Zhuang Yi picked up Xun Yuming who was trembling slightly, put him on the sofa, and made him a cup of hot tea.
"Drink some water and stop thinking about it."
Xun Yuming held the cup in both hands and put it on the soft pillow in his lap. His eyes followed Zhuang Yi, followed him into the kitchen, followed him into the bedroom, and finally followed him to the sofa next to him.
"Look." Zhuang Yi brought two little milk cats, one was the flat-headed one he had seen before, and it was always the middle-parted little orange. Both cats had short feet. At first glance, they were his short cats. Foot pussy after a night of flirting outside. "These two are just the prettiest."
Xun Yuming fiddled with their heads, Juzi was naughty, rubbing against his hand, and well-behaved, nestled into his arms and picked up his little paws. Both cats have round and big eyes, and their faces are already puffed up at such a young age, which is extremely beautiful.
Zhuang Yi said with a smile: "I can't keep so many cats, I plan to give one to my friends, so let's keep the two of them."
"Yes." Xun Yuming stretched out his index finger and scratched Tangerine's head lightly, his furry ears trembled, and he squinted his eyes as if enjoying himself. "so cute."
"You can give them a name." Zhuang Yi said, "I'm not at home in the future, you help me feed them."
Xun Yuming glanced at him and smiled slightly, as if to say, you have so much time, why do you let me, who is so busy on all fours, take care of the cat.
Zhuang Yi guessed his mind, hugged the kitten away, and said, "Do you know why I keep a cat?"
"Why?" Xun Yuming didn't know the reason, "Isn't it because I like it?"
Naturally, he likes pets, but he gradually fell in love with pets after he got a cat. Zhuang Yi explained: "Because there are many people who come to me for consultation, I bought two cats to make them less nervous. , give them a hug."
According to research, cats can awaken human's pity for children, so that people feel relaxed and happy. Keeping cats for a long time can help lower blood pressure, relieve anxiety, and benefit physical and mental health.
Xun Yuming took a sip of tea, Xuanmei asked: "And then?"
What does he mean by this...
"I want you to raise it with me." Zhuang Yi looked straight into his eyes and said seriously: "Don't you think that your anxiety is already very serious now? Your stomach bleeding this time, the progress of the psychological consultation A lot has fallen."
Xun Yuming lowered his head, his eyes were red, he stroked the edge of the cup with his thumb a few times, but he didn't answer.
Zhuang Yi put his arms on his knees, leaning over to talk earnestly. He took Xun Yuming's hand and held it, and said slowly: "I want to clarify one thing with you." He knew that the knot in his heart would not be let go overnight Yes, but problems must always be faced and solutions must be found.
Xun Yuming raised his chin slightly, glanced at him, then lowered his head again, pursing his petal lips, and heard him say: "I know that the matter about grandpa has hit you hard."
His grandfather was his only relative, and the grandparent and grandson had lived together for many years. No matter who had something wrong with him, the other would be in so much pain that he would almost collapse. Zhuang Yi can understand this point, and also has deep feelings.
People often say that love is a pair of armor, but so is family affection. Armor is hard and heavy, sometimes you feel it is a burden, but when danger comes, it will protect you.
Witnessing the process of the loss of a loved one's life is like slowly pulling out the scales from your body day after day. You have formed a scab and thought it was a protective shell.
"Things in this world are too cruel to be burdened on only one person. We must always learn to let others help to share."
Xun Yuming has been taciturn and forbearing since he was a child. Zhuang Yi can understand him, but he also wants Xun Yuming to open up his heart. It doesn't have to be completely exposed, just open a small gap so that he can shine in.
"I know your concerns, and I won't force you to do anything." Seeing his hesitation, Zhuang Yi squeezed his hand that was about to struggle, and said, "Are you afraid that I will be implicated by you?"
In fact, he was afraid that anyone would be implicated, not just Zhuang Yi, but Zhuang Yi was the one he cherished the most and wanted to protect the most.
"But do you know?" Zhuang Yi smiled, "What is best for me, you actually don't understand at all."
To be nice to a person is not to treat him in the way he thinks he is good to him, but to give him what he wants, to satisfy the other party as much as possible and make the other party happy without hurting each other.
"I know, you are actually very kind to me." No matter what outsiders think, no matter how Xun Yuming denies it, Zhuang Yi always feels loved from him.
It was an extremely weak feeling that could not be suppressed. Just like the scent of flowers that floats into the window in a snowy day, because it is too difficult to detect and too rare, you almost suspect that it is an illusion.
But that's not an illusion.
Can you see the bed and not sleep when you are extremely sleepy
Can you see the water and not drink it when you are very thirsty
Can you be indifferent to food when you are extremely hungry
Zhuang Yi approached Xun Yuming as if he was dying to survive. This love is so strong that it has turned into instinct. But Xun Yuming is constantly suppressing his instincts, Zhuang Yi is in much pain, he will only suffer ten times more.
Love is selfish, love is also selfless, it depends on whether you love yourself more or love each other more, Xun Yuming is undoubtedly the latter.
He looked at Zhuang Yi and looked into his eyes, "What do you want?"
what do you want
What is best for you
I will give you whatever.
Zhuang Yi smiled slightly, stretched out his hand to stroke his broken hair, "I want you to be happy."
Xun Yuming was startled, and he imagined thousands of answers in his mind: I want you to stop hiding, I want you to stop lying to me, I want you to reconcile with me... But unexpectedly, all he wants is this . Even though he was surprised, he still felt sorry for him, and he confessed his whole heart with one sentence, and emptied it.
"Promise me one thing?" Zhuang Yi smiled at him, looking tolerant and forgiving, no matter whether he promised or not, he would never get angry.
"What?" Xun Yuming naturally agreed.
"From now on," he didn't make it difficult for Yuming, he just said, "Don't feel that everything is a waste of my time, just delay me, don't feel guilty, okay?"
Life is so long, Zhuang Yi doesn't want to live in such a race against time: "I'm not those young and beautiful girls whose flowering period is so short, I can't afford it, I can't afford it, and it will wither in a few years. My life is still long, Look at me."
Zhuang Yi pointed to himself, he just changed into casual clothes before going downstairs, and the thin shirt was put on his body, which couldn't conceal his lean and vigorous figure. "Our family has always lived a long life. I exercise all day long. At worst, I have to live to be 180 years old, right?"
Xun Yuming wanted to laugh when he said it, but he couldn't help his eyes hurt when he laughed.
"I don't plan to get married and have children, and I don't need to worry about money. My career has passed the stage of reaching a higher level. I am only in my early thirties this year, and there are sixty or seventy years in the future. Don't let me waste time Years, what am I doing?"
The word "delay" is actually very interesting. Only when there is an urgent matter in front of you and you have to do it, you are afraid of being delayed. Zhuang Yi's life can already be seen to the end at a glance, what else can he be delayed
"False." Xun Yuming said flatly, "Don't you plan to find someone and live a good life with him?"
"I can't find it." Zhuang Yi shook his head, "Do you know what is the probability of two people meeting each other in the vast crowd?"
Xun Yuming didn't know: "How much?"
"0.00487." Zhuang Yi said: "The probability of falling in love is 0.000049."
Although he knew the number must be small, Xun Yuming was still shocked. Zhuang Yi said with a smile: "Falling in love may not be suitable. Finding another semicircle that just fits in the world is harder than picking a star from the sky. So don't ask too much of me. I don't have you in this matter." Think so persistently."
Xun Yuming heard the words, silent for a moment, uncertain: "But it can't be like this forever, can it?"
He didn't want to see Zhuang Yi leaving him alone and always wanted him to be happy, even if he didn't give it to him.
"Let it be, let's go with the flow." Zhuang Yi patted him to make up his mind. He seemed to be indifferent to love, but in fact it was just that Wushan was not a cloud. "We definitely can't be pure friends."
With such a past, how can we just be friends.
"But even if we are not lovers, we can still be family members and the closest companions in life." Zhuang Yi seduced him step by step, "I just ask you not to exclude me from your life, I hope you have difficulties Ask me for help first, and talk to me first if you have something on your mind. Don’t think that this will delay me, and don’t think that it is hanging my appetite, because I am very willing, I just like to waste time on you. "
"Time," Zhuang Yi smiled, "it's just for squandering."
Xun Yuming was dazed by him, didn't know what to say, looked into his deep eyes, and nodded involuntarily.
"Okay... okay."
Zhuang Yi's plan was sold, full of satisfaction, but there was nothing unusual on his face. Before going to bed at night, he ran to ask again: "Are you going to see grandpa tomorrow?"
Xun Yuming just took a shower, with a faint smell of shower gel on his body, his hair was blown dry and rested on his eyes, it looked limp, and it was more attractive than when he was proud and professional during the day.
Zhuang Yi's pajamas are of the same style as his, black and blue, the silk texture is loose and drapes, which makes people very chic. Xun Yuming lifted the quilt, took off his glasses, leaned against the head of the bed and said, "I was going to go this afternoon, it's too rainy to go, so let's get off work tomorrow."
"Then I'll go with you?" Zhuang Yi sat beside him, staring into his hesitant eyes, "Didn't you promise me? Don't tell me about grandpa in the future?"
"I...Okay." Xun Yuming frowned, always feeling that something was wrong, the brain of the genius boy had several knots, and he couldn't get around it. "Then at five o'clock tomorrow, I will wait for you at the gate of the ward building."
"Yes." Zhuang Yi agreed, and went to the outside room to bring him a small white porcelain humidifier, and put it next to his bedside pillow, "to help with deep sleep."
Xun Yuming still didn't want to sleep, he picked up the computer, opened it to show him the movies in it: "Look at this patient."
"Who is it?" Zhuang Yi is familiar with psychiatric content and cannot understand his complicated and obscure cases.
"I met a person in the hospital that day, and he sent this to me." Xun Yuming told him the person he met under the grape arbor in the hospital on the day he was complained about, and said: "This patient is his family member. Because of the brain damage caused by the accident, I now have intermittent amnesia."
"Amnesia?" Zhuang Yi raised his eyebrows and asked, "The kind in movies and novels?"
Xun Yuming smiled and said: "No, I just forget things occasionally, and I'm not sure when I will forget something. He was in a coma for too long and has already caused permanent brain damage. He is still in the hospital, so it's not optimistic. "
Zhuang Yi sighed: "Then what are you going to do?"
Xun Yuming was about to tell him about it, "If my research is successful, I can help him. And..."
He grabbed Zhuang Yi's left arm, turned it to the side, and said, "It should be able to heal your hand."
Thinking about it, it's nothing more than this.
Zhuang Yi's left ring finger hopped, the fingertip brushed across his wrist, and then pulled back. "My hands are fine. I can't feel it if I don't deliberately feel it, and it doesn't affect my normal life. You don't have to be too stressed."
Why bother, he didn't need a scalpel now.
Xun Yuming didn't want to say more, before things were confirmed, he didn't want Zhuang Yi to have too high expectations, so he pulled the quilt to lie down and said, "I'm sleepy, go to sleep."
"Okay." Zhuang Yi tucked the quilt for him, turned off the light, walked to the door, and suddenly came back and said, "Hey, let me show you something."
"What?" The moon is not good tonight, Xun Yuming can't see in the dark night.
Zhuang Yi clenched his right hand into a fist, raised his arm and stretched it out in front of him, only to see a shining light spot in his palm, like a firefly. Xun Yuming widened his eyes, propped himself up and said, "What is this?"
"Pick a star for you." Zhuang Yi smiled and stuffed the fluorescent stone into his hand, bowed his head and kissed his forehead, "Good night, little ear."
"You..." Xun Yuming was startled, and quickly covered his forehead, "What are you doing?!"
Zhuang Yi smiled: "This is a gentleman's etiquette, goodnight kiss."
Nonsense.
What kind of etiquette will make people kiss indiscriminately, and they are not lovers.
Xun Yuming didn't believe it: "Really?"
"Of course." Zhuang Yi was serious, "You always know the face-to-face gift, right?"
Strangers can hug and pretend to kiss on the cheek, let alone between friends and relatives.
Thinking about it, Xun Yuming nodded suspiciously: "Even if you got it right."
"Then you have to return one." Zhuang Yi shrugged, "How can you be rude?"
I knew he was a liar.
Xun Yuming held up the star, looked at him with squinted eyes, hesitant in his heart. Zhuang Yi's expression was calm, and he seemed to have no doubts. He grew up with his grandparents in England, so maybe there is such a strange thing.
If you are coy and coy, you will appear to be hypocritical and ambiguous, so you might as well be generous.
Xun Yuming's heart skipped a beat, he raised his head, and kissed him on the forehead.
"Good night."
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