In 2015, Xiang Yu's impression is always full of sadness.
On the day of the Spring Festival, tourists and local citizens of a certain city gathered in the square to watch lanterns and fireworks on New Year's Eve, and a crowded stampede happened accidentally.
Nearly 100 people were killed and injured. As soon as this news was broadcast, it aroused national attention and regret.
It's just that Xiang Yu was with Jin Fubai at that time and paid little attention to the outside world.
When I heard it, it was already the end of spring, and the magnolias were blooming one by one, and the streets were full of flowers.
She was sitting at her desk, eating a tomato and beef pasta from a convenience store, listening to the other two assistants talk about the big things and small things in the news.
One of the assistants swiped the phone a few times, and suddenly exclaimed: "Oh my God! There was a big explosion in the market last night. Look at this picture, the mushroom cloud has exploded."
The explosion was very serious. Nearly 100 people were killed by firefighters and police, and nearly 1,000 people were injured in the explosion.
More than 300 buildings, more than 7,000 containers, and tens of thousands of cars were damaged in the explosion.
Xiang Yu saw the video material in the video, and the fire at the scene was like purgatory.
She suddenly remembered that she had a college classmate who was a firefighter in the area.
The classmate's phone has been blocked, and it will be a week later when I receive a reply.
The classmate's family choked and said, thank you for your concern, he died in the explosion, and our whole family is proud of him.
Xiang Yu took two days off to attend a classmate's funeral.
Amid all the mourning and sadness, she wore black and recalled the past on campus, which made her very uncomfortable.
There are some separations, always so caught off guard.
But compared to such a separation of yin and yang, it seems to be only 15,000 kilometers apart. Occasionally, I can hear a bit of news of the separation, which is a lot of relief.
After returning from Gucheng, Xiang Yu rented a small house in an apartment building next to the company.
In her spare time, she learned to cook rice and soup by herself, and she was stable from 9 to 5. When she had a lot of free time, she began to help Zhou Lie handle documents.
Her striving attitude of staying in the company with everything and everything is very gratifying in the eyes of the boss Zhou Lie.
One day Xiang Yu was making coffee in the lounge, and when he turned around, he saw Zhou Lie standing behind him, leaning against the wall of the lounge, holding a cigarette case in his hand.
In 2012, this boss Zhou worked overtime every day until midnight for the company, so he almost choked on wild vegetables.
Now the company not only occupies the first floor of the office building, but the downstairs is also wrapped up. The tide has risen, and he has also learned to smoke.
Xiang Yu poured himself a small half cup of coffee, blew it, and drank it all in one gulp: "You don't make a sound when you come in, it's weird and scary."
Zhou Lieyang glanced at the cigarette case in his hand: "Do you mind if I smoke a cigarette?"
"You're the boss, you can do whatever you want."
But when she watched Zhou Lie knock out the cigarette, her expression was normal, and she was still her usual careless salted fish look.
Until, Zhou Lie took out a small slender box.
Xiang Yu couldn't see the change in her face, but she must have revealed something extremely obvious, which made Zhou Lie, who was about to light a cigarette, show a hesitant and startled expression.
Zhou Lie paused, his eyes full of surprise as if he had seen a ghost: "Xiang Yu? Xiang Yu? What's wrong with you, Xiang Yu?"
She was shouted back to God by Zhou Lie.
Zhou Lie's cigarettes and slender small boxes were placed on the table. Someone had already come over and asked her anxiously, is there something wrong with her, and why is her face so bad
What's up with her
In fact, nothing happened, but when he took out the small box, she suddenly thought of a person.
The man had a pair of pampered hands, and when the knuckles under the skin on the back of the hands protruded, they looked like fan bones made of warm jade.
He always used these hands to hold the cigarette, gently twist the cigarette holder with his fingertips, and then poked the agarwood stick into it.
She once said that no one can make smoking as elegant as spring water sencha.
Only Jin Fubai.
