A fact - things are going in an uncontrollable direction.
If at the beginning he was just afraid that Cen Fei would find his brother, then now... Bah! Laozi walks upright and sits upright, I have nothing to do with him! Big deal... At worst, hide away, can't you afford to hide if you can't afford it
Thinking of this, Shi Ying vaguely seemed to be less panicked.
So the other passengers in the carriage saw that the young man who was beating his chest just now was now biting his nails again.
When Shi Ying came home, Shi Shi was not at home, maybe he went out to buy food.
Like a thief, he put down his piano and rushed into the bathroom. If he wanted to take a bath again, at least he had to use soap to cover up the scent of Cen Fei's high-end aromatherapy shower gel.
The house the brothers rented was dilapidated and small, and it was hot and humid in summer and damp and cold in winter. And because of the unstable water pressure, the gas water heater will always turn off automatically, and the water sprayed by the shower is sometimes cold and sometimes hot.
Shi Ying lowered his head, letting the water slap on his head and body indiscriminately, recalling Cen Fei's luxurious and comfortable home - the luxurious bathtub with massage function, the cloakroom larger than his own bedroom, and the bright river view outside the floor-to-ceiling windows , and the floor and inner room that are still warm in winter... In addition to self-blame and regret, Shiying wanted to put another idea into action for the first time: tell Cen Fei.
He was thinking that maybe he was too selfish, and everything was wrong, just because of his "like".
Mingming's elder brother should belong to Cen Fei, he should live with Cen Fei in such a comfortable big house, do the work he likes, learn the things he likes, and live a comfortable and comfortable life, instead of being crowded with himself in such a big house. In the cold and damp small rental house, we are running around together for our livelihood.
And Cen Fei should also belong to his elder brother. Of all the tenderness, care, ambiguity and affection, which one belongs to him? No, it's all because he looks like his brother.
Who am I? Shiying thought. I'm just redundant.
"You are crazy!" There was a sudden shout in his ear, the cold water pouring on his head suddenly stopped, and a dry towel was covered on his head. He heard the voice of Time with anger, "Bring cold water in winter Blow your head, do you want to get sick?!"
Shi Ying remained motionless, he lowered his head and let Shi Shi roughly wipe his hair and body. He sniffed aggrievedly, and asked nonchalantly, "Brother, do you regret being with me?"
Shi Guang's hand paused without answering, but the force of wiping his hand was a bit weaker.
Shi Ying raised his eyes and saw that his brother's eye sockets were also red, just like his own.
"Brother, do you regret it?"
Shi Guang bit his lip, without saying a word, wiped the worrying brother dry with a bath towel, wrapped him up, dragged him out of the bathroom, and threw the unfamiliar pair of brand-name underwear in the sink when he didn't notice. Into the trash can.
Shi Guang dragged his younger brother to the bed, carefully tucked the corners of the quilt, and stuffed a rechargeable hot water bottle into the bed. At this moment, he finally calmed down, as if he was neither happy nor sad as usual.
And Shi Ying still raised his pitiful eyes, hugged the quilt and asked persistently: "Brother, do you regret it?"
He looked forward to an answer, and he didn't regret it. Just one word is enough to keep him going.
Shi Shi kept silent, he turned on the hair dryer, and carefully dried his brother's hair. When his fingers touched the red mark on the back of his neck, he trembled almost invisibly.
"Do you regret it?" Time asked softly in a sigh-like voice, which was covered up invisible by the noise of the hair dryer.
Shiying didn't hear anything, he was upset, he stretched out his hand silently to hug his brother's waist, buried his face in his chest, felt his steady heartbeat, as if he could hear his heartbeat.
After a while, the hair was completely dry, and Shi Guang turned off the hair dryer. Shi Ying still refused to let go, he raised his head like a small animal, gently pecked and kissed his brother's lips and chin, and caressed his brother's waist and hips with his hands, just like the usual courtship appearance.
Shi Guang understood his intention, took off his clothes meekly, and got into bed together.
The two brothers hugged each other sideways, kissed deeply, caressed each other tenderly, their body temperature gradually rose, and their breathing gradually became short of breath.
Unfortunately, Shiying found that he couldn't fully harden today—maybe his body was drained by yesterday's medicine, or it might be that his surging emotions destroyed his state.
He was extremely annoyed, his heart became more and more bitter, and he felt that he was useless and terrible. As a result, the half-bodied avatar completely softened.
"Brother, I..." Shi Ying raised his bewildered eyes, trying to explain something, but in the end he couldn't open his mouth.
He dare not.
He didn't dare to tell his brother about the danger he encountered yesterday, nor did he dare to tell him about Cen Fei's existence.
