Zhang Eryong stood at the door of Shen Ruolan's house. When he knocked on the door, he felt his arms weighed a thousand catties. He knew that when he knocked on the door today, he would return to the bridge with Lan Er. From then on, She is no longer his fiancee, and he is no longer her fiancee!
Losing her is not stingy for him to lose his heart and lungs. Losing his heart will make him a walking corpse, and losing his lungs will take away his breath. He only summoned up the courage to come to Jizhou after experiencing a heart-piercing pain at home!
What needs to be faced must be faced. There are certain things that are destined. Escaping and resisting will only make him more pitiful and make her more difficult. It is better to bear the pain and let things pass as soon as possible.
"Dangdangdang—"
"Who is it?"
Shen Ruolan had just finished taking a shower in the East Wing when she heard a knock on the door outside, she hurried out to open the door, took it and opened the door, it turned out to be Zhang Eryong!
"Brother Eryong, why are you here?"
Seeing Zhang Eryong who came suddenly, Shen Ruolan asked in surprise.
Looking at her pretty face, Zhang Eryong felt lost for a moment, he twitched the corners of his mouth, and said in a low voice, "I'll come and see Second Aunt!"
Shen Ruolan smiled and said: "Then it's not a coincidence that you came here, my mother has already fallen asleep, but she is much better now, today she can stand on the ground for a while with Kang Yan'er supported."
"Uh, is that right? That's good. I'm relieved that she's fine." Zhang Eryong said in a low voice.
Shen Ruolan avoided her body and said, "Come in, don't stand at the door and talk."
Zhang Eryong hesitated for a moment, and said, "It's so late, I won't go in, Lan'er, can you come out for a while? I want to say a few words to you."
Shen Ruolan said: "What are you talking about? It would be nice to come in and sit down and talk about something."
Zhang Eryong looked at the half-open door and shook his head: "You'd better come out."
He was really afraid that he wouldn't be able to open his mouth after he went in, and he was also afraid that he wouldn't be able to bear to come out...
Shen Ruolan had no choice but to come out. She had just showered and washed her hair. Her hair was still wet and hung behind her head. A towel was wrapped around her neck.
"What's the matter, you're so mysterious!" Shen Ruolan closed the door, turned around and raised her head to look at Zhang Eryong.
Zhang Eryong pursed his lips, stared at her for a while, and then said with difficulty: "Lan'er, I'm leaving!"
"Go? Where are you going?" Shen Ruolan asked blankly.
Zhang Eryong said: "Go to Fuzhou and join the army!"
"Fuzhou?" Shen Ruolan called out, "Where is the road more than a thousand miles away from us? What kind of army are you going there to join? There is a military camp to the north of us. If you want to join the army, why don't you join here?"
After finishing speaking, I felt wrong again, "No, now is not the time for conscription, what kind of army are you going to join?"
Zhang Eryong lowered his head, and said with some seriousness: "I don't want to be a merchant and farmer all my life, I want to start a career!"
"Why do you think like this? Brother Eryong, you have never been an ambitious person? Why do you suddenly have such an idea?" Shen Ruolan found it hard to believe his decision.
The Zhang Eryong she knew was a simple, honest, uncontested man, how could he have such an idea? This doesn't look like him either
Zhang Eryong said in a low voice, "When I was young, I dreamed of joining the army, making contributions, and starting a career, but I never had the chance. The last time I went to Qingzhou, our landlord's son came back from Qingzhou. He lived in Qingzhou." As Mo Chang in the barracks (in the infantry of Chu State, five people are one army, ten people are one tenth, and one hundred people are one Mo), he advised me to join the army and make meritorious deeds. went."
In fact, the landlord's son did talk to him about the recruitment of the Fuzhou military camp, but he didn't persuade him to join the army, and he didn't even think about going to the army.
This idea came up when I saw that man for the first time. I made up my mind after seeing him take her away in the cave. This time I came to Jizhou, and after knowing his identity, I became more sure of myself. There is no room for change in this decision!
Shen Ruolan was shocked when she heard what he said, because she never knew that Zhang Eryong still had such an ambition! It seems that I still don't know him deeply enough. What I knew about him before was only limited to him on the surface. She hasn't deeply understood his heart yet!
