The rain outside seemed to be louder, Chen Qizhao's hand was unconsciously placed on Shen Yuhuai's shoulder, after that "no", the atmosphere between the two seemed to fall into a long silence, it seemed that a long time had passed. For a long time, it seems that only a few seconds have passed.
Chen Qizhao lowered his eyes slightly, rubbed his fingertips on Shen Yuhuai's shoulders, and touched Shen Yuhuai's collarbone through the clothes. When he was still, he seemed to be able to feel the strong and fresh beating sound of the other party from the subtle vibrations in his chest.
Hot and hot.
The man didn't do anything else, just let him touch it and looked at him calmly.
When he moved slowly, he asked, "Did you come down? We have been here for a long time."
Chen Qizhao looked at Shen Yuhuai and suddenly said, "My clothes are wet."
Shen Yuhuai's eyes froze for a moment, noticing the wet countertop beside the washstand and the water stains on Chen Qizhao's clothes.
Outside the ward, Chen Shiming finished the phone call, and when he first entered the ward, he suddenly saw the door of the bathroom not far away opened, and Shen Yuhuai came out, but did not see Chen Qizhao. He was slightly surprised to see this situation, and his exploratory gaze stopped on Shen Yuhuai for a while, always feeling that something was strange.
The glass window can see the limited position, can not see the bathroom side.
He remembered that when he just answered the phone, he didn't seem to see Shen Yuhuai much.
"Where are his clothes?" Shen Yuhuai said in his usual tone, "He wants to take a shower."
When Chen Shiming heard the words, he had to walk over to get a change of clothes, walked to the bathroom door and knocked, and soon Chen Qizhao reached for it. He suppressed the strange feeling in his heart, and when he turned around, he happened to see Zhang Yazhi coming back, walked over and said a word or two.
The sound of water soon came from the bathroom. Seeing Zhang Yazhi staying in the ward, his eyes stayed on Shen Yuhuai for a moment.
Shen Yuhuai noticed his eyes and saw him walking out, "Aunt Zhang, I'll go out first."
Zhang Yazhi replied, "It's all right, you can go, I'll just watch it here."
The corridors are quieter at night, and there are fewer doctors and nurses walking around.
There is only a nurse station in the distance outside the senior ward. After Chen Shiming called the person out, his tone couldn't help but sink a bit: "When you went to the doctor's place just now, did the doctor say anything more?"
"No." Shen Yuhuai went to the doctor's office with Zhang Yazhi not long ago. The doctor mentioned all about Chen Qizhao's drug reaction and emotional changes during this period. He clearly cooperated with the drug for a period of time, but Chen Qizhao's performance was the same as at the beginning. Instead, it was the drug. The side effects began to change significantly.
Shen Yuhuai thought of the look in Chen Qizhao's eyes in the bathroom just now, and when he was about to speak, he heard Chen Shiming say.
"He seems to be afraid that something will happen to us." Chen Shiming's eyes stopped on the resting chair opposite, "It's a bit weird to say, but he really cares about it."
The reason for Chen Qizhao's anxiety Chen Shiming thought about it. Originally, the biggest reason they considered should be the matter of Lin's medical care and the Gu family. Chen Qizhao spent too much energy on those things, so he brought some relevant news to Chen Qizhao as much as possible. Hope Alleviating his worries about these things didn't actually make much of a difference. Until today, Chen Qizhao's sudden reaction reminded him of some details that he had neglected before.
"He is very worried that I will have a car accident and become paralyzed. He is also worried that my dad will have a cerebral hemorrhage and cerebral infarction." Chen Shiming's tone was a little hesitant, but at this time he seemed to peel off these details bit by bit. Digging down, "Several times, he's made these assumptions when he's emotional."
Chen Shiming recalled the situation at that time, a thing that had settled down, in Chen Qizhao's mouth, it seemed like an uncertain factor that could happen at any time. The results are qualitatively the most extreme endings. Chen Qizhao imagined the situation where he was paralyzed in a car accident, and also imagined the irreversible outcome of his father's cerebral hemorrhage, and even thought about the final bankruptcy of the Chen Group under the joint pressure of Lin and the Gu family.
