Loneliness

Chapter 23

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Yuan's mother came home with a large bag and a small bag. There were so many things that she couldn't see the ground clearly. She tripped over her own shoe cabinet and stumbled.

Father Yuan quickly supported her, took all the things in her hand, and asked suspiciously, "Why do you buy such things? These things... biscuits? Drinks? You don't usually buy them."

Yuan's mother stood up straight, with a little nervousness on her face: "I asked my colleague what preparations should be generally done when receiving a daughter-in-law. But I think our family's situation is special, and none of the suggestions are comprehensive enough, and finally they are comprehensively adopted. "

Father Yuan: …

He still remembered Yuan Yuan's call, the moment when he just made things clear, Yuan's mother's face was terrifyingly black, she pinched the phone tightly, her arms tensed, as if she was going to throw the phone out the next moment. Yuan Yuan didn't know what to say over there, so she slowly relaxed, but her tone was still very hard, and she almost expressed to Yuan Yuan in a scolding way, "You hurry up and take your little boyfriend and go home".

But now, I can't wait to move the supermarket into the home.

"Why haven't they arrived yet?" Mother Yuan frowned as she looked at the clock.

Father Yuan also looked at the time: "Come on. The flight is late, but it will arrive in half an hour."

Mother Yuan's brows furrowed even deeper: "How do you know they are late?"

Father Yuan smiled: "He said he didn't dare to talk to you, for fear that you would feel disgusting breathing the air in the same city as them and slam them back."

Mother Yuan's face was full of disgust: "Am I such a person?"

Yuan's father slandered: It's really...

Twenty minutes later, Yuan Yuan arrived with Chen Donglan.

Mother Yuan opened the door and saw Chen Donglan who was tall and thin beside her son at a glance.

Chen Donglan bowed ninety degrees and handed out the gift in his hand: "Hello, Auntie."

Yuan's mother didn't answer, Yuan's father did, and she followed her teaching of "one sings the white face and the other sings the red face".

"Hello, uncle." Chen Donglan continued to say hello.

"Hello, Xiao Chen, right? Come in first." Father Yuan invited them in with a kind smile.

Three of the four people were all friendly and sat on the sofa together. Only Mother Yuan tried her best to maintain a cold face and deliberately sat far away.

Yuan Yuan looked at him and wanted to laugh, and asked Yuan's father: "You and your mother got off work so early today? I thought it would take a while to get home."

Yuan's father said: "It's more than early to get home, your mother specially invited..."

"Cough... cough cough." Yuan mother interrupted him unnaturally.

Father Yuan changed the topic in a timely manner: "Xiao Chen, are you and Yuan Yuan old classmates?"

"Yes, my junior high school and high school are in City A..." Chen Donglan introduced himself one by one, from name and age, to study experience, to work situation, income situation, and even health status.

After listening, Father Yuan nodded, but did not speak. Chen Donglan and Yuan Yuan didn't speak either, and the three turned their attention to Yuan's mother at the same time.

Yuan's mother was terrified by them: "What do I do?"

Yuan Yuan couldn't help it: "Mom, you're the only one who hasn't agreed with us."

Yuan's mother stared at Yuan's father, and Yuan's father gave her an innocent look.

Mother Yuan sighed: "Yuan Yuan, you gave me a problem."

Yuan Yuan pursed his lips: "I've caused you trouble."

Chen Donglan felt ashamed, but he held back and did not lower his head.

He must be firm, firmer than anyone else.

Mother Yuan thought for a while before opening her mouth: "I talked to you about Xiao Chen before, and I know he is a good boy. You decided to stay together, and you kept stressing to me that you are serious, I believe you love each other, even if I It doesn't work to force you to separate now."

Yuan Yuan was silent for several seconds.

It is true that they cannot be separated, no matter what their parents say, they are inseparable now.

Yuan's mother clasped her hands and folded her thumbs up and down, which helped her think: "I don't stress the difficulties of homosexuality to you, but I'm just worried that after you have lived for a long time, will you still not have the determination you have now?"

