Sheng Min took a few seconds to react and make sure that he had understood his meaning correctly: "You have been recording the scene this morning?"
Li Xuan nodded stiffly and hummed softly.
Sheng Min opened his eyes slightly, Li Xuan raised his hand and gently covered his eyes, and said softly: "Don't laugh at me."
Sheng Min's eyelashes trembled in his palm. Because her vision was blocked, she subconsciously took a step forward and got closer to Li Xuan, but she did not move his hand away.
"When did you come..." He suddenly remembered that glance in the morning and hesitated, "... When I went to the studio in the morning, I seemed to see a car that looked a bit like yours... It wasn't you..."
His sight was blocked, so he couldn't see Li Xuan's expression. After a long while, he heard him answer reluctantly: "It's me... I was going to take you there this morning, but I found Yang Xu was here too... Then I bought a ticket at the last minute, and I really forgot... After checking the ticket, I didn't return the phone."
He spoke briefly and quickly, and seeing Sheng Min trying his best to purse his lips, he said, "Forget it, laugh if you want."
He rarely spoke in such a tone, and Sheng Min really laughed this time. She gently held his hand that was blocking her eyes and pressed it down: "Why didn't you tell me that you were at the airport?"
Li Xuan remained silent.
"You don't want me to know?"
"Um."
"Why?"
Li Xuan did not answer. After a while, he asked him, "Are you angry?"
Sheng Min shook his head: "I'm just a little worried."
"What are you worried about?"
Yes, what should I worry about? Sheng Min thought.
So the first thing that comes with love is fear? He doesn't know whether love is strong or fragile. He has tasted the other side of love first.
Love is not about turning stones into gold, but about turning people into jade. Whoever you love becomes the most fragile thing in your heart. You are afraid that a drop of rain or a gust of wind will separate lovers.
"I'm worried about you." He raised his hand and gently touched Li Xuan's face.
Li Xuan looked at him apologetically and apologized to him seriously: "I'm sorry, I..."
"It's okay, I'm not angry, really. I didn't lie to you." Sheng Min said, paused, and said embarrassedly, "If you have to say it, actually I... I'm a little angry with myself.
Li Xuan was stunned when he heard Sheng Min ask him, "I don't know, do you know... I couldn't find you... Then I called Qi Boyuan."
Like a tongue twister, neither of them laughed. Sheng Min looked at Li Xuan's reaction, and the latter didn't look too surprised: "I saw his phone call and came to find you in a hurry. I haven't contacted him yet... What's wrong?"
"Aren't you angry?"
Li Xuan shook his head: "Why do you think so?"
"But I don't think it's good..." Sheng Min said softly, frowning unconsciously, "I regretted it before making that call, and after the call. But at that time, I couldn't control myself from doing it... But I don't like it, really..."
He paused subtly for a moment, met Li Xuan's gaze, hesitated, exhaled softly, and continued: "When I was young, before my father got sick, he drove a long-distance truck. I forgot whether I told you that he was very busy at work, leaving early and returning late, and often not at home for several days... Mom always called him, wanting to know his whereabouts at all times, looking for all his friends and colleagues at the company..."
"Then I will fire Qi Boyuan and cut off all ties with him. This way he is neither my colleague nor my friend." Li Xuan reached out and gently pinched Sheng Min's face, trying to ease his tense mood.
Sheng Min smiled cooperatively, but there was apologetic look in his eyes: "I was very young at that time, and Sheng Hui was just born. Normally, children have no memory before the age of three, but I don't know why, I have always remembered it very clearly. Mom dragged me to Dad's company to make a scene, and Dad rushed back from outside with an embarrassed look on his face... Later, Dad stopped driving long distances and started driving a taxi. He came home every day, and my mom ended up getting addicted to cards again... I thought that if I care about someone, I must not be like this, but when I made that call today, I felt that what I did was no different from what she did."
"Of course it's different." Li Xuan interrupted him firmly, "Sheng Min..."
"Please listen to me first." Sheng Min weighed his words and said gently and affirmatively, "No matter what our relationship is, you are completely free, and this will not change. I have always told myself this, and it should be like this... but I didn't do it."