"Xiangyu?"
Xiang Yu finally regained his senses, took a deep breath, and when he exhaled, he covered the trembling in his breath by holding up the coffee cup.
She thought she could calm down in an instant, sipped her coffee, and put down the cup, she gave Zhou Lie an indescribable look.
"What's wrong?" Xiang Yu asked calmly.
Zhou Lie pointed to her coffee cup: "Your coffee cup is empty."
Xiang Yu's thoughts were exposed, so he simply stopped pretending.
She slumped in the chair and saw Zhou Lie pick up the cigarette again, she couldn't help but said softly: "That of you, is it Chenxiang?"
"It's not agarwood, it's lung easy clearing powder. Dip it in a cigarette and then smoke it, it will smell like mint. I have a cold and a sore throat these days. I heard that this can relieve some."
Zhou Lie said he took the lighter, and before lighting it, he asked again, "Do you mind if I smoke a cigarette?"
"mind."
"...Didn't you just say you didn't mind?"
Xiang Yu looked a little lethargic, raised his hand and pressed his temples, and said nonsense: "Smoking is not good for the health, and it is easy to get lung cancer."
Zhou Lie has been crawling around in the mall these years. He is no longer the fool who just said "your boyfriend is handsome" to Xiang Yu after seeing Jin Fubai driving a luxury car.
His eyes were as calm as usual, but they were insightful. He put away his cigarette and said with a smile, "Well, I'll leave you a lounge with fresh air. I'll go back to the office first."
After all, it was the boss, Xiang Yu didn't let him go empty-handed, and poured him a cup of coffee, which was an apology for not letting people smoke.
I don't know which employee overheard this conversation, and there was gossip in the company.
It is said that the relationship between Zhou Lie and Xiang Yu is a lover relationship, and that Zhou Lie is different from others to Xiang Yu.
She also said that maybe Zhou Lie bought the ring on her hand.
The conversation about not letting smoking has been evolved into various versions, coquettish version, pampering version, and what kind of domineering president style.
Xiang Yu occasionally heard it, but didn't take it to heart.
During that time, Xiangyao didn't sleep well. He ate a few bottles of imported melatonin with little effect.
Later, she went to a Chinese medicine doctor, and the doctor recommended her to drink some sour jujube seed paste.
She often dreams, but she can't dream of Jin Fubai's figure.
But she can always dream of a long street in which she runs, but never sees the end.
Because of poor sleep, in the autumn of this year, when others were clamoring to post autumn fat, Xiang Yu lost a few pounds instead.
One day after the meeting, Zhou Lie called Xiang Yu on the internal phone: "Come to my office."
Zhou Lie briefly talked about the gossip in the company, and then said, someone else said that I bought the ring on your hand. This may not be good for your boyfriend to know. I am going to fire a few. You can take a look at the list.
Although Xiang Yu was salted, she was not ignorant of the company's situation. She glanced at it and said with a smile, "What a big deal."
After saying that, he was stunned for a moment.
What a big deal.
These words were probably learned from Jin Fubai. He disdains arguing with others. Compared with Li Hua and the others, he is quiet.
The only few times this sentence came up, it may have been said to Xiang Yu.
It seems that anything is not a big deal in his eyes, always calm.
But such a calm man, when they parted, a tear fell on the back of her hand.
She didn't open her eyes or see how he left.
Just recalling that day, I always feel the pain of being burned by boiling water on the back of my hand.
After being distracted for a moment, Xiang Yucai continued: "These guys are doing pretty good work, and their work attitude is fine. It's not a big deal to gossip after a meal. If you really don't like it, you'll be fined."
Every company has some small gossip, which is not harmful as long as the parties don't mind.
I don't blame them. The environment they came into contact with was that the boss of the company was Zhou Lie. If they wanted to give Xiang Yu'an some gossip, they could only start with Zhou Lie.
Zhou Lie thought about it and said with a smile, "I'm afraid your boyfriend will mind."
