After Kodori returned home from the band's activities that night, as soon as he opened the door, he saw a man sitting at the dining table. He was a little surprised for a moment, then while changing his shoes, he asked, "Mr. Elder, haven't you left yet?"
It was Wesk's silent and calm gaze who answered him. Red bloodshot eyes filled the eyes, and the ice-blue pupils seemed to be a little turbid under the dim yellow light in the living room. Wesker just stared at Kedori, and after a long time, he asked in a hoarse voice: " How was your day?"
These words seemed to have been hesitant in his throat for a long time before he said it. Under the dining table, where Kedori could not see, Visk clenched his fingers tightly and waited expectantly for Kedori's answer.
However, after Kodori only replied "not bad", there was no more sound.
The anticipation on Wesk's face was annihilated at once.
They seldom saw each other before. Basically, they would talk on the phone once a day. Kedori would tell him what he had done that day in the gentlest tone, and asked him how his day was with a smile. Sometimes Wesker is too busy to pay attention to these words, but now, when he wants to get this answer, his beloved is no longer willing to say it.
Thinking of this, Wesker's heart was empty. He hesitated for a long time after watching the other party hang his clothes on the hanger, and finally couldn't help but ask: "You... do you want to eat? I fry a little steak. I didn't expect you to come back so late, so the steak is a bit cold." As he said, Visk picked up the plate and walked to the kitchen, "I'll go and warm it up for you."
Seeing Kedori shaking his head helplessly, he said, "No need, Mr. Elder, I came back after eating out with friends. I didn't expect you to stay here and not go back to London. I'm really sorry." After a pause, Kodori asked with a smile, "When are you going back to London? Does the Elder Group have nothing to deal with?"
Wesker stood in front of the kitchen door holding a plate. He stared at Kedori for a long time with complicated eyes, and then shook his head: "Well, I was busy for a while, but now it's much better." Lie, in fact, these few Tian Group's affairs are really busy for him.
Kodori nodded indifferently: "That's it... But Mr. Elder, I think it's better for you to go back to London early. After all, there are still a lot of things to do at work. You're wasting time like this... Isn't it bad?"
Hearing the other party's concern for him, Wesker's eyes lit up: "You don't have to worry about me, I will deal with things as soon as possible here. Are you concerned about me? Kodori, in fact, if you really want us If I can spend more time together, I will try to come to Berlin as much as possible, so that we can spend more time together..." Get along for a while.
"You seem to have made a mistake."
Kodori's helpless voice interrupted Wesker's words. He saw the other party smiled and said: "Actually, you are here, and it really disturbs my life. I have a few friends coming to the party in a few days, and they saw You... I'm afraid it's not easy to introduce. After all, you and my sister are only married, and you live with me like this. My daily life is inconvenient, and my normal social interaction will also be affected. "
After a short pause, Kodori raised his lips with a slight smile and looked at Wesker: "So, if you really want to stay in Berlin... can you go out and find a hotel?"
A tank of cold water was poured from the head, and Wesker stared at Kedori for a long time before asking tremblingly, "Do you want me to leave?"
Kedori frowned embarrassedly: "Sorry, after all, it is really inconvenient for you to be here, if you don't mind, I can help you find a hotel. Now your relationship with me is not what it used to be, I am not at home. I don't think it's good for you to stay here, so I'll help you find a hotel so you can move in tomorrow."
"Kedori..."
The gentle and handsome man smiled and raised his head: "Huh?"
Wesker stared at the lover in front of him with complex eyes, still the familiar warm smile, still the gentle and calm tone, his voice was as soft as before, and his eyes were as quiet as ever. However, the love that once looked at him has disappeared invisibly.
As his lover said yesterday, that love is still preserved, but it is only preserved, and it really cannot be opened again. Knowing "love" but not feeling that emotion is like knowing that time is passing but not knowing why it is passing.
Love is still love, but I'm so tired that I don't know how to love, my mind is numb and my soul is weak.
but! Why did these appear between him and Kdori? !
He could clearly feel the heartbreak that was stinging because of indifference and neglect, and he could also feel the grief of seeing his lover no longer watching him with fiery eyes, his body and soul being divided in two , The body is intact, but the soul is tortured to pieces by love.
All day today, Wesker ate all the bread in his stomach in embarrassment, and then he never got a drop of water. He quickly handed over the company's affairs to his confidants on the phone, and then thought about how to restore his lover's heart.
Karen knew Kodori, and so did Visk.
The seven years of getting along with each other and the close integration of body and mind have allowed Wesker to know what kind of person Kodori is. He has a delicate mind and a gentle nature. He always remembers everyone's good points and takes the initiative to forget each other's bad points.
On this day, the more I thought about it, the more Wesker began to reflect on how much he had hurt Kodori. To be able to let such a gentle person break in despair to this point, it shows that he really hurt the other party in countless holes, and finally completely died...
Do not! Absolutely will not give up!
Actively ignoring the matter of "breaking the engagement", Wesk kept thinking about what he should do to let Kodori know how hot and sincere his love was for him. Now he really can't give up his power and status, but other than that, he is willing to do everything for Kedori! Even if he lowered his status and waited quietly at home for him to come back, even if he tried hard to make breakfast, he was ignored by the other party.
