I glared at him and he glared at me. I don't know where his fire came from, and I don't know why I'm burning with anger when I see him.
Probably the secret was revealed, and he became angry.
It was just the next moment, the body before the action, and I slapped him in the face, knocking his head to the side.
Heaven and earth conscience, in the past twenty years or so, I have never slapped anyone else, but within 10 hours from now, I have slapped other people twice, and they are still the same person.
"Um..." I forgot that I still had the needle in my hand, and it was thrown out at once, spattering a little blood on the white sheet.
As soon as he finished the action, Qin Lang grabbed the beating hand. He put his other hand on my shoulder and looked down at me from top to bottom: "Why?"
"Where are there so many and why? If you want to fight, you can fight, and do you still need to see the Huangli pick a good day and auspicious day?" I answered him coldly, "Breaking into my house, kissing me forcefully, being rude to my friends, all of them are worth me. Get your hands on it."
"That's not what I'm asking about, your illness..." His voice softened a little, his Adam's apple moved up and down, "Why didn't you tell me?"
"It's my privacy and I have the right not to tell anyone."
"If I had known, I would have..."
"Tell you, then what?" I took my hand out and touched his face with a very ambiguous fingering, from the forehead to the eyebrows, the end of the eyebrows, and then to the corners of the mouth with my fingertips, "You What will you do? Sympathize with me, pity me, and then act mercifully with me as a lunatic until you can't stand it anymore and kick me away? Or spread my disease out and let your group fear the world will not be chaotic my friends teasing me, laughing at me? Huh?"
By the end of the last sound, my hand was already on his neck, and then I tried hard to block him, and I sat up with a flick of my own strength, chuckling: "Qin Lang, do you think, I really have no dignity?"
Qin Lang pursed his thin lips, then squatted down beside the bed, looked up at me slightly, and said gently in a voice that would not offend me: "What did I do five years ago? I won't forget it. I don't want to deny or whitewash peace, but there are some things you have to listen to."
I looked down at my fingernails, holding back from digging: "That's it, Qin Lang, I don't want to hear it."
He continued to speak, ignoring my rejection: "Before I met you, I never had the concept of two men together in my life. You can imagine how shocked your appearance was to me! If If you are in another place, you are me, and you are harassed by someone you are not very familiar with, so you will be ridiculed, gossip, and misunderstood by others, will you lose your mind?"
What he said was not bad, I couldn't refute it, I just turned my face away: "...It's my fault, so I've been punished."
"Bullying you is because I can't get angry. I thought this would make you give up, but you are so stubborn that you can't believe it. Seeing how serious you are, it's not that I didn't think about getting along with you like a friend first, but, you Father..." Having said this, he hesitated for a moment and looked at my face.
I have some understanding, it was about the time when the head teacher made a small report, "Did he humiliate you?" He smiled helplessly: "I apologize for him."
Qin Lang was quiet for a while, then slowly straightened up and sat on the edge of the bed. His tone became lighthearted: "If it's just humiliation, I'm fine. You know, I originally volunteered to be an air force for this goal. , I exercise every day and do weight training. During that time, I didn't dare to drink cigarettes, alcohol or even drinks. At first, everything was ready, and I just waited for the notice, but... Your father heard the gossip of the head teacher and threatened me not to bring any more. I broke you, so I asked the school leaders to change my aspirations, which is a lesson for me."
Hearing this, the shock is not enough to describe my mood.
The pulse seemed to be picked up hard, and it was sore.
Qin Lang is such a proud person, how could he be willing to be threatened by others? Even if he destroys his future, he will not give his father the opportunity to show his strength in front of him.
Looking at Qin Lang with wide eyes, my heart was full of mixed feelings. I didn't know whether it was apology or resentment, anger or shame. In short, my mouth was bitter, and my internal organs were twisted together. Unconsciously grasping the sheets: "I...I...I really don't know...not me..."
He smiled lightly and looked very peaceful: "It's okay, that's fine, if it wasn't for your father, I might be just a stupefied soldier now, and I can't do my current career."
Even a fool could hear that he was comforting me.
"I'm sorry." I still have to say what I need to say, and I say it sincerely.
"I didn't know you were sick, and you didn't know it yourself. So, I always thought that you were deliberate and stalking, but you thought I was cold-blooded, cruel, and ruthless. Lin Xian, it's not just you who was wronged."
Qin Lang poured a glass of water, which was a little hot. He played with the glass on his mobile phone, and his tone became much more delicate: "I have no parents, no brothers, although I have many friends and many people who say they like me, but no one knows. , I like to hold a cup when I think about things; no one knows, I have a mild lactose intolerance; no one knows, I don't like to drink coke; no one knows, I'm used to going to the library on a rainy day... except you, Lin Envy. In the past five years, I have often thought that sometimes, you are more familiar with myself than I am. Things that can be clearly solved in person, but we were still too young at that time. "
Speaking of which, I don't know who is right and who is wrong, but fate made a joke.
This joke, played a bit bigger, is not funny.
It turns out that some things are really indistinguishable from right and wrong. Everyone is innocent, everyone is a victim, and fate is the initiator.
The bedroom became very quiet, and the sunlight from the window filtered in and leaked on the sheets, making it extra warm.
In the air, there is also a smell of being sunburned. My brain digested it for a while before I regained my sense: "You, are you finished?"
"I'm done," Qin Lang raised his eyes slightly, "What do you want to say to me?"
"Is there anything else that needs to be explained?" I pretended to be ignorant and shook my head, "I'm sorry, Qin Lang. I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to ruin your life, although it's fundamental to say this. No help. It's just that I can't make up for you at all except apologizing. I didn't leave because I hated you, but because I was afraid of myself. I'm a lunatic who only causes trouble."
"so?"
"I'm sorry for you, but you may not be worthy of me. Since we are both adults, we should stop sticking to the past, okay? Just shake hands and make peace today, and we will have a better life in the future. If we meet occasionally on the road, we can still be good friends. Nodding, okay?"
He stretched out a hand, put it in front of Qin Lang, and put on a serious look on his face.
Qin Lang's expression is difficult to describe in my lack of words. It was as if he had swallowed Huanglian but couldn't speak, or as if someone had poured cold water on his face. Finally, he stared at my hand for a while without shaking it back. Instead, take my wrist and put my hand back under the covers.
"It seems that you forgot what I said to you before you passed out."
I can forget, he wanted to mention it.
In the quilt, my hand pinched my thigh, met Qin Lang's clear eyes, and said, "Qin Lang, have you ever thought about it, maybe it's not me that you like, but a toy called Lin Xian! He is obedient, docile, You can't stand it until you lose the toy. But it's not the toy itself that you feel bad for, but the unwillingness to be abandoned!"
"I thought about it. If I waited one year, I might be unwilling; if I waited two years, I might feel guilty; if I waited three years, I might miss it; if I waited four years, I might be too paranoid... But I waited five years. If you don't like it, other feelings will not last today."
My body trembled secretly, and my throat felt like a lump of lead, so I finally said cruelly: "Put away your sympathy, I can't bear it anymore. Still, I need to make it clear that you are just a' There's no need for an ex-boyfriend."
"'Front' ah..." Qin Lang raised his brows and suddenly approached me, "Who is the current one? Li Xingchen? Or the one at the door of the bar?"
"All." I returned him quite defiantly, then covered my head with the quilt, and issued a eviction order, