After Zhuang Baihua figured this out, his heart started beating faster.
If he had known this would happen, he would have made it clear to Chi Yue earlier.
But when it comes to matters of the heart, who can predict the future
Zhuang Baihua stood up, picked up the book he had just thrown away, and carefully stroked the portrait on the cover.
When he first read the novel, he could never imagine that he would be with the person on the cover.
When this thought came to Zhuang Baihua's mind, he was suddenly stunned.
It seemed that he had never confirmed his relationship with Chi Yue. Chi Yue expressed her feelings to him with a kiss on her birthday, and he also responded to Chi Yue with a kiss.
Neither of them expressed clearly in words what was in their hearts.
In fact, Zhuang Baihua felt a little awkward before.
Chi Yue was several years younger than him and was the son of his good friend. He had no choice but to let go of his reserve and kept delaying, refusing to respond directly to Chi Yue's enthusiasm.
At the same time, he was uncontrollably attracted to Chi Yue.
He could no longer convince himself that he only felt sympathy for Chi Yue. He would be happy when he was with Chi Yue, and would start to miss her when he was not with her.
When I think about being together, even if we don't do anything, just stay together quietly and touch each other silently, my heartbeat will speed up and my body will feel comfortable.
Zhuang Baihua had no choice but to deceive himself; he developed a desire for Chi Yue.
The dual desire of love and body.
Zhuang Baihua was annoyed. If only he could recognize himself earlier. He was older than Chi Yue, so he should be the one to break the ambiguity between them.
When Zhuang Baihua thought about the day he boarded the plane and the words he couldn't say, he wanted to beat himself up.
I am eight years older than Chi Yue, but I am still so timid and not brave at all. I am far worse than Chi Yue.
The more Zhuang Baihua thought about it, the redder his face became. Looking at the cover of the novel, he felt excited and wanted to see Chi Yue immediately.
He recalled what happened before he traveled through time. He got the original book that night, went to bed before finishing reading, and when he woke up, he had traveled through time.
So Zhuang Baihua put the novel on his bedside table, lay down on the bed and closed his eyes.
I fell asleep in a dream, and when I woke up, I should have returned to the world where Chi Yue was.
As Zhuang Baihua was thinking, he fell asleep.
When he woke up the next day, the first thing he did after opening his eyes was to turn his head. Then he saw the book on the bedside table and his heart sank.
He was still in his room.
Zhuang Baihua's long-standing biological clock has allowed him to maintain a good waking time. According to his previous habit, after getting himself ready, he went to the breakfast shop at the entrance of the community to have breakfast.
The owner of the breakfast shop still remembered him, greeted him and gave him half an extra fried dough stick.
After finishing his breakfast, Zhuang Baihua walked into his office. His colleagues greeted him enthusiastically and Zhuang Baihua made a joke.
It looked like a peaceful morning.
Then, Zhuang Baihua started to work.
He has to take on tasks assigned by his superiors, keep a close eye on various construction projects within his jurisdiction, and deal with disputes big and small. His work content is exactly the same as it was before he traveled through time.
Zhuang Baihua remembered that before he traveled through time, there was an advanced model that needed to be reported. Now in his dream, the matter was still going through the process, and he urged the staff to submit the materials as soon as possible.
This dream connected with his reality, which was really incredible.
Zhuang Baihua spent a busy and ordinary day, and nothing strange happened.
Zhuang Baihua thought he had hit his head, so this dream was longer.
As a result, he went home at night, went to bed early, and stayed in his home for another day.
He continued to go to work and go on with his life.
Whenever Zhuang Baihua thought he had made a mistake and was not dreaming, and maybe he had really put it on again, he would pinch his thigh, but still there was no pain at all.
Now Zhuang Baihua was confused.
What is going on.
A few more days passed and life went on as usual, but Zhuang Baihua began to panic.
He missed Chi Yue.
He missed Chi Yue's face, missed Chi Yue's hug, and wanted to see Chi Yue's beautiful dark eyes.
Every time Zhuang Baihua thought that it was time to wake up from the dream, he would open his eyes and see Chi Yue standing by his side. However, day after day, he did not wake up.
"Director, have you been worried about something recently?" His colleague Zhuang Baihua was in a daze and leaned over to ask him.
Zhuang Baihua turned around and looked at his colleague with whom he had worked for many years, and suddenly felt that he was a stranger.
Are these familiar people and things real or imaginary
Colleague Zhuang Baihua said nothing, showing a worried expression: "Director, are you tired? Do you want to see a doctor?"
Zhuang Baihua shook his head mechanically, took a deep breath, and said, "It's okay, just keep working."
No matter what, Zhuang Baihua will never lose his professional quality.
As the days passed, there was still no sign of awakening from the dream.
Zhuang Baihua's heart became heavier and heavier. He began to get scared, afraid that he would never see Chi Yue again.
During this period, his parents called him from time to time, urging him to bring his lover home. At first, Zhuang Baihua found excuses to refuse, but as he refused so many times, his parents began to suspect him.
"You haven't found a wife yet, you are just trying to fool us."
Zhuang Baihua swore, "I'm absolutely not lying to you. I really have someone I want to bring home."
"Then you should bring it."
Zhuang Baihua was helpless: "It's a bit inconvenient now."
"Can you show us the photos?"
Zhuang Baihua still couldn't do it. He couldn't take a picture of the cover of the original novel and show it to his parents, right
Words were not enough to prove his claim, so his parents didn't believe him at first, and there was nothing Zhuang Baihua could do.
