Compared with Qin Weihang's difficult steps in remedial law lessons, Anning's progress in rock climbing can be described as rapid progress, and he can already do top rope climbing practice. He was very excited when he was going to go up the wall for the first time. Qin Weihang tied the safety rope connecting the two of them and fastened it to his own safety belt. With a light "click", An Ning was very emotional and said, "Then I Your life is in your hands, Protector."
Qin Weihang, who pulled down the hem of his clothes, looked up at him, then lowered his head and smiled calmly: "You know a lot."
An Ning unconsciously followed his smile and smiled: "I have done my homework too."
Qin Weihang lowered his head and said "um": "As expected of a scholar." He glanced at the rope on An Ning's seat belt, "The figure-eight knot is tied once."
An Ning didn't tell Qin Weihang that he actually found a lot of teaching videos to watch in the past two days, so Qin Weihang just showed him a demonstration and he was done.
However, the first time he climbed the wall was not smooth. It took him ten minutes to climb the artificial rock wall of less than 15 meters to less than two-thirds of the height.
Qin Weihang raised his head and said to him, "You can be bold."
For the tranquility who is used to playing steadily and steadily, this is a very difficult suggestion to digest at once. He will habitually stay in one position and take the next step after doing complete psychological construction. As the height gets higher and higher, He stayed longer and longer, and although this kept him from letting go or falling, it also exhausted his strength.
When he reached the height of nine meters, An Ning realized that his arm was somewhat exhausted. At this moment, he was facing a very difficult place. He could choose a closer open point, or he could choose a small pinch point that was a little further away. It was all planned down below, but when he really came up, he realized that it was really "beautiful". With the state of his fingers, he probably couldn't reach the open point, because the face was too slanted and far away. The pinch point at one point, he guessed that he might not be able to reach it when he straightened his arm...
"Want a dyno" in his head, then looking down, the height and verticality make him back off again.
Qin Weihang seemed to see what he was thinking: "You can try both routes." Either one is fine, it's better than the current one.
An Ning wanted to know if Qin Weihang had encountered this kind of difficulty when he was a beginner in rock climbing, but he soon realized that Qin Weihang could not have encountered such a dilemma, and hesitation was not his personality.
If the fifteen-year-old Qin Weihang is currently on the rock wall, and his teacher is pulling him below, let alone top rope climbing, even if it is the first pioneer climb, Qin Weihang will not hesitate for a second and will attack That farther pinch point.
"An Ning," Qin Weihang's voice came from the bottom up, "I don't know what other rock climbers are like, but dynamic is a very important part for me, it can make you feel the charm of rock climbing," he said. Say, "I hope what I feel, you feel too. Otherwise we're not playing the same thing."
This last sentence is useful, and the person who is attached to the rock wall is a little shaken.
"It's not scary to fall off the top rope. The lever principle. If you want to fall, you must first pull me off the ground. I'm more than 70 kilograms, how much is yours? Is this possible?" Qin Weihang said, "Even if it is a pioneer climbing, you Fall a hundred times, and I can hold you a hundred times."
Anning looked down at him.
"Really." Qin Weihang raised his head and said.
There are only the two of them in the climbing gym, and they are three floors apart. An Ning can still see Qin Weihang's bright and deep eyes staring at him. Qin Weihang has always had a cold aura that permeates his appearance and voice. , In this kind of occasion, it gives people a sense of security, but it seems to be more than that. He exudes a wonderful atmosphere when he says these words, and his voice echoes in the empty climbing gym, that kind of Natural, deep echoes, as if anything could shake.
An Ning didn't know how many times he felt that wonderful chemical reaction, but this time, maybe it was because he was clinging to the rock wall, half-suspended in the air, the adrenaline intensified the reaction, and he heard his heart pounding. sound.
"Okay," he took a deep breath, "then I'll dance!"
His eyes looked at the pinch point that was an arm away from the upper right, with blood on his head, he imagined that he was Spider-Man, so he released his feet and jumped hard!
The feeling of the body vacating the air seemed to have a cracking sound, but it was still a little short, the fingers only touched the edge of the stone, and it was impossible to grasp it at all.
He fell down without any accident. Qin Weihang only grabbed the rope to lock the momentum of his falling. He didn't have the impact-like weightlessness of the fanciful fall.
Thinking of Qin Weihang's sentence, "Even if you are a pioneer, you fall a hundred times, and I can hold you a hundred times", and I feel a little regretful.
It's just... I wanted to show this person some terrible courage, but I still got water from a bamboo basket.
Qin Weihang asked him, "How do you feel?"
Anning shook his head in frustration.
