Loneliness

Chapter 8

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Chen Donglan also smiled and looked down. Whenever he saw Yuan Yuan smiling, he didn't dare to look at it for too long.

"Do you drink water?" Chen Donglan asked like a courtier eager to present a treasure to the emperor.

Yuan Yuan looked at his small house again: "There is no need to drink water, are you hungry?"

After he asked this question, Chen Donglan realized that they had rushed back from Forest Park and hadn't had dinner yet.

So he said, "Are you hungry? I'm cooking now."

"You don't even have gas, what do you do?"

"… "

Chen Donglan forgot about it. He moved here for so long, in fact, he never cooked once. The kitchen was empty, with only unused kitchen utensils.

Yuan Yuan raised his eyebrows and asked, "What did you eat here before? Go out to eat?"

Chen Donglan suddenly thought of the half-eaten box of instant noodles under his bed, as well as a few packets of biscuits in the cupboard, and said vaguely: "Well... almost, I'll eat outside after get off work."

"Really?" Yuan Yuan asked.

"Really..." Chen Donglan always felt that he had seen through, and his answer was extraordinarily lacking. He didn't deliberately not eat well, but when he was alone, eating was just to satisfy his physical requirements, and it was not interesting. Even if you go to great lengths to prepare yourself a hearty dinner, it doesn't get much better than cookie noodles.

Of course Yuan Yuan knew that Chen Donglan was lying to him. Chen Donglan would buy biscuits in large packages and put them in the cabinet. He remembered one time, not long after they lived together, the clothes were wrong, and he was looking for something in the cupboard in Chen Donglan's room. There are two cabinets, one of which only takes up half of the space for all the clothes in spring, summer, autumn and winter, and the other is empty, with a bag of biscuits piled in the corner—the family enjoyment bag, the largest one can buy in the supermarket.

Chen Donglan glanced over the cabinet with too obvious eyes.

"Then let's go out to eat." Chen Donglan was in a hurry to get rid of the crisis of being hired.

"That's fine." Yuan Yuan said lightly, "You've been eating out before, do you have any recommendations? We can go together now."

Chen Donglan was stunned for a moment, and said stutteringly, "Those... those stores shouldn't be open so late."

"Go and see."

Chen Donglan's hands behind his back were tangled together. Yuan Yuan must know that he eats biscuits at home every day, why does he still do this

Give him a punishment

Chen Donglan intends to confess honestly: "Actually I..."

"Forget it," Yuan Yuan showed a funny expression, "Let's go back to where we used to live to cook."

Chen Donglan couldn't figure out why he was repeating what he wanted, but as long as he brought it up, he would consider the possibility: "There should be no ingredients at home, and it's not easy to buy now..."

Having said that, he paused. Words are always lost, he's been out of there for so long, but subconsciously still thinks that's his home.

It's just a square here. He eats and sleeps here, mechanically repeating every day.

He thought he had no home anymore.

Yuan Yuan didn't care: "It's good to eat noodles."

Chen Donglan refused without thinking: "Let's eat outside, I'll treat you... Is it okay?"

If he was to cook Yuan Yuan a long-awaited dinner, it would definitely not be just noodles. What he has to do is more abundant than any other time, which is enough to relieve his mood that he wants to do something for Yuan Yuan.

Yuan Yuan once again allowed him to stay by his side, Chen Donglan just wanted to hold the best in front of him.

Yuan Yuan frowned: "Since you have to ask me what you want to do, why don't you just listen to me?"

Chen Donglan was taken aback for a moment, thinking he was unwilling: "Then just listen to you, we will cook noodles."

"… "

Yuan Yuan was depressed.

What he meant was that Chen Donglan didn't have to ask him about everything.

He doesn't have to compromise all the time, Yuan Yuan can also compromise for him.

How can you be so stupid

In the end, Chen Donglan took two pots from his house, bought a box of eggs before the supermarket closed, took a handful of stale green onions and a stale cucumber, and went to the previously shared house to cook noodles.