While they were still thinking of a solution, Chen Qizhao had already imagined the most terrifying outcome. In order to prevent this outcome from happening and adopt a more extreme approach, he really seemed to experience that terrifying and absurd dream and was trying his best to Reversing the ending of that dream.
Shen Yuhuai lowered his eyes slightly, thinking of Chen Qizhao's abrupt question in the bathroom, he replied, "It may not be Lin's business that he is worried about, it may be your safety."
Chen Shiming's heart sank, "I'll go to the doctor to talk."
The doctor was still on duty tonight. After listening to Chen Shiming's words, he was silent for a moment, and then he said, "Then his situation is a bit different from the patients I have contacted in the past. Most of the patients I have contacted are anxious. The reason is all their own. For example, on the topic of death, some patients may be very anxious about their own death and fear all the suspicious factors that lead to their own death. Like him, he will be anxious because he is not sure about the safety of others. To be honest, he is not sure. Sex will be greater."
"His current situation is actually not serious. At least with the treatment, he can suppress some emotions through drugs." The doctor saw the two people in front of him and had to say: "But you also know that drug control can cure the symptoms but not the root cause. If you want to solve this problem, you can only say that you can find the cause of his main anxiety and depression, and let him find a way to alleviate his worries and fears in this regard."
Doctors have seen many difficult patients and more uncooperative patients.
But it is rare for a patient like Chen Qizhao to cooperate. On the surface, he seems to be cooperating. In fact, the other party is very vigilant and controlling. Cooperation is just a means for the other party to control the treatment. In the end, it may be because of The side effects of the drug trigger his deeper dark side.
It was raining lightly outside, and the sound of the rain was very similar to the sound of water running in the bathroom.
The driveway next to the private hospital was relatively quiet, the parking lot toll sign clicked, and Shen Yuhuai slowly drove away from the hospital.
After a while, he stopped the car.
There were other traffic on the side of the road and went out. Shen Yuhuai sat in the driver's seat for a long time and was silent for a long time. He paused and opened his wallet to see a photo in the mezzanine.
Fireworks by the sea, and Chen Qizhao.
Shen Yuhuai looked at it for a while, and then took out the photos in the mezzanine. Below were photos from when he was younger. The young Chen Qizhao sat next to him and smiled at the camera, showing a beautiful little tiger tooth. The photo was turned over a while ago. He printed a new size and put it in his wallet.
There was a beep in the distance, and someone honked the car horn. Shen Yuhuai came back to his senses, and when he looked up, he saw a convenience store far away from his two stores. Someone went into the convenience store to buy things in the rain, and when they came out, they hurried into the car.
The door opened, and Shen Yuhuai walked into the convenience store with an umbrella.
There weren't many things in the roadside shop, and there were everything that should be there. He walked around aimlessly, and finally stopped at the shelf near the door. He took a packet of mints and checked out at the counter.
"Do you have any empty glass bottles for sale?" Shen Yuhuai asked.
The teller stopped and took a glass bottle from under the counter, "It's not for sale, do you want this kind of glass bottle? Leftovers from the last activity."
It was ninety o'clock at night, and the whole hospital was quiet.
Chen Qizhao didn't see Shen Yuhuai after he got out of the bath, and he was also drowsy, and he fell asleep after lying on the bed for a long time. The environment in the dream is intricate and complicated. Sometimes it is endless black water, and sometimes it is all kinds of messy scenes. When the scene is frozen in a certain picture, Chen Qizhao wakes up suddenly, and when he opens his eyes, he notices that he is full. The cold sweat on his body, his eyes stopped on the warm orange lamp not far away.
Chen Qizhao lay on the bed and didn't move, his eyes mechanically looking at the surrounding scene, until his heartbeat gradually calmed down, and he heard a slight tapping sound not far away. He turned his eyes to the side, and saw Chen Shiming sitting on the sofa. The small table lamp he didn't know where he found only illuminated the place. At this time, he frowned and was working on the laptop.
