try it yourself.
What Zhuang Yi said was more threatening than encouraging, and the meaning behind it was self-evident. What's more, after suffering a loss once, it is a fool who still doesn't behave well, and it doesn't fit Xun Yuming's brain full of ravines.
"I don't dare to try." He placed a jade-white finger on the edge of the rice bowl, trembling slightly under the light. "but… "
He can't figure out what's going on now, he only has one guess. If he hastily told Zhuang Yi that if the physical examination results were all normal, wouldn't it be a false alarm for him in vain.
Xun Yuming was so entangled: "Have you noticed that I am a little different recently?"
"What's different?" Zhuang Yi looked up at him.
Xun Yuming has a typical bright and gorgeous appearance, the type that takes people's breath away at a glance, but he is usually aloof and withdrawn, and his personality is very pragmatic, and he doesn't like to play tricks, so that sometimes he ignores his appearance.
At this moment, he was wearing dark blue home clothes, his hair was slightly curled over his ears, and he looked a little lazy. After taking off the glasses, the eyes were slightly out of focus, and the blur added to the cuteness. The bridge of the nose is still the same, the lips are still the same, and the face is still the white face.
no change.
Xun Yuming shook his head, chewed a piece of pork ribs and said: "I mean personality, behavior and hobbies, all aspects, not appearance."
Zhuang Yi put a chopsticks of green vegetables in his bowl, and said with a smile: "Recently, I've been a little childish and always cry, but my tongue is more slippery than before. And..."
"And what?"
"You are better at acting like a baby than before, brother is very relieved." Zhuang Yi nodded in agreement, "It's just a little irritable, and getting angry all the time is not good for your health."
"What else?" Xun Yuming asked him calmly, as if they were evaluating strangers at the moment.
Zhuang Yi picked up the bowl and took a sip of fish soup, thought for a while, and said, "Others, it seems nothing. In fact, you have changed a lot compared to before. The first time I saw you in the hospital corridor, I hardly recognized you."
In his impression, Xun Yuming was always a child who had just grown up. Even though Xun Yuming had grown up when they broke up, he still had the childishness of a young man with a soft temper. He was always innocent and simple.
This image has been frozen in Zhuang Yi's mind for eight years. The first time he sees his mature and self-sufficient appearance, Zhuang Yi's inner shock is no less than the shock brought by reunion. Jumping wildly, I had to shake his hand with my right hand.
It's a pity that this move fell into the eyes of Xun Yuming and outsiders, but it was his intentional suppression under the hostility.
Zhuang Yi put down the bowls and chopsticks, wiped his hands, pulled the chair he was sitting on in front of him, and looked down at him slightly, "You have become irritable, coquettish, childish, and playful... these I'm very happy. Probably, the people in love are all children."
How much time and effort would it take him to fill Xun Yuming's lonely heart and make him truly live. How much love does he have to use to make a person who is cold and indifferent outside go home and pout at him and call him brother.
Not only did Zhuang Yi not feel abnormal, but he was also faintly proud.
Xun Yuming didn't think so: "That's not the case, I'm not just doing this to you, and it's not just as simple as acting like a baby. I feel that my temper is getting more and more aggressive, and I can't speak or do things with my own brain. Yes, emotions come and go when they say it.”
Sometimes when he thinks about it afterwards, he feels that his performance is unbearable, and he gets goosebumps all over his body due to embarrassment. What he said and what he did made him feel unbelievable. When he encountered troubles, he suppressed himself outside, and when he saw Zhuang Yi, he couldn't help being wronged and wanted to cry.
It would be like this before, Zhuang Yi is someone he can open his heart to, and when he feels sad, he wants to tell him, complain to him, and make him feel sorry for himself. But what is different from now is that he will not be so obvious, nor will he be so frequent, complaining too much about little things.
He was also an open-minded man.
In addition to the changes in his temper and mood, his eyesight is also getting worse day by day. Recently, he still feels blurred when wearing glasses, and often squints subconsciously. The last time Zhuang Yi asked him to test his eyesight during the physical examination, the results of the examination revealed that the intraocular pressure was normal and there were no lesions in the fundus.
But his living habits are the same as before, he doesn't often look at electronic screens, and even reads less than before. How could his eyesight decline
What frightened him even more was that he, a person who was so cautious and dedicated, had never made a low-level mistake in his work, and today he almost caused a catastrophe.
