When Han Yue woke up, his mind was still a little dazed. He felt in a trance that he had slept for a long time, but when he looked at the wall clock in a daze, it was only ten o'clock in the morning.
He yawned, and suddenly saw Chu Ci leaning on the head of the bed, wearing a black nightgown, looking at him thoughtfully.
The curtains in the room were drawn tightly, his side face was translucently white in the dim light, his hair was hanging down before his eyebrows, and it looked extraordinarily soft and black.
Han Yue lazily stretched out his hand and pulled him into his arms, sniffed the fragrance in his hair vigorously, and said with a smile: "Get up early in the morning to take a bath? Why don't you sleep a little longer."
Chu Ci closed her eyes silently.
"What are you thinking, staring at me like this." Han Yue touched his face narcissistically, "Could it be that he suddenly fell in love with me?"
He obviously didn't expect any answer to his words, it would be good if Chu Ci didn't slap him.
Feeling good about himself, Han Yue hugged Chu Ci, and was about to lean in for a kiss, when suddenly he felt Chu Ci's body trembling slightly in his arms.
The trembling frequency is extremely small, if you don't observe carefully, you will almost think it is just an illusion. Han Yue was taken aback, and quickly turned his face to test the temperature of his forehead, and even his voice changed: "What's wrong with you? What's wrong?"
Chu Ci shook her head and said in a low voice, "I feel uncomfortable."
"W-Where is it uncomfortable? I'll call right away..."
"No. I feel bad."
Han Yue was stunned for a while, thinking about the past and the future in his heart. For a while, he wondered if he had gone too far last night and put some psychological pressure on him, which made him feel uncomfortable when he woke up early in the morning. Will he suddenly realize that he likes me, but he just refused to admit it before, so he feels conflicted and complicated in his heart? All kinds of thoughts went back and forth hundreds of times in his mind before he asked cautiously: "You... what are you thinking about?"
Chu Ci curled up there motionless, and then said in a low voice after a long while: "... I was thinking that life is really meaningless. It's really boring to suffer so much, suffer so much, and finally die."
Han Yue's heartbeat missed a beat in an instant, and he felt that his hands and feet were getting cold. After a long while, he managed to force a smile and said, "What are you thinking about there! Everyone is going to die, so you have to enjoy it while you're alive." You haven't gone out to play since you started working, right? I didn't make arrangements for your birthday last time. How about we go outside after this thing is over? It's a bit complicated to wait for the approval to go abroad, so let's go to Yunnan first Petty once?"
Chu Ci lowered her eyes, not knowing what she was thinking, and it took a long time before she heard him sigh without saying a word.
"Oh, don't think about it all day! I know that I did have problems before. I was a jerk when I was a child, but I will change everything in the future! Life in this world must suffer hardships and sufferings, but don't worry. Ah, I will never make any mistakes again, and I will never let you suffer even a little bit, okay?"
Chu Ci listened to him without moving, with no expression on his face, not knowing what he was thinking. Han Yue was so anxious that he wanted to swear and swear, he kept shaking him: "You are telling me the truth! I am afraid of you thinking about it like this, don't you know?"
Chu Ci waved his hand away, and asked in a low voice: "...do you know that my mother died in childbirth?"
Han Yue nodded reflexively and said, "I know... ah no, I'm serious? Ouch, I heard this for the first time today. That's such a pity, such a pity..."
"When I was young, my father was busy with work and rarely went home. Later, when he was in high school, he finally had a stable job. Who knows, he fell ill not long after, and he passed away in the second year of high school. I haven't had time for the people who have been good to me in this life. To repay them, they died one after another, and I managed to get a job after graduation, and I met you not long after."
Chu Ci covered her eyes with the back of her hand, and said softly: "Now that I think about it, this life is really boring... If I hadn't been born, maybe everything would be different."
Han Yue's heart felt tense when he heard that, Pei Zhi said that Chu Ci's parents left early, it was not easy for him to come to Beijing for the exam from other places, and he also had a hard time in college. At that time, Han Yue had heard of it. He liked this person, and he was not interested in this person's family. At most, he would like to please his sweetheart in the future. The relatives of the door said hello to the Industrial and Commercial Bureau. If Chu Ci didn't even have these relatives and friends, it would be easier, and Han Yue wouldn't even have to worry about it.
Han Yue was quite proud at the beginning. Chu Ci had no background and no troubles. He didn't even visit relatives during the holidays. If this person is really tied up, where else can he escape
He didn't know until now that this thing that made him proud had such a profound and serious psychological impact on Chu Ci, and his roughness and domineering at the beginning could not be completely erased with a simple sentence of "it will be changed in the future". Even his appearance and existence caused Chu Ci psychological damage equivalent to the premature death of his parents, the death of his relatives, and his life is purely a failure, with nothing to miss.
Han Yue raised his hand, and it took a long time before he hesitated to land on Chu Ci's face, gently stroked his cool cheeks, and then whispered for a long time: "Those are all in the past, all in the past... I will definitely treat you in the future, in the future." Hello's."
He turned over and hugged Chu Ci even harder. This feeling of skin-to-skin closeness made him feel a little sour. He felt that he had a lot to say, but he didn't know how to say it. He held it back for a long time before repeating in an emphatic tone: "I will definitely treat you well in the future, let's Two... let's live a good life together."
With the back of his hand still in front of his eyes, Chu Ci suddenly let out a short laugh. The voice seemed to vibrate from his chest, which made people feel heavy, "Han Yue, if your family members are killed, what will you do? what to do?"
Han Yue didn't even think about it: "I cut the murderer alive! - Why, do you still want to..."
"You're thinking too much." Chu Ci interrupted him, turning over and sitting up from the bed: "I have a stomachache, go to the kitchen and make a cup of soy milk."
