When I was admitted to the hospital, the doctor said it was a stroke.
The doctor who often performs home physical examinations for grandma has long said that grandma's body may suffer a stroke at any time, but at this moment, I feel like a sinner, and I think it is because of me that grandma will have an accident.
I squatted at the door of the operating room, praying devoutly, and was so flustered that I didn't even have time to cry.
When the lights in the operating room went out, it was already two o'clock in the morning on the 1st. The doctor came out and told us that they had done what they had to do. Now they are transferred to the intensive care unit. way.
I didn't dare to enter the room, I only dared to look at my grandma through the glass. The electrocardiogram on the head of the bed seemed to be getting weaker and weaker, and my hands and feet began to tremble involuntarily.
"Axian." Someone was calling me.
When I looked back, it turned out to be Fu Xiaoci.
It's been so long since the college entrance examination, and he's still wearing his school uniform. When he saw me, he was a little surprised: "I thought I recognized the wrong person, but I didn't expect it to be you." He shook the bag in his hand: "My stomach hurts a little, come and prescribe some medicine, what's the matter with you?"
When people are vulnerable, it is good to have a shoulder to lean on, so I buried my head on Fu Xiaoci's shoulder and couldn't help sobbing in a low voice.
By the time I calmed down and told Fu Xiaoci the cause and effect, the sun had already come out.
We were sitting in the corridor of the hospital, each with a pot of coffee in one hand, and the surroundings were silent, like a grave.
The taste of coffee is really bitter, but no matter how bitter it is, there is an end to it. I think it becomes bitter when I say it out loud: "Xiao Ci, is it so hard to like someone?"
Fu Xiaoci also lowered his head, clasped the tab on the can with one hand, and asked hesitantly, "It's probably not so hard. I've always wanted to ask you, why is it Qin Lang?"
"Um?"
"He doesn't treat you well," Fu Xiaoci thought about her words, as if she was afraid of hurting me, "If you like someone, it won't be so hard! What you told me before and what I saw about him seem to be completely different. The two of you, I don't even understand how you got together, not like a couple at all, but like an enemy."
I hugged my knees and shrunk myself, as if this would warm me up a bit: "I know he's good. Remember the day of the New Year's Day parade? At the end of that day, we sneaked up to the rooftop to watch the shooting stars, It turned out that there were no meteors, and it was raining heavily, and we actually hid under the water tank all night! He used his clothes to cover me from the rain, and he said 'If you want, stay together', although I caught a cold later At the sports meeting, I was hit in the head with a shot put and almost got a concussion. He carried me all the way to the infirmary, and didn’t even go to the track and field game in the afternoon, which made the class lesser. I won a gold medal, but just kept telling jokes with me just because I was worried that I was bored; also, before the final exam, I was suddenly very nervous, I called him, and he ran to my door to comfort me…”
As I was talking, it seemed that I saw Qin Lang's hearty smile, and couldn't help but laugh, but the next moment, the corner of the smile slowly hung down: "But... I don't know why, facing the Such a good Qin Lang is slowly disappearing, maybe it's because I didn't do well and let him down..."
So he was discouraged again, and then turned his head to look at Fu Xiaoci. Fu Xiaoci's face was very strange, as if he had chewed something strange in his mouth, he couldn't swallow it and couldn't spit it out, his eyebrows were twisted together, and he didn't know what to say.
I was puzzled: "What's wrong?"
Fu Xiaoci blinked, and asked tentatively in a low voice like a thief, "Which New Year's Day extravaganza did you say?"
I was even more puzzled than him: "Which time? We only do it once in three years."
"What about the final exam?"
"Well..." I thought about it for a while, and then said affirmatively, "Second year of high school last semester."
After listening to my answer, Fu Xiaoci seemed to have been electrocuted by an electrode pad, her whole body shrugged, her eyes were as wide as cow bells, as if she knew some shocking secret, and even the Adam's apple moved up and down, he opened his mouth, Some stammered: "Ah...Axian, you, are you all right?"
After he finished speaking, he rushed up, touched my forehead with the back of his hand, and looked at my body up and down, his concern was evident: "Do you have a fever, why is there a palm print on your face, is your brain damaged? My gosh?"
At this time, I didn't feel that something was wrong, then I was dead. I held his hand and asked seriously, "What do you mean? I, I don't have any problems."
Fu Xiaoci grabbed my hand and said eagerly, "How can it be alright! Axian, your memory is wrong! It rained after the New Year's Day parade, but the next morning, it was patrolling. The security guard found you on the rooftop who was drenched and fainted. No one else was there. The whole school knew about it! The teacher was afraid that you would lose face, so he asked everyone not to mention it. Also, Qin Lang was the one who injured you at the sports meeting. It's right to send you there, but he didn't accompany you all afternoon. He went to the track and field competition. He didn't win because the people from Class 5 provoked and fought, so he was canceled! Also... That final exam, Qin Lang Representing the school to participate in the provincial physics competition training and competition, in order to prevent cheating, I was closed in the examination room according to regulations and confiscated my mobile phone, how could he come to see you?"
After talking like a machine gun, Fu Xiaoci took a breath and asked, "A-Xian? Are you kidding me just now... Or, are you really just, did you remember it wrong?"
My pupils seemed to have been hit by a strong light and suddenly tightened, like a cat at night.
There seemed to be a huge hole in the head, and the violent drum sound kept oscillating back and forth in it, and it turned over and over again after being awake and addicted for a second.
Fu Xiaoci's words were like a sword shot from the end of the forest, passing through the thick fog, and finally hitting my heart, breaking the clouds and seeing the sun, forcing me to wake up.
I suddenly retracted my hand, and my whole body was as sensitive as a hedgehog with a needle on it. He murmured: "You mean, I... I remembered wrong? What did he not... did with me?"
Fu Xiaoci was frightened by my appearance, caressed my back with both hands, and said cautiously, "A-Xian, don't worry, maybe, maybe I remembered it wrong? You may have been frightened by your grandma, now The spirit is not stable, so take it easy for a while, okay? Don't be afraid, don't be afraid."
Spirit.
These two words are the key to unlocking the lock, and the phrase 'crazy' that Lan Wan said in the afternoon suddenly popped into my mind. A high-pitched sound like fingernails slicing through glass burst into my heart, as if a truth was about to emerge.
Reaching out to touch my head, I tried to recall the pictures and scenes I just mentioned, but Fu Xiaoci's words were like an eraser, erasing all Qin Lang's pictures in those scenes!
I'm the only one, and in this memory, it seems that I'm the only one left, standing in the vast expanse of white, like a lonely fool.
What about those words
What about those gentle movements
What about those kind feelings
What mistake did I make, which bite of the forbidden fruit, made God angry and confiscated them all
"A Xian? A Xian?" Fu Xiaoci tugged at me, I shook it, and knocked his hand off at once!
"I'm sorry Xiaoci, I need to take care of it by myself!" I stood up and didn't even want to clean up my embarrassed and frightened face, regardless of Fu Xiaoci's call from behind.
I just felt the devil in my left atrium mocking, roaring, and telling me the cruel truth.
I know that there is a Pandora's box in front of me, and opening it will be forever, but I can't control my body.
I stumbled to the nurse's desk and found a little nurse who was half asleep. I tried my best to shake her awake and asked her for help: "Psychiatry! Psychiatry, where is it?!" LC