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When Lu Shiqing heard that he could "hold her while she sleeps" and "talk about it tomorrow", he thought about what name to give to the child when he is born. But he quickly stopped thinking about it and decided to take it slow and steady and hold her first. After all, only by keeping your feet on the ground can you move forward step by step.
So he stretched out his arms and pulled her into his arms, and this time he was no longer afraid of exposing his wound, so he faced her.
Yuan Cihan was really tired. She was exhausted both physically and mentally after the whole day, as if she had been beaten up. Since she had softened her heart and agreed to sleep with him, she didn't bother toss and turn and just leaned against him and closed her eyes.
But her mind was not really at peace, and the shadows of Lu Shiqing and Xu Shan were still jumping around in her mind.
In fact, she was not such a good-tempered person. She was willing to forgive because she calmed down and thought about what she would do if she were in his place.
In fact, Lu Shiqing had never given her the opportunity to truly understand him. It was not until tonight, when the two figures that he had split into two halves slowly reunited, that she finally understood what kind of person he was, and how difficult it was for him to live in this ever-changing Chang'an City.
The political situation was turbulent and he was surrounded by enemies. He was walking a thorny road, a road that countless people were afraid to take. He lived in the cracks, with a tiger-like emperor in front of him and many princes with wolfish ambitions behind him. On the left, political enemies were pressing him openly and secretly, and on the right, the people who did not know the truth labeled him a "running dog".
Under such circumstances, he had no choice but to be cautious in every step and in every word and action. Every thorn he cut down pulled at the future of the Great Zhou. If he was not careful, it would not only be him who was charging ahead who would be shattered, but also the entire dynasty behind him.
Love is not the only thing that is important in this world. If you look at the world, you should not live too narrowly. Therefore, if she were Lu Shiqing, when she first fell in love, she would not easily reveal her dual identity and political stance.
She had no reason to blame him on this point. Besides, no one had been honest with each other in the past year. She couldn't tolerate her own concealment and then blame him for his deception. This was not equal.
As for the fact that he still didn't say anything even after they had become close friends, she could understand it. If you don't say something at the beginning, you won't know how to say it after a long time. Otherwise, why would he bother himself and go to great lengths to come up with a hundred lies to cover up the first one
And she was not the only one who suffered in the process of covering up the lie.
How could Lu Shiqing not notice her feelings for "Xu Shan"? She thought that he had experienced no less struggle and sadness than she did.
After thinking all this through, she had softened her heart a little. When she heard Lu Shiqing, who was so proud, say such humble words, she could no longer harden her heart and watch coldly.
So, she forgave him.
But forgiveness is one thing of reason, while acceptance is an emotional matter. She has not yet been able to fully accept and let go, and completely merge him and Xu Shan in her heart. So she found an excuse to postpone the consummation of the marriage so that she could have some time to relax.
She thought about these things with a heavy head and gradually felt a little sleepy, but unexpectedly the hand on her waist became hotter and hotter, so hot that she was about to sweat.
She opened her eyes uncomfortably and looked up, only to see that Lu Shiqing had not closed his eyes at all. He had been looking down at her, and she didn't know how long he had been staring at the top of her head.
She met his gaze and sighed, "Why aren't you sleeping? What are you looking at?"
Lu Shiqing explained: "I see, you have two whorls in your hair."
“…” Oh, no wonder he watched it with such gusto.
Lu Shiqing was serious, thinking that she really met his liking in every way. Even her hair whorl was longer than others, making it symmetrical.
He was satisfied in his heart, but he saw her mouth twitching slightly, as if she found him boring and didn't want to pay attention to him, so she turned her back and wanted to sleep peacefully.
With her back turned, his hand around her was forced to slide to her other waist, and through the thin layer of inner clothing, he directly touched a hideous bulge.
Yuan Cihan almost shuddered and shrank into the bed, as if hoping he didn't notice.