His hands trembled.
His hands that had been kissed by God trembled involuntarily.
Xun Yuming was so startled that he didn't even notice that his own tears were streaming down. How can a person's tears flow out uncontrollably without emotional fluctuations
Standing in the corridor, he had these doubts over and over again in his mind, recalling his own changes scene by scene, and all the problems were hard to answer with a simple sentence of "love is what makes it so".
It's not that Xun Yuming didn't notice his abnormality before, but he thought it was love and life with Zhuang Yi that changed him. The scalpel incident was like a slap in the face, knocking him awake suddenly.
He is a doctor.
He is one of the top doctors in the world.
Could it be that he still can't figure it out
Xun Yuming needs a professional doctor, and doctors also need doctors. Only bystanders can analyze his situation calmly and objectively. Therefore, he needed to seek help from Ren Xueyuan, first to have a physical examination and self-diagnosis, and then seek medical advice.
He wanted to tell Zhuang Yi everything, but he was afraid that maybe he was worrying blindly, and there was no reason for it. Instead, Zhuang Yi was worried about him and couldn't sleep or eat.
This is different from Huntington's disease, which, for better or for worse, is a short-term pain that does not involve decades of hard suffering for the rest of your life. There is no need for Xun Yuming to hide it from him, nor does he want to hide it from him.
But not now, at least let him complete the physical examination and have a definite result.
"I have something that I really want to tell you." Xun Yuming took a deep breath and let it out again. He grabbed Zhuang Yi's arms and said face to face: "I can't tell you today, can you give me a week?"
A week later, no matter what the result is, he will give Zhuang Yi an answer.
"Okay." Zhuang Yi smiled, looking at him with gentle eyes like Wanfeng at this moment.
He only said one word without asking anything, Xun Yuming was puzzled: "If you don't ask me, what is it?"
"You will tell me in a week, won't you?" Zhuang Yi still smiled, the arc of the corner of his mouth was like a straight boat, and he looked very calm.
Xun Yuming couldn't figure it out: "But... aren't you curious? Are you not afraid that I will lie to you?"
"Will you lie to me?" Zhuang Yi raised his eyebrows with a smile.
"No." Xun Yuming looked at him with unprecedented firmness, "I will never lie to you again, what I mean is, I might lie to you again, maybe tell you that I am not tired, I am angry Yeah, I hate you, but I'll never lie to you again."
Can he understand what he means
"I understand." Zhuang Yi nodded slowly, "No matter what, I'll wait for you to tell me yourself, looking for an ear."
"I will definitely." Xun Yuming said solemnly, "Thank you, I..." He really didn't know what to say, Zhuang Yi was able to suppress the instinct of curiosity, and didn't put any pressure on himself.
"You don't need to say thank you." Zhuang Yi pressed his little head into his arms and rubbed it lightly, "Don't worry, you can be accepted no matter what you become. I will always love you."
"What did you say?" Xun Yuming raised his head in a daze, "You just said...you said..."
He said, love.
He said, I love you.
They haven't said the word "love" yet, at most it's "like". With their relationship, they should have talked about love long ago, but life always interrupted their steps to talk about love.
Xun Yuming couldn't react for a while: "You said, you... love me?"
"Yeah." Zhuang Yi pursed his lips and laughed, "I love you, do you need to say it?"
Of course.
Xun Yuming naturally knew that he loved her deeply, and because of this, he didn't dare to tell him about the genetic disease. Because his love is too strong, so strong that even if he becomes like a grandfather, he would rather sacrifice everything and suffer with himself.
Xun Yuming loves him too much, he can't bear to love him, let alone part with him.
But knowing it is one thing, hearing it with your own ears is another, it feels completely different. Xun Yuming liked to listen and wanted to listen to it repeatedly. He stared at Zhuang Yi and swallowed: "Can you say it again?"
"No." Zhuang Yi shook his head, "You haven't said that yet."
"I love you too." Xun Yuming hurriedly replied, "Can I say it now?"
"I love you." Zhuang Yi leaned over and kissed his forehead, his movements were pious and careful, as if he was afraid of breaking him. "Brother loves little ears, my baby Mingming, and everything about little ears."
"Me too." Xun Yuming looked at him with burning eyes, "Little Ear also loves brother."
"Let's eat." Zhuang Yi blushed.
"I'm not hungry anymore." Xun Yuming smiled, leaning on his chin and said intoxicatedly: "Youqing drink enough water."
