Loneliness

Chapter 16

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It was still dark when Chen Donglan woke up.

He slept only seven hours a day, and he would wake up early if he went to bed late, but woke up earlier if he went to bed early.

Because the school was far from home in middle school, he developed the habit of setting aside time in the morning.

Sitting on the edge of the bed, Chen Donglan first checked the time, it was after four in the morning.

There was a message from Xiaode on the phone. He and Olivia got on the plane home a few hours ago. They are expected to arrive at noon the next day, and they will call to report safety. He also said that when sending Chen Donglan home, Yuan Yuan served him tea and drove him and Olivia to the airport, hoping that Chen Donglan could help him convey his gratitude.

Chen Donglan stared at the screen for a while.

Last night, although he was very drunk, he still had vague consciousness. When he was carried by Yuan Yuan and felt the vibration of his back when he spoke, he fell asleep completely.

In this world, he could not find a place where he felt more at ease than Yuan Yuan's side.

He turned on the lamp and passed the time by reading. When the sky gradually became brighter, Chen Donglan realized that it was snowing at night, and it was a vast white outside.

He went to the kitchen to make breakfast, and as soon as he started thinking about what to do, Yuan Yuan walked out of the room.

"morning."

"Morning, can I have egg pancakes this morning?"

"Yeah." Yuan Yuan responded, standing outside the kitchen looking at his back.

Chen Donglan felt it and turned to look at him: "What's wrong?"

Yuan Yuan quickly looked away: "It's nothing, I'm looking at the snow outside."

Chen Donglan nodded, but he felt strange in his heart. Can you see out of the window from that position? He took out the dough that he had made and kept in the refrigerator, heated a frying pan, pulled two balls into the pan, and flattened them a little bit with a spatula. "The weather forecast says that it will snow during the day and the wind will be strong. Remember to add an extra layer of clothing."

Yuan Yuan replied absently: "Well, you too."

After frying the egg pancake for one person, Chen Donglan put the blanched broccoli next to the pancake, put this portion on the table first, and said, "That's it." Then he went back to the kitchen to make his own. .

He was always like this, and subconsciously he would put Yuan Yuan's affairs in front of him.

Yuan Yuan was waiting for Chen Donglan at the table.

Chen Donglan's own pan-frying was much rougher, and it was not pressed evenly. If an outsider looks at it, it is impossible to see that the two plates on the table are from the hands of one person.

"Why don't you eat first?" Chen Donglan sat opposite Yuan Yuan.

Yuan Yuan asked him back, "Why don't you have broccoli?"

Chen Donglan was concentrating on dividing the cake into small pieces: "I don't like it very much. Do you want to drink milk?"

Yuan Yuan shook his head and said nothing.

He remembered when they were shopping together in the supermarket.

Every time, after Yuan Yuan thought he had bought all the things he wanted, Chen Donglan would continue to ask him what he liked to eat, and then add more things to the shopping cart. When Yuan Yuan asked him what he liked, he would shake his head again, saying that he could do anything.

If Yuan Yuan was a little more attentive, he would find that many times, Chen Donglan didn't have anything in his bowl. After so many days, how many things did Chen Donglan do that he actually didn't like to eat

Yuan Yuan couldn't think deeply at all.

He got up and poured himself a cup of hot water, his mind drifted too far, and the water was gradually overflowing without realizing it.

The hot water ran through his fingers, making him shudder with pain.

"Yuan Yuan!" Chen Donglan exclaimed, almost jumping up from his chair.

It has been several minutes since the water boiled, but it has been kept in a thermos without opening the lid, and it will definitely burn if you touch it.

Chen Donglan carefully took the water cup from Yuan Yuan's hand, and placed his hand in his palm to check it.

The burnt area has a distinct red color.

He quickly pushed Yuan Yuan to the front of the kitchen sink and turned on the faucet to shower the wound.

"I'm going to look for scalding medicine." Chen Donglan was even more uncomfortable than his own scald. The medicine box was placed under the TV cabinet. He hurriedly dragged the box out. Spread out on the ground to find.

"Why not?" Chen Donglan pushed the box away dejectedly, only one thought popped into his mind, "I'll go out to buy it, and I'll be back soon."

After listening to his words, Yuan Yuan recovered from the state of shaking his head. The pain in his hand was not unbearable, he turned off the water and stopped Chen Donglan: "It's okay, it's not very painful."

"How can it be okay? You have to deal with it quickly, or you will get blisters." He took out a coat from the room like a gust of wind, put it on his wrist and put on his shoes.

