I hurriedly turned my face away, pretending to be relaxed: "When I met you again later, you became much calmer..."
"Because I have experienced a lot of battles, I know that impulsiveness can only do bad things." He Lei's voice was soft and hoarse, "You were really happy when I saw you that time, and your heartbeat was also very fast. I didn't know that it was heartbeat. I thought it was the excitement of seeing you again, but... When I looked at Sayi and other girls, my heartbeat had never been so fast. I still remember the heartbeat at that time... "
"But you don't like boys..." I was a little embarrassed, feeling that the air around me was a little stuffy.
"Yeah... I don't like it." He Lei lowered his face slightly, with a puzzled look on his face, "When I see men together, I feel awkward and feel numb all over, but I don't know why, looking at you... I don’t feel that way, I still think you look like a girl…”
I'm a girl, Herrey, your intuition is very accurate.
"You have a... special aura about you that makes me just want to look at you. Your smile... is very cute, cuter than a girl..." He smiled softly, and a hint of affection overflowed from the corner of his mouth that made me shy. , "Bing, at that time I was actually attracted to you..." He turned his face slightly and looked at me from the corner of his eye. I blushed and dared not look at him.
"I fell in love with you when I went to Silver Moon City with you. I was deeply attracted to you. Your fighting methods, your body skills, your wisdom, your kindness, your smile, everything about you... Full of charm, I can't take my eyes away from you. Bing, you are really a shining North Star, so you also attracted Xingchuan and made him deeply obsessed with you!" He Lei turned to face me, and then He didn't hide his deep affection. His loving eyes made it impossible for me to look into his eyes.
Many past events came to mind. He did become more and more awkward with me after we went to Silver Moon City, but he always stayed by my side and didn't let Xingchuan get close to me.
"I was so stupid at that time. I was blinded by my inability to accept a man's love. I didn't realize that I felt for you, so I would always feel tight-chested and angry. I didn't know what I was feeling depressed about at that time. I just knew Seeing you with other men makes me feel very uncomfortable. At that time, I was stupid and thought it was because I saw you being awkward with men, haha..." He shook his head with a wry smile and let out a long breath, "I think now. When I wake up, I still feel that I was really stupid at that time."
I stood in front of him and didn't know what to say. At this moment, it would be awkward to say anything.
"I have been wearing the amulet and hairband you left for me." He pointed to his chest, and the regimental emblem shone in the moonlight.
Of course I know. Every day I see the regiment emblem I gave him and the hair tie I bought him again. The original one I gave him is torn and he still has it tied in his hair, looking silly.
"Bing, I hope that telling you my feelings today will not trouble you or affect the relationship between us..." He became embarrassed and his tone became a little anxious, "We get along well."
"No." I raised my face to look at him, and he smiled reassuringly: "I never dared to say it, because I was afraid that you would avoid me."
"No, I still admire you a little." I said, lowering my eyes slightly in his affectionate gaze, "I should say... I have already admired you since the first time I saw you. You are super strong. The ability, the fearlessness to kill enemies, and the decisive style of acting, and, by the way, being responsible for girls and keeping promises!" I emphasized and looked at him with admiration, "This makes me really admire you!"
However, he became embarrassed under my admiring gaze. He turned his face slightly: "Bing, I am the leader of the clan. I have the responsibility to reproduce and revitalize the clan. Therefore, I have been asking myself, what if you didn't have it?" Rui, there is no Lessius..." His expression gradually became serious in the moonlight, and he was really thinking deeply about this hypothesis, "Will I dare to express my love for you and let you be with me, because , I will always marry a woman and have children, I can even share a woman with you..."
I suddenly got goosebumps all over my body, but I didn’t feel disgusted because this is the end of the world and this is a special era. From a man's point of view, I am very happy that he can give me women, because women are so precious in this world.
"But, will you be willing?" He looked at me deeply, as if his hypothesis had turned into reality at this moment, and he wanted to get the answer from me.
"I..." I frowned under his serious gaze and said, "I don't want to." I looked up at him directly and told him my answer.
His eyes trembled, but he turned his face to the side and smiled lightly, with a bit of relaxation and a bit of sadness in his expression.
The night wind flowed quietly between us, and there was silence between us.
We faced each other quietly for a long time under the moonlight, and no one spoke.
"Bing." He Lei spoke again, turning his face seriously and looking at me extremely solemnly, his solemn expression as solemn as an oath, "Please believe me, my love for you is serious."
"I believe it." I blurted out, and my unquestioning expression made He Lei's expression gradually soften and warm, and his eyes as dark as night showed a trace of tenderness: "Thank you, Bing. I am relaxed now, I no longer need to avoid you and bury my feelings."
I lowered my face, and the night wind blew cool on my face, raising the hair around my face: "Actually... I also have something that I haven't had the chance to tell you... "
"What?" He became serious.
"I really didn't mean to hide this from you. I really never had the right opportunity to tell you. Every time we meet, we say goodbye in a hurry, so I..."
"I understand, we do spend less time together."
"Yes, so now I can tell you, but can you promise me not to be angry with me?" I raised my face and looked at him apologetically.
He froze in my apologetic gaze, and his face actually turned red. He raised his hand to cover his heart: "Wait, what's going on? My heartbeat is a little fast." His calm expression was like It was him when he was young, the impatient big boy.
My face also turned red and I lowered my face: "You promise me not to be angry first, and then I'll tell you."
"Okay, I'm not angry." He agreed without hesitation, with a smile.
I smiled, nodded, raised my face, and looked at him. He lost consciousness in my smile again.
"Then calm down tonight, what's going on between you and me, and prepare yourself mentally. You'll know the truth tomorrow morning." I said and smiled brightly at him.
He was stunned by my smile for a long time and did not respond.