Lu Shiqing had already touched this scar when he was stripping her wet clothes at the Shangzhou Post Station, and he didn't think it was a problem at all. Instead, he was surprised by her reaction. Seeing her, he moved his body and chased after her: "I knew it a long time ago, why are you hiding?"
Upon hearing this, Yuan Cixian remembered that she had drunk too much and had indeed told "Xu Shan" about the scar to comfort him, and she immediately felt regretful.
Seeing that she turned her back and didn't speak, Lu Shiqing thought that she might be angry, so he apologized: "It was my fault for lying to you at the beginning, but now I have scars too, so it's all my fault."
Yuan Cixian shook her head, indicating that she wasn't thinking about it, and then moved further away from him, even with her head hanging out of the pillow, and explained: "I only have one scar, it's not symmetrical."
"… "
Lu Shiqing was angry and amused at the same time. He really didn't know what was in her head, but when he thought about it carefully, he felt that it was not strange for her to think so. After all, he had used a mole as an excuse to reject Shao He, so it was normal for her to misunderstand and worry that he disliked her. After all, no girl would not mind having a scar, not to mention that she met someone as picky as him.
But in fact, if she hadn't said it, he wouldn't have thought about the asymmetry of the scar. Even now that she reminded him, he still didn't think it was so unsightly.
Asking her to have a symmetrical scar? That's too absurd. Doesn't he feel bad
To put it another way, if he really resisted, he would rather poke out his own eyes.
He reasoned with her: "Yuan Cixian, according to what you said, do I have to stab myself again?" The wound on his chest was not symmetrical.
Yuan Cixian snorted: "How would I know you? Maybe that's what you were planning."
Lu Shiqing choked, moved an inch closer, leaned over and said, "I don't mind this." As if afraid that she wouldn't believe him, he emphasized it again, "Really."
He then added: "If you don't believe me, show me."
Yuan Cixian turned around and looked at him in surprise: "What's so good about this?"
Lu Shiqing had bound her eyes when he stripped her clothes last time, so he really couldn't tell what caused the scar. He was afraid that asking her directly would remind her of the bad past, so he wanted to see what was going on.
He made an excuse: "I'm showing it to you to show my sincerity. You can pay attention to my expression."
"…" He might be mentally ill, she twitched her lips, "Forget it, I believe you, no need to watch, go to sleep."
Lu Shiqing refused to give up: "I'll just take a look, I won't eat you, what are you afraid of."
Yuan Cixian ignored it.
Seeing that she was determined not to be provoked, he had no choice but to hold back, lifted the quilt and looked helplessly at the tent that had been stretched to the point of pain, waited for an incense stick of time, and saw that she seemed to be asleep, then he carefully reached out to lift her hem, ready to take a peek. But unexpectedly, as soon as his hand touched a layer of the hem, it was slapped away by the person who should have fallen asleep.
The back of his hand turned red and he hissed in pain. Then he heard her say, "Lu Shiqing, are you annoying or not? Are you going to sleep with me or not?"
Wasn't she the one who didn't "let me sleep" with him? He retreated silently, looked up to the sky and sighed, then opened his eyes and looked at the tent above his head.
How could Yuan Cixian sleep peacefully with a tiger and wolf who would only lift people's clothes while they were sleeping beside him? Seeing that he didn't even close his eyes, he was afraid that he was waiting for an opportunity to make another move, so he could only ask, "Are you willing to sleep after you finish watching?"
When Lu Shiqing heard that there was a play, he quickly answered affirmatively: "Yes."
She gritted her teeth: "Just one glance."
"Just one glance."
Yuan Cixian wanted to sit up for convenience, and when she lifted the quilt, Lu Shiqing held her down: "Don't bother, just lie down."
After he said that, he moved his body, turned around, and moved a little closer to the end of the bed. He reached out and started to lift her underwear. His movements were quick but the amplitude was small, so that only a part of her waist was exposed.