"It's okay, next time." Shi Shi lowered his eyes, kissed his forehead reassuringly, got dressed and left the room, "Take a rest first, I'll make you some ginger tea, don't catch a cold."
Shi Ying finally couldn't hold back, covered his face with the quilt, and cried silently.
The atmosphere at home was very strange that day, and the two brothers did not look at each other or speak until lunch.
In the afternoon, they were cleaning the house together at home, during which Shi Shi made a phone call, and Shi Ying saw him go downstairs with his mobile phone, standing at the alley and talking for a long time, with a look on his face that he couldn't understand.
When Shi Shi returned to the house, Shi Ying was so nervous that his hands were sweating, and he could hardly even hold the mop.
"What's wrong, brother?" Shi Ying heard his voice trembling.
"Aying, I'm leaving." Time's eyes were full of reluctance, but his tone was calm and unquestionable, "The company plans to transfer me to the branch office in City G after the next year, and I'll be promoted there. The salary will be twice what it is now. You study hard and don't worry about money."
"You... you want to abandon me?!" Shi Ying collapsed almost immediately, clenched Shi Shi's wrist, his red eyes seemed to burst into floods, and seemed to spew out fire.
"You have to take good care of yourself in S city by yourself, don't worry me." Shi Shi bowed his head and kissed the back of his hand lightly, his eyes were as gentle as water, "Do whatever you want, you are free."
14.
Cen Fei was a little surprised when his secretary said that Shiying had come to find him on Monday afternoon.
He hurriedly finished the meeting, explained the work, and drove everyone away before letting Shiying into the office.
"Didn't you say you have an exam this week?" Cen Fei smiled when he saw Shi Ying walking towards him, "I thought you had no time to come... The new hairstyle is nice, and I also think your bangs were a bit long before. It's all covered."
"Does it look good?" The corners of Shiying's mouth curled up, as if he was smiling, but he didn't seem to be smiling, "Is it very similar to my brother?"
Cen Fei was taken aback for a moment, and then quickly noticed Shiying's difference today.
Shiying didn't bring the piano, and without the company of the black guy, the thin and thin young man looked a little out of shape, and it was obvious that his mood was a little bit wrong, and his eyes were red as if he had cried.
Can this little monster cry? It's really strange.
"What's going on? What happened?" Cen Fei stood up from behind his desk, walked up to Shiying, grabbed his arm with concern, and looked at him carefully.
Shi Ying squeezed his hand, looked up into his eyes, and showed a weak look for the first time: "Cen Fei, I... I want to ask you one thing."
"What's the matter? Tell me." Cen Fei felt more and more strange.
What's happening here? Little Bai Yang, who would rather bend than bend, learned to ask for help today
Shiying gritted his teeth and took a deep breath: "Brother Cen Fei, I want to transfer to G Yin, please help me. This morning I asked the counselor, found a mentor, and ran to the Academic Affairs Office. They all told me It's almost impossible for me to transfer schools, unless I have a connection. But I... I don't know anyone. Your family is rich and capable, so you can definitely handle it. If you can help me with this, I can promise you anything .”
"Didn't you say you wouldn't leave City S even if you were killed?" Cen Fei was puzzled, "I wanted to send you abroad before but I was unwilling, why are you going to City G all of a sudden now?"
"Don't worry about it, just say... just say whether you can help or not!" Shi Ying bluffed his neck, reverting to his old ways.
Cen Fei was confused by him, and also thought his appearance was cute: "Why should I help you if you don't tell me the reason? Is there anyone who asks for help?"
Shi Ying stared at Cen Fei, looked at his half-smiling eyes, gritted his teeth and then took off his coat in twos and twos, revealing a gray sweater with an asymmetrical collar that had a sense of design underneath.
Cen Fei frowned, feeling that the sweater looked familiar, and took another look at Shi Ying, finally realizing what was going on.
"you… "
"This is my brother's clothes, you gave him before." Shi Ying blushed, eyes evasive, "I also cut my hair specially, does it look like him? I know you want to sleep with me... no, you want to Sleep with my brother. I'll let you sleep once, and you do me this favor."
Cen Fei choked and rubbed the space between his brows: "Aying, to be honest, I'm glad you're willing to recommend yourself as a pillow, but what's the point of this? I don't think of you as your brother."
"What did you call me?" Shi Ying was startled when he heard that address.
"Aying." Cen Fei said half jokingly and half sourly, "That's what your boyfriend calls you, isn't it?"
"You... You peeked at my phone!" Shi Ying frowned immediately, and angrily pushed Cen Fei's chest, but he suddenly grabbed his hands and couldn't break free no matter what.
For the first time, he knew that Cen Fei was so strong.
"You, let go!" Shi Ying's eyes turned red, "You want to pinch me to death!"
"If you know it hurts, just say it's old