The work was not finished yet, Chen Shiming asked Zhang Yazhi to rest, and stayed here to work while watching Chen Qizhao.
It's just that I don't know what happened tonight. Not long after I started working, the notebook kept using it a little bit, and now it just freezes. He was thinking about how to solve this situation, but suddenly heard a voice not far away.
"what are you doing?"
Chen Shiming raised his head and saw that Chen Qizhao had sat up at some point, and was looking in his direction, "No, do you want to drink water?"
"No." Chen Qizhao's gaze stopped slightly, "What happened to the notebook?"
"It's dead." Chen Shiming still stood up, walked over and poured a glass of water for Chen Qizhao. When he approached, he noticed that Chen Qizhao's forehead was a little wet, and his face seemed to be a little pale. He frowned slightly: "Have a nightmare. ?"
Chen Qizhao didn't respond, he took a sip of water, glanced at Chen Shiming's notebook from the corner of his eye, and said in a flat voice, "Bring it here."
Chen Shiming: "What?"
"Notebook." Chen Qizhao glanced at him, "Are you planning to ask the assistant to send you another one overnight?"
Chen Shiming choked up when he said it. He really didn't bring any work when he came. Mainly, Chen Qizhao didn't like them bringing their work here at night for processing. The notebook was indeed sent by Xiao Xu later. He took the computer in the past and handed it over to Chen Qizhao to explain the situation.
Chen Qizhao looked at it, "Didn't you take a computer course in college? Why didn't you solve this?"
"Do you have to be able to repair computers if you know computers? I learned software." Chen Shiming paused slightly, "How do you know that I took computer science as an elective in college?"
Chen Qizhao said in his usual tone, "You mentioned it before."
Chen Shiming didn't remember mentioning this to Chen Qizhao. The two brothers had a bad relationship before, and there were only a handful of things they had said. Chen Qizhao was not curious about his university affairs. He pressed the doubts in his heart and continued: "There was something wrong with this unit yesterday. I just tried to fix it, but it didn't work."
"It might be a hardware problem, the all-in-one computer... Go to the doctor outside and get a screwdriver." Chen Qizhao turned the computer over and showed him the screw bayonet on the back of the notebook. "For this one, just take a small one."
The medical staff didn't know what they were doing with the screwdriver, and only after they came over did they find that it was repairing the computer. She gave the screwdriver to Chen Shiming and said that it would be fine to put it at the front desk when it was used up. As soon as the screwdriver was handed to Chen Qizhao, the latter smoothly removed the back cover of the notebook, "Turn on the light."
Chen Shiming went over to turn on the light, then stood by and watched Chen Qizhao skillfully dismantle the notebook.
When the boy sat cross-legged in his hospital gown and handled the computer with his head down, the slightly bulging bones on his back were very obvious. He seemed to be very good at this. He didn't hesitate to handle it. Check the parts behind.
Such a scene could not help but remind Chen Shiming of Chen Qizhao when he was in junior high school. At that time, the relationship between the brothers was just beginning to be bad, and there were occasional reconciliations. The most common thing he saw was Chen Qizhao sitting on the computer and playing. His younger brother's interest in artificial intelligence is not a whim. He has been interested in smart products since he was a child. He can play for a long time on a computer, but he became a little addicted to games later. He had quarreled with Chen Qizhao several times because of restraint.
The mind of his youth was hard to fathom, he was just afraid that the naughty child would go the wrong way.
But thinking about it now, sometimes he holds his own opinion and wants to use his brother's majesty to suppress Chen Qizhao's temper, but in the end he just makes certain relationships go further and further.
A click.
Chen Qizhao pressed the back panel of the notebook back. He screwed the screws and said, "The heat dissipation of your laptop is not very good. Back up the data on the disk as soon as possible. I can't, you have to find a professional, it should be able to make do with tonight, don't open too much backstage."
