Hai Ri is going crazy: something is wrong with his son!
Sheng Canyang held a lollipop in his mouth, put his hands in his trouser pockets, and walked slowly behind, like a rebellious high school student. Hai Ri glanced back from time to time, feeling like he had a heart attack.
Hai Ri looked back for the third time, Sheng Canyang said, "Did you have a stiff neck?"
Hai Ri: "Take two quick steps?"
Sheng Canyang: "What are you doing?"
Hai Ri felt that he was walking behind him, and he felt a little embarrassed. Even though he was invincible in stature and the back of his butt was not covered with dirt, he was somehow uncomfortable and said, "Where did you get the candy, give me one."
Only then did Sheng Canyang come up, and felt through the left pocket, right pocket, upper pocket, lower pocket, and trousers pocket, and finally found a crumpled Alpine.
Hai Ri: "Where did it come from?"
"That woman gave it to me." Sheng Canyang didn't care.
"Ah," Hai Ri smiled ambiguously, and said, "Can I eat it?"
Sheng Canyang glanced at him, and made a gesture to take it back: "Don't give it to me."
Hai Ri quickly unpacked it and threw it into his mouth, before Sheng Canyang let go.
The original taste of the Alps, the taste of childhood.
The two walked side by side for a long time, talking casually, the sunlight in the forest seemed to be sifted by fishing nets, they walked through the small bushes, Hai Ri saw the path outside, there were wheat fields on both sides, and a huge flower on the horizon The explosion cloud, a killer whale passed through the cloud, making a lonely and shocking cry.
It was actually a sunny day outside, Hai Ri realized that the person beside him who saw this scene was Sheng Canyang.
Hai Ri couldn't help feeling: "This place is really beautiful."
"The landscaping is very good," Sheng Canyang said with a lollipop in his mouth, his mouth protruding in a circle, squinting his eyes and looking at the huge clouds in the sky, "If the whale dies, his body will fall down. animal."
"Twelve thousand species," Hai Ri said, "It's actually called Whale Falling, not Falling Whale."
He turned his head and looked at Sheng Canyang with a smile. Sheng Canyang was a little surprised and raised his eyebrows.
Hai Ri said: "I don't understand why they are in this sky."
"It's a long-cherished wish of human beings," Sheng Canyang said in a contemptuous tone, "Make something grand and beautiful."
Hai Ri thought it was pretty good, and said, "It's really grand and beautiful."
It's a good word.
Hae Il said, "After the whale falls, maybe we will be raised too."
"Read less novels," Sheng Canyang said, "It's not something from the same plane."
Hae Ri: "I'm just an optimistic little boy, you're too negative, son."
The word came out of my mouth.
Hai Ri thought to himself, "That's bad."
He always takes Sheng Canyang seriously in his heart. If a person loves someone too much, he will become a mother. This is true, Hai Ri can testify. He stood in front of the screen and looked at Sheng Canyang, sincerely treating him as his son. So it was literally blurted out. Immediately regretted it. Very embarrassing.
Sheng Canyang didn't say anything, and looked at him with a half-smile, which was very playful.
Hai Ri: "Haha."
Sheng Canyang: "Haha."
Hai Ri: "Why are you a murderer..."
"You like me?" Sheng Canyang asked, "Are you my fan?"
Hai Ri could only say, "I told you a long time ago."
Sheng Canyang: "I'm sorry, I didn't believe it at the time."
Hai Ri: "Why do you believe it now?"
Sheng Canyang didn't say anything about reading his Weibo, but said, "Why do you like me?"
Hai Ri was a little dazed, thought about it, and said, "You're fine."
Before Sheng Canyang could say anything, Hai Ri said, "You're a cool kid."
Sheng Canyang: "How cool is that?"
Hai Ri pointed at him and said, "You don't know why you are cool, that's what makes you the coolest. I'm so annoyed by that Japanese guy in your group, he's so good at pretending, are his fans blind? He usually so?"
"Ah," Sheng Canyang thought for a while and said, "I usually put on more clothes."
Hai Ri thinks of that man and gets annoyed: "It's too unbearable!"
"He is very jealous of you," Hai Ri said, "You are more handsome than him, and you can play music. I think he is jealous of you like crazy."
When Hai Ri talked about these things, he suddenly took off his cold skin and became a little chattery, saying: "When you went to Japan to participate in variety shows, he didn't form a team with you that time, did he isolate you on purpose?"
Sheng Canyang almost forgot what he said. After thinking about it, he still couldn't remember: "Which time?"