She is a modern person who knows how to respect other people's opinions. Seeing that he has made up his mind, she said no more, "In this case, you should take care of yourself. If it is convenient to go there, remember to send me a letter and come back." , save me from worrying!"
Hearing these heart-warming words, Zhang Eryong was so sad that he almost shed tears. He lowered his head, hesitated for a long time, and then said in a low voice: "Lan'er, it may take me a few years to come back after I leave, and it may be I can't come back, I think...you better not wait for me!"
Shen Ruolan was startled: "Er Yong, what do you mean?"
Zhang Eryong clenched his fists and said with difficulty: "I want... to retire..."
Shen Ruolan opened her eyes wide, "Say it again?"
"I... want... to resign the engagement..." Zhang Eryong said those words with all his strength.
Shen Ruolan finally heard what he was saying, she hesitated for a while, and then said: "Er Yong, I can't believe you said it, did you really mean it? Or did you misunderstand it because of what happened on the mountain that day?" What? If it made you unhappy because of that day on the mountain, I can explain to you, in fact, I... "
"Lan'er, you don't need to explain to me!"
Zhang Eryong interrupted her, "I don't blame you for what happened that day. Others would do the same thing. Really, my decision has nothing to do with what happened that day. It's just that I want to go out and make a difference. In Sifang, I don’t want to marry a wife and have children so early, be bound by the family, and tie my whole life here, I want to go out for a walk and see the outside world.”
"So you are going to give up our engagement. Do you think your dream is more important than our lifetime agreement?" Shen Ruolan asked calmly. Although there was no expression on her face, a layer of knots had formed in those clear eyes. ice.
Zhang Eryong lowered his head and muttered, "Lan'er, I'm sorry..."
Shen Ruolan took a deep breath, tried to calm herself down, and waited until she was sure that she could do it before she said: "This matter is not a small matter, I hope you can think carefully before making a decision, I will give you another three days If you still insist on your original decision after three days, then I will grant you!"
After finishing speaking, she turned around and entered the door, closing the door behind her.
At this moment, her heart was in a mess, and she could hardly think calmly.
All she knew was that the person she had decided to spend the rest of her life with was going to abandon herself and leave herself. She had already planned the rest of their lives for the two of them, but now he was going to leave her alone and leave early...
Although Shen Ruolan is reluctant and unwilling, she is not a stalker, and her self-esteem does not allow her to pester a man who abandoned her. If he really wants to leave, then she will let him go cleanly. This relationship makes this relationship completely a thing of the past.
In fact, her feelings for Zhang Eryong are not that kind of strong love. The reason why she chooses him is because he likes his honest and down-to-earth personality. Betrayal can also be pampered and held in the palm of his hand for a lifetime.
To put it bluntly, it's just because he fits his desire and requirements for marriage. It's very practical, but it has nothing to do with love!
She is a very sensible person, whether in her previous life or in this life, except that she strongly liked a few men (movie stars) when she was young and ignorant in her previous life, her attitude towards men after that is basically calm and rational.
This kind of personality has a lot to do with her work in her previous life.
She doesn't trust men, and always feels that men are unreliable, and the better the man, the more so. She remembers that when she was working at the Qianxiang Police Station, she had caught those prestigious men in the town more than once in hotels, shampoo rooms, and karaoke bars. Is lewd and obscene doing sex work with a wronged woman.
Those people are all family and business people, and they usually have a dignified appearance of caring for their wives, loving and caring for their families, but they are so obscene and shameless behind the scenes. Seeing their obscene and lustful ugly appearance when they were arrested, Thinking about their usual gentleman-like appearance, she was extremely disappointed in men, gradually lost confidence, and became more and more pessimistic about love. She just wanted to find someone who was honest and responsible, and lived a down-to-earth life.
She is emotionally clean and absolutely cannot accept her man betraying her. That's why Zhang Eryong was chosen firmly, because he is honest and simple, and it is impossible for him to betray himself.
Although her idea is a bit realistic, even if she doesn't have a vigorous love for Zhang Eryong, she will live with him wholeheartedly, live a prosperous life, and go on with him for the rest of her life...
However, this idea may not be realized...