"Lesius, you are right, I did not lose my memory, because I didn't know how to say it, and I didn't dare to say it at first..." The memories flooding my mind and the pain of being separated from my family made me unable to breathe.
I lowered my face and tears began to fall uncontrollably: "I don't know why I came here... What did I do wrong... to bring me to this dark world..." Pretending to be strong is to prevent myself from being exposed to reality. beat. Pretending to be strong is to prevent yourself from collapsing in this reality.
However, I am only a human being, a girl, and I will get tired if I pretend for too long...
I will also have too much confusion and confusion.
Why me
Why am I here.
why why why…
"It's to bring us light..." The softly choked words and a warm hug pulled me back from the memories and pain that kept pouring out.
I deeply smelled the pleasant fragrance of orchids on his body, just like the last time I was in Harry's arms. Just for a moment, it allowed me to rely on him a little so that I could regain my calm. I've really been holding this secret for too long... too long...
I really miss and miss home...
But, I really can't go back, I can't go back...
I don't know how long I cried secretly in Lessius's arms. Even if I stopped crying, I didn't want to leave his warm embrace. I continued to lean in front of him, temporarily letting go of the strength I had always pretended to be.
What is being strong if you can only survive by not facing the past
But today, I can face it, I can finally face it.
I felt that when I told this secret, I could face the past, and I became stronger, truly stronger.
He held me tightly in front of him, and that tightness filled me with peace of mind, as if it had soothed my long-standing anxiety and loneliness, and made me feel the warmth and peace of mind that only family can give.
The night wind was no longer cold, and the surrounding air was tainted with Lessius' body temperature and fragrance. I once again felt comfortable and at ease at home.
I finally calmed down enough to face the world again, Ming and Lessius.
I wiped my face and left Lessius's arms. I had hid enough. Hiding for too long will make me weak: "Do you want to see the evidence?"
"Evidence?!" He looked extremely surprised.
I raised my face: "Why, you don't believe what I say? Do you think everything is my imagination?"
"No, no, no." Lessius waved his hands hastily and looked at me lovingly. His gray-blue eyes were actually filled with tears, and his eyes stained by tears were particularly clear in the moonlight.
I was a little surprised, but deep down I was moved by his tears: "You cried..." I reached out my hand and gently wiped away the bright tears on his eyelashes.
He gently held my hand, a warm hand that could withstand the cold night. He lowered his face and choked sadly: "I feel very sad... I really didn't expect you to go through this... let alone that you came from another world... Only one person fell into ours from a beautiful and magical world. A world with nothing…”
I also lowered my face. After telling this secret, I was finally no longer afraid of recalling the past or thinking of my parents’ faces. In the past, I could only seal all these things deep in my heart and dare not touch them. I was deeply afraid that once I touched them, they would be destroyed. Opening Pandora's box, the pain inside will turn into darkness and swallow me completely.
He gently took my other hand, stood opposite me, and held my hand tightly: "Xiaobing, I will always be by your side from now on, and I will never let you be alone again."
His soft words hit my heart instantly, causing the last tears to well up in my eyes. I took back my hand and kept wiping my tears: "Thank you... Lessius..."
"Don't cry, Xiaobing..." He choked, reaching out to wipe my tears together, "I won't let you cry again in the future."
I nodded happily with gratitude, and this time, it was tears of joy.
"By the way, where's the evidence you're talking about? Is it this?" He stretched out his hand and pointed to the sandalwood beads on his wrist, his voice trembling slightly but as if he was trying to make me happy, "No wonder you have so many good things, and watermelons. And Apple, that time you took out Apple, we all went crazy with joy!”
"Tsk..." I wiped away my tears and raised my face, smiling, "I'll take you to see the evidence, which is more convincing evidence."
He looked at me with trembling watery eyes. I took his hand and ran under the clear moonlight towards Noah City. I felt that my whole body became lighter. I felt as if I was as light as a little ice. They fly together...
I grabbed Lessius and ran back to my room in one breath.
In the corridor, I stopped and looked at Harry's room opposite. It was very quiet there. I didn't see him and Asuna when I ran back. Have they returned to the room
"What's wrong?" Lessius walked up to me and blocked my gaze.
I looked at him: "I also want to tell Harry that you and him are my best friends."
Lessius was slightly startled and lowered his face, "Yes... we should tell him..." His words were a little low, with a hint of loss.
What happened to him and Harry today? The two of them always looked a little lost.
Lessius turned and looked at Harry's room: "We have a mission tomorrow, Harry may have fallen asleep..."
"Then I'll tell him next time." I also hesitated.
I haven't told Harry before, but suddenly talking about it to him suddenly became a bit abrupt. I don't know where to start. Will it scare him
Unlike with Lessius, who told the secret naturally, many times the secret needs some foreshadowing and coincidence.
Next time I will find an opportunity to tell Harry that I will always be with them. There are plenty of opportunities.
"Okay." The corners of Lessius' lips raised slightly, like orchids blooming at night, sweeping away the loneliness just now.
I pulled him through the door.
He sat on my bed and looked around my room. He hadn't been to my room for a long time.
I took out my bag from the cabinet again. The evidence I wanted to show him wasn't chocolate, it was apples. When these things are taken out, they can be said to be antiques, just like the string of beads on Lessius' hand, which is not convincing.
I took my bag and sat next to him. His body tightened slightly, showing a bit of embarrassment, but he was no longer as nervous as before.
He turned his face slightly to look at me secretly, and slowly relaxed his body.
I took out my own wallet from my bag. It was a yellow wallet with a costume cat printed on it.
"This is..." Lessius's eyes were attracted to my wallet.
I let go of the bag, and then slowly opened my wallet in front of him. Inside was a family photo of me and my parents. Our family stood in front of the Guilin landscape and happily talked about eggplant.
"It's so beautiful..." Lessius took the wallet from my hand and was deeply attracted by the beautiful Guilin landscape in the photo.