As a mother, her concerns are justified. She has a respectful attitude towards Yuan Yuan's actions and decisions since childhood. In the face of everything, she will try her best to let him face and solve it independently. This is due to her trust in her son, and also due to her pride in him. But when he gave a huge deviation from what she thought was the correct answer, she would also stop it.

Now, that is the case.

Yuan Yuan had to prove to her that what he did was a correct answer before she could accept it.

Yuan Yuan pursed his lips: "I can't give you proof that I will not regret or back down in the future, and now I can only make empty promises to you." He clenched Chen Donglan's hand, "But As I told you on the phone, I was serious for the first time and for the last time, and I can see my own feelings very clearly."

Mother Yuan looked at her son seriously.

He was always like this, and when she didn't pay attention, a change that surprised her happened.

"Let's talk about this first." Yuan's mother said, "Let your dad cook and let's talk about something relaxing."

Chen Donglan was still breathing, but Yuan Yuan had already relaxed.

His parents were so kind to him that even if he came up and told them that he was going to be with a man, he would not be angry, but put his son's thoughts first.

Find ways to support him and encourage him.

When Chen Donglan heard the word cooking, he immediately reacted: "Let me cook."

Father Yuan smiled: "There is no reason to let the guests cook, you sit." He began to arrange his son, "Xiao Chen, let me tell you, you and Yuan Yuan are in love, not in love. As a nanny for him, it's best not to cook for him at home, because he's used to being more squeamish than when he was a child."

Yuan Yuan was helpless, but did not refute: "Dad..."

Mother Yuan also looked at Chen Donglan: "He's right, you don't have to cook, it's really rude to let guests cook."

Chen Donglan stood, not knowing whether to sit down or continue to cook.

Yuan Yuan patted him and said, "Dad, let him cook with you, so that I can learn cooking from you."

Father Yuan knew that Yuan Yuan was going to push Chen Donglan to the amiable side of him, so he came to take the cannon of Mother Yuan himself, so he followed his wishes: "That's fine, I'll ask Xiao Chen to fight me. ."

Chen Donglan said quickly, "No trouble."

They walked to the kitchen, and Mother Chen unceremoniously rolled her eyes at Yuan Yuan.

Yuan Yuan couldn't help laughing: "Mom, your white face sang really well today."

Yuan's mother didn't answer him: "You can really protect him, I'm so scary?"

Yuan Yuan quickly explained: "I didn't mean it that way. I told you on the phone that he is prone to overthinking and will be sad if he is not careful."

Mother Yuan lost her temper after hearing his son describe a big man as weaker than a glass ball.

Yuan mother is a typical cold outside and hot inside. Although Chen Donglan was here for just one day, she had always been very indifferent, and seldom looked directly at Chen Donglan, and more often regarded him as a person without him. But when they said goodbye, Yuan's mother gave Chen Donglan countless things, so that when they left, they carried their hands full, like a small merchant returning from the purchase.

The first thing Chen Donglan did when he returned to City T was to write an email to Mother Chen.

Because Yuan's mother asked him "what do your parents think about your affairs"? It suddenly occurred to him that he was with Yuan Yuan, thinking about all aspects, thinking about the future in the future, but not thinking about his mother, Uncle Xu, and Xiaode.

He mulled over the words over and over again, using a lot of tone particles to soften them as much as possible.

A day after the email was sent, he received a call from Chen's mother.

Both of them gave a word of doubt, surprised by the unfamiliarity of each other's voices. Chen Donglan called out "Mom", but felt that the syllable was very strange, as if he had mispronounced the simplest Chinese character.

"Donglan, what you said in your email wasn't a joke with me, was it?"

Chen Donglan clenched her phone tightly: "No. Every word I say is the truth."

Mother Chen was silent for a while, but Chen Donglan could vaguely hear the trembling sound of airflow.

"Can you say that again."

"I said the emails are all sincere. I am with a man now, and I love him very much." Chen Donglan took a deep breath.