He smiled reluctantly, and said in a self-deprecating tone, "So I am such a hypocritical person."
Li Xuan was silent for a moment, then reached out and held Sheng Min's shoulders, causing the latter to tremble slightly.
"Come." He looked around and saw that the light of the escalator opposite was broken, and there was a sign saying it was under repair. He pulled Sheng Min down a few steps and hugged him in the dark.
"It's not just because of your parents, it's also because of Li Mingge and Shu Xin, right?" He leaned close to Sheng Min's ear and felt the person in his arms stiffen for a moment.
"It's okay." Li Xuan said, "Do you know what I think?"
"What." Sheng Min's voice sounded a little muffled as it was buried in his heart.
"I think you're so cute." Li Xuan laughed unconsciously.
"What nonsense." Sheng Min moved in his arms, and Li Xuan quickly hugged him tighter, "Okay, okay."
"Sheng Min." He called his name and leaned his head to kiss his hair. His voice was very steady. "You are different from anyone else. No one can restrain me, except me who I am willing to be restrained by."
"I don't want to..."
"I think."
Sheng Min slowly raised her head from his arms: "Don't you think it's a burden?"
"Never..." Li Xuan thought seriously for a while, and suddenly said, "Can I tell you?"
"What?"
"Don't laugh at me."
"You just said that."
"OK?"
"Um."
Sheng Min nodded obediently. After a long while, she didn't hear Li Xuan speak. She looked up from his arms and looked at him. Li Xuan gently stroked his messy hair before saying, "I didn't come to pick you up this morning. I didn't go home last night... Don't look at me, just listen to me. I wanted to go back to the company. I don't know why, I missed you so much. I was ready to leave several times, but I couldn't bear to leave."
“You also sent a message saying you arrived… ..”
"I lied to you." Li Xuan felt a little guilty, "I was afraid you would keep waiting."
"Why don't you come up?"
"I was worried that you might fall asleep... Besides, I can't say anything more now. It's not like I'm going to regret it right away."
Sheng Min said "oh" in a flat tone, and it was hard to tell what his emotions were. Li Xuan smiled shyly, which was rare: "I was downstairs from you, and I felt that time passed so quickly. I saw the leaves of the Epiphyllum on the balcony swaying, and the day had dawned... Last birthday, I saw a bud, has it bloomed?"
"Come and see for yourself."
Li Xuan smiled and said, "I waited until dawn, thinking I could take you to the studio. I went to the door and bought you a piece of matcha cake for breakfast. When I drove downstairs, Yang Xu came again... The cake is still in my car. The rest is real... I don't know how to tell you, I feel a little embarrassed."
"What's embarrassing about that?" Sheng Min blinked.
"I can't explain it." Li Xuan shook his head. "Maybe I haven't thought about it this way. Really, before I came to see you yesterday, I always thought that I missed you so much because I hadn't seen you for so long." He paused delicately for a moment, and his voice dropped several decibels, like a whisper, "Why do I still miss you so much after seeing you? I didn't know it would be like this. I almost don't recognize myself anymore, and I don't want you to know... ... You cast a spell on me."
"It's more like you put a curse on me." Sheng Min said in a low voice.
They looked at each other in silence. In the darkness, they seemed like a pair of strangers who met by chance. Of course, they were not casual travelers, but this was indeed a journey they had never taken before.
It is not any script that Sheng Min has played, nor is it any program that Li Xuan has written. Obviously, love from ancient times to the present should be similar, and there is nothing new, but it still exceeds all the knowledge and control they have gained in the first twenty years. The unknown future is the unknown self, those flaws and even bad roots that have never been thought of. What else can you give to each other besides companionship? Perhaps the only thing left is that I feel the same way as you.
"Are you feeling better now?" Li Xuan saw that he was silent.
"Don't let me lose you again." Sheng Min didn't answer, staring at him intently for a long time, and finally said, "Okay?"
"Of course. I promise." Li Xuan felt relieved and stroked his back. "If I had known that my phone was confiscated today, I should have fought with the security guard at the door to get it back."
"Nonsense." Sheng Min curled her lips and laughed.
Li Xuan also smiled, and then he heard the boarding reminder sound in the distance.
