Richard Parker seemed to lose his mind at the beginning of this cycle, and he turned to the last page.
In the blank space, write a sentence of strong questioning in messy handwriting: "... what the hell are you?"
"Tell me, what the hell are you, what do you want? You want me to die? Want me to collapse? Want me to surrender to you, kneel before you and beg for forgiveness?"
"Say it, say it quickly."
Richard's frantic questioning didn't get a response, he turned his head suddenly, and immediately saw through the transparent doors and windows of the escape cabin, heads squeezed there, and let out a bone marrow-soaked cold grin.
"Hahaha... hahaha..."
"Open the door, Captain, open it quickly."
Outside the door, all of Richard's subordinates gathered, their entire faces squashed, staring at Richard Parker with protruding eyes.
At the same time, he kept banging on the hatch, trying to break in.
Richard Parker, who had already suffered many times of reincarnation, suddenly made a new decision, and time continued to speed up.
"Richard Parker detonated the Silence by modifying the device, and all the astronauts died. He took the escape pod and was ejected to Star Romanu along with the force of the explosion."
"Escape pod damaged, survival failed, Richard Parker died."
"The game restarts!"
…
Again, the voice rang in Tang Qi's ears.
And Richard Parker once again returned to the beginning that made him crazy, and he didn't try to prevent the crew from watching the magnificent "Starburst".
In the number of reincarnations that he didn't remember, he had stopped many times, but failed without exception.
With a blank face, he got up straight and went to the already familiar escape cabin.
Take out the "diary" again and start turning the pages, and each page that passes will trigger relevant memories.
In the past reincarnation, Richard Parker tried countless times, countless possibilities.
"I can't stop the catastrophe from happening, whatever it is, some kind of radiation? Some cosmic monster? Or has the Silence crashed already? Is this all an illusion, mine, all of us?"
"I can't wake them up from their madness, and I can't even stop myself from being mad occasionally."
"I once killed all of them one by one, and ate their bodies when the food was gone."
"I've imprisoned them too, dissected them, tried to find parasites? Or something? But no, their flesh is real flesh, their faces are real faces, they're Matthew, they're Martha, they're Drake, it's Phoebe, it's Simon..."
"I have died countless times, been bombed, killed, starved to death, frozen to death..."
"wow"
Suddenly, Richard Parker stopped.
His originally dull complexion changed, and an inexplicable light burst out from his eyes, as if he understood something.
He died countless times and in many ways, but he did not commit suicide.
With trembling hands, Richard Parker held a pen and wrote down one question after another in the blank space.
"You, want me to kill myself?"
"As long as I kill myself, will this all be over?"
"I can be freed, can everyone be freed?"
Just as he was writing the third question, he felt that he was losing the grip of his opponent.
But his palm is still holding the pen to write.
It's just that the handwriting is no longer messy, but has become orderly, cold and strange.
The temperature inside the escape cabin suddenly dropped below zero. In the eyes of Tang Qi, a transparent person, Richard Parker's body underwent a terrifying change.
The space became extremely dark, only the outline of his body became snow-white, a large number of "black lines" flickered and jumped inside his body, his face became ferocious, his eye sockets were completely black, and the sinister smile at the corner of his mouth cracked to the ears, scarlet With sharp teeth embedded in flesh and blood, he let out a grin of unknown meaning.
Holding a pen, he began to paint directly on the three questions.
The black lines continuously draw circles, connecting, circling, and chasing each other... A distorted starry sky is born. The "stars" big and small seem to be drawn by a lunatic, and they look like crouching one after another. Screaming and grinning figures clutching their heads.
"boom"
The answer appeared in Richard Parker's eyes without warning, and he suddenly realized that the magnificent starburst that appeared outside the Silence before was not real.
This weird picture is real.
His soul seemed to explode, he suddenly began to breathe heavily, and he woke up.
Richard Parker opened his eyes again, he was no longer in the escape pod, and there was no diary in front of him, he returned to the cockpit of the Silence again, sitting on the oval table engraved with silver and white textures, with his buttocks It was a cold touch, but the feet that stepped on the floor felt viscous liquid.
He lowered his head subconsciously, and the bright red stimulated his eyes.
He looked up again, and saw many figures lying on their backs, crouching, and rotting.
Time seems to slow down at this moment, presenting the follow-up for Tang Qi, a transparent person, in a way similar to "stop-motion animation".
"Richard Parker returned to the real world... he sat upright in his chair, and he looked at all his companions and subordinates."
"They are all dead, Matthew, Martha, Drake, Phoebe, Simon... They are all dead, including the monkey and Dalmatians, they are still in the cage, but because of madness or struggle, they all made themselves was scarred and died by smashing his own head."
