"I'm just talking about my previous feelings. I'm not here to comfort you."
"But, I don't want to just give up." Su Han whispered.
Zheng Peipei smiled. She was so happy to hear such words in the past, but now she only felt bitter.
"I'm just an embellishment of your busy work, and you occupy my whole life. From being your fan, fan support president, underground girlfriend, every time I cry and laugh for you, I try my best... " Zheng Peipei sighed with exhaustion in his eyes, "Even if you don't want to give up, I'm really tired."
"Isn't there... no happiness?" Su Han asked.
Zheng Peipei put his hands in his pockets and walked slowly, flashing images in his mind, recalling many scenes from the past.
… happiness
"Of course there are times of happiness."
People who sink in love are always so easy to satisfy.
At the crowded event site, as long as he glanced at her and sent him a smile, it was enough for her to be secretly happy for a long time.
When he said he was coming to see her, she waited excitedly a week in advance. He recorded a song for her, which is her lullaby every night...
But as time goes on, those satisfactions and happiness will soon be swallowed up by great loneliness.
Zheng Peipei said: "I used to think that if you just go forward, I will definitely guard you from behind. Only later did I realize that I am not that strong and I can't defend myself anymore."
After a few seconds of silence, she said sadly, "I'm sorry."
With a huge sourness in her eyes, she turned her head to look at the building beside her.
"No. You didn't feel sorry for me." Su Han said hoarsely, "I am sorry for you. I didn't do what a boyfriend should do."
"I always thought it was going to be over, it was about to be over... But this road seems to have no end in sight." Su Han smiled wryly, "Sometimes I feel like being trapped in a black hole and dare not fall down. , can only climb up desperately. Don’t dare to get tired, and can’t admit defeat.”
With so many people's wealth and the fanatical love of so many fans, how can there be freedom and ease
"I understand your difficulties." Zheng Peipei forced a smile, "I have been your fan for several years, I know that you are getting more and more popular, and I know how many people want to see you fall from a high place .”
"But you are not an embellishment for my busy work." Su Han explained, grabbed her hand forcibly, looked into her eyes and said, "I never took you as a pastime, I was very serious with you .I have been planning the future with you in my heart. I know you have worked hard these few years, can you give me a little more time? Four years have passed, do I want to give up now? I really..." He choked up for a long time Spit out three words, "Reluctance."
"Let's just be friends." Zheng Peipei breathed out lightly, "It's like how relaxed and happy I was in high school, and I admired you very much at that time. If I can't be the girlfriend of a big star, let me be a big star friends."
She winked playfully at Su Han, "Let's not turn against each other and be friends, can we?"
"..." Su Han nodded slowly with difficulty.
He knew that this time was different, that she had an extraordinary calmness, an extraordinary sense.
It was no longer catharsis and quarreling, she really let go.
The last glimmer of hope in his heart was shattered...
There is no longer that person, waiting for him where he can see when he turns around.
The two walked around the street, returned to the hotel, said good night to each other, and went back to their respective rooms.
Zheng Peipei sent a message to Gu Siyi: "Hmph, you still deliberately booked us in a hotel?"
Gu Siyi: "The main reason is that this hotel has the best environment [laughing]"
Gu Siyi: "The second thing is to test whether you are ready [poor]"
Zheng Peipei: "Tonight I'm so handsome, I finally said what I wanted to say, comfortable and happy!"
Gu Siyi: "Is it completely over?"
Zheng Peipei: "Yes. We will be friends from now on."
Gu Siyi: "Are you sad?"
Zheng Peipei: "Do you think I was sad for nothing in the past few months? Now I have bottomed out! I feel very comfortable, very comfortable. I finally escaped from that quagmire, and I can be myself in the future."
Gu Siyi: "Congratulations~"
Zheng Peipei: "The next time I fall in love, I want to show my love to the whole world and tell everyone: This is my boyfriend!"
Gu Siyi: "[Laughing] [Laughing]"
Gu Siyi is really happy, no matter whether she persists or breaks up, what she wants is her unrestrained and vigorous energy.
The next day, everyone gathered together and had a lively meal.
During the dinner, everyone took turns to toast Xia Zhijun and Gu Siyi, the newlyweds.
Zheng Peipei said: "Looking at you, I believe in love! After drinking this cup, wish me luck!"
Lu Jiaye complained: "When someone gets married, what luck are you getting? Is this why you hate getting married?"
Zhou Xiao looked at Su Han and said with a smile, "My girlfriend hates marriage, you are still pretending to be dead by the side, do you want to go back and kneel on the washboard?"
Unbeknownst to these people, they have broken up.
Su Han smiled, his smile was a bit awkward and decadent, and he didn't say anything.
Zheng Peipei said casually: "Come on, I'll also announce that I broke up with Su Han for the informal wedding reception with the dimples."
"..." Everyone looked at her in astonishment.
Zheng Peipei picked up the wine glass, "I wish Xiaodiwo a happy new marriage, and also wish me a happy breakup. Not every relationship can go to the end, not everyone can walk together all the way, parting and reuniting, life is normal. Whether married or If you break up, be happy."
"Yes, as long as you're happy." Gu Siyi picked up the wine glass and clinked glasses with her.
"Just be happy..." "Just be happy..." Everyone raised their glasses in response.
Lu Jiaye, who originally liked to make jokes, stopped beeping when he learned that the two of them had broken up.
This topic was quickly skipped, and they talked about Xia Zhijuan's entrepreneurship.