Chen Shiming didn't answer, and suddenly asked, "Do you only plan to study finance as an undergraduate?"
Chen Qizhao paused slightly, "Otherwise, I've read it all."
He looked at Chen Shiming: "What?"
"It can be cross-examined, and the computer-related majors of S University are also among the best in China."
Chen Shiming took the notebook, "Graduate students can read, or take a second degree, if you are really interested, go to study."
Chen Qizhao avoided his gaze, "Let's talk about it."
He added: "Go back to work, don't disturb my sleep next time."
"You asked me a question this afternoon, but I didn't get back to you at that time."
Chen Shiming didn't leave, "At that time, there was a possibility that the locator could not be found, and we couldn't pay attention to every problem. If the car accident really happened, I would be really paralyzed, and I don't think anything happened. unsolvable extent.”
"How do you know you won't?" Chen Qizhao looked at him with a rare calm mood, "It's hard to control people's emotions when they're sick, they're paralyzed, they're a waste, they can't stand up, they can only sit in a wheelchair for the rest of their lives, everyone They will look at you differently."
People see everything perfectly when assuming a situation, and Chen Shiming is the same. He should stand in front of everyone confidently and proudly. He is the pride of the Chen family, and he is also a person who can support everyone on his own. But the torment of sickness is not that simple. No matter how proud people are, they will be smoothed out one day. He has seen Chen Shiming's scenery, and he has also seen his decadent and sick dog...
"When people can't hold it, you think so confidently about yourself. What are the consequences?" Chen Qizhao stared at Chen Shiming's eyes and asked step by step, "What if you can't hold it any more and commit suicide?"
Some things are difficult to determine. Chen Shiming's last suicide in his last life is like a needle hanging. Even if Chen Qizhao thinks that Chen Shiming is unlikely to commit suicide now, the ending in his last life is likely to be the Gu family's interference, but once there is a possibility, Chen Qizhao will Paranoid about the consequences. What if Chen Shiming died because of other reasons in his last life? What if he really committed suicide
In the ward, it seems that only Chen Qizhao's voice is left. He has lost weight recently. When he is emotional, his chest will rise and fall slightly, and his eyes are fierce and stern. Chen Shiming saw Chen Qizhao asking his father hoarsely in the lounge that day, and saw Chen Qizhao looking even more emotional.
After that day, he actually hoped that Chen Qizhao could vent his dissatisfaction or pain in this way, but Chen Qizhao did not. All his outbursts seemed to be completely resolved after that day. There was no dissatisfaction, no questioning, and the rest The only thing left was a calm that was completely different from him. He is like a calm and rational adult who knows the impact of negative emotions, tries to control something, and keeps everything in his heart.
But his younger brother was not a calm person. He was naughty, arrogant, and more of a arrogant and pampered person. That kind of arrogance seems to have become a mask on Chen Qizhao's face since someday, and when it is no longer necessary to wear this mask, only the silence below is full of holes and calm like stagnant water.
Chen Qizhao was worried about them, so he took Zhang Yazhi for a physical examination in a tough and stubborn tone. He was worried about Chen Jianhong's health, so he kept an electronic blood pressure device at home, and even worried about him, so he would pay attention to the details of the vehicle and find out. Some conspiracy behind it.
He probably showed it long ago, but they never paid attention, thinking it was just the end of his long rebellious period and a pleasant sensible arrival.
Chen Shiming used to be proud of his younger brother's sensibleness, but now he would rather not have this sensibleness.
At least in front of his family, he didn't want Chen Qizhao to live with a heavy burden.
After Chen Qizhao finished speaking, Chen Shiming did not answer.
After a long time, Chen Qizhao's emotions calmed down, and he thought that he would not receive a reply again.
Chen Shiming spoke.
"I won't commit suicide." Chen Shiming said with a serious face, just like the seriousness he inherited from Chen Jianhong, but what he said seemed to be carefully considered and very serious.
Chen Qizhao looked at him, "What you say is so confident, how do you know what you haven't experienced?"