Zhuang Yi finally couldn't help it, he laughed lowly, pulled him and kissed him twice.
Xun Yuming went to work the next day, and the surgical approval for the human trial was officially issued. After Fang Buyu won the lawsuit, he quickly moved into Xue Jiayan's ward. He heard that Xun Yuming's research was going to recruit volunteers. He discussed with Xue Jiayan when he was awake, and the two quickly made a decision.
They are going to have surgery.
Xun Yuming originally meant this. Part of the reason why he helped Fang Buyu so much at the beginning was because of this, but he was embarrassed to mention it to Fang Buyu. Now that the two of them ask for it, it couldn't be better.
Therefore, Xue Jiayan became the first patient in his experiment.
When the news spread, not only Xiwan Hospital, but even the doctors who followed his research were secretly looking forward to the results. Xun Yuming's subject is currently a hot star project in the industry, and he himself is a star among the stars, with a lot of attention on him.
Before the operation, Lao Chen called him to the office, had another conversation, and asked him if he had decided on a candidate for an assistant. Xun Yuming said truthfully: "Not yet, but it's just a few people in the laboratory, just pick whatever you want."
This time the operation was not successful, and there will be another time. Before the test is declared successful, countless operations are still needed, and Xue Jiayan is definitely not enough for one patient.
"Let me give you a suggestion, you consider it." Lao Chen took a sip of water from his cup and said, "I hope you can bring your colleagues from the department to operate together. First, I invite you to our hospital to let them learn more , this is a good opportunity.”
"Secondly, you are usually too out of group, this time you just happen to have a good relationship with your colleagues. Look at what happened in the last forum, if it were Cen Ji who is popular, there wouldn't be so many people pointing fingers."
"Thirdly, now everyone's eyes are on your research, and it's the first experiment, and you are too isolated and helpless. Bring others to share the responsibility, there is a rumor, no one wants to take it out, at least reduce it. A bit of a risk."
What Lao Chen said was not only for him, but also for the hospital. It was just an operation, and Xun Yuming was not that stingy: "Whoever you want to bring, just ask them to go in and observe."
"I think it's just Xiao Liu and Xiao Zhou, and then call Xiao Zhao and Xiao Sun." Old Chen said with a smile, "Call everyone from your laboratory in. It's an honor to take a look around."
Although Xun Yuming was dissatisfied with Sun Zhuo, he was a colleague after all, and he was his junior, so he didn't bother to argue with him, "Well, I have no objection." Last time he reprimanded Sun Zhuo in front of the media, after thinking about it I thought it was a bit too much, so I just took the opportunity to ease the relationship.
The day before the operation, Xun Yuming and Zhuang Yi went to a nearby church. Neither of them believed in religion, but when they dreamed of something, they urgently needed faith.
Zhuang Yi walked to the front of the lobby, under the cross, a ray of sunlight leaked in through the glass skylight, hitting the center just right.
Xun Yuming smiled and stretched out his hands to him: "I know what you want to do."
Zhuang Yi spread out his palms, and held his two hands together as he did when he was in school, holding them in the sun, bathing in a layer of holy light: "God, please bestow these hands, just like giving us life, use them Redeem your suffering children."
His deep voice spread out in the empty church, causing an echo. Xun Yuming closed his eyes, a gust of cool wind blew past his hair and landed on his fingertips.
The two donated a sum of money when they left, and Xun Yuming got a gold coin as a reward. Before the operation, he sewed the gold coin into his clothes and brought it into the operating room together.
Xue Jiayan was also ready. He shaved his head and looked much more energetic than before, with a somewhat handsome temperament. Fang Buyu held his hand all the time, but there were no tears on his face, "We will win after finishing this last hurdle, you must work hard!"
"I will." Xue Jiayan touched his face, grabbed the back of his hand and kissed it, "I have worked hard on you during this time."
"I don't work hard." Fang Buyu smiled, his eyes turned red, "As long as you remember me."
"Remember, I will always remember."
Xue Jiayan finally gave him a smile, and was pushed into the operating room by Serenity and the nurses. Everything in the room is ready, and the observers and today's assistants are in a circle, waiting in full force.
Xun Yuming went in with his hands raised, put on the surgical gown, stood at the chief surgeon's position, and smiled at Zhuang Yi in the observation room, "Scalpel!"
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