Xiang Yu took a mini telescope and looked at the opposite office building. There was a bird of paradise on the desk on the 7th floor.
She looked at it for a while, and said softly, "If he has a chance to mind, it would be nice."
The voice was too low, Zhou Lie couldn't hear it clearly, and asked again, "What did you say?"
"It's nothing, I said that he is not in the country and can't hear these rumors, you don't have to worry."
Xiang Yu put away the binoculars and suddenly said, "Zhou Lie, please do something, can you give me a desk in your office."
Zhou Lie responded and said, "Hey, you add a table at this time, aren't you adding more to the gossip?"
She didn't care at all: "Now that the work pressure is so high, it's better to let employees gossip and gossip. It's considered a decompression. Even if it is my contribution to the company as an idler."
It was the winter of 2015, and the year was coming to an end.
Xiang Yu never dared to think too much about Jin Fubai. After he left, even if he left her the house and car, she never went there once.
She didn't even go to Li Yu's place.
Sometimes she felt that they were not separated.
Just like every time he went abroad before, he would come back suddenly, appear in front of her, and tell her those ambiguous jokes, like a pervert.
She tried her best to avoid all the memories of Jin Fubai until her father and mother suddenly returned to China.
This year, the project of “Father to Mother” is very deserted. Finally, I have time to spend a few more days in China, but I am not comfortable.
After the parents returned to China, Xiang Yu moved home and stayed with them for a while.
She was very sad at that time because her parents were always talking about work and the top 100 company.
Speaking of which, I can't help but complain.
They said that all the bids put out at the beginning of 2013 could be won. Why is the company doing better and better now, but it has not been able to win the bid for two years
Xiang father squeezed a small cup of wine and sighed a little: "And last year, there were obviously signs of winning the bid, but they were returned later. It's useless no matter how to give gifts or get through the relationship."
Mother Xiang also looked melancholy. She said, "Where did we fail to do our best? There must be some leader above who was dissatisfied with us and deliberately embarrassed us."
Xiang Yu sat at the dining table, quietly drinking the ginseng chicken soup cooked by Aunt Chen, silently.
They didn't know how much effort Jin Fu spent in vain to find a way to return the tender.
He said, I can't make my father-in-law lose money, don't you think
That tone still seemed to linger in my ears.
Xiang Yu swallowed a spoonful of chicken soup with difficulty, and said casually: "Dad, did you give a lot of gifts for bidding?"
"How do you know? It's not easy to do business. Gifts for New Year's and holidays are sent out by car by car, and the money from entertaining guests can be used to buy a dozen handbags for you."
After talking to his mother, he suddenly remembered something, "By the way, Yu Yu, who gave the ring on your hand? Is there a boy who gets along well?"
Xiang Yu looked down at the chicken soup, a little light in the house was reflected on it, and her lonely face was also reflected.
But when she raised her eyes, she still put on a smile, shook her head, and said, "I haven't told you yet, don't ask, young people need privacy."
That night, she finally dreamed of Jin Fubai.
There is only one back.
With his back to her, he brushed his teeth in front of the sink, wearing only a nightgown.
Wide shoulders and narrow waist, the back is also very charming.
Xiang Yu rambled in his dream:
Jin Fubai, you are so miserable, my parents send out several cars every year as gifts, and I don't know that you received the bid.
If you want me to say, those gifts should be given to you.
If it is something my parents gave you, you can no longer pile it up in your big warehouse, throw it away, and treat it as a good thing.
Jin Fubai, I'm talking to you, do you hear me
This must be a dream, because in reality he would not be so indifferent.
In reality, he would probably spit out the toothpaste and tease her in a serious way. My father-in-law and mother-in-law gave it to me, and I have to give it as a family heirloom, don't you think
After waking up, Xiang Yu felt a big empty space in his heart.
She thought, that's how it feels to be obsessed with it.