After all, even he himself began to doubt this world.
What is true and what is false, where is the future and where is the way out? It is clearly an ordinary life, and these are familiar colleagues and neighbors, but they make him feel terrified.
If he stays like this any longer, he might go crazy.
Zhuang Baihua and Chi Yue felt the same way.
Chi Yue had repeated the time of being in her twenties countless times before. How desperate that must have been.
Whenever Zhuang Baihua thought of Chi Yue, his heart ached.
Chi Yue's situation is a thousand times more difficult than his, yet Chi Yue persisted. What excuse does he have to collapse
So Zhuang Baihua cheered up and continued to look for solutions and ways out.
He had studied the novel. In this dream, the book was just an ordinary book. Even the paper and printing were not very good. He tried to return the book to the elder sister, but it did not cause any changes.
Sleeping more is no good. No matter how he sleeps, he still wakes up in his own bed the next day.
He even took a leave and traveled to other provinces, where he had no problems, so it was not feasible to approach it from a spatial perspective.
Nothing else worked, so Zhuang Baihua could only try this last resort.
He found a higher staircase, stood at the top and looked down.
The scene before him reminded him of the day when he was pushed down by Song Yu on the Zhuang Building.
That was not a very good memory. The dark stairs were like a monster's teeth, eerie and scary. Zhuang Baihua still remembers the severe pain he felt at that time.
But he had no other choice. He calmed himself, closed his eyes, and jumped directly down the stairs.
Still no pain, but he was injured and went to the hospital.
Even if he relived the scene of his falling from the building, he could not wake up from this long dream.
Zhuang Baihua expected that after being pushed down by Song Yu, he would wake up in the hospital, but he didn't expect that not only did he not wake up, but he was hospitalized in his dream.
How ironic.
Zhuang Baihua lay on the hospital bed with a hopeless look on his face. Colleagues and friends came to see him one after another. They all thought that Zhuang Baihua had fallen accidentally. No one believed that Zhuang Baihua had committed self-harm.
Zhuang Baihua thanked his relatives and friends for their concern and tactfully said that he needed to rest.
After finally having some peace and quiet, his mother came to the hospital to take care of him, sat by his bed and began to nag.
"Look at you, you're such a grown-up, but you're still so careless. I've never seen a person in his late thirties tumbling down the stairs."
Zhuang Baihua said nothing.
The mother glanced at the fruit basket and flowers in front of the bed and said, "You are quite popular. So many people came to see you."
Zhuang Baihua said: "That's right, there are many people who like your son."
This statement is true. He still holds the record of being confessed to by three people in one day.
The mother whispered, "Why didn't you ask your partner to come and see you?" She was a little dissatisfied, "You're injured like this, and she still doesn't come. Does she care about you?"
Zhuang Baihua turned his head, tried to stand up from the bed, and said seriously: "Don't say that to him, he doesn't know I'm injured. If he knew..."
Zhuang Baihua was stunned and fell silent.
He was pushed down the stairs by Song Yu. Chi Yue was right next to him at the time. She watched him fall, and no one knew what she was thinking.
Zhuang Baihua felt uncomfortable when he thought that Chi Yue might be very sad.
"It's better not to let him know." Zhuang Baihua leaned on the hospital bed and murmured, "He will definitely be very sad."
"I promised him that I would always be by his side, but now I can't even do that for him."
Zhuang Baihua frowned slightly and spoke in a soliloquy tone.
The mother nearby heard it all. She looked at her son's thin face and knew that he had been worried recently. There was an undisguised look of loss on his face.
"I really like her that much."
Zhuang Baihua sighed and nodded.
"Although I don't know what went wrong between you, if you like each other, just go after him." Mother reached out her hand, tidied up Zhuang Baihua's hair at the temples, and said.
Zhuang Baihua looked at the wrinkles at the corners of his mother's eyes and asked hoarsely, "Can I really go?"
The mother nodded: "Of course, we are not a foolish family. We can accept whatever you like."
She hesitated for a moment, then immediately changed her words: "Of course, you have to be a person with good character."
Zhuang Baihua stepped out and assured: "You will definitely like him when you meet him."
His mother stroked his hair and, for once, didn't nag him. Instead, she said in a kind tone, "Go find her. Your parents will always support you."
Zhuang Baihua looked deeply at his mother and smiled, but his smile was a little ugly because of sadness and emotion: "Mom, thank you."
His mother tapped his forehead and said, "You are my son, why are you being so polite to me?" She pulled the quilt on Zhuang Baihua's bed and said, "Take good care of your injuries and get out of the hospital as soon as possible, so that you can go after him."
Zhuang Baihua lay down on the hospital bed, closed his eyes, and rested well to conserve his energy as his mother instructed.
This time, he fell asleep with a strong desire.
He wants to see Chi Yue.
Perhaps he dreamed about something at night because he thought about it during the day, and he heard some noises after falling asleep.
It was as if many different people were whispering something in his ear.
"Bai Hua, you have to hold on. You don't like drinking, but how come your physical fitness is worse than mine? Get up quickly and don't sleep any more."
"Boss Zhuang, if you don't wake up, the shareholders of the company will cause trouble. Don't you care if the company becomes someone else's?"
"How did you get yourself into this state? If I had known, I would have taken you back to Russia forcefully."
"Mr. Zhuang, you are going too far. You promised to watch my work. I have already made quite a few short films. Please wake up and take a look."
… so noisy.
Zhuang Baihua opened his eyes.