"The time you borrowed money from strangers while doing street missions." Hai Ri remembered it very clearly, he could vividly remember it.
Hai Ri said, "Why didn't he bring you?"
Sheng Canyang finally remembered, and said, "Brother, it happened three years ago."
Hai Ri: "My memory is still fresh, I guess I can remember it in the coffin."
Sheng Canyang said: "That may be, he doesn't like me very much."
Hae Il: "It's disgusting, he even said you don't wash your socks during the interview?"
Sheng Canyang: "It's true that I don't wash it."
Hai Ri: "Is this what he can say? Huh? What? Then what do you usually wear if you don't wash it?"
"Save a week to wash together," Sheng Canyang said, "When did he say that?"
Hai Ri: "..."
Sheng Canyang: "What's there to be angry about?"
"Damn it," Hai Ri said, "don't be mad at me, you better shut up."
Sheng Canyang: "?"
Hai Ri: "What do you know?"
Sheng Canyang: "???"
Sheng Canyang was in a mess for a moment, and asked hesitantly: "Isn't this my own business?"
Hai Ri: "You're a little short-sighted."
Sheng Canyang savored the product, enjoyed himself, and said, "Very good, your logic is quite complete."
Hai Ri: "His fans scold you every day on the Internet. It's because the fans follow the right owner, and their right owner will not make a good atmosphere and exclude you. That's why they are so arrogant."
"When?" Sheng Canyang still didn't know.
Hai Ri: "Always, since your debut, you don't know."
Sheng Canyang: "I don't know, what can I blame?"
Hai Ri: "Don't you usually search for your own name?"
"Do not search."
"Then what do you usually do online?"
"Look at the comments," Sheng Canyang said, "And @我, those who tag me will take a long time to read."
Hai Ri: "?"
Hai Ri: "Never search?"
Sheng Canyang took out his mobile phone suspiciously, as if he wanted to search it right away, but Hai Ri stopped him, put his mobile phone back in his pocket, and said, "This is a good habit."
Hai Ri suddenly felt a little regretful, he shouldn't have said these shitty things, he thought Sheng Canyang knew about it, knew that other people's fans scolded him, knew that someone was ostracizing him, he didn't expect that Sheng Canyang didn't know about these things at all. Then what did he say
Hai Ri said softly, "Forget it."
Sheng Canyang: "Forget what, is there still someone scolding me now?"
"No more," Hai Ri said, "It's long gone, people miss you now."
Sheng Canyang made a gesture to take out his mobile phone again: "I'll go and have a look."
Hai Ri stopped him again, and before he could take it out, he turned back and said, "What are you looking at, it's all over."
This is true, Sheng Canyang didn't say anything.
Hai Ri was silent for a moment, then laughed, and said, "You idiot, you have been scolded for several years, and you don't know anything. Why don't you search yourself?"
Sheng Canyang said: "Glass heart, why else?"
"I think they still picked up my previous photos," Sheng Canyang said, "Those who scolded me for singing badly or having a bad expression, I searched for that as if looking for abuse, so I stopped watching."
Hai Ri: "Don't pay attention to them, they are all black acid."
Sheng Canyang: "You are really on the right track."
"Yeah," Hai Ri said, "You just know."
Sheng Canyang smiled and shook his head, looking a little helpless.
Hai Ri thought this big boy was very charming, so he wanted to take pictures again.
Sheng Canyang is a very masculine and attractive big boy, exuding male hormones in every move, mixed with some immature juvenile feeling, very indescribable pure masculine charm. In their group, Sheng Canyang doesn't have the most fans, but the purchasing power of fans is several blocks ahead of others, and even ranks first in the ranking of all male idols' single albums.
Seeing Sheng Canyang standing in front of him so vividly, Hai Ri felt very complicated.
Sheng Canyang looked into his eyes, looked at him carefully, and said, "What's wrong?"
Hai Ri turned his face away: "It's nothing."
Hae-il was deeply curious about the details of his life, and asked, "Are you losing weight?"
Sheng Canyang: "Minus, I'm fucking skinny."
Hai Ri: "Hahahaha, you are already very thin, why do you want to lose weight?"
"They all cut down," Sheng Canyang said, "No one eats with me, and I don't want to eat myself, so let's cut it down, there's nothing to do."
Hai Ri: "Cool kid."
Sheng Canyang warned: "I have tolerated you for a long time, don't talk to me like that, my mother doesn't call me that."
Hai Ri laughed out loud.
Sheng Canyang said, "Is there anything else you want to ask?"
