"Why didn't you push me away when I kissed you?" Suddenly, he finally spoke, but he didn't look at me and continued to move forward slowly.
I touched my face: "I'm used to it..."
His body stiffened, and I looked at him apologetically: "Oh, I'm sorry, I'll pay attention to it later."
"No, I'm not awkward anymore." He stopped, his figure elongated in the moonlight, suppressing my shadow, "I'm still a bit awkward about men liking men, but I feel like you..." He turned to look at To me, with his back to the moonlight, he looked darker and darker, and his black eyes were bottomless, "It's not awkward..."
I looked up at him, and the moonlight fell on my face: "A Gu... He loves me, but he knows that I don't love him, but he still stays by my side, so now we..." I frowned slightly He turned his face sideways, "My relationship with him is a bit like best friends between girls, so..."
"That's why I feel like I'm not like a man! Because I'm not even as good as him!" He Lei suddenly said in a deep voice, as if he was angry with himself.
I looked at him doubtfully, looking at him from head to toe: "How do you look less like a man?"
Herrey's body stiffened for a while, and he turned around with an embarrassed blush: "I'm not talking about my body."
"Oh, that's..."
"I fell in love with someone."
"Say?!" I blurted out, but I didn't expect that his profile in the moonlight would become even more embarrassing.
He turned his face away in embarrassment: "It's not her."
Suddenly, I was embarrassed.
I was so embarrassed that I wanted to disappear immediately. It would be best for Xiaoye to quickly open a hole behind me and let me get through it.
Awkward chat...
I apologized awkwardly: "That... doesn't matter, I still like Harry and Lessius."
He slowly calmed down and lowered his face: "I think I'm stupid. I like him but I don't know it. Every time I see him with other men, I feel awkward. At first, I thought it was because men like men, but then I feel awkward. In the end... it was actually because I felt awkward seeing him being with others... "
"Wait a minute, you... like men?!" I looked at He Lei in surprise, He Lei actually... bent!
He turned his face and stared at me angrily: "Yes, I fell in love with a man. I was so stupid that I didn't know that I fell in love with him. I was stupid enough to think that I was watching a man fall in love and it was awkward. I was stupid enough that he was awkward with someone else." I would only avoid other men when I was with them. I was so stupid that I didn’t realize my feelings until I lost him. I was so stupid that all the men around him, even that sissy A Gu from the Beehive Princess, expressed their love to him, but I am still struggling here alone!”
I froze immediately and looked at him blankly. My mind was instantly confused, like a mess: "The person you are talking about... shouldn't be..."
He stared at me deeply and for a long time. His gaze became deeper and deeper in the moonlight, turning into the deepest pool in the world. The deep pool rolled up again because of the entangled and painful feelings. Suddenly, he leaned down. He lowered his face and kissed my lips.
I pushed him away almost instinctively, and he staggered when I pushed him. I looked at him and immediately became embarrassed again: "I'm sorry."
"It doesn't matter." He seemed very calm, and he lowered his face, "The reason why I'm struggling is not only because I dare not tell you that I like you, but also because I have made a promise to Sayi, so I am no longer qualified to love you. ." He raised his eyes and looked at me with relief and candor.
I was stunned again.
He looked at me deeply: "Bing..." She stretched out her hand a little closer to my face. When she touched my skin that was slightly cool in the night breeze, his black eyes rolled up into deep whirlpools. There is a billowing of true feelings inside, "I fell in love with you, but I also agreed to marry Sayi. I am a man and I want to keep my promise. If you push me away like this today, I can finally let myself give up and get rid of that entanglement." If you leave in love, I will continue to stay by your side like A Gu, love you and protect you like he does."
I continued to look at him blankly, and suddenly I had a complicated feeling of being confessed and rejected.
"Bing... I originally wanted to bury this secret in my heart, but I really can't hide my feelings anymore. You know, I have always been a resolute person. I can't hide my feelings from you, especially When I see you again..." He stretched out his other hand and gently held my hand, walked closer to my body, and looked deeply into my eyes, "I have to tell you my feelings. When you died, you buried this feeling at the same time. I saw that you could be so calm with A Gu, so I thought I should tell you too." He looked at me deeply, and lowered his face to me little by little, The moonlight gradually disappeared between us, and I immediately turned my face away. He took a step forward and hugged me tightly. His right hand touched the back of my head, "I said, I don't want to lose you anymore. As long as you are well, As long as you are still in my sight, I will feel at ease. I really regret giving you to Xingchuan back then. I should have taken you away, I should have taken you away!" His hand caressing the back of my head suddenly It penetrated deeply into my braid, gripped my hair tightly, and it hurt my hair with a strong possessive desire.
Is this why Harry always avoided me when he saw me with Harry
He... likes me...
However, he said that he was responsible for Sayi and that he was a good man.
"Here, you are a good man." I said.
His grip on my hair slowly relaxed, but he did not let go of me: "Why do people have to experience loss before they understand what they want..." His sigh was full of deep regret.
"Because we are too young and we are stupid." I joked. It wasn't until I went to Silvermoon City and saw Harry among the flowers that I realized that my feelings for him had already changed.
"Ha... yes, we are still too young and too stupid..." He let me go and looked at me with a smile, "When we first met, I was only seventeen years old, and you looked younger than me. , right." His smile became relieved in the moonlight, with the warmth of a big brother.
"Yeah." I nodded, "I'm just sixteen."
"I was still a stupid boy at that time." He Lei laughed at himself. "I only knew hatred and revenge. I almost hit you, didn't I?" He Lei stroked my face.
I took a step back unnaturally and lowered my face. His hand fell and fell into the air.
"Yes, you were very impulsive at that time, like a trapped animal who only lost his temper. But it was better than the insidious Xingchuan hiding in the corner." I smiled and raised my face, meeting He Lei's deep gaze. His heartbeat accelerated for a moment, and his face began to heat up under his increasingly intense gaze.