.
Bai Jing'an thought of Bai Lin rubbing his hair again, saying "I will cover you", he subconsciously smiled.
He knows what he's doing, he's seen it a lot. There's tricks like that all over the kill show, and Dad is. He also had a crush on a Kill Show star before, unrealistically thinking he'd be the one to figure it all out. When he died, he was a member of the huge ratings data.
People can be blind sometimes and put someone on a pedestal, pretending to be an outlet. But a disaster is still a disaster, and it won't change just because you like a certain star.
It's just that you just... want to like who and what to look for. You just can't believe nothing.
The monsters were hunched over, wearing human skin cloaks, and the victims' heads were twisted and hung on their shoulders. Bai Jing'an didn't even watch horror movies before, but now he looks at them directly.
He couldn't fight back, but he fired one last shot at the monsters as they lunged. He's not aiming at his head, he's fighting back at the last moment.
At this moment, he heard a gunshot in the street downstairs, which seemed to come from the room where they had been hiding.
The monster can't shoot, Bai Lin did it.
At that moment, the fire light illuminated the darkness in the room, Bai Jingan seemed to see the shadow of the monster falling down, Bai Lin woke up and grabbed the gun...but maybe it was just a fantasy.
But he indulged himself in the belief that his friend was alive, out of hell, and perhaps seeing the light of day.
What will he experience again? Even if there is no mutation, he will never return to his original state. The virus has gouged out more than half of his flesh and blood, and he will always be in pain and crippled. He could no longer remember what he loved, where he was born, his pride, his glory and his pain. He would be someone else, but still be himself.
Bai Jing'an knows that sometimes things should end at a certain moment, no matter how good everything is. But he was stubbornly unwilling.
The monster pounced on him, and he couldn't think of anything more. He will die in this broken city with no identity anymore, but it doesn't matter, all the corpses here have no identity, they died silently in the dark.
He's going to be one of them, he's just...
Just want to continue.
Let at least one person live and be happy again. Maybe to see the sky, to meet new people, to love something, to shine.
It was childish and impractical, but he was only fifteen anyway.
He gave a smile and ended up dreaming that childish dream and dying.
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100 questions
Ordinary direction
1. What is your name
Summer: summer.
Bai Lin: Bai Lin.
2. What is your age
Xia Tian: Twenty-one years old.
Bai Lin: Twenty-four...not twenty-six years old.
3. What is your gender
Xia Tian: It's like a prison registration.
Bai Lin: Male.
4. What is your personality like
Xia Tian: I am very good, very cheerful and easy to get along with.
Bai Lin: I'm fine too, maybe a little boring.
Xia Tian: You are not boring at all, you are very... exciting.
5. What about the character of the other party
Xia Tian: Very cool, there are always some great ideas for sabotage.
Bai Lin: Very gentle.
Xia Tian: ... Really
Bai Lin: Really.
6. When did the two meet? Where
Summer: At the first lottery ceremony of Fujin TV's 199th Killing Show.
Bai Lin: He is wearing a light-colored T-shirt and a worn black canvas jacket. He looks good, but he is very irritable, as if he wants to destroy the world. I guess he had a bad injury before.
(Turning to look at him in Xia Tian, Bai Lin strokes his hair.)
7. What is your first impression of the other party
Xia Tian: He was sitting alone in the corner of the sofa, looking like he was trying not to attract anyone's attention.
Bai Lin: He looked like he was burning, laughing, but very angry. It's hard not to notice him.
8. What do you like about the other person
Xia Tian: I like everywhere.
Bai Lin: Well, I like everything.
9. What do you hate about the other party
Xia Tian: I probably hate that I can cause trouble too much.
Bai Lin: I don't hate it. you are fine.
10. Do you think you have a good relationship with the other party
Xia Tian: I didn't think so at first. When I ran into him in the first round of the lottery, I thought it was unlucky to meet someone who was totally out of sync.