When entering the house, Chen Donglan's heart trembled.

He was thankful that he was walking fast enough, confused enough, and busy enough. Once he stayed for a few more minutes, or even a little clearer, he would be reluctant to leave.

The house is a little messy. Yuan Yuan is not a person who doesn't like cleanliness, on the contrary, he is very happy to clean up himself and his surroundings. It's just that when he's busy with work, he can't care about anything. Before he can clear his mind, he won't take care of the house no matter how messy it is.

When Chen Donglan was there, except for Yuan Yuan's room, he wouldn't go in easily, and he would clean and tidy up every day.

He opened the refrigerator, hoping to see other ingredients, but no, except for water, there was only a small bottle of unopened red wine.

Yuan Yuan's drinking capacity is not bad, but he is not good at it, and he never drinks at home. At least in the three years they lived together, Yuan Yuan had never bought wine at home.

Yuan Yuan also walked over to look at the refrigerator. Seeing that Chen Donglan's eyes stayed on the bottle for a long time, he said, "This is from Yu Lin. Do you want to drink it?"

Chen Donglan quickly shook his head: "No... just curious."

I'm just worried that there will be traces of other people's stay here, and that there are other people's items here.

Fortunately, Yuan Yuan just asked a question, and did not mean to use red wine with noodles.

The noodles were cooked plainly, sprinkled with chopped green onion and shredded cucumber, and a poached egg lay next to them, but Chen Donglan had done his best.

Yuan Yuan took a sip, and the taste was very familiar.

Everyone has their own taste in cooking, and even with completely different ingredients, there will be a familiar tone that runs through all of that person's dishes.

What Chen Donglan makes has a taste that only he can make.

It was only at this moment that he realized that he had always missed this taste.

If he was asked to tell what he often ate in the past, he couldn't tell, because when Chen Donglan was away, he was very perfunctory when he ate.

After the two finished eating, it was past ten o'clock. Yuan Yuan packed the tableware and chopsticks to clean, and Chen Donglan also stood up: "Then I'll go back first."

Yuan Yuan stuck his face out of the kitchen: "Wait, I'll see you off later."

How can I let him send it? Chen Donglan said: "I'll just take a taxi, you can rest early."

Yuan Yuan's voice was certain: "No."

Chen Donglan really doesn't know what to do. Is this a courtesy? Should he refuse or agree? How to talk so he won't get angry

Yuan Yuan wiped his hands and walked out of the kitchen. Seeing Chen Donglan's tangled expression, he was angry and funny: "It's so difficult to decide? Since you don't want to trouble me, just stay tonight."

Chen Donglan's mind went blank for a moment: "...But I didn't bring a change of clothes, nor did I bring any toiletries."

"Wear mine and have new toiletries."

Chen Donglan didn't answer right away, feeling like his heart was on fire, hot and hot. Now, even if Yuan Yuan is polite, he will not refuse. He would stay stubbornly and wear the clothes that Yuan Yuan had worn.

Yuan Yuan said that he would let Chen Donglan wear his clothes, but he would not let him wear his underwear. Finally, he gave Chen Donglan a set of old pajamas, but the underwear was new.

After the two of them had washed up and were about to rest, Chen Donglan remembered that he had emptied the room when he left, leaving only the bare mattress on the bed.

Yuan Yuan leaned against the door frame and saw Chen Donglan froze in front of the bed, as if he had planned: "My bed is big enough, we'll squeeze together tonight."

Chen Donglan was frightened: "I sleep on the sofa."

"You think I'm just being polite?"

Chen Donglan's heart beat fast, and his brain became hot: "Alright, let's squeeze together."

Yuan Yuan's bed is indeed big enough. As far as the type of house is concerned, this room is the master bedroom with a separate bathroom. It was also because of this before that the two of them could be completely separated from each other's washing and live together independently.

