Loneliness

Chapter 19

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It took a long time to find a word from the chaotic mind that could express his emotions clearly, Chen Donglan said, "Then what should I do?"

On this day, he had been desperate once, and even prepared to beg Yuan Yuan not to alienate him. He was suddenly hugged by Yuan Yuan, and he said "I'll be nice to you". He started from the tailbone upwards, and his entire upper body was soft.

"What should I do? If we want to eat, we will go to the restaurant to eat. If we don't want to eat, we will stay in the room. It doesn't matter which attraction you want to go to."

Chen Donglan looked at Yuan Yuan helplessly: "I don't know what I want to do..."

Seeing that he was so confused that he didn't know how to put his hands and feet, Yuan Yuan laughed, opened his hands, and looked like he was being slaughtered: "Think about it, you can do whatever you want."

His tone was softer than coaxing a child, as if no matter how much Chen Donglan wanted to do, he would agree with a smile.

Chen Donglan's eyes were hot, and he stretched out his hand and gently placed it on Yuan Yuan's chest. He didn't push hard, just stuck to the clothes there.

What popped up in my mind was the deepest and deepest obsession in the past.

"I want to take the subway with you."

Yuan Yuan was stunned: "Huh?"

Chen Donglan seemed to have opened a certain gate in his heart, and continued: "I want to take the subway with you to go home, no... I have to take the subway together to the former middle school, and then take the ride back together, no, not only that, I , I want you to stop playing basketball with others, play basketball with me, then eat with me, and then take the subway home with me. When you arrive at the station, be sure to tell me..."

As he spoke, he had difficulty breathing and was incoherent, as if he had gone back to the past, back to those cowardly years, and had the courage now.

"Be sure to tell me, 'see you tomorrow'..."

Yuan Yuan looked at him, his eyes softened into a pool of water: "Didn't I say it before?"

Chen Donglan shook his head: "No... You never care if you meet me again tomorrow."

"I'm sorry." Yuan Yuan apologized in a low voice, "But it's too difficult for me now. This is the Forest Park. Where can I find the subway for you? Why don't I take you to the tour bus in the park?"

Chen Donglan was so coaxed that his waist was numb: "Really?"

He didn't know which sentence he asked Yuan Yuan.

"Really." Yuan Yuan rubbed the corner of Chen Donglan's eyes with his thumb, as if he could rub off the redness and swelling, "I'll take you there now."

Then, Chen Donglan was taken out of the hotel by Yuan Yuan in a daze. There is a flat park in the park, close to the river, and there is a wide grass inside. Visitors can rent electric frequency cars at the entrance to drive in and play by themselves. There are singles, doubles, and families. There are many more than doubles. A child's chair.

Yuan Yuan originally wanted to rent a family-style one, so that the two big men would not feel crowded in thick coats, but after thinking about it, there was nothing wrong with being crowded together, so he rented a double car.

Yuan Yuan sat in the driver's seat and patted the seat next to him: "Come on."

Chen Donglan sat up in a daze.

Then, the electric car set off.

For the sake of safety, the electric vehicles in the park are slow, which can be described as turtle speed. In this case, even if they collide at full speed, there will be no major problem.

"Are you happy? Although it's not a subway, it's all means of transportation. Let's make do with it."

Chen Donglan lowered his head and held back for a long time, "Why do you..."

Yuan Yuan knew what he was asking. Although the reaction time was too long, it took so long since he gave the answer to now that he thought of asking why.

"Then why are you?" he asked back.

It is obviously more meaningful to ask Chen Donglan. Yuan Yuan doesn't think that he is a very attractive person. He has many shortcomings, and if he gets to know him deeply, his temper is also very strange, and there are many things that are difficult to handle. How could someone like him for so long.

As long as the whole youth is in it.

I thought Chen Donglan would think for a while, but he didn't expect him to answer immediately: "Because you are a very good person."

At this moment, Yuan Yuan's heart seemed to be lightly poked by him with his pinky finger. It didn't hurt, it was more like a tickling.

He did not return to answer Chen Donglan's previous question.

When he was separated from Chen Donglan for only a few minutes on the mountain, he eagerly turned back to find Chen Donglan, but couldn't find him everywhere, a question popped up in Yuan Yuan's heart.

If Chen Donglan gives him love, can he go back

There is only one answer.

He can.

He did it completely according to the desire of his heart. Just like when he found Chen Donglan on the mountain and took him back to the hotel, he changed the room type if he wanted to; he cried and asked if he was pitying him, wanted to hug him, wanted to promise him, so he hugged him , promised.

He didn't even calculate, the only remaining question was - did he not give enough

Only then did he realize that, from the very beginning, Chen Donglan was the only one who made him put away his stinginess and made him a careless cheapskate who could not control his emotions.

The waterfront in front is a lawn covered with snow, and electric cars are parked on the side of the road. Many tourists make snowmen on the snow to fight in snowball fights.

Hearing the laughter, Chen Donglan was attracted. Seeing that he had been staring at the snowman built by tourists on the lawn, Yuan Yuan also stopped: "There is no basketball, do you want to play snowball first?"

Chen Donglan was half surprised and half surprised: "Snowball fight? But we didn't wear gloves."

Yuan Yuan looked around, and sure enough, he saw the eldest sister holding a basket on the side of the road. There were assorted things in it, and only a few small plastic toys could be seen far away. "There should be some. You lock the car and I'll ask."