However, Wesker never imagined that he was so humble and small that he did not exchange a little soft-heartedness from Kedori. Kodori didn't care if he didn't get a drop of water that day, or the blisters he got scalded by the oil splashed for frying the steak, but wholeheartedly—
drive him away.
His heart ached as if he couldn't breathe, but his reason for many years had kept Wesk from showing a trace. He heard himself ask in a calm voice, "Will you be happy as long as I don't live in your house?"
Ketoli was stunned for a moment, then said helplessly: "If you really want to live here, I don't mean to drive you away. But I'm also busy with the orchestra every day, so I really can't take care of you."
"You used to have time!"
"But Mr. Elder, now I don't want to squeeze every second and every minute for you, I want to live leisurely and comfortably, and I don't want to count every minute and every second so much. So I really don't care. The extra time is allocated to you, and I can’t take care of you, so it’s better for you to stay in a convenient hotel.”
Hearing his lover say such words so calmly, the last ray of light in Wesk's eyes went out completely.
He put the plate in his hand gently on the table, and then slowly took off his apron. When his finger came into view, Kodori asked in surprise, "Is your finger hurt, Mr. Elder?"
Visk was shocked, then he looked up at Kedori, nodded and said, "Well, I was burnt by the oil a few times when I was frying the steak."
Hearing this, Kedori frowned slightly and said, "Then you have to be careful, but I think it's only a little red now, so it's probably not a problem." When he said this, Kedori was still standing there. Didn't mean to come forward.
And Wesker stared at him for a long time, finally closed his eyes, and then went straight to the entrance. After opening the door, he turned his head, as if trying to pretend to be calm, but still looked at the people in the living room with a sad expression. He said in one sentence: "Today, I only ate bread, and I haven't drank a drop of water yet. I have been thinking about how I can make you understand my heart, and finally I feel that I should give you a warm home and let You can see me and our home as soon as you come back. When I was frying the steak, two blisters were burned on my hand, and it was very painful, but I was thinking, if you eat this steak, maybe you will You can feel my mood at that time.”
"Kedori, now that I'm telling you all this, can you tell me how you feel?"
Hearing this, the handsome and handsome man sighed helplessly, then said with a light smile: "Mr. Elder, thank you for your kindness to me, I once told you that my love for you has not subsided, but in There is an invisible film between my heart and love. I know I love you, but my heart is so numb that I can't feel that love. Saying this... Can you understand?"
Closing his eyes, he blocked all the flooding heat. After a long time, Wesker slowly opened his eyes, looked at Kedori with those blue eyes like glaciers in the sea, and asked, "You once said that you like my eyes the most, and you want to warm the indifference in my heart. Ke Dori, do you remember?"
Kodori shook his head gently: "Mr. Elder, you really don't need to say, my heart tells me 'I love you very much', but my heart also tells me that it doesn't know how to experience that It's love. Maybe that love used to be sweet joy, maybe that love used to be bitter and sad, but now it's just calm and indifferent."
A long silence emerged between the two.
After waiting for a long time, Wesk slowly lowered his head, let his hair block his eyes, and then said in a hoarse voice: "Is that so... I understand. I won't bother you anymore, Kodori. That 'Bunnier' is a gift from me, you don't need to give me money, you don't need to pay me back, just treat it as... just as a greeting gift from your sister's fiance."
"It's late, where are you going?"
Wesker didn't look up: "I have a place to go."
"Is it a hotel?"
"Um."
"Then pay attention to safety and be careful on the road."
Visk turned around and stepped out the door. He suddenly thought: "Can you tell me your number, Kodori? Since you've put it down completely, then... you wouldn't go out of your way to tell me your new number, would you?"
Hearing this, Ke Duoli was slightly startled, and then smiled: "Okay, tell me your number, and I'll call you right away."
"Didn't you already have my number on your back?"
"Sorry, Mr. Elder, I've been busy lately, and I can't remember your number."
"...Okay, I'll write you a note."
Wesker walked into the room again and was about to look for paper and a pen. Unexpectedly, when he was about to write with the pen, he saw a slender and straight hand stopped in front of him. Wesk looked up along the hand, and saw Kedori looking down at him, and said, "You don't need to write a special note, you can just report it to me."
Visk's fingers holding the pen froze suddenly, as if he had returned to seven years ago, when he secretly wrote his phone on a note and stuffed it into the palm of a young Kedori. This dazzling, even seven years have passed.
Wesker reported his number in a calm tone, then turned around and walked out of the door, steadily disappearing into the corner of the apartment. The moment he walked out of the door, there was a ruthless sound of closing the door behind him, as if to cut off everything and shut it down resolutely.
He used to kiss that warm lips countless times behind that door; now, his lover would only tell him in a gentle, calm tone: "Mr. Elder, we've never been in a relationship."
After all, it was him who was at fault. Wesker Elder covered his eyes with his hands, allowing the liquid to flow out of his eyes, through his fingers, and wet the cuffs of his white shirt.
Never in more than thirty years has he cried as much as this day and night.
His lover really doesn't want him anymore.
His lover... can't love him any more.