Bai Lin: Yes, he also picked on the staff, who seemed to want to kill him. I thought at the time, this guy is a big deal.
Xia Tian: But there is no one more compatible than us.
Bai Lin: Yes, in the end we all like to stir up trouble.
11. How do you call each other
Xia Tian: Xiaobai.
Bai Lin: Summer.
12. What would you like to be called by the other party
Xia Tian: He can call it whatever he likes.
Bai Lin: Xiaobai. I like when he calls me Xiaobai.
13. If you use an animal as a metaphor, what do you think the other person is
Xia Tian: The silver-white... wolf? Snowy owl? leopard? cat? I don't know, I haven't actually seen many animals, but fans have many examples.
Bai Lin: He is Xia Tian.
14. If you want to give a gift to the other party, which one would you choose
Xia Tian: How about sending him myself? (Come over to kiss)
Bai Lin: The best gift in the world.
15. What gift do you want
Xia Tian: I don’t want anything anymore. I never thought that there would be so many and such good things in my life.
Bai Lin: Yeah... I never thought I could get such a good one, (looking at Xia Tian) sometimes it feels like a dream.
16. Are you dissatisfied with the other party? What is it like in general
Xia Tian: No. When I first met, there were many…
Bai Lin: He is always talking about how to kill more people, how to get into trouble, how to become famous.
Xia Tian: He is always talking about how to hide.
Bai Lin: Later we reached an agreement on killing more people, getting into trouble, and being famous.
17. What is your problem
Xia Tian: I'm a little emotionally unstable.
Bai Lin: You are in a good mood.
18. What is the opponent's fault
Xia Tian: Xiao Bai is perfect.
Bai Lin: He is too handsome.
(Summer smiles at him, and leans over to bite his ear.)
Bai Lin: And... also too provocative...
19. What did the other party do (including mistakes) that made you unhappy
Bai Lin: When he started to do nothing, he didn't care about his own safety at all, as if he would self-destruct at any time.
Xia Tian: Because the situation is very tense...
Bai Lin: The situation is always tense.
Xia Tian: I will notice.
Bai Lin: You better pay attention!
20. What did you do (including mistakes) that made the other party unhappy
Bai Lin: Twice he also complained that I rushed too hard in battle. I'm so sorry to say that.
Xia Tian: I know, I will be careful next time...
21. To what extent is the relationship between the two of you
Xia Tian: Relationship in bed.
Bai Lin: Yes.
Summer: Thrills, Fits, and Exciting Sex in Bed—
Bai Lin: You don't need to describe so much.
22. Where did the two have their first date
Summer: Dessert shop!
Bai Lin: We have never dated at a dessert shop, and we have only done two shows.
Summer: I mean, we can go later so our first date is at the dessert shop.
23. How was the atmosphere between the two at that time
Xia Tian: Very good, Xiao Bai is very hot, I kissed him many times.
Bai Lin (a little fidgeting): …
Xia Tian: He is sweet to kiss.
Bai Lin: Are you enough
Xia Tian: When we got back in the car, we fired right away.
24. How far has it progressed
Xia Tian: I did everything I could, and I did it many, many times.
25. Where do you often go on dates
Summer: dessert shop.
Bai Lin: ...Actually, most of the time was spent in the ruins.
26. What kind of preparations will you make for the other party's birthday
Xia Tian: If possible, maybe prepare a cake, and many desserts...
Bai Lin: You just need to be here.
27. Which party confessed
Xia Tian: We don't seem to have this step
Bai Lin: No.
Xia Tian: Xiao Bai directly dragged me to the bed.
Bai Lin: He was wearing a black shirt, sitting on the passenger seat, three buttons were unbuttoned, and he kept laughing. It's just trying to seduce me.
28. How much do you like each other
Xia Tian: I can't describe this.
Bai Lin: He is... everything.
29. So, do you love each other
Xia Tian: I have never loved this person so much.
