The sailor spoke, with more melancholy in his words:
"I used to be like a simple child, fearless because of ignorance; now that I have grown up, I know the dangers of this world, so I see everything differently."
"Are you afraid?"
Jenkins asked.
"No, it's not fear, it's prudence, it's... fear."
In fact, it is fear.
"It took me more than 30 years to know the dangers of this world. Now that I think about it, it is a miracle that I have been able to live ignorantly since I was sixteen years old. But people at sea can never rely on miracles, so I knew that sooner or later I was going to die in some accident."
"You don't intend to go to sea anymore?"
"Actually, it's time for sailors of my age to disembark, and they should give the opportunity to young people."
This is just a nice way of saying it. In fact, it is because I am afraid of the ocean that I dare not go to sea.
"But are you willing?"
"What's not to be reconciled to? Life is the most important thing."
The middle-aged sailor is different from the previous ones. He has rich life experience and experience, which cannot be easily persuaded by Jenkins with a few words.
"I don't plan to go to sea again. I never want to touch the secrets hidden in the ocean. After that, I plan to buy a house in the suburbs of Norland, then find a way to get married, and raise my son to read and write. He can't I have become a sailor like me. I have also saved a sum of savings over the years, and I have some contacts at the dock. I can run a small shop in the future, and I can sell legal and illegal... "
He introduced his next life plan to Jenkins, and the middle-aged sailor must have already thought about these plans. His planning is very good, if not facing the current situation, Jenkins will definitely support his approach. What middle-aged sailors have to do is to make their lives more stable, and they are determined to let the next generation break through the current class. Even Jenkins can't think of a better plan than this.
Therefore, what Jenkins is going to do at this time seems to be a bad thing. Letting a sailor who has been determined to settle down set sail again is undoubtedly encouraging him to die. The sailor was right, the risks in the ocean outside the main continent of the material world, where the Orthodox Church's influence is relatively weak, are really not that great.
"Fearless heart" itself conflicts with the identity of the bestower, because the bestower cannot be fearless. Even if "fearless" is used as an adjective, and not really fearless, it is difficult for the bestowers to have such a character.
The more you know, the more you will be in awe of the world. This is a choice that normal people will make. But there is no impassable situation in the treacherous land, so there must be some way to convince the sailors to be "not afraid" again.
"What made you a sailor?"
Jenkins asked.
"In order to be able to eat."
the sailor answered.
This answer is very realistic, and Jenkins thought it was the plot of a novel such as young people's desire for adventure.
"But when you were young, didn't you have the idea of conquering the ocean and becoming a great adventurer?"
Jenkins asked again.
"That's something that young people who don't have an excitable mind think about it. I'm not young anymore. This kind of ridiculous idea didn't exist more than ten years ago."
The sailor shook his head.
"Have you really lost all hope of continuing to live as a sailor?"
Jenkins asked again unwillingly.
"Do you think I look like a lunatic? With a better life, why take risks? There is only one human life, and we should cherish our own lives."
It was hard for Jenkins to disagree with him.
"Meow~"
Seeing that Jenkins was a little embarrassed, the well-behaved cat was determined to comfort him immediately. It rubbed the side of Jenkins' face with its furry little pouch, and then let out a soft meow that was delightful.
"Do not worry about me."
Jenkins also responded to his own cat, delighted by Chocolate's empathy.
He looked at the sailor again, hoping to find some ideas from the other person's appearance. But doing so is a complete waste of time. Jenkins, who has no good ideas, can only ask more details about the other party's life:
"Can the captain agree to you quitting the fleet like this?"
"We talked about this matter a few months ago. I have found a replacement for my job as bosun. The captain is indeed very reluctant to part with me, but we have been good friends for many years, and he also understands my thoughts, so I can Just let me off the boat... just some issues with the club."
The sailor hesitated to speak. This middle-aged man seemed to have no intentions. He was only worried about his own life, not any major world affairs.
"What's wrong with the club?"
Jenkins asked immediately, smelling an opportunity.
"The club spent a lot of money to train me to be a gifted person. I know this myself. Now that I have almost quit without making any contribution, the owner of the club may not be happy. I asked the club The opinions of other people, they all think that I am ungrateful, timid, and I am not worthy of being a sailor... "
Waiting for his own opinion, Jenkins did not rush to speak.
"What they say makes sense. Even the gangsters who are at the bottom of the city know the truth of reciprocating. I have benefited from the club, but my contribution is not enough to offset these benefits. My own savings It is even more impossible to use it as compensation. Therefore, even if the captain agrees to let me disembark, the club will definitely trouble me. After all, once this precedent is set, more problems will arise in the future. I understand this reason. "
"So what are you going to do? Do you want to stay in Nolan? Or leave here and live in other countries? I don't think the club you mentioned should be able to hunt you down all over the world for such a thing. .”
"But I don't know anyone in other places. The dock city where I can stay is also familiar to other people in the club. I don't want to leave my hometown. Nolan is my hometown. There will always be a hometown for wandering sailors. I think, I I can always think of a way, I don't mind my life being monitored, although I don't go to sea anymore, I can probably contribute to the club by staying on the shore... I hope so."
This is a person full of expectations for the future, but also full of confusion. He may not have received a good education, but his knowledge and vision are more than enough to make up for the lack of education.
It was difficult for such a man to try to change his mind, but Jenkins knew he had to, had to drag him out of the peaceful life he wanted.