Han Yue jumped up and pushed him down, and said courteously: "I'll do it!" Without waiting for Chu Ci's reaction, he hurriedly put on his coat and rushed out.
The design of this apartment is only a corridor from the bedroom to the kitchen. Han Yue strode back to the bedroom with hot soy milk in his hand, and accidentally saw the sky outside through the window of the study, which turned out to be a bit dark.
When he handed the soy milk to Chu Ci, he sat on the sidelines and said, "Maybe it will rain soon, the sky is cloudy outside..."
Chu Ci's movements were extremely difficult to be noticed by others, and she paused for a moment, and said slowly: "Yes...it is indeed raining today."
Han Yue wanted to please him, so he quickly asked, "Do you want to eat anything for lunch today? How about I cook you some porridge? I specially learned the good chicken porridge from others that day, but it's a pity that I haven't made it yet... Why don't we go out for a meal? I'm bored to death after being bored at home for so many days... "
"My stomach hurts, can you lie down with me for a while?"
This request was like a golden brick falling from the sky, and it knocked Han Yue dizzy all of a sudden, and he was overjoyed immediately: "All right, all right! You lie down! I will stay here and not go anywhere until night." I'll cook something delicious for you!"
Chu Ci nodded slightly, and lay sideways on the bed, but this time facing Han Yue.
When he was sleeping, he always turned his back to Han Yue's direction, silent and resisting. In the past, Han Yue always made his teeth itch with hatred, but there was nothing he could do. This was the first time his attitude eased a little, and Han Yue became agitated all of a sudden, lying beside him without even daring to take a breath, and he didn't even care that Chu Ci's elbow was pressing heavily on his arm.
The bedroom was dark, silent and warm, and intertwined breaths were tightly entwined in the air. When Chu Ci was sleeping, his brows were slightly frowned, and it seemed that there was a heavy burden that could not be unloaded in sleep. Han Yue wanted to reach out to smooth it out, but he was afraid that reaching out would wake him up, so he could only look at it without blinking. .
After watching for a long time, he gradually became sleepy, his eyelids became heavier and his mind became more and more confused. This small space was so sweet and quiet that he finally closed his eyes completely and fell asleep after a while.
At some point, Chu Ci suddenly opened his eyes, gently reached under the pillow with one hand, took out the spray, and sprayed Han Yue's face twice again.
This time he sprayed very little. After spraying, he waited for a few minutes to make sure that Han Yue was asleep before turning over and getting out of bed. He picked up Han Yue's lighter from the bedside table, took out a mobile phone from his bag, and walked into the bathroom. .
If Han Yue was here, he would find that this phone looks exactly the same as the Nokia that Chu Ci usually uses except that it is a little newer. Chu Ci quickly pulled out the SIM card, lit the lighter and burned the card into a small piece of scorched black mass, then threw it into the toilet and flushed it away with a bang. Immediately afterwards, he put the phone under the faucet and flushed it back and forth for several minutes. After making sure that the phone was no longer usable, he put the phone back into his pocket.
It is not safe to throw this thing into the sewer, it can only be disassembled and smashed completely. But Han Yue was still asleep in the bedroom, and it made too much noise if he smashed it at this time.
Chu Ci returned to the bedroom and sat by the bed for a long time, not speaking or moving, her whole body seemed to be stiff, only her heart was beating violently, as if it could pop out of her throat with one mouthful.
The things that support life seem to be hollowed out all of a sudden, and a deadly emptiness spreads from the bone marrow, as if the exhaustion and despair experienced day and night for more than 20 years burst out in an instant, deep depression and gloom All of a sudden devoured his body and spirit.
Chu Ci sat there motionless until the sky outside the window darkened irresistibly.
I don't know how long it took, but suddenly he seemed to think of something, stood up abruptly and strode to the wall clock, and set the time back six hours.
It was also a coincidence that he had just finished all this when Han Yue's cell phone rang in his coat pocket.
Chu Ci quickly walked back to the bed, and just as soon as he lay down, Han Yue sat up in a daze, scratched his hair irritably, and only realized after a few seconds: "Who is this?... Fuck! How much is this?" Clicked!"
He turned over and got out of bed, took out his mobile phone from his coat pocket, and glanced at it.
Chu Ci's hands under the quilt trembled slightly, and pinched her nails several times before she managed to control her voice: "... What's going on? Who is it?"
"—SMS." Han Yue looked at the phone, muttering in bewilderment why it was so late and why he had slept until now, while opening the text message and browsing for a while, "Oh, it's okay, my boss sent a text message saying that he brought My mistress went to Jiuzhaigou for two days and asked me to explain to the old lady. My old lady is not used to using mobile phones."
If he raised his head at this time, he would see Chu Ci's face pale in an instant, the blood on his lips faded away, and he asked in a trembling voice after a long while: "... Who did you say sent you the text message?"
"My boss." Han Yue yawned, and looked at the time on his phone again in confusion, "I actually slept for so long in one sleep, did I really work too hard last night... Damn, I'm not so weak... say It's so fucking fucked up, Han Qiang still takes his mistress out to play at this time, he doesn't know how to write low-key, does he?"
Chu Ci sat motionless on the edge of the bed, only feeling that his mind was blank, and a bone-chilling chill rose from his spine, making him shiver uncontrollably.
how is this possible…
How... how is it possible...!
"Chu Ci?" Han Yue raised his head, "What's wrong with you, are you still not feeling well?"
"..." Trembling, Chu Ci bit the tip of his tongue hard, feeling a strong bloody smell in his mouth for an instant, the pain was like lightning and made him shiver, and then he managed to make a normal voice: "...No, nothing."