I had a long, long, long dream, and that word kept lingering in my dream.
Erotomania, Eros delusional disorder.
The first time I heard this term, was watching the 2002 French film "Angie Rhapsody", a heroine who played a one-man show without knowing it, fell in love with the cardiologist Loic, and all this, just Just an illness.
In the movie, Angie said: "The world in my head is different from reality, where Loic loves me, protects me, where he will always be with me, now I know this world doesn't exist, it's just my illusion, my fantasy."
When I saw this movie at that time, I just sighed, because I never thought that one day, I would also become such a protagonist.
June 30, 2012 was actually even more exciting than July 1.
On that day, I arrived downstairs at Qin Lang's house early, and the results of the college entrance examination had come out. I wanted to ask him which school to apply for, and I wanted to go with him.
But when I saw Qin Lang, he hit me back with the same words as a blade: "You can't find it if you don't tell you? Lin Xian, who is showing such a fake appearance?"
I was so panicked that I could only wave my hand: "No, I'm not..."
Unsure of his expression, he turned away.
It was about that day that my eyelids kept twitching, and I always felt that my heart was covered with dark clouds, and I returned home unhappy. In fact, I usually hear a lot of sad words like this, but when it comes to graduation, it is inevitable that all kinds of emotional dregs will arise, and it is even more disappointing.
When I stepped into the house, it was rare that Aunt Fang was not there, and the room was quiet. When I walked up the stairs, I saw my parents' doors were open, and no one was inside.
And just when I was about to go back to my room, Lan Wan suddenly came out of my room with a frosty expression on her face and some deep hatred. I was so startled that I even took a step back.
"Go and move the flowers in the yard, it's going to rain," she told me.
The two of us were deadlocked for a few seconds, and finally I turned around and did as she instructed.
Strange, she never came into my room, and she never cared about flowers and plants. I know there is something unreasonable here, but I can't react at once.
All I know is that Lan Wan's eyes looking at me from behind are like cold arrows, swishing into the spine.
After moving the flowers, I wiped a sweat, and I found that I was in a cold sweat and my heart was beating. When I walked back into the room and picked up the water glass on the table to drink, Lan Wan came out again, stood at the entrance of the stairs, looked down at me, and ordered, "Come up, go to your room."
I squeezed the cup in my hand, put it down nervously, went upstairs with my feet a little vacuous, and followed her footsteps into the room.
In the room, I saw Lin Wangshu sitting in front of the computer with an encrypted document opened on the desktop. He wore glasses and read it word by word. When he saw me coming in, he raised his head, his eyes were the same as Lan Wan's.
Hit the head! My soul feels like it's been twisted so hard!
That document was densely filled with things about me and Qin Lang. No matter how small it was, even a sentence, an action, or a look, I would write down everything in it. He took me to the infirmary, he took orders for me, he stood up for me... As long as I remember, it's all written.
Even, even those love words that I dare not think or say, are all poured out in it. Such warm and straightforward feelings, so sincere that I didn't dare to take a second look myself after writing about him! But now, they are all lying naked in front of Lin Wangshu and Lan Wan, my father and mother!
I was like a naked sinner, naked in broad daylight, and death was a relief.
"You...how can you...how can you look at me..." I quivered my lips, and it was bloodless.
"Why not?" Lan Wan smiled contemptuously, "You are our son, we can watch whatever we want! We found out early, otherwise, I don't know how sick you are!"
Lan Wan is like a black policeman, waiting for the fishing law enforcement to catch me, a repeat criminal for a long time, and finally caught the painful foot. She would not let go no matter what, but was very proud. Looking at Lin Wangshu's gloomy face, I wanted to know, What exciting words did Lan Wan use to ridicule his father's incompetence.
"I'm not sick." I blamed.
"Aren't you sick?!" Lin Wangshu slapped the table hard, and the room shook, his words were full of energy, and at the moment he was even more powerful: "I thought you were just bad friends, but I didn't expect you to be like this. Fallen! It's me who indulges you too much! Look for yourself, what these unsightly things are!"
It's finally time to tear up the truth.
I can allow them to scold me, but I don't allow them to mock my feelings: "That's my own business! You don't need to worry about it!"
Lin Wangshu and Lan Wan were probably frightened by me. He had never seen me turn my face or make a fuss. He shook his beard with anger and finally sneered: "Okay, okay, okay. ...Don't worry about us? Who do you rely on for food now, ah? Do you think your wings are hard? Let me tell you, you are not allowed to have the final say in this family, my son, he will never be allowed to grow. Crooked!"
He stood up and took two steps, looking a little anxious, as if thinking about countermeasures, and then said: "You, listen, if you don't give me a good attitude, you don't want to go out of this house. As for what you wrote in People... Hmph, I will also keep him away from Tongcheng forever!"
Qin Lang!
I widened my eyes and watched Lin Wangshu walk out, rushing up to block the door, with a heroic expression: "No! You can punish me, but you can't touch him!"
Lan Wan sneered, and there was indeed an expression of hatred in his eyes: "Yo, I can't tell, but you are seriously ill. Don't forget, you are a man, and you want me to be raped after I go out. Poked in the spine, was someone scolded for giving birth to someone who was neither male nor female?!"
Every word in these words, with the coolness of several nine ice, penetrated from the limbs and bones, making me shiver.
In this world, would other people's mothers scold their children like this? I don't know, probably not.
But at least one of my father's words is right, what he wants to do, I can't stop him now.
I bowed my head and said, "I don't need to leave the house, you can punish you whatever you want, but you just can't touch him." To be honest, my voice was full of pleading: "If you touch him, I can't guarantee that you will be right. what do you do yourself."
Lin Wangshu glared at me with an incredible expression: "How dare you threaten your father?"
"Yes," I looked at him righteously, not giving an inch, "Father, it depends on whether you think your face is more important, or your son is more important."
Lin Wangshu was so furious that he raised his hand and slapped me on the face. The slap hit my right cheek, and it was swollen all of a sudden.
Later, Lan Wan's sharp words slashed into my heart like a witch's fingernails: "Just for a wild bastard who doesn't know where it came from, you are crazy."
"He's not a savage!" My anger finally blurted out at this moment, "He's the man I love, yes, he's a man, I like this man!"
After speaking, I opened the door and was about to snatch away, but when the door opened, the three of us were startled.
Grandma stood at the door at some point, her face was like dried walnuts, full of wrinkles, but at the moment her eyes were wide open, covering her heart as if she had heard some shocking words, her whole body was a little convulsed, her teeth were locked. Also trembling.
"grandmother!"
She raised a hand tremblingly and pointed at the three of us, not knowing what to say in her mouth, then rolled her eyes and fell down. LC