If we say that all these trivialities about Jin Fubai that flow inadvertently in life, Xiang Yu consciously can't resist, but he can barely hold on.
That Tang Yuchi's departure was the last straw that broke the camel's back.
The New Year of that year had not yet come, and only a few days later, Tang Yuchi suddenly made a video call to Xiang Yu. He said, Xiang Yu, I am going abroad.
His head is still the white porcelain bottle. I don't know when Tang Yuchi, who is always mischievous and not growing up, will speak in such a heavy tone.
He said that his college classmates started businesses abroad, and he also wanted to go there together.
This is the reason I told my godfather and godmother.
But in private, they talked for a long time.
So Xiang Yu knew that this was not the only reason why he went abroad.
It was because of An Sui that she frequently found Tang Yuchi this year.
The last time we met, An Sui cried fiercely and asked Tang Yuchi in a hoarse voice, "Can I come back? Can I come back to you?"
She was very thin, and when she cried, she squatted on a chair and curled up in a ball. Her eyes were like a moon covered with rain, sad and bright.
Tang Yuchi remembered the scene many years ago:
At that time, An Sui was wearing a school uniform, covering her face with her wide sleeves, revealing only her red ears.
He urged, An Sui, do you agree or not? Be my girlfriend, I will spoil you for sure.
After an unknown amount of time, a sound came from behind the thick sleeves of the school uniform.
She said, then you must speak up.
But that's all in the past, and now An Sui, no matter how painful she is crying.
She was also wearing a designer dress, her bag and shoes were designer, and her earrings and necklace shone in the sun.
And these brand names were given by other men.
Tang Yuchi looked at her for a while, then raised his hand and patted the top of her hair: "Sui Sui, go back, don't come to me again, I don't remember the feeling of loving you anymore, sorry."
On the day Tang Yuchi went abroad, Xiang Yu and his godfather and godmother went to the airport to see him off.
They hugged at the international boarding gate, and Tang Yuchi said, "When I make a name for myself and come back, please call me President Tang!"
Xiang Yu tugged at his ear, and while the godmother and godfather couldn't hear, he gritted his teeth and asked in a low voice, "You are a coward, coward, you actually want to hide in the country for this matter?!"
Tang Yuchi also whispered back: "I'm a hundred times more energetic in hiding from the country, it's better than you being unhappy all day!"
"How can I be unhappy!"
"You haven't?! I went to attend Fatty Lu's wedding in September. I saw your expression like a mourning. Fortunately, Fatty Lu has a good personality, and I drank a lot of wine for you heroically, otherwise you would be released alive by them? "
Fatty Lu is their close friend and a rich second-generation.
Xiang Yu didn't mean to be unhappy that day. She was just in the guest room when she accidentally saw a familiar face who greeted her and called her sister-in-law.
Xiang Yu complained: "Are you embarrassed to talk about me? I told you to drink less, but you didn't listen. In the end, you would become a dead dog after drinking it, so I brought you back!"
The two teased for a long time, Tang Yuchi should go in for security check.
He hugged Xiang Yu again and whispered softly: "Take care of yourself and be happy. Don't meet again later, Jin Fubai is still so rich and handsome, you are ugly and old, like a ghost."
Xiang Yu nodded and said softly: "I see, the journey is safe, call me when you land. Don't worry, I'm a natural beauty, and I'm still a beautiful woman at 80. The ugliest one is you. Foreign plastic surgery technology is developed, and you have more Consider it."
After leaving the airport, her heart was so empty that she could hear the wind in the hall.
The last person who could talk to her about Jin Fubai also left.
Xiang Yu's nose was sour, but she remembered that Jin Fubai had said—
"Don't cry when I'm not here, I'm afraid others won't coax you."
Not far away, the godfather is waving at her: "Yao, go, godfather and godmother invite you to dinner."
She suppressed the sourness, raised her head and smiled: "Okay."
And that year, she didn't have any news about Jin Fubai.