"The rest of the crew, they all committed suicide in different ways. Some used guns, some strangled themselves to death, some swallowed some mechanical parts, or cut their own hearts with a knife."
"No one knows how many times the crew has reincarnated, how many times the monkey and Dalmatians have reincarnated, what happened to them, is it the same experience as Richard Parker? Or is it crazier?"
"But it doesn't matter anymore, they all made choices."
"Death is a choice that can free everything."
"Richard Parker suddenly looked in front of him, and items floated over, a pistol with one bullet left, a dagger stained with blood, mechanical parts floating out of Simon's stomach, and a bottle of lethal medicine... He had Many options lead to the same path, death."
Tang Qi looked at Richard Parker at this time, he was tortured in countless reincarnations, and he was somewhat inhuman.
Whether it is the body or the soul, there are varying degrees of distortion.
The same goes for the other crew members and animals who committed suicide.
They may all be strong, hopeful, and even try to use wisdom and courage to survive.
But in the end, they all gave in and both chose the same path.
Just when Tang Qi was curious about Richard Parker's choice, he got up. He took the pistol and rubbed it for a while, and then gestured at his heart with the dagger. Wadefelin (lethal drug) poured out... He lingered in the area for a long time.
Half an hour later, he dragged his twisted body and sat back on the chair.
With eyes almost filled with scarlet, he stared straight in front of himself.
The increasingly clear silvery white texture, the material of this space oval table... and the inexplicably appearing diary, and a pen.
"Ah"
Richard Parker let out a cryptic laugh, and picked up his pen.
Start to turn page by page, turn over those blood-stained pages, and also turn over the page with the strange starry sky.
Latest page, blank space.
Richard Parker picked up the pen, the corners of his mouth gradually curved, his palm trembling, and he wrote messily:
"fxxx... see? I, Richard Parker, fxxx... your mother, if you have a mother... fxx your ugly body, if you have... fxxx your rotten soul, if you have..."
"Hahaha...hahaha"
He suddenly laughed wildly, and his handwriting became more messy and wanton.
"I won't commit suicide, you can't do anything to me, I don't know the rotten maggots that come from that dark corner, come on, let me see how powerful you are, can you make me commit suicide, come on."
When Richard Parker was roaring and writing, the Silence, which had been stagnant, was suddenly activated.
There was no sign, and no one was manipulating it.
The Silence spacecraft ignites, and it begins its return journey.
Time accelerated before Tang Qi's eyes again, and the animation flickered.
"The Silence returned and landed on Lomanu after twelve hours."
"In the global live broadcast, the staff of the Federal Space Agency of Lomanu found that the entire ship was almost dead. The only survivor was the captain Richard Parker. They opened his aviation suit and released deadly bacteria. Infecting all the Lomanu with zombie-like creatures within a few months, Richard Parker did not commit suicide."
"The game restarts!"
"The Silence ignited and returned, and after landing on Lomanu, the crew accused Richard Parker of having been parasitized by an unknown 'alien monster' during a spacewalk mission. He was arrested, imprisoned, and died at 20 Four hours later he was gassed by the Federation."
"The game restarts!"
"The Silence returned. Richard Parker was the only survivor of the accident. He was allowed to return to his family. He went crazy that night. He killed his wife and two children. After that, he went to his father and killed his children one after another. Father, mother and younger sister were shot dead by the police who arrived."
"The game restarts!"
"The Silence did not return, sent a distress signal, and the federal organization rescued. In the live broadcast, Richard Parker tore off the rescuer's flight suit, and ate her up under the watchful eyes of hundreds of millions of her kind."
…
On the Silence, in front of the oval space table in the driving area, Richard Parker has lost his basic human form.
His limbs were distorted, his face was ferocious, and he exuded a rotten stench. He was still surrounded by fellow crew members. They had been dead for an unknown amount of time. Some were rotten and some were intact. They seemed to be in different timelines.
It's just that all of this is very real, like the pain he feels every time he is killed, without any relief, so real that he will wail every time, like a lamb being slaughtered.
And at this moment, the lamb Richard Parker, with his head bowed, holding a pen in his black and thin hand, continued to write provocative sentences word by word on the blank page of the diary, just like in the past Countless times like that.
"fxxx your mother if you have?"
"You want me to commit suicide... why don't you come in person and completely parasitize me... make me completely desperate, completely collapse... come on, how long do you think you can hide in the shadows, I have felt you many times... you know , you will never be able to make me commit suicide except by merging with me."
"It's painful, right? You can't do anything to a mortal, hahaha."
"Again, fxxx your mother."
ps: There will be two updates.