Lu Yuan looked at his other self, looked at his gloomy and unglamorous eyes, and his whole body exuded a kind of despair that was like ashes, and all thoughts were destroyed. This person was himself, and he knew very well that his own heart.
At this moment, the great hatred has been avenged, and he no longer has the spiritual support to live.
He was castrated, his home was ransacked, his mother and wife died, and he was able to survive tenaciously to this day, and he accompanied King Zhan to the capital in blood. It was all because of his hatred. If there was no support for this hatred So, he no longer has the belief to live.
Now that his revenge has been avenged, he has nothing to worry about in this world, so he can leave without any regrets, and go to that world to find his Ning'er and his mother...
Abandoning the hustle and bustle of the world, forgetting the blinding glory and wealth, he rode a horse and headed north without looking back...
Lu Yuan watched the decadent and dispirited figure disappear from his sight, and felt tears pouring down his eyes. When he reached out to touch it, tears were streaming down his face and his clothes were wet!
He is 'he', and 'he' is him. Although they are not alone now, they are basically one person. He can deeply feel his heart and deeply understand his mood.
At this moment, his heart was ashamed, and all thoughts were destroyed. The only thought in his heart was to reunite with Ning'er. Other than that, he has nothing else to think about!
The man disappeared, and a mist covered his eyes. When the mist cleared and he saw clearly again, he found himself still lying in the meditation room of Qipan Temple, a simple room with a dimly lit lamp on the floor table. The oil lamp, on his pillow, was surprisingly wet...
Feel the pain, the lonely and desperate heart. In that life, he lived too hard, his body was crippled, and everyone in the world ridiculed him. His home was ransacked, his mother died because of his heart palpitations, and Ning'er, who loved him the most in his life, also died of overwork and illness during the distribution. He lost everything, nothing...
That kind of loneliness that was more terrible than death grabbed his heart and made him almost out of breath!
Fortunately, in this life, none of this happened. He still has a complete body, a loving mother, and his Ning'er. Although she is not by his side now, he will definitely find her back , he will fulfill the promise he made to her in that lifetime—
Love her well, only love her as a woman for the rest of my life, and try my best to treat her well, and never make her sad again!
There is also Deng An'an, the vicious woman who ruined her family and made him suffer the shame of castration in her previous life. There is really no need to keep such dirty things to scare people!
After dawn, Lu Yuan ate dinner, asked someone to clean up, and took Ning'er's nurses and maids to pick up Ning'er. He also wrote a letter to tell Chunyuyu that he went to pick up his wife. When you come back in time, if there is something in the army, let him handle it by himself...
Now that the end of the year is approaching, and there is nothing else going on in the army, Chunyu Jue saw Lu Yuan going to find his wife, and immediately expressed his support, and even allowed him to leave for a few more days, and come back when he finds him.
*****
At this time, on a certain official road in Qingzhou City.
Ning'er huddled beside the car curtain, looking at the few people who followed not far away, feeling very depressed.
They escaped with great difficulty, but they found her after only two days, and they followed her all the time, keeping her in their sight all the time, which made Ning'er very depressed.
Now that she came out, she didn't plan to go back, and she didn't want to have any contact with the people in Lu's mansion. However, they followed her and watched her like this, which made her feel a strong sense of frustration. He broke away from the family, and he was very ignorant to cause trouble for others, as if he was throwing a child's temper.
In this way, she felt extremely uncomfortable, like fists hitting cotton, and she had nowhere to be angry if she wanted to, so she could only helplessly let them follow and stare at her, although she was angry and dissatisfied, there was nothing she could do.
"Girl, apart from Qingzhou City, you have left the fiefdom of King Zhan. Fengyang City is ahead. Qingzhou is more than a hundred miles away from Fengyang, and most of them are mountain roads. This road is not very peaceful. I heard that there are often bandits and thieves. Miss, do you want to hire a few bodyguards to escort you?"
The coachman was sitting on the shaft of the car, and while flicking his whip, he turned his head and said into the car.
Ning'er looked at the so-called 'passers-by' A, B, C, Ding in the back, gritted her teeth and said, "No need, even if there are bandits and thieves, I will 'turn the evil into good fortune', you just have to go your way.
Anyway, if she encounters bandits and thieves, and these dog-skinned, plaster-like guards, instead of being followed by them every day, she might as well tell them to fight the bandits to the death, maybe she can take advantage of it and get rid of the Lu family completely monitoring and control.
If that's the case, even if you encounter bandits and robbers, it's worth it.
Seeing that she refused to invite escorts, the coachman said that she was reluctant to part with the money, and her fragile heart was still a little lost for a while. Not only because he was worried about his own safety, but also because he couldn't get a commission from the Escort.
Really!
The carriage quickly left Qingzhou City and headed all the way to Fengyang City in the south.
This road, as the coachman said, is mostly steep cliffs on both sides, or dense virgin forests, densely packed, and few people can be seen.
No wonder the coachman said that there are thieves and robbers. This mountain and this forest seem to be a good place to hide bandits and have an affair.