Go deliver the courier! "
In the end time had to compromise.
What's more, he also likes to draw.
Fortunately, he found a job as a studio assistant, working part time and studying part time. A few months later, the art teacher's family immigrated abroad, and before leaving, he introduced him to a design company run by his friend as an assistant.
Shi Guang worked and studied with his seniors during the day, and went to night school at night to study art and design.
The debt is decreasing day by day. One of the two brothers is doing a job they like, and the other is studying a major they like. Although they are poor and hard, they are lucky enough.
Everything was developing in an optimistic direction, until one day Shi Guang suddenly discovered that his younger brother secretly hugged him from behind while he was sleeping, and kissed the back of his neck tremblingly and lovingly.
Time was shocking at first.
There are some things that you don't feel when you don't know them. Once you know them, all the clues are betraying Shiying's unspeakable secret desire.
Time realized that his younger brother's thoughts about him did not happen overnight, it had existed since his younger brother's adolescence, and over the years, Shi Ying's obsession has become deeper and deeper, and it has become more and more difficult to control himself.
When the arrogant and awkward younger brother confessed his love to him in a straightforward way, Shi Shi could no longer pretend to be stupid.
He hesitated for a moment, then chose to accept the relationship calmly, and tried to get along with his younger brother as a lover.
The chance of narrowly escaping from a serious illness made Shi Shi look down on many things. Fame, money, and even ethics are irrelevant, the most important thing is being able to live happily.
As for my brother's future and future...
"The current situation is quite optimistic, but we should not take it lightly." During the follow-up visit, the honest doctor said to him, "Even if this kind of tumor is benign, the survival rate is not high, let alone yours is malignant, and the operation was successful. It is already very lucky. It is basically safe to not relapse within the next eight years. Many people fall in the sixth and seventh years... I am not pouring cold water on it, but just reminding you, remember to return to the doctor for check-ups on time, exercise moderately, and rest adequately. Other times you like to eat, drink, and be happy, don't think too much, okay?"
Eight years... Time counts on its fingers, conservatively calculates that I can live for six years, then the time to be with my brother is not long, so what else is there to care about? Of course he hoped that he could live as long as possible, but this disease is like a ticking time bomb. Once an accident strikes, what should Ah Ying do by himself
Time dragged on this unsolvable problem, trembling through the fifth year after the operation, and luckily entered the sixth year.
By accident, Cen Fei appeared next to his younger brother out of thin air at this time.
As soon as Shi Guang noticed Cen Fei's existence, he immediately used his only contacts and resources to investigate this man, secretly followed his brother several times, and checked his mobile phone information.
Reason tells Time that this kind of voyeurism is pathological. But he is eager to know whether the person who will take his place in the future is good enough, good enough to get his stubborn brother out of trouble, let go of his guard, good enough to give enough love to his precious brother, and promise him A bright future.
Even though he was mentally prepared, when he saw the traces left by Cen Fei, Shi Shi still couldn't help feeling jealous.
He had to admit that after living together with his younger brother during this period of time, their relationship had undergone a qualitative change.
They are brothers and family, but also lovers, the superposition of various intimate relationships, and the only light in each other's lives.
Shi Shi didn't want to let go, but he felt his brother's heart was shaking. Shiying's hesitation, hesitation, entanglement and pain not only consumed himself, but also tortured Shiying in disguise.
Go to G City, take this opportunity to leave here, die far away, don't be annoying. Time said to itself. I am a person who may die at any time, what is it that I am not reconciled to? Anyone can suffer, but Ah Ying can't, he must be happy...not to mention that Cen Fei is so good.
It was only now that time suddenly understood why he had no reason to think that Cen Fei would be a good enough and credible person just by relying on a few sneak peeks and the scattered fragments of information he collected.
It turned out that this person was once his own choice.
19.
Shi Guang took a deep breath and forced himself to retract his thoughts. When he turned his head to look at Cen Fei, he found that Cen Fei, who was coughing and having difficulty breathing just now, seemed to be suffocating at any time, was quietly looking at him with his face sideways, his eyes full of tears. Tenderness and affection.
"You... what are you looking at?" Time felt his heart skip a beat, and his tongue was tied.
As Cen Fei thought, he couldn't help but touched the looming hideous scar hidden in the hair on the back of Time's head with his fingers, and rubbed it lightly twice: "Does it hurt?"
Shi Shi clenched his lips, avoiding his head awkwardly: "How are you?"