Bai Lin: He...appeared there, making you suddenly realize what kind of nightmare you lived in before, and you couldn't believe how you could live like this. It also makes you realize that the world isn't that bad, that you can live as a human being here, that the light is still the light, and happiness is still within reach.
30. What did the other party say that made you feel very wrong
Xia Tian: If I act like a baby, he will be very helpless.
Bai Lin: And when he said it hurts...
Xia Tian (touching his hair): I have no pain anymore.
31. If you feel that the other party is suspected of changing his mind, what will you do
Xia Tian: Xiao Bai will not change his mind.
32. Can you forgive the other party's change of heart
Xia Tian: If he is really... he will be happy... I don't know, but the scene probably won't be pretty, I'm not the kind of person who is very generous.
Bai Lin: No one else will. You are not allowed to have either.
33. What will you do if the other party is more than one hour late for a date
Xia Tian: How is it possible, he just picked it up.
Bai Lin: I have to go find him. Something must have happened.
34. Which part of the other person's body do you like most
Xia Tian: Hair, eyes, mouth corners, body injuries... I like everything.
Bai Lin: Well... I like everything too.
Xia Tian: I want to kiss them all once.
(Bai Lin's body tenses up.)
35. What is the other party's sexy expression
Xia Tian: When he wanted to scream but tried hard to hold back. And when he looks controlling, staring at you so intently, it's like...
Bai Lin: You don't have to describe it in such detail.
Xia Tian: What is my sexiest expression
Bai Lin: Everywhere is sexy.
Xia Tian: Tell me in detail.
Bai Lin: When you are laughing, there are you... just... can we stop talking about this
Xia Tian: I want to know.
Bai Lin: I'll give you a detailed demonstration on the bed.
36. What is the thing that makes your heart beat faster when two people are together
Summer: When going to bed. Although theoretically it may be time to fight monsters, my heart beats very fast.
Bai Lin: He smiled at me, he looked like he really wanted to come over, but he didn't come... I just don't understand it, it's like a love affair.
37. Have you ever lied to someone? Are you good at telling lies
Xia Tian: I told him that we would be fine, that I would take care of him. We're... not going to be okay, I don't think we're going to be okay, I'm just used to saying that. I guess I'm good at lying.
Bai Lin: We'll be fine.
38. Do you feel the happiest when doing something
Xia Tian: It's good when you're with him, when you're doing nothing.
Bai Lin: Well, just being together is fine.
39. Have you ever had a fight
Xia Tian: When we first met, we were often noisy.
Bai Lin: He is looking for death.
Xia Tian: Xiaobai just wants to pass the level in a low-key manner, but I just can't stop the car.
Bai Lin: Later, I thought, the game of life these days is impossible to pass anyway, so it’s better to let it fly.
40. What kind of quarrels are they
Xia Tian: Basically, I want to do something, but he won't let me do it.
Bai Lin: That's basically a plan to seek death.
Xia Tian: I am alive.
Bai Lin: I almost died.
41. How to reconcile afterwards
Xia Tian: He can't help it, we are in the same team, unless we kill me, we can't get rid of me.
Bai Lin: Even at that time, I never wanted to get rid of you. You just... make me anxious, there's something about you...
Xia Tian (kiss him): Yes.
Bai Lin: It's too intense and vivid, I'm just afraid to watch it.
42. Do you still want to be lovers after reincarnation
Xia Tian: Reincarnation
Bai Lin: It is a religious concept, which means that people will be born again after death, and live another life. I don't believe that, but... if there is one, it doesn't matter what the relationship is, I want to get to know him again, take care of him, make him happy.
Xia Tian: Then I will wait for you.
43. When does it make you feel that "you are loved"
Xia Tian: When he looked at me. When I think about him. all the time.
Bai Lin: All the time.
44. When will you feel "Maybe he doesn't love me anymore..."
Xia Tian: He will love me forever.