"Don't worry." Yuan Yuan took his arm, "If you don't have time, you will be late for work."

Chen Donglan's eyes filled with anxiety: "I'm running."

Yuan Yuan didn't let him go: "There is snow on the road, it's hard to walk, don't run."

Chen Donglan pushed his hand away, stopped halfway, and found that it was not the injured one, so he breathed a sigh of relief, "It's okay to be late."

Yuan Yuan had no other choice: "I'll be late when you come back. Why don't I go out now and buy the medicine on the way to the company."

Sure enough, Chen Donglan hesitated as soon as he mentioned the reason that "he will be late too".

After a moment of hesitation, he nodded.

He couldn't act on his will, couldn't buy the medicine quickly, and couldn't transfer Yuan Yuan's wound to himself.

Under his concerned eyes, Yuan Yuan put on his coat, sorted out his things, and went out to work early.

After going downstairs and going all the way, Yuan Yuan seemed to be able to feel Chen Donglan's gaze.

In fact, it is difficult for people like Chen Donglan to hide their feelings. The more depressed you are on weekdays, the less you can hide. Once caught, the breach will be exposed. Yuan Yuan often catches Chen Donglan's focused eyes when he suddenly turns around. If you don't think about it in that direction, you will only feel strange. Once you realize that you like it, your spine will inevitably go numb, as if your whole heart is soaked in warm water. Most people who are not good at words are like this. Since they can't express their love through their mouth, they can express their love a hundred times through their eyes.

Why didn't you notice it before...

Yuan Yuan's breathing was chaotic, and he did not regain his calm for a long time.

Yuan Yuan's burns did not affect his normal life until the weekend. In the past few days, it took him a long time to fall asleep every night, and it was difficult to concentrate when he was working.

he does not know.

He didn't know how to deal with it.

One thing, people always have to face to solve it, if they don't even dare to face it, it will only leave a long-term torment.

Because of his scald, Chen Donglan also took over the job of washing dishes. For days, his hands had not touched water beyond the necessary cleaning. In addition, Chen Donglan will firmly remember the time of his dressing change, no need for an alarm clock to remind him, he will remember every time.

Yuan Yuan was anxious

He clearly knew his intentions, so he should give an answer.

It would be too unfair to hide it and look at Chen Donglan from the standpoint of an outsider.

After dinner on Friday, Yuan Yuan decided to propose: "Tomorrow, let's go to the forest park last time. After it snows, the mountain scenery will be more beautiful. This year's snow is particularly heavy and the cycle is long. Rare opportunity."

Chen Donglan was stunned: "... Who else will go?"

Yuan Yuan saw the surprise in his eyes clearly: "No one, just the two of us."

Chen Donglan didn't reply for a long time.

"Don't you want to go?"

"No," Chen Donglan shook his head, he was just thinking...

Thinking that would be nice.

It was a scene that existed in his beautiful imagination a long time ago.

On Saturday, they packed up early in the morning and drove to Forest Park. On the long journey, they didn't chat, as if the act of staying together was already a form of communication between them.

This is actually the credit of Chen Donglan.

Yuan Yuan often goes to great lengths to find topics in order to make others feel thoughtful. Outsiders often comment on him - it's really comfortable to be with you, I never have to find a topic, and I have something to talk about naturally.

They won't know that behind most of the naturalness, he is unnatural.

But when he was with Chen Donglan, he would talk more when he was less. Chen Donglan doesn't need too many words, as long as he can sit together, he is very satisfied. Probably because he felt this satisfaction from him, Yuan Yuan would put down the burden of "consideration" and not try to find a topic.

Before he knew it, Yuan Yuan had already received more than he had given, and the principle of fairness he formulated was never useful here in Chen Donglan.

After all, there is no second person, and every act of turning back the good intentions is out of a deeper good intention.

This time, Yuan Yuan booked two single rooms on different floors of the hotel.

When handing over the room card to Chen Donglan, he said, "Let's take a lunch break first and then climb the mountain in the afternoon."

Chen Donglan held the room card and felt lost in his heart. He nodded and said, "What about lunch, shall we eat now?"

Yuan Yuan shook his head: "No, I'm a little tired from driving. I want to rest for a while, and then I'll call my lunch to my room. If you're hungry, go to the restaurant first."

Chen Donglan was keenly aware of the exhaustion in his words.

"Okay, you have a good rest." He took a step back and took the initiative to open the distance between the two.