Qin Weihang laughed: "I didn't expect you to jump over, just let you jump a little and make you trust your partner."
An Ning's receding heart jumped into his throat again, and he couldn't help but look down. Qin Weihang was wearing an orange-red hoodie, which was the same fabric as the jacket. After he put on the seat belt, he put on the hoodie. Now, he zipped up and covered the seat belt. When he got up the rock wall, Qin Weihang opened his coat again, revealing the black round-neck T-shirt inside and the seat belt on his waist and crotch.
It was the first time that Qin Weihang wore it like this when he was rock climbing. But at the Dark Horse Climbing Base, the reason why Qin Weihang covered his waist and crotch was because there were many girls on the scene, but now there are only two of them here, both boys, so why be shy
When he thought about it, he realized that he had some secret expectations and fantasies about Qin Weihang.
For the past 19 years, my life has been following the rules. Many of my classmates fell in love in high school, and every day I can recall was spent while studying and working. There are also female stars that he likes, but he is embarrassed to say that he likes them, because he has not spent much money for them. When he heard friends and classmates around him talking about a certain girl and the feeling of being attracted to a girl, he felt that he didn't understand it, and it was difficult to participate.
He doesn't know what is the use of falling in love, but studying hard is really useful. He was admitted to the university of his dreams, and then he found that he still couldn't relax, or he couldn't take it lightly. The tuition and living expenses were even more stressful than in high school, and the chance of part-time work was much higher. Fighting for work-study programs and scholarships, a little slack will fall from poverty to extreme poverty. He compresses the daily sleep time to six hours, and the time outside class is almost equally divided between the library and off-campus work.
But he is here now. He is not busy ordering food at the front desk of KFC, nor is he explaining an electrical problem to Yuan Xiaoye repeatedly at the villa in Lantian County. He is now doing something that has nothing to do with his studies or life. , but it attracted itself so much, more than Marx's Das Kapital, and Qin Weihang more than the most charismatic teacher he had ever seen lecturing.
There are more people falling in love in the university. There are couples all over the campus. He doesn't know how they started talking. Is it possible for one party to have a good impression of the other party and then tell the other party directly? What kind of good feelings can confirm that it is love? Is his affection for female stars enough? The so-called feeling of heartbeat is still a mystery, is it a sudden heart palpitation? Is it because the other party is good-looking, isn't that too superficial, there are so many good-looking people, don't they see one and love the other? Or is it that you are attracted by the personality of the other person after getting along, but you are just taking a class together, so you can’t get to know more about it, right? It's not that I haven't been curious, but there's not enough time, and it's not enough to study law. How can I be distracted to be curious about this. It is poverty that limits imagination.
To this day, he was shocked to find that he seemed to be enlightened.
On the wrong person.
***
When he came out of the climbing gym that morning, it seemed that the whole world of traffic and traffic had changed. They had been applied with a filter called "Vivid", and the sounds, smells, and colors had become detached and sharp.
He came to Lantian County in a daze, finished making up lessons for Yuan Xiaoye in a daze, and returned to school in a daze. In the past, he would go to the library for self-study. Today is the first time he went to the library. , but not for self-study. He went to the loan department and found a book about homosexuality in the bookshelf of sociology and anthropology. He was embarrassed to lend it out, so he just stood quietly among the bookshelves and read it.
How could he fall in love with a boy? Is he really gay? Mingming also had a good impression of girls in high school, and never had such feelings for other boys. Could it be that he is bisexual
But after this feeling, it seems that there is no way to treat it, and he can't hide from Qin Weihang, after all, he lives in the same dormitory. But do you want to hide
Even with this condition, he doesn't seem to want to hide from Qin Weihang. Not only does he not want to hide, but he also wants to go rock climbing with him every week. Isn't this really just love
It seems that many homosexuals are afraid to come out, especially to their family members. After thinking about it carefully, he doesn't seem to be afraid of this. He probably also understands subconsciously that family members don't particularly care. So if he likes a boy, he can accept all the inconveniences after that, he can bear everything.
He found that he suddenly thought a long way, for an almost hopeless fantasy, Qin Weihang looked straight. The only one who is tempted is themselves, the two of them, lack the linkage of leverage.
He put the book back, and the world took off the "vivid" filter again.
Don't think too much about An Ning, that is, to be able to share the same room with him for the past four years. Thinking about it this way, you really took advantage of Qin Weihang.
Do you want to hide from him? No, I don't want to hide, I'm protesting this idea all over my body, why should I hide from someone who likes him and treat him coldly? This is so strange, this is my own secret, I think I will pay attention not to take advantage of him in the future, but I will not hide from him, nor let him know that I like him, that's enough.