"Are you crazy!" Mother Chen roared, "Are you crazy, what's the point of you lying to me with such words? Do you know that this kind of thing can't be used as a joke..." Mother Chen said at the end , the voice choked.

Chen Donglan was silent for a while.

This was the reaction he didn't expect. He thought that Mother Chen would be the same as before, even if he had heard about him, and then forget everything in the day-to-day daily life.

"Mom..." He wanted to say "Calm down," but he always felt that Chen's mother would not lose her composure for his business, so he changed his words, "You can read my email again, every sentence is not joking. "

"Chen Donglan... Do you know what you are doing?" Mother Chen raised her voice.

Chen Donglan felt a headache: "Well, I'll call you next time."

He hung up without waiting for a reply.

Mother Chen called back immediately, and Chen Donglan turned the phone to mute and ignored it.

Chen's mother's phone bombed for two days, and she had to make ten or more calls every day. Chen Donglan sometimes picks it up and sometimes ignores it, but after picking it up, Mother Chen's reaction doesn't make any difference.

On the last phone call in the past two days, Mother Chen's voice trembled and asked Chen Donglan, "Did you not consider yourself my son?"

Chen Donglan repeatedly denied: "There is no such thing."

Mother Chen hung up the phone after a brief silence.

Then, the phone stopped coming.

After that, Chen Donglan stopped paying attention to it, and gradually forgot about it, until a strange phone call suddenly came.

It's Uncle Xu.

It was in the afternoon, and there was still some time left before get off work, when Uncle Xu's voice was heard, Chen Donglan stood up directly from the chair.

"Donglan? I'm sorry, I came to see you without saying hello. I'm in a taxi now, and I'll be near your company in a while. Let's chat."

Chen Donglan didn't say a word for a long time, looked around, found the leader, and said, "Why... this is too sudden, I'll ask for leave to pick you up immediately."

"I'm sorry to bother you, is it okay to take a break? I really can't make time for it. I'm going to take a flight back in the evening."

"It doesn't matter... It really doesn't matter. Where did you get off, Uncle Xu, I'll rush over."

After hanging up the phone, Chen Donglan hurriedly asked the leader for leave, and before he could pack his things, he grabbed his mobile phone and wallet and ran out.

With an uneasy heart, he waited for Uncle Xu at the cafe near the company.

Uncle Xu pays great attention to his appearance. He wears a gray British-style coat and has some stubble on his chin. He is a middle-aged man who is still handsome.

Chen Donglan ran in a hurry before, sweating on his forehead: "Uncle Xu, you must tell me in advance when you come, I am not prepared for anything now."

Uncle Xu smiled and waved his hand: "I don't need those, I don't have much time, let's sit down and talk quickly."

"Okay, okay." Chen Donglan opened the door of the cafe and let Uncle Xu go in first.

The two sat down against each other, Chen Donglan was still sweating nonstop.

"Donglan, your mother asked me to come." Uncle Xu didn't say nonsense.

"I guessed it." Chen Donglan nodded.

Uncle Xu looked at him with complicated eyes: "You may not think that your mother is at home these days, washing her face with tears every day."

Chen Donglan was indeed shocked. He thought that his mother would curse, and maybe even throw things and get sullen, but he never imagined that she would cry for days in a row: "How could she..."

"I talked to her, but she couldn't stop crying. I wanted to come to you right away, but I waited two more days to calm her down." Uncle Xu said, "You may Ever since I was a child, I always felt that your mother was not good to you and didn't care enough about you, she only cared about Xiaode. I have to admit, your mother is indeed like this, but do you know why she is like this? "

Chen Donglan lowered his eyes: "I don't know."

He didn't really want to know either.

Uncle Xu's tone was gentle: "It's because your mother doesn't know how to be nice to you, and she doesn't know how to face you. It's ridiculous and unconvincing, but she really is. She wants to be nice to you. But she feels that the person who put you in this embarrassing situation is her, she is full of guilt for you but can't make it up, and gradually she doesn't know how to face you."

