Don't even think about it! "
"You..." Time stared at him blankly, tears welled up in his eyes, shattered the fragile embankment, and out of control emotions poured out, "What do you still think about me? I'm already planning to quit... why don't you let go pass me!"
Shi Guang burst into tears, it was the first time Cen Fei saw him like this, he hurriedly let go, his heart throbbing with pain, he was at a loss as to what to do.
Shi Shi slumped back to the chair, wiped away his tears resentfully, and when he raised his head again, his always obedient and friendly face showed a bit of sternness for the first time, his eyes were like knives: "Aren't you together? He Runs over to you a few times a week, when I don't know? He's still sleeping at your house, and when he comes home the next day... You guys sleep over and play too hard, don't you? That pair of panties, with you Isn't leaving a mark on his neck to declare sovereignty to me?"
"It's wrong for us to be together. We are brothers, we are not sexual..."
"It's nothing to me, Lord Yan took back a life, one day counts as one day, but Ah Ying has a bright future..."
"He chose you. You are rich, powerful, capable and skilled. I am not as good as you. What objections can I have? I only hope that you can treat him well..."
"But why didn't you let me go? What's the purpose of telling me all this mess today?"
"Do you want to be with me? Why! I don't know you!"
"What about my brother? Tell me, he likes you so much, what should he do now?!"
Cen Fei was dizzy from a series of questioning by Shi Shi, and he finally understood what it meant to be self-inflicted.
Cen Fei's chest rose and fell violently, and after taking a deep breath for a long time, he asked in a hoarse voice: "So your brother is the only thing you care about now? What am I in your heart?"
"It's nothing." Time said bitterly. He suppressed his emotions, wiped away his tears, and slowly put a piece of cake into his mouth with shaking hands. He lowered his head and said, "Just pretend you haven't seen me today." ... No, you have to promise me that you will not let A Ying down, or I will never let you go even if I am a ghost."
Cen Fei felt a mouthful of blood clogged in his chest, unable to spit out or swallow, but it made his mouth bitter and his heart astringent.
He felt that the time in front of him was a little strange, but he couldn't help feeling that maybe this was the real time—so stubborn, so persevering, and so hard-hearted.
"You really can't remember at all? Look at me, I said so much just now, don't you even feel the slightest bit?" Just rambling, "Or can you try to fall in love with me again? Like...like when we first met at the cafe?"
Shi Guang gritted his teeth, closed his eyes, and said in a calm tone, "Promise me, take good care of my brother, the kind who will be single-minded."
There was an instant silence in the box, neither of them spoke again.
Not long after, winter rain began to fall outside the gloomy window, pattering on the glass with a lot of noise. If you take a closer look, you will find that it is not rain, but grains of snow, knocking on the window one after another, melting instantly, turning into water droplets, turning into water marks, converging and falling under the traction of gravity.
Cen Fei stared blankly out of the window, his head was blank, thinking for no reason that it might be very cold when hit on his face, perhaps as cold as the rain on a summer night on the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau... At this moment, he suddenly got a jolt, his mind In an instant, it was clear.
What multiple choice questions? Why do we need multiple choice questions in life
Why restraint? Why cringe? Besides death, what is there to fear in this world
Whatever you want, you should get it all.
I am a businessman, he thought, and that is what I am, shrewd, cautious, steady, but greedy and insatiable.
"Can I eat that piece of mango cake?" Cen Fei said suddenly.
Shi Guang was immersed in his own thoughts at this time, he was taken aback when he heard this, he glanced at him inexplicably, and pushed the mango layer cake in front of Cen Fei.
Cen Fei nodded to him with a smile, forked a piece of mango into his mouth, chewed and swallowed it carefully, then forked another piece, and before reaching his mouth, he suddenly coughed violently, he dropped the fork in embarrassment, stretched out his hand He strangled his own neck, his face flushed red in just a few seconds, and a bit of ferocity appeared on his gentle and delicate face.
"What's the matter with you?!" Shi Guang stood up in fright, went around the table to help him, reached out and touched Cen Fei's hot skin, and the hives that rose rapidly on the exposed wrist and the back of his hand.
"Mango allergy, cough cough!" Cen Fei seemed to be having difficulty breathing.
"Ah? Allergies?!" Shi Shi panicked, he was shrouded in fear of death for no reason, his calm disguise collapsed again, and he panicked for a while, "What should I do? What should I do?"
"Take me to the hospital." Cen Fei was suddenly in a good mood, and the time in front of him finally overlapped with the deer-like youth in his memory, and it became extremely real. He was sure of one thing, the two brothers were similar not only in appearance, but even in their love of bravado.