Yuan Cixian felt a chill in her waist and abdomen and blinked three times in a row. She felt that something was strange about the situation, but before she could figure it out, Lu Shiqing's hand had already touched her scar, causing her to tremble slightly.
She quickly lowered her eyes to look at him, and seeing that he was already there, she wanted to cover her wound with her clothes, but when she stretched out her hand, she heard him ask, "Is it a gunshot wound?"
Lu Shiqing frowned and rubbed her raised scar with his thumb. The wound looked like it was caused by a spear, and it was close to her waist, so she must have been attacked by surprise. Fortunately, the wound was not deep, and it seemed to have been stopped in time, otherwise such a fierce move could have endangered her life.
His throat felt dry and he suddenly felt a sense of fear.
Yuan Cixian was distracted by these words. Seeing his sympathetic expression, without any disgust, she nodded nervously and said casually, "It's nothing, just a traitor who sneaked into the army."
Lu Shiqing sighed and said seriously: "Yuan Cixian, I read the letter you sent me last time. I didn't pretend to reply to you because I was afraid that the debt would accumulate, so I just saved it. But now I must answer you properly."
She hesitated and asked, "Answer me what?"
"My aspirations are mine, and have nothing to do with you. No matter where I am, as long as I am here, there will be no place for you to use your talents in the four regions. Don't dream of risking your life for the Great Zhou." He smiled, "This opportunity to go down in history and be remembered for generations is mine. Unless I die first, then it will be your turn."
She frowned: "What are you talking about..."
"I'm just telling you, don't go to the battlefield anymore." After saying this, Lu Shiqing frowned and looked down at her scar.
She realized that her clothes were not closed yet, and she said in a strong but awkward voice: "You are done reading, go to bed."
After Yuan Cixian finished speaking, she tried to push away his hand that was pinching the hem of her clothes, but he grabbed her wrist. She saw him lean over without warning, put his lips on her scar and licked it gently.
She felt numb all over and almost jumped up in shock, staring wide-eyed, "You..."
She already knew that he didn't mind, so what was he doing
Lu Shiqing used one hand to stop her from getting up, and the other hand to prevent her from kicking him, and he pinned her down on the bed. Hearing her voice getting a little hurried, he raised his head and said with a burning gaze, "Yuan Cixian, listen to the bell."
She asked in a trembling voice: "...What?"
Lu Shiqing's lips curved slightly, and he answered with a dark look in his eyes: "It was agreed that it would arrive tomorrow."
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After a stick of incense, Yuan Cixian gritted his teeth and thought, no wonder Lu Shiqing could become a high-ranking official, this kind of villain who would fight for every ounce and not give in even an inch should be able to accomplish great things!
But she's not bad either, she suffocated him to death!
Lu Shiqing buried his head in her shoulder, miserable: "Yuan Cixian, I can't get in, please loosen up..."
She refused to give in. Come on, thief, let's perish together! If you want to suffer, let's suffer together. Heaven will not let anyone escape!
He frowned deeply and gnashed his teeth in her ear, saying: "Then I will use force..."
Yuan Cihan was stubborn and refused to answer. When he made up his mind to fight to the death, she bit his shoulder to death, causing him to scream in pain along with her.
Lu Shiqing now understood the true meaning of "holding on to your lover and not letting go", but the expedition was not over yet and the road ahead was still difficult. He was hesitating whether to slow down when he suddenly heard her say in a hoarse voice: "It is better to suffer a short pain than a long one. If you are a man, just do it in one go!"
He was stimulated to move forward desperately, but he did not expect that he would die after devoting himself to the cause, and his dignity was completely wiped out.
His mind went blank and he looked at Yuan Cixian who was also confused.
The two of them blinked awkwardly as they looked at each other. In the end, Yuan Cixian was the first to react and raised her knee to push him away: "Are you done with this? There's nothing more to do, right? Go to sleep on the footstool!"
Sleep on the footstool from now on!
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