Yuan Yuan put a new pillow on Chen Donglan, placed it on the left, and then lay down on the right. He tore off the bedside lamp, and the darkness instantly protected Chen Donglan, who was at a loss.

His stiff body relaxed a little.

"Good night." Yuan Yuan yawned after saying that.

Chen Donglan hummed and lay down. At the moment when he entered the quilt where Yuan Yuan was also, he felt that the other side of the bed was slightly sunken due to a person's weight, and Chen Donglan's eyes were sore.

Without chatting before going to bed, Yuan Yuan fell asleep quickly, and his breathing became long. Chen Donglan turned his back to him, not daring to look at it.

He also fell asleep quickly.

I started to dream after I fell asleep, but it was not a good dream.

He dreamed of the day Yuan Yuan asked him to move out. When Yuan Yuan told him to make other plans, his heart was cold.

He felt that Yuan Yuan must have known.

Knowing that he arbitrarily regarded the house they shared as belonging and his own home. Relying on Yuan Yuan without authorization, and putting all those unspeakable feelings on the old classmate who kindly invited him to share the rent...

Seeing Yuan Yuan drop a word and leave, loneliness, heartbreak, and despair cannot describe his mood properly.

A more terrifying vision appeared, and he fell into the icy pool and nearly drowned. Yuan Yuan was on the side, but his eyes were colder than Tan Shui.

He said, you are disgusting, you like me, disgusting...

"Chen Donglan... Chen Donglan!"

A cool hand pressed against Chen Donglan's forehead, pulling him out of the pain.

Yuan Yuan's eyes were full of anxiety: "Are you okay?"

Yuan Yuan had slept deeply, but Chen Donglan's short and violent breathing woke him up.

He immediately realized that something was wrong with Chen Donglan, turned on the light, and found that Chen Donglan blushed morbidly, and his whole body was soaked with sweat.

"Why are your hands so cold..." Chen Donglan woke up, and the first thing he realized was this.

"You have a fever!" Yuan Yuan was in a hurry. He slept warm all over, it was still cold, how badly should Chen Donglan burn

"I'll take you to the hospital." He got up and glanced at the time, it was three in the middle of the night.

Chen Donglan wanted to stop him, but found that he couldn't move. He didn't think there was anything wrong with him. When he woke up from the dream and saw Yuan Yuan at a glance, he only felt that his body was light and unspeakable.

Yuan Yuan didn't shy away, he took off his pajamas and changed his clothes directly by the bed. He moved quickly, put on his clothes in a few seconds, walked over to help Chen Donglan, grabbed a coat and put it on Chen Donglan.

"Yuan Yuan, I think it's fine..."

Yuan Yuan's eyes were displeased: "I don't think it's good for you."

After he finished speaking, he grabbed Chen Donglan's feet from the quilt and squatted down to help him put on his shoes.

It was only when Chen Donglan came out of the quilt that he felt uncomfortable, sweating all over his body, his pajamas sticking to his body, and touching the cold air, which was both cold and hot.

His mind was dizzy, and he didn't even react much to the fact that "Yuan Yuan was helping me put on my shoes".

When he got to the hospital, he was in the emergency room, he was prescribed medicine and sat hanging in the lounge before he realized it... All the way, he was lying on Yuan Yuan's back.

Yuan Yuan came back after paying the fee and sat beside him without speaking.

Chen Donglan said tentatively, "Yuan Yuan..."

Yuan Yuan gave him a knife: "I asked you to come to the hospital before, but you would rather get out of the car than go. Now, it's 39 degrees 7 in the middle of the night. You are satisfied."

Chen Donglan was full of remorse. All his decisions are based on the premise of the name Yuan Yuan. He believes in the creed of never bothering Yuan Yuan and never making him angry, but it must be because he is too clumsy and useless, and everything backfires every time.

"I'm sorry." Chen Donglan whispered.