Hai Ri thought for a while, and said, "Yes."
Sheng Canyang glanced at him, but said nothing.
The two were silent for a moment, and Hai Ri said, "Smelly kid, have you made any money yet?"
Sheng Canyang was stunned for a moment: "Just ask this."
Hai Ri: "Yes."
"Earn it," Sheng Canyang said, "Why don't I do charity in the entertainment industry?"
Hai Ri: "Haha, I'm afraid your company deducts too much, just make money."
Sheng Canyang's family is not rich, it doesn't seem to be considered well-off. The children of poor families have long been in charge of the family. Sheng Canyang chose this path by himself. Hai Ri was always afraid that he would not make a lot of money, and he suffered a lot. After Sheng Canyang committed suicide, Hai Ri didn't see any news about his family members, and he seemed to be feeling overwhelmed.
Sheng Canyang said: "Even if they don't make any money, they can only accept the fact that I'm dead."
Sheng Canyang: "People can't force others to live, to impose their will to live, a person can die freely, it's the last right."
Hae Il didn't speak, and couldn't find a suitable word to say.
Because as long as he heard Sheng Canyang say something that didn't fit what a nineteen-year-old boy should say, he was always holding back tears.
Who can accept that the little boy he likes, a talented little idol who works hard, is too tall and thin, says such world-weary words in front of himself
Hai Ri didn't ask Sheng Canyang any other questions, but Sheng Canyang asked him instead: "Brother, why are you here?"
Hai Ri was silent for a moment, when Sheng Canyang wanted to say forget it, he said with a smile: "Isn't this sick?"
"I'm a little depressed," Hai Ri said, "I've been assigned to the fourth floor. What else could be the reason? I just realized it."
Sheng Canyang looked at him, his eyes were a little dazed, Hai Ri pretended to be relaxed and said: "I have committed suicide many times since I was a child. I tried to cut my wrists, but the blade was too rusty, so I didn't succeed. I only went to elementary school that year."
Sheng Canyang: "..."
Hai Ri said: "It's usually fine, like a normal person, but sometimes it's not so good, it's like epilepsy, a panic attack, and I think it's better to die, it's not interesting."
Sheng Canyang: "There is no cure."
"My sister," Hai Ri said, "No one knows, and I don't know either. It's a disease."
Sheng Canyang said: "You go back, brother, I feel that you can live a good life, go back and treat your illness well, it will be fine."
Hai Ri was a little touched, but also a little bit fucked up, and said, "I can't go back, I might already be in a vegetable state."
Sheng Canyang: "..."
Hai Ri: "Oh, this is it, whatever you want."
Sheng Canyang: "It's a pity, brother, when I first saw you, I thought you shouldn't be here."
"why?"
"You are quite sunny," Sheng Canyang laughed at himself, and said, "People here are very dead, you are handsome, and you don't seem to be short of money, you don't look like people here."
Hai Ri subconsciously wanted to say, "Don't you?" But thinking about it again, Sheng Canyang and the temperament here... are very suitable. He is like a person here, he knows the rules here, he adapts here, and he wants to die.
Hai Ri said, "Cool kid, don't you want to go back?"
Sheng Canyang said decisively: "I don't want to."
Hai Ri shut up.
Sheng Canyang glanced at him, took a sip of the lollipop leisurely, did chest expansion exercises twice, and said, "I messed up my life, and I don't want to go back."
"Who said that?" Hai Ri was immediately poked at the pain point, "Where did it go wrong?"
Sheng Canyang: "Can you calm down?"
"Oh," Hae-il said, "are you calm now?"
Sheng Canyang: "It's okay."
Hae-il asked politely, "Who said you messed up?"
Sheng Canyang: "Myself."
"It's those things," Sheng Canyang said in a relaxed tone, "Those bad things, I don't want to deal with them, I can't deal with them."
Hai Ri: "That's not your problem."
"It's my problem." Sheng Canyang looked at Hai Ri calmly and said, "Why isn't it my problem?"
Hai Ri met his calm eyes and subconsciously turned away for some reason.
His consciousness returned to a certain day a long time ago. In his impression, the weather was gloomy that day, as if it was going to rain. He was so busy that he opened Weibo at night, and saw the top searched "Sheng Canyang Shanyu". There was a thunderbolt outside the window, and he was subconsciously startled, as if he had a premonition, his heartbeat stopped for a moment, and after he clicked on it, he saw a black-and-white video posted by the marketing account, which already had 10,000 comments.
For some reason, Hai Ri didn't dare to click on the video, but clicked on the comments first, and the hot comments were "??" and "exciting".