"I'm leaving." Sheng Min said.
Li Xuan didn't answer. Sheng Min thought he was reluctant to leave, and she felt reluctant to leave too. She touched Li Xuan's temples again with affection and said, "I'll be back next week... I'll call you after I land."
"good."
"When you see Qi Boyuan, please help me explain." Sheng Min whispered,
"I'm leaving soon, why are you talking to me about other people?" Li Xuan smiled, "It's okay. It's okay. Of course you can find everyone around me, as long as you want, there is nothing you can't do. I don't have anything to hide from you."
"Really?"
Li Xuan's expression froze subtly. Seeing Sheng Min's puzzled look due to his hesitation, he smiled and kissed his eyes quickly: "Actually, there is one more thing... Don't glare at me. I bought a ticket on the same flight with you."
It was late at night when we landed in that small southern city. There were few people here, and there were only a few flights passing by every day. The cleaners were dozing against the wall. It looked more like an old train station than an airport.
"We really have to leave now." I don't know how the two-hour journey went by so quickly, it seemed like we had just boarded the plane, and in the blink of an eye it was time to part again.
"Let me know when you get to the set."
"I'm here. I'm afraid you're still on the plane. The flight is in an hour, right?" Sheng Min held his wrist and looked at the watch, whispering to him, "You're so stupid."
"I'll go in after I send you off." Li Xuan suddenly smiled, "I'm not stupid at all, I think it's worth it."
"Being silly."
"It was you who refused without any firmness." Li Xuan's smile became more obvious, and he said rationally and confidently.
Sheng Min ignored him. Li Xuan reached out to touch his face when he heard a sudden whistle from a few hundred meters behind him.
I couldn't help but pinch my brows: "Why is Yang Xu acting like the dean? You can't stare at high school students like that when they are in love."
"Very experienced." Sheng Min glanced at him meaningfully.
"What do I need this kind of experience for?" Li Xuan said seriously, "Unless you teach me."
"Okay." Sheng Min suppressed his laughter, "I am willing to have a premature love relationship with you."
Li Xuan nodded in agreement and sighed, "But what can I do? You should go back to the dormitory now."
Under the illumination of the "dean's" car lights that were like a patrol flashlight, the young couple who were about to separate said goodbye in a restrained manner.
Li Xuan stood there, watching Sheng Min slowly walk towards the car. He couldn't help but take out his cell phone and called Sheng Min.
"What's wrong?" Sheng Min looked back.
"It's okay, get in the car." The voice coming from the night wind and the voice in the receiver intertwined, incredibly gentle, "I want to talk to you again."
Sheng Min then took another step, smiling: "You say."
The south is humid, and the summer nights are like early autumn, hazy with mist. Sheng Min's figure seemed to be covered by a layer of gauze. Li Xuan didn't have anything to say, but looking at his back, he seemed to be bewitched and said slowly: "I was in the audience during the day, and there were your fans all around me. When you came out of the entrance and walked under the logo of "Picking the Moon", I heard everyone around me shouting "I love you"... Sheng Min, why do so many people like you?"
If they had not just separated, Sheng Min would have thought that his childish words were drunken talk. He turned his head, but he was too far away to see Li Xuan's face. He only saw the wind blowing up his clothes, and it seemed as if he had just met him and passed by him.
At that time, they were just passers-by who only saw each other briefly, and they had no idea that a turn of fate would lead to their lives becoming intertwined and entangled.
So what if he was threatened, so what if he was not favored? He never cared. Li Xuan was the best gift that fate had given him so far. He was the catastrophe he had been waiting for for a long time. He was willing to fall into the trap and was willing to pay every price.
"You don't seem jealous." Sheng Min could feel her heart trembling with Li Xuan's breathing, but everything was hidden like the waves in the deep sea. Her tone remained calm and gentle.
"It's not jealous... Do you know what I was thinking at that time?"
"What?"
Li Xuan chuckled softly and looked at Sheng Min from afar. A full moon was hanging behind him, and the moonlight fell on Sheng Min's white shirt, as bright as flowing water.
"I was thinking, they are not as good as me. Among so many people, I am the only one who has picked the moon."