Bai Lin: Okay...
(Xiamen looks at him.)
Bai Lin: I will always love you.
45. How do you express your love
Xia Tian: Uh, I always want to stick with him, make love, cook for him, act like a baby, make him happy... that's all.
Bai Lin: Well, to make him happy, whatever is fine.
46. What do you think is the flower that matches the other party
Xia Tian: I don't know, I haven't thought about this problem. The flowers in the upper city are pretty, but they are a bit abnormal.
Bai Lin: Yes, it will be on all the time, it is simply inexplicable.
Xia Tian: I think he may be the kind of flower that is not conspicuous at the beginning, but blooms enthusiastically.
Bai Lin: Maybe it looks like sunflowers? Very bright orange or red, blooming in the sun, you can't move your eyes.
47. Is there something that the two of you are hiding from each other
Xia Tian: No.
Bai Lin: There is nothing to hide.
48. What is the source of your inferiority complex
Xia Tian: I don't have any inferiority complex.
Bai Lin: Well, he is very confident.
49. Is the relationship between the two open or secret
Xia Tian: It was a secret before, after all, it was not a good year to fall in love. But now all my friends know.
Bai Lin: I like that everyone knows that he is mine.
50. Do you think the love with each other can last forever
Xia Tian: Until death.
Bai Lin: If there is a next life, I have to know you too.
Xia Tian (kissing him): Well, then make you happy.
Adult
51. Are you the attacker or the recipient
Xia Tian: Both.
Bai Lin: It depends on the situation.
52. Why did you decide so
Xia Tian: Ah
Bai Lin: It just depends on the situation at that time...
Xia Tian: When Xiao Bai is excited to kill, he will think about it.
53. Are you satisfied with the current situation
Xia Tian: Very satisfied.
Bai Lin: I am also very satisfied.
54. Where was the first H
Summer: At... at a show...
Bai Lin: Terrible show...
55. How did you feel at that time
Xia Tian: I just want to end that as soon as possible.
Bai Lin: Just... No matter what, end this and bring him back.
56. How did the other party look like at that time
summer:…
Bai Lin: He tried hard to restrain himself.
57. On the morning of the first night, what was your first sentence
Xia Tian: I don't want to talk about this.
Bai Lin: Next question.
58. What is the frequency of H every week
Xia Tian: Depends on the situation, normal five or six times, sometimes more.
Bai Lin: I know it's a bit demanding, and we will control it in the future.
Xia Tian: We will not control.
59. In your opinion, under the ideal situation, how many times a week is the best
Xia Tian: This is very good.
Bai Lin: Well, it depends, we... just want to be together and enjoy ourselves.
60. So what kind of H is it
Xia Tian: Excited.
Bai Lin: It's safe.
61. Where is your most sensitive part
Xia Tian: I am very sensitive when I am with Xiao Bai.
(Bai Lin's body is tensing...)
62. What is the most sensitive part of the other party
Xia Tian: Xiaobai is not prone to biting, he would tremble, call my name in a low voice, and tell me not to bite, but—
Bai Lin: Next question!
63. If you use one sentence to describe the other party at H
Xia Tian: He tries hard to have a sense of control.
Bai Lin: But he's too... so flirtatious on the bed, I can't control it.
Xia Tian: The appearance of Xiaobai losing control is very cute.
64. Frankly speaking, do you like H
Xia Tian: I like it.
Bai Lin: I like it, only with him.
65. In general, where is H
Summer: in bed, on the floor, in the kitchen, in the training room, in the car...
66. Which place do you want to try
Xia Tian: Being alone with Xiao Bai, anywhere is fine.
Bai Lin: He tried everything he wanted to try.
Xia Tian: Some have to try several times.
67. Is the shower before or at the end of H
Bai Lin: It depends on the situation.
Summer: Sometimes in the bathroom.
68. Is there any agreement between the two at H
Bai Lin: He is mine, and no one is allowed to touch it.