He walked over, and sure enough there were gloves for sale, but they were only cheap knitted gloves, transparent and thin, but he still bought them, the same style, all in blue.

After paying the money, Yuan Yuan went to Chen Donglan with gloves. He was found crouching where they parked, grabbing a clump of snow.

Yuan Yuan ran over and held him in the palm of his hand to warm it up: "You can't wait two minutes for a child like you are not in such a hurry?"

Chen Donglan was guilty of what he said: "No, I just touched it."

Afraid that he would be serious, Yuan Yuan dared not say anything about him, and began to put gloves on him: "I didn't really train you, I was worried about you, can you understand?"

Chen Donglan obediently asked him to wear gloves, as if you were right, showing that he did not understand.

Yuan Yuan sighed and stopped asking.

After they both wore gloves, Yuan Yuan took the lead to attack, grabbed a small handful of snow, and threw it at Chen Donglan.

His intention was still obvious and his movements were light, but Chen Donglan didn't hide, Ren Xue threw himself on his face.

He was caught off guard and shivered with cold.

Yuan Yuan quickly wiped his face, and frowned when he saw that he was stunned: "Why don't you hide."

"Should I hide?" Chen Donglan sincerely learned from him, "I don't know how to play snowball."

Yuan Yuan put a snowball in his hand, ran out a few steps, and shouted at him, "Hit me now."

Chen Donglan looked at Xueqiu, then at Yuan Yuan, and finally ran to him: "Do I have to hit you with this?"

Yuan Yuan was afraid that he would be dissatisfied with his snowball technique, and said, "You don't like this? Then I'll give you another one."

"No, no." Chen Donglan threw the snowball away, "I don't want to hit you."

Even if it was a joke, he was reluctant to hit Yuan Yuan.

Yuan Yuan's breathing stagnated, and his heartbeat accelerated.

He simply had nothing to do with Chen Donglan.

Seeing a child building a snowman not far away, he changed his plan: "Then let's stop fighting, how about building a snowman?"

Chen Donglan nodded.

They crouched together and started rolling the snowman.

In fact, Chen Donglan was attracted by the snowman from the very beginning. When he and Xiaode were very young, Uncle Xu once took them to build a snowman downstairs at home. At that time, because Xiaode was young, he wanted to monopolize everything, so Chen Donglan didn't touch the snowman more. Sit and watch. In the end, Uncle Xu also made a nameplate with "Xiao De" written on it and hung it on the snowman's neck, which made Chen Donglan envious for a long time.

Now he has his own snowman too.

Yuan Yuan's skills in building a snowman are not as superb as snowball fights. Because Father Yuan can always build him a beautiful snowman that dominates the community, he no longer bothers about this, but has become a snowball tyrant who can always press out the densest snowballs. Good alignment.

Therefore, the snowman Yuan Yuan made was just two snowballs, one large and one small, stacked on top of each other. He used his fingers to poke a few holes for facial features, forcibly saying it was a snowman.

It's shoddy, and it's much inferior to the works of a few children next to it.

Yuan Yuan was unconvinced and stood up: "I'll find two branches for it."

Chen Donglan concentrated on pinching the snowman's nose: "Well."

Yuan Yuan said that he was looking for branches, but in the end he went to the eldest sister who sold things and bought a children's scarf and a toy hat, as well as a pack of stickers that could be attached to the snowman to make facial features.

"Did you bring children to play? Let's take a look at the little toys." The eldest sister sold it enthusiastically.

Yuan Yuan subconsciously wanted to refuse, but when he saw a certain toy at a glance, he couldn't help picking it up: "Add this."

Since you can't do your own craft, let's be a RMB player.

Yuan Yuan walked back, put the small toy in his pocket, and gave the rest to Chen Donglan.

Chen Donglan's eyes widened: "It turns out that this is still the case." Then he opened the sticker package and looked at it one by one, not knowing whether to smile or laugh.

And Yuan Yuan's sight was occupied by Chen Donglan. Seeing that the corners of his eyes were still red from crying, seeing his nose red from freezing in the snow, seeing his lips open and closing, and asking him how to decorate the snowman, a strange impulse suddenly surged in his heart.

For him, it was a first experience.

He wanted to kiss Chen Donglan.

The next second, he asked, "Can I kiss you?"

Chen Donglan didn't hear clearly: "Huh?"

Yuan Yuan repeated it, this time it became more like an affirmative sentence.

Chen Donglan sat down on the snow and almost knocked down the snowman: "Kiss... kiss..." He looked around, there were tourists and many children, "But there are people here."

He didn't expect to refuse, but was worried about being seen by others.

"There's a snowman standing in the way for us."

After Yuan Yuan finished speaking, he stopped asking Chen Donglan's opinion, put his hand on the back of his head, and leaned over to kiss him on the lips.

Both are kissing for the first time.

They are so jerky that they can only rub each other with their lips, and they will not be able to breathe, and they will soon have to be separated.

The breaths were intertwined, and the soft touch on his lips made Chen Donglan almost fainted.

"Again."

He grabbed Yuan Yuan's shoulder.

"I want to do it again."

Yuan Yuan sighed heavily: "Let's go back and come again, darling."

Men are really useless species. Even a stingy person like him, a slow person like him, will have desires because he likes a person.

He took out the toy he bought earlier from his pocket, a little snowman, and when he pressed the button, it would light up and sing.

"Thank you for letting me kiss you, it's a thank you gift."

His tone was softer than ever.