Lu Jiaye said: "My dad gave me hundreds of millions of dollars to test the waters. You are the smartest person I know. If you do it, count me in. I want to invest as a shareholder."
Su Han followed suit: "I have some savings in my hand, I don't know what to invest in, if Ah Jun brings in shareholders, don't forget me."
Zhou Xiao: "I... well, I have no money, I watch you get rich."
Xiang Li and Zhang Xinyi tickled: "We don't have any money..."
Among these people, the only ones looking for project investment with a lot of money in their hands are the super rich second generation Lu Jiaye and the big star Su Han.
After eating, everyone went to the next game to continue playing as usual. Su Han sat in a corner of the private room, drinking with Zhou Xiao.
Zhou Xiao is not good at words, seeing that he is in a bad mood and doesn't know what to comfort him, so he can only drink with him.
Zheng Peipei pulled Gu Siyi, and Xia Zhijun brought Lu Jiaye to play billiards together.
Lu Jiaye asked Zheng Peipei: "Didn't you like to die or live before? How can you say that you can divide it?"
Zheng Peipei: "P! I have persisted for four years! No matter what you say, you will be divided! You have been abroad for four years, and I don't know how many girls you have changed!"
Lu Jiaye laughed and said, "I'm just looking for the feeling of falling in love, which is different from the banner of true love you carry."
"What is true love? Can it be eaten?" Zheng Peipei rolled his eyes.
Lu Jiaye smiled, "Look at those two on the opposite side, the spokespersons of true love, are they sour?"
Gu Siyi: "Lu Jiaye, don't bring hatred to me."
Zheng Peipei hehe: "Don't worry, there is a wrong and a debt, I will remember that idiot who ran on me."
A group of people were playing around, and went back to the hotel to rest in the middle of the night.
Lu Jiaye lived on the first floor with Zheng Peipei. He opened the door, leaned against the door frame, and looked at the door over there thoughtfully.
It seems to be hesitating, it seems to be struggling...
Do you want to go find her and have a chat with her? A bosom brother having a heart-to-heart talk late at night
Will he be misunderstood and sneak in? He didn't intend to do such a dishonest thing.
Zheng Peipei took a shower and was about to go to bed when there was a knock on the door.
She walked to the door, opened it, and Su Han stood in front of her, with dark and thick eyes and the smell of alcohol all over her body.
"What's wrong?" Zheng Peipei asked suspiciously.
Su Han strode in, grabbed her hand, stared into her eyes, and said in a hoarse voice: "If I quit the entertainment industry... will I have a chance to be forgiven?"
Zheng Peipei was stunned for a while, then said in a daze, "Do you know what you're talking about?"
"I know... so I'll be a normal person... let's start over... ok..."
Su Han hugged Zheng Peipei and put his head on her shoulder.
When Zheng Peipei looked up, he saw Lu Jiaye standing by the door, and the two stared wide-eyed.
Lu Jiaye said: "Passing by, seeing him coming, looks like he was drunk?"
Zheng Peipei nodded, "I'm drunk." The weight of the man on top of him was getting heavier and heavier, and his eyes were closed.
"Come here and do me a favor." Zheng Peipei greeted.
Lu Jiaye did his part, entered immediately, and pulled Su Han past him.
Zheng Peipei found the room card from Su Han and put it in Lu Jiaye's pocket, "Send him there."
"Okay, leave it to me. You go to bed early." Lu Jiaye hurriedly picked him up and walked away.
Zheng Peipei closed the door, lay back on the bed, his mind was full of Su Han's last words...
…
In the middle of the night, after Gu Siyi and Xia Zhijun were lingering, they snuggled together quietly.
Gu Siyi said: "Let's not think about our wedding for now, okay?"
Xia Zhijun: "Why?"
"You need to spend money to start a business. A decent wedding will cost a lot."
"There is no shortage of money."
"Then there is still time and energy. I really don't think we are in a hurry to hold the wedding. We will wait until we have children."
"Child?" Xia Zhijuan pondered, "We have just lived together, so don't you think about the child for now?"
Before enjoying the world of the two of them, a child would add to the chaos, and she had to abstain from sex during pregnancy... Xia Zhijuan felt that he didn't look forward to being a baby daddy that much.
Gu Siyi heard what he meant, and said: "Then there's no need to rush to hold the wedding, and wait until the conditions are ripe and you want to have a baby."
"But… "
"You're going to have a wedding, and I'm going to get pregnant."
"... ???" Xia Zhijuan conceded.
One of the two didn't want to have a child too soon to affect their lives, and the other didn't want to have a wedding too early to affect their careers, so they compromised on this, and temporarily ignored these two things.
The next day, Zheng Peipei and Su Han met in the hotel corridor.
The two looked at each other, just as Su Han was about to say something, the phone rang. He stepped aside to answer the phone.
Based on the faint voice from over there, Zheng Peipei heard that it was his manager calling...
Su Han put down the phone, looked at Zheng Peipei, with an apology on his face, and said in a low voice: "I can't play with you today, the schedule is too rushed, and several announcements are waiting."
"..." The corners of Zheng Peipei's stiff mouth slowly raised an arc, "It's a big star, it must be busy. Go, I'll help you talk to Little Dimple."
Looking at the back of Su Han striding away, Zheng Peipei smiled again, the smile was full of sarcasm.
She tossed and turned all night last night... It was just because of his drunken joke