Xia Tian: Well, I am yours.
69. Have you ever had sex with someone other than your lover
Xia Tian: I don't want to sleep with anyone other than Xiao Bai.
Bai Lin: I also don't want to be with anyone other than Xia Tian, although it's not easy in Uptown... People here will take it for granted to do something to you, like a video on demand.
70. Do you agree or disagree with the idea of "If you can't get the heart, at least you have to get the body"
Xia Tian: Uptown likes to come here.
Bai Lin: There is a smoky atmosphere, and there are advertisements all over the world, saying that you must have something. But there's nothing better in the world than keeping him safe and happy.
71. If the other party is raped by thugs, what would you do
Xia Tian: Kill him.
Bai Lin: Kill him, at any cost.
Xia Tian: Things in the lower city are a bit chaotic. I thought it would be better in the upper city, but it turned out that there is a fucking rape organization here, and those powerful people—no matter who they are or what background they have, I won’t swallow it .
Bai Lin: I used to feel that the world was like this, and I had no choice but to keep a low profile and turn a blind eye. But that time... when Xia Tian said that he was going to kill the people in Honey Pavilion, I said it as if I was just helping, but I was... very excited and kept thinking. Like a fire burning in ashes, nothing can be put out.
72. Do you feel embarrassed in front of H? or later
Xia Tian: Why
Bai Lin: He is never embarrassed.
Xia Tian: When you keep staring, there will be a little... that look... There is nothing embarrassing about this kind of thing, but your appearance always makes me feel...
Bai Lin: What
Xia Tian: That kind of... feeling of cherishing, I am actually at a loss for this.
73. If a good friend said to you "I'm lonely, so only tonight, please..." and asked for H, would you
Xia Tian: I am not short of money.
Bai Lin: I didn't say I would give you money.
Xia Tian: It sounds like I want to give...
Bai Lin: I don't like sex. I don't want to sleep with anyone but Summer.
74. Do you think you are good at H
Xia Tian: I am very good at it.
Bai Lin: Very good at it.
Summer: Both top and bottom are good at it.
Bai Lin: Yes.
75. What about the other party
Xia Tian: Xiaobaiqi is doing a great job, with top-notch technology, I like Xiaobai the most—
Bai Lin (staring at him firmly): …
Xia Tian: How about my skills
Bai Lin: Very... very good, next question.
76. What do you want the other party to say at the time of H
Xia Tian: When he loses control... he calls me sweet, calls me by my name, and says I'm good everywhere.
Bai Lin: When he called me "Little Bai"...it made my bones go limp.
77. Which expression do you like more when the other party is H
Xia Tian: He tried hard to control but couldn't control the expression.
Bai Lin: So you just... make a fuss.
Xia Tian: At that time, you looked fragile, real, and very happy.
78. Do you think it is okay to have sex with people other than lovers
Xia Tian: After falling in love, I can't think about people other than Xiao Bai.
Bai Lin: I don't want to do this with anyone but him.
79. Are you interested in SM
Xia Tian: No.
Bai Lin: There are many tricks in Uptown, but I'm not interested.
80. If the other party suddenly stopped asking for your body, what would you do
Xia Tian: How is it possible!
Bai Lin: It's really impossible...
81. What do you think about rape
Xia Tian: Disgusting.
Bai Lin: And it’s a way of consumption in Uptown, and it’s the most disgusting thing to put it in the list of highlights and features as a selling point.
82. What is the more painful thing in H
Xia Tian: Anywhere is good when I go to bed with Xiao Bai.
Bai Lin: Sometimes I think it should be over, but he just... I have no control over it.
Xia Tian: You like this.
83. In the H so far, which place makes you most excited and anxious
summer:…
Bai Lin: Anxiety, I think it's... During that guest show... I didn't think I was excited, but I did... I couldn't control...
Xia Tian: It's about the medicine!