Chen Donglan felt that Uncle Xu was indeed ridiculous.

"I don't know how to deal with it"? This is indeed a good rhetoric.

But Chen Donglan's heart didn't have many ups and downs, and he had already decided not to worry about the past.

"How could..." Chen Donglan shook his head, "Mom was just pissed off by me."

Uncle Xu sighed deeply: "I hope you can put yourself in your mother's shoes and think about it. Back then, she brought you to remarry alone, and she was only in her twenties. She couldn't even take care of herself, but she had one thing in mind. It's up to his child, when you weren't weaned, you were always crying at night..."

Uncle Xu's words set off Chen Donglan's memories. When he was very young, when Xiaode had not yet learned to speak, there was a deep image in Chen Donglan's memory, that is Chen's mother.

She stood far away at the door, didn't speak, didn't come in, clasped her hands together, and quietly watched Chen Donglan who was playing alone in the room.

Chen Donglan looked back at her and called out "Mom", but Mother Chen still didn't respond, her eyes were dry, as if she had run out of tears that should or should not be shed.

Uncle Xu closed his eyes and calmed down for a few seconds before continuing: "Donglan, we used to be sorry for you. However, I hope you don't blame your mother. Your mother thinks that you will...will like a man, it's all about It's her fault. It's because she neglected you since she was a child and didn't care about you, that's why you took this crooked path. Donglan, honestly tell Uncle Xu, is it because you want to get revenge on your mother that you do this extreme thing?"

At this moment, Chen Donglan's heart ached.

He didn't expect Chen's mother to think so.

In fact, he knew from a young age that his relationship with his mother was so estranged that it could not be entirely his mother's responsibility. It is not one person who gave up this mother-child relationship, but two people. Because his attitude is so negative, he never strives, doesn't work hard, and doesn't resist.

But Yuan Yuan...

"No, it's definitely not mother's fault."

Chen Donglan's voice was affirmative.

Falling in love with Yuan Yuan and being with Yuan Yuan is definitely not someone's fault.

It was the best thing he had ever done in his life.

"Don't worry, I have already let go of my childhood." Chen Donglan laughed, with unprecedented ease. "I am now with the person I love and I will never regret it."

Uncle Xu looked at him and didn't speak for a long time.

Wait until the coffee served is cold. Uncle Xu said with emotion: "You have grown up."

Chen Donglan's eyes were sour: "Thank you."

Uncle Xu smiled helplessly: "Next time you have time, go see your mother."

Chen Donglan nodded: "Okay."

Uncle Xu's flight back was very tight, and they didn't talk more. Chen Donglan took him to the airport. When saying goodbye, Uncle Xu took his hand and asked him to take Yuan Yuan to see Mother Chen. Lan also promised him over and over again.

After walking out of the airport, Chen Donglan took out his mobile phone to check the time, only to realize that there were several missed calls from Yuan Yuan.

After calling back, Yuan Yuan answered before the third sound: "Where have you been, why didn't you answer the phone?"

When he came home from get off work, he found that Chen Donglan was not there, and he didn't answer the phone, so he was so anxious that he kept spinning around in the living room.

"I'm sorry... I may not have heard the bell." When I said goodbye just now, I was so emotional that I didn't have time to pay attention to my phone. "I'm at the airport now, I'll be back soon."

"Why did you run to the airport?"

"I'll explain it to you when I come back, but it's not clear now."

"Then I'll pick you up."

"Um."

Chen Donglan waited on the spot.

At this time, the lights are already on. Spring evenings are not cold, the heat of the day has not completely faded, and the wind is soft and warm.

He only waited for a while before Yuan Yuan arrived.

Yuan Yuan ran towards Chen Donglan, and the wind blew the hem of his coat like a spring bud from a tree swaying.

Chen Donglan also ran towards him.

Most of his life so far has been haunted by loneliness.

A person is the way of life he is accustomed to, even the way of thinking.

But that is no longer the case.

From now on-

He is no longer alone.

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