Shi Shi grabbed the coat next to him and quickly helped Cen Fei put it on, but he didn't even bother to put on the down jacket, he just rubbed it into his arms indiscriminately, and walked out with Cen Fei's arm, feeling terrified in his heart, saying I still don't forget to complain: "What are you doing? You still eat if you are allergic! Don't you know that you are allergic? What should I do... Will I suffocate?"
"In order to touch porcelain." Cen Fei tugged on his coat, and wrapped the young man's slender body into his arms.
18.
Shi Shi wanted to escape from that embrace, but he hesitated all the time. He didn't do that until he got in a taxi.
Maybe it's because the winter wind is too cold, or maybe it's because the feeling on that person is too familiar—it's so familiar that it makes people feel at ease, but there is some unspeakable sourness and helplessness in the peace of mind, which makes him unbearable and unwilling to let him go. push away.
Some things are indeed completely forgotten by the brain, but the body probably still remembers something.
Time has lost a lot of memories, just those things after the family change, everything stays in the part of him jumping excitedly on the stairs and then stepping on the air after the results of the college entrance examination were announced.
When he woke up from the hospital, he saw his younger brother standing beside the bed with bloodshot eyes, reached out and touched his head, and asked with a smile, "Aying, what's the matter?" He was surprised that his younger brother looked different, haggard Lost a lot, "I was injured so badly? Still in the hospital? Where are my parents?"
The playful and laughing younger brother in my memory didn't say anything, just flattened his mouth in grievance, and then cried out with a "woo", laying on his shoulder, sobbing, and crying for half an hour.
For the next three or four years, Shi Guang's mind was not very clear.
Brain tumor surgery was successful, but it still left him with a long scar on the back of his head, sluggish reflexes and fading memory.
Father went bankrupt and committed suicide, mother remarried and lost contact, relatives avoided estrangement, he was admitted to a prestigious school but failed to attend, and owed a lot of debts... In the whole year of memory loss, the once proud son of heaven has fallen from the clouds and fell into a trap. In the swamp, however, he did not feel too uncomfortable, probably thanks to this annoying disease to some extent.
All the pressure and suffering fell on the shoulders of the young brother.
He looked at his younger brother, whom he loved dearly since he was a child, and who has always lived a carefree life. Now he not only has to go to school, but also works several jobs at the same time to support the family and pay off debts. He also has to take care of his life and accompany him for follow-up chemotherapy. and physiotherapy.
Despite this, the stubborn Shiying still raced against time and forgot to eat and sleep to practice the piano, as if he wanted to keep some promise.
"The sound of this violin is not pleasant." Shi Guang sat on the bed and hugged the pillow and stared blankly at his younger brother, "Where was the original practice violin? The one with Doraemon stickers on the back."
"In the old house, it was sealed up by the court."
"Ah? Court? Why should it be seized?"
"Pfft, bro, did you forget again? Forget it." Shi Ying lowered his head, with a slight smile on his lips, "This piano is pretty good, you gave it to me."
"I gave it as a gift? No way? This looks like a bargain." Time scratched his head in doubt, and then noticed that he lived in a small dark and damp house. why am i here he asked himself. He guessed that he should have forgotten something, but he couldn't remember it...
Such stupid conversations were repeated over and over again, and Shi Guang was also puzzled over and over again about the predicament of himself and his brother.
Sometimes he can remember a little, but he always forgets quickly.
Later, he could remember more things gradually. At this time, although his brain was not as sharp as before, he was not too stupid.
When he found the job as a delivery boy, Shi Guang thought: I won't be dragged down by Ah Ying in the future, that's great.
But Shiying got angry at that time, and made a big fuss.
"I'm an elder brother, there's no reason to let you keep me, I'm cured now." Time said unconvinced.
"You can't do this kind of work! You should... you should do what you like to do! Go paint! Go sign up for a class to learn painting, and I will pay for the tuition!"
"Don't be silly, Ah Ying, what kind of painting does our family need to learn in this situation, let's pay back the money first. Besides, I haven't painted since I went to middle school, how can I remember..."
"If you don't go to learn...then I won't study music either." Shi Ying slammed the bow angrily, "I'll deliver the courier! You deliver the food, I deliver the courier, just right!"
"What are you talking about," Shi Guang said helplessly, "Don't be childish..."
"Anyway, you must learn to draw!" Shiying's eyes turned red, "Or find a job related to art... Otherwise, I will drop out of school.