Bai Lin: We... have nothing to be ashamed of.
Xia Tian: I don't want to talk about this anymore.
84. Have you ever been seduced by the recipient
Xia Tian: I often tempt him.
Bai Lin: And I'll be hooked right away.
Xia Tian: It was the same when he seduced me, although he basically dragged me directly to the bed, once on the wall, twice on the sofa, and once on the floor...
Bai Lin: Next question!
85. What was the reaction of the attacking side at that time
Xia Tian: At this time, of course, I will do my best—
Bai Lin: I have never once been able to resist his temptation. Sometimes I obviously have other plans, but... At that time, I always thought, what is more important than being with him.
86. Has the attacker committed any violence
summer:…
Bai Lin: No one has done this kind of thing.
Xia Tian: That guest show...
Bai Lin: Don't make this matter up, I said we should do it, and this is the only way to solve the problem. I know you're upset, but I have to take you back.
87. What was the recipient's reaction at that time
Bai Lin: None of us would do that kind of thing.
88. For you, what is the ideal object "as an H object"
Xia Tian: Xiaobai... is very good.
Bai Lin: I never imagined it, but when I met him, he was even better than my ideal.
89. Does the current partner meet your ideal
Xia Tian: I never thought I could get such a good one.
Bai Lin: Yes, it’s not like this world can give people such good things. It will be given, then destroyed, and I will keep it no matter the cost.
90. Have you ever used props in H
Xia Tian: I haven't used it.
Bai Lin: I like to feel him directly.
91. How old was your "first time"
Xia Tian: Fifteen years old, about the 193rd killing show, the upper city celebrated together in Pucheng, and the lower down got into a group fight with the local administrative department. I was too drunk at the time...
Bai Lin: I can't remember.
92. Was the object at that time the current lover
Xia Tian: No. Downtown... This aspect is messy, everyone can live a day, this is not a year to fall in love, you have some fun while you are alive, I hope you don't die too ugly.
93. Where do you like to be kissed most
Xia Tian: I like him to kiss my hair, my lips, the back of my neck...everywhere.
Bai Lin: I like the way he looks when kissing, he will bite me, he will act coquettishly... I want to kiss him all the time.
94. Where do you like to kiss each other most
Xia Tian: Kiss his wound, I can kiss and lick it all the time, sometimes I will bite, Xiaobai will not be able to bear it, and tell me "Xiamen, don't bite..."
Bai Lin (body tensed): You can't... biting all the time and talking like that...
Xia Tian: You obviously like it very much.
Bai Lin: Okay...
95. What is the most pleasing thing for the other party during H
Xia Tian: Listen to him, he is very controlling. In bed, he likes me to call out.
Bai Lin: Once I said that I cried once, and it would be worthwhile for him to cry once. He really cried whenever he wanted, without any pressure. He also said... some...
Xia Tian: Xiao Bai quickly disarmed and surrendered.
96. What do you think about when you are in H
Xia Tian: Xiaobai is so kind.
Bai Lin: I just want to make sure that he is there, no matter how sure I am, it’s not enough...
Xia Tian: I will always be here, you can do whatever you want.
Bai Lin: It's hard to imagine that one day I can get these, so good, so radiant.
97. How many times a night
Summer: Twice.
Bai Lin: Sometimes I want it once, but I can't stop the car...
98. When you were in H, did you take off your clothes yourself, or did the other party help you take them off
Xia Tian: He likes to help me take it off, sometimes I do it myself, depending on the situation.
Bai Lin: I like to control everything in my hands, I can't control...
99. What is H to you
Xia Tian: Great thing.
Bai Lin: I used to be very repulsed, thinking that this was one of countless feasting games, chaotic and obscene. I never thought that everything would be this good, that I would... experience such a great thing.
100. Please say something to your lover.
Xia Tian: We will be fine.
Bai Lin: Well, I will take care of you, and you will take care of me.
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