Chen Shiming's voice was very steady, and he said it without any hesitation: "Under the circumstances that you assumed might happen, if I was paralyzed in a car accident to the point where it couldn't be solved, I really had that idea... Won't."
"If my relationship with you is not good, my parents are gone, I quarrel with you every day and nothing can be achieved, and the Chen family will not be able to get up." Chen Qizhao's tone fluctuated slightly, "You have no way to go, the Chen family is gone."
Chen Shiming asked: "Isn't there still you?"
Chen Qizhao's eyes stopped for a moment: "...I have nothing to do, it's not bad for you to be mad."
Chen Shiming frowned slightly and corrected his statement: "If I really don't care about you, then I won't say a word. It is because I worry about you that I care about you every time."
Chen Qizhao looked at him.
"Suicide is an irresponsible act."
Chen Shiming: "I'm your elder brother. In that extreme situation, I've become a waste..."
"I won't say good things, but I won't leave you alone."
Chen Qizhao avoided Chen Shiming's gaze, as if recalling that every time he returned to the small apartment drunk, Chen Shiming waited for him at the entrance in a wheelchair with a stern face.
"These are extreme scenarios that you assume. And there's not going to be anything that extreme right now, and neither me nor anyone else will allow the situation to evolve into the situation you assumed."
After Chen Shiming finished speaking, he paused, "Maybe it could happen, but it was only once, Mom listened to your words and was already doing a good physical examination. I asked the assistant to keep an eye on the medicine on Dad's side, who changed the medicine and which doctor As for the accident, I will not speed, and I will also arrange for the driver to conduct regular health checkups."
"you do not need to worry."
Chen Qizhao didn't speak anymore, Chen Shiming stood for a while holding the computer, "I'm going to work, I won't disturb you."
"Working all day, without a car accident, sooner or later you're going to get sick from overwork."
Chen Qizhao said suddenly: "Have you finished making money? Have you ever thought about what will happen after you are thirty?"
"I didn't think about it, and I didn't think about it." Chen Shiming turned on the computer, and his tone was a little lighter, "I will rest before 12 o'clock, don't worry."
Chen Qizhao didn't speak anymore, he simply ignored Chen Shiming and turned to sleep with Chen Shiming behind his back.
The feeling of drowsiness weighed in his heart, but he didn't feel sleepy at all.
The indoor lighting was replaced with a warm orange lamp suitable for sleep, and there was no dazzling light behind it, and the small desk lamp for work shone steadily in the corner where it should have been. Chen Qizhao opened his eyes and looked at his hand on the white quilt.
The afterimage of the light folded a little light on his hand, and a small shadow fell on the quilt.
After a while, he closed his eyes and listened to the deliberately low keystrokes in the distance.
He thought that it was really noisy, and he didn't dream of dawn on the last night.
Rainy night, sunny day.
The sun shines into the ward, and it feels a little warm in the early morning.
In the morning, the doctor made rounds as usual. When asking questions after measuring blood sugar, the attending doctor noticed an open book on the bedside table, which was rolled on one side. It could be seen that someone was flipping the book just now.
The doctor's eyes showed a bit of softness, and unexpectedly found that the answers to today's questions were richer than before.
Chen Qizhao looked around and stopped at the folding lamp on the small table beside the sofa.
The shape and material of the hamburger is still plastic. It is the student desk lamp that Chen Qizhao had seen in the university stationery store.
"Who bought that small lamp?"
After breakfast, Zhang Yazhi packed up the garbage and said, "You said this? Xiao Xu bought it. There is a small grocery store next to the hospital."
She paused after speaking, "Is this light too bright?"
"No, it's pretty good."
Chen Qizhao commented at random, and suddenly heard a knock at the door.
Through the transparent glass on the door, he saw Shen Yu Huai's eyes outside the door.
After a while, the door opened and Shen Yuhuai came in with a bag.
"Yu Huai, so early today?" Zhang Yazhi was a little surprised.