Hai Ri had already guessed the content of the video, and there was another thunderstorm outside, which made his face pale for a moment, he opened it, and saw the dark figure in the video, Shanyu raised his face in the stairwell and kissed Sheng Canyang's mouth , Sheng Canyang lowered his head and didn't dodge, but he couldn't see his face either.
Hai Ri still remembers that his mind was blank at that time, and he emptied it for a moment, leaving nothing behind.
Hai Ri still doesn't know what the relationship between Sheng Canyang and Sun Woo is. He knows that the follow-up is that the company only said that the video was fake, and did not let the two of them respond to this question.
The pure fans on the Internet went crazy, so did the CP fans, and the netizens also went crazy. Suddenly, this combination was put on the stage. Shanyu and Canyang became side dishes on the table. Including the erhu played by Sheng Canyang at that time, they were all brought out for careful consideration.
Sheng Canyang should have seen himself being scolded in the comments at that time.
Less than half a month after the incident, Shanyu announced that he was leaving the group. At that time, he said that it was his own problem and had nothing to do with Sheng Canyang. , he stayed in the group. In less than three months, when Shanyu participated in the show again, he changed his tone, saying that Sheng Canyang was having an affair with him, and that the kissing was a natural thing to do under the atmosphere at that time.
And Sheng Canyang's inaction in the past three months made him feel very sad.
Sheng Canyang never responded to this matter. In fact, he did not respond until his death. Hai Ri didn't know what he was embarrassing about, what was there to be embarrassing about, how hard it was to explain it to himself, but he did know that the public opinion at the time was like being buried alive.
Hai Ri said: "No matter what the reason is, I don't think it's your fault, even if you really fell in love, so what?"
"What are you talking about," Sheng Canyang said with a sneer, "I really can't imagine, he didn't even say that we were in a relationship, where did you hear about it?"
Hai Ri: "Then you..."
"As far as feelings are concerned," Sheng Canyang said, "Can you explain clearly? Do you like it, can you accept it? He kissed me. Why didn't I hide? I don't know what to say. I said I didn't either. I know, that was the first time, does anyone believe it?"
Hai Ri almost said to himself: "Yes."
Sheng Canyang stopped immediately.
Hai Ri: "I'm your fan, you believe everything you say."
Sheng Canyang was speechless for a moment, held a lollipop in his mouth, paused for a long time, regained his thoughts, and said, "How should I say it?"
Hai Ri was also silent.
Hae Il said, "Then why did he say that later?"
That was almost forcing Sheng Canyang to his death. Why did Shanyu suddenly retort? Hae Il thought something happened to the two in the middle. Unexpectedly, Sheng Canyang said, "I don't know either."
"He hasn't contacted me for a long time," Sheng Canyang said, "When I saw you again, he was in an interview and said that I was having an affair with him."
Sheng Canyang's eyes were a little confused, and he asked, "What is ambiguity? Does that count?"
Hae Il: "Did he say he likes you?"
"No," Sheng Canyang said, "but I seem to have guessed it."
"You guessed it?" Hai Ri said, "Then how did you deal with it?"
Sheng Canyang said truthfully: "I don't care much, I don't know how to say it."
Hai Ri: "Has he ever bought you anything?"
Sheng Canyang nodded.
Hai Ri: "Very expensive?"
Sheng Canyang: "It's okay."
"How did you handle it?"
Sheng Canyang: "I've given you the money."
Hai Ri said, "That doesn't count."
Sheng Canyang: "..."
He obviously still doesn't understand why this doesn't count. In fact, Hai Ri himself can't be sure that the relationship is indeed specious and ambiguous. Maybe it was Sheng Canyang's unintentional hint that some kind of spark was sparked so that both Sun Yu and Sheng Canyang came to the same position. Only then will there be that kiss. So that time, maybe it really wasn't harassment, at most Sheng Canyang accepted it passively.
But Hai Ri still stood on Sheng Canyang's side infinitely. Sheng Canyang didn't leave the group, and he didn't come out to explain. In the end, he couldn't explain. This was the straw that drove him to death, not because of anything else. All feel guilty. Hai Ri is selfish, and still favors the child he likes more, thinking that he has had enough torture.
Sheng Canyang said, "I didn't explain it to you, did I?"
Hai Ri said generously: "It doesn't matter, it's all over."
"Fuck it," Hai Ri cursed in his heart, "Don't let me go back, I'll kill this bastard when I go back, fuck it. Ascension period insists on seducing my son, fuck it."