When I saw her for the first time, she was in a daze on the lawn of the hospital. In fact, I have seen her for a long time. It may be curious or just boring.
Her face is very poor, her small body seems to be surrounded by green, a pointed chin, big eyes, and two balls of baby fat on her cheeks. She obviously looks very haggard, but because of this round little face, And it came out a bit alive.
Before I approached, she turned to look at me sensitively, her eyes full of precautions. Later, I learned that this precaution was separated from us.
In other words, even if the entire Zhenjiapu protects her and loves her, she can't let her guard down.
She used subconscious resistance to block unforeseen threats.
and after
Later, I saw her awkwardness and strange character. Sometimes she was silly and often didn't know how to work around. But more often, she was like a little hedgehog full of fighting power. She would laugh and make a lot of swear words. , But... very cute.
This kind of cognition is undoubtedly an undesirable realization.
Chen Xi, you should like this girl.
I like this, stupid, stupid, and often able to jump in popularity, not bad-hearted, but looks like a rebellious girl.
When did it start
Probably when she was in junior high school, Zhen Xiaozhu always didn't like to study, but she has a very good memory, so every time she came to the exam, she hugged the Buddha's feet, and she actually made her hug every time. stable.
"Master Xi, do you think if I am actually a genius?" She has already jokingly called me Master Xi, presumably because she wants to make herself look more like a girl who grew up in a gang, and she starts to like it when she talks. It's not big or small, but it's a good name to be used to it.
"If you were a genius, there would be no such thing as a fool in this world. In fact, Zhen Xiaozhu, you are the spokesperson of a fool!" I enjoyed the process of arguing with her, quite... a sense of accomplishment.
Her combat effectiveness is not weak, on the contrary, it can be said that she is very resistant to blows.
So that every bickering makes me very happy.
Compared to her life experience, I might be more fortunate. At least I already have a memory at the time. I was let go by my parents. They were very bitter. They escaped the famine all the way to Yicheng, and they really couldn’t make it through. He held me and cried for a long time before he gave me all the money and food and let me stay at the station.
They gave up on me.
I don't know if I have ever cried, but there is no resentment. In this regard, Zhen Xiaozhu's obsession is heavier than me.
Her resentment was in the bottom of her heart for a long, long time, and it grew very quickly. She usually tried her best to cover up and divert attention with other things, but the appearance of Cui Jie thoroughly exposed this resentment.
I will not be her support, from the moment she cried into Fu Tianchen's arms and was carried back to Zhenjiapu by this deserted youth.
I have a terrible hunch.
Chen Xi, in your life, you can only be in this kind of status, both brother and servant.
Because when she needs a embrace without any language the most, you are not only absent... You even found the woman.
"Ah! Chen Xi! You hide so many pictures of beautiful men!" Once she excitedly grabbed a lot of male celebrity posters from my drawer.
I was stunned, some accidents she actually forgot.
On her tenth birthday, she grinned and said that her wish was that the entire room would be covered with posters of beautiful men. In that case, she felt like she fell in the arms of the handsome guy when she slept.
While I disliked it, I suddenly and unconsciously searched for a few posters of men who could still be seen when I went out occasionally.
It can't be too good-looking, at least not better than me.
The funny thing is that she dug it out first.
"Hey, actually, Chen Xi, are you...huh?" She leaned close to me, her eyelashes could touch my skin, and I suddenly felt a little...unspeakable helplessness and sorrow.
Zhen Xiaozhu, you helped me think of a very good way to let me stay by your side obediently, pure and without distractions.
"You found all of this. That's right, uncle, I like men."
"I like you, would you be surprised?" Many years later, the balcony under the moonlight was quiet and serene, and I turned my head to ask this woman who was already a woman.
It was still a small face, a pointed chin, and big eyes.
"You're drunk." She froze for a long time, lowered her eyes and spoke softly, raised her head suddenly, and reached out to touch my head, "Hey, go to bed, the old lady is really stupid to come to you for a drink."
She quarreled with Qu He, and poured her sorrows through wine.
"Chen Xi, you are my brother." She hugged me and repeated word by word in my ear, "The only one, good brother."
I close my eyes, tonight is just an accident.
In the future, return to the past.
I am your good brother.
But in fact, Zhen Xiaozhu, for so many years, I am the real fool.