"Well, it's much better." Cen Fei saw that Time would not let him touch his scar, so he shook his hand instead, and the other party struggled twice but couldn't get away, so he had to let him hold it.
Time is overwhelmed and helpless.
He was basically sure now that Cen Fei was indeed touching him—those scars caused by allergies were probably real, but it was obvious that the suffocating appearance just now was pretending.
He was a little angry with himself, angry that he knew that Cen Fei was playing tricks on him but couldn't get angry.
Cen Fei obviously noticed his displeasure, and hurriedly said: "I'm sorry. I just felt a little happy when I saw you nervous, but after thinking about it, I realized that I was deceiving myself. In your eyes, I probably Is it exactly the same as the old man who touched porcelain on the roadside five years ago?"
Time turned to the beginning and refused to answer.
"Maybe even worse than that old man." Seeing that he didn't speak, Cen Fei smiled self-deprecatingly, "After all, he is just a stranger, and in your eyes I am your rival in love, you probably prefer me to die."
"No." Time immediately denied, "I never thought of letting you die."
"I know, you never want anyone to die, except yourself." Cen Fei said.
Shi Shi was startled, and looked at him suddenly. When he met Cen Fei's deep eyes behind the lens, he suddenly had a feeling, as if the man in front of him had already seen through all his thoughts, and understood all his pessimism and cowardice.
Cen Fei added: "Five and a half years ago you thought you were going to die, so you chose to leave me. Now why are you leaving your brother?"
Time's heart beats like a drum.
He suddenly felt dangerous, and felt that it was wrong to stay with this man for another second, and the defenses he had built up again and again seemed to collapse instantly with just a casual word or a look from him.
He instinctively believed Cen Fei's words - he probably really loved him before, no one could remain indifferent when faced with such gentle gazes and heart-to-heart inquiries.
Shi Shi hurriedly said to the taxi driver, "Master, please let me get off here."
"There is an intersection ahead, don't worry, the light is red." The driver said.
"Did you drive the wrong way?" Shi Guang looked out the window, frowning unconsciously, "The front is not the People's Hospital."
"Didn't you go to a private hospital?" the driver wondered, "The gentleman said he was going to a private hospital."
"It's a private hospital, thank you." Cen Fei said.
"..." Shi Shi felt more and more dangerous, he didn't even notice when Cen Fei asked the driver to change the road, "Why..."
"Because there is no need to line up." Cen Fei clenched his hand, "The medical equipment in that hospital is the best in the city, and I have a good friend who happens to be a brain tumor specialist there."
"I don't, I'm not going..." Shi Guang was so nervous when he heard the words, "Let me go, I want to go home."
"I'll take you home in a while." Cen Fei grabbed his hand and kissed it lightly on his lips, comforting him, "Xiaoguang, I think I told you just now? I'm also afraid of death. No one is not afraid of death , because of this, we have to work harder to live."
"What, what do you mean?"
"No one should sacrifice, and no one needs to give in. There will always be the best solution to the problem." Cen Fei's eyes were a little empty, as if he was talking to the trees on the street, or talking to himself, "This I won't let you mess around this time."
While speaking, the car started up again and stopped at the entrance of the hospital in less than half a minute.
Cen Fei got out of the car first, and stretched out his hand to Shi Shi in the car: "Come on, don't be afraid."
Shi Shi huddled in his seat, shook his head, and remained motionless.
Cen Fei gently took his hand: "I will be by your side, no matter what the result is, we will face it together. Come, follow me."
Shi Guang raised his head in a daze, looked into his eyes, and looked at this man who he only met today, but who seemed to have known him for many years, and gave birth to some courage out of thin air.
Afterwards, he took one foot, as if his soul had come out of his body, watching him indifferently from the perspective of a bystander, and followed Cen Fei out of the car and into the hospital hall.
The enthusiastic nurse came up and saw the scar on Cen Fei's face and said in surprise: "Mr. Cen, what's wrong with your face? Hurry up, come here."
"I'm fine, please give me some allergy medicine." Cen Fei smiled, "I have an appointment with Professor Zhang, is he in the office?"
"Mr. Cen, I'm here." A young doctor greeted him and shook hands with Cen Fei familiarly, "It just so happened that my mentor and brother from the United States happened to be traveling in S city. They are also here, and they will be here later. They are experts in oncology, international authorities, and their medical skills are much better than mine. I just read the information you sent.