"This Saturday, vacation."
Shen Yuhuai put the bag on the table, and took out a small potted plant. There was a small succulent on the potted plant.
Zhang Yazhi looked over and said, "How meaty? This plant is so well raised."
Chen Qizhao was startled and stopped at Shen Yuhuai's movements. When Shen Yuhuai was chatting with him, he would occasionally post pictures of succulents, and the potted plant in his hand was the latest photo he received when he got up in the morning. An hour ago, he had praised this succulent plant. nice.
The potted plant is small, not as big as a man's palm, with a small succulent ball tucked in the middle, a transparent plastic bag under it, and a pink rubber band tied around the edge.
The color is also brighter, and when the sunlight outside the window shines in, there seems to be a little light on the leaves.
Chen Qizhao thought to himself, such a small one can fall all over the ground if he is not careful.
Shen Yuhuai put the potted plant on the window cabinet closer to Chen Qizhao.
The sun seemed to be brighter, and it was inexplicably dazzling.
"I won't raise it." Chen Qizhao said: "It will be bad."
Shen Yuhuai: "It's okay, I'll teach you."
Zhang Yazhi liked this succulent very much, and after Shen Yuhuai finished putting it away, she walked over to take a look.
Shen Yuhuai returned to the hospital bed and saw Chen Qizhao lowered his head, with a magazine on his bent lap.
The hair seems to be a little long, so long that it covers the eyes, and the end of the eyes is a little red.
Chen Qizhao noticed Shen Yuhuai coming, involuntarily blinked his eyes when he raised his head, and then shook his head gently.
Shen Yuhuai: "My hair seems to be growing."
"Prick the eyes." Chen Qizhao also noticed this problem when he was reading a book today. He wanted to find a pair of scissors to cut his forehead hair, but there was none in the cabinet by the bed, nor in the drawer beside the sofa. I don't know where Zhang Yazhi kept it. , he said: "It's better to cut it later."
At this time, Shen Yuhuai turned to the side and leaned in his direction, his eyes stopped on his forehead.
Following that, his hair was tossed, and a few strands of hair were pulled aside. Shen Yuhuai moved forward a little, "Don't move."
The man put his hand on his forehead, his thumb was a little cold, and it seemed to be mixed with the smell of soil.
Fresh, like the smell of fields. The cold fingertips were pressed against his forehead, and through his fingers he could see Shen Yuhuai's face so close.
His forehead hair was pulled up slightly, and the man's fingers were carefully circled, but there was no follow-up action, as if he was holding something in the pocket of his coat.
Chen Qizhao didn't move, but his gaze followed his movements to his pocket, and he couldn't help leaning forward, "What?"
"Don't move." The cold fingers were replaced by warm palms, pressed gently on the forehead, and pressed him all at once, "It will be fine soon."
Chen Qizhao lost the disturbing hair in front of his eyes, he said, "I'll cut it later, okay?"
As he said, he suddenly saw a glass bottle that had been placed on the bedside table at some point.
The glass bottle was full of light blue candies, as if they had been brought along with the potted plants.
Chen Qizhao's eyes squinted slightly, "You bought it?"
Shen Yuhuai's words paused a little, and the movements on his hands quickened, "Dry mouth will be bitter after taking medicine, you have a taboo recently, sugar can relieve the bitterness."
"Yu Huai, you are succulent..."
Zhang Yazhi said halfway through, and when she turned around, she saw the scene beside the hospital bed.
The boy sat cross-legged, the magazines on his legs were placed casually. At this time, he lowered his head slightly, and the man sitting on the edge of the hospital bed pulled up his messy forehead hair, and tied up the slightly curled forehead hair that covered his eyes. He lifted the slightly upturned forehead, revealing a smooth forehead.
"When she asked the medical staff for rubber bands, she gave them a few more."
Shen Yuhuai let go of his hand, "That's it, don't pierce your eyes."
Chen Qizhao touched his forehead and couldn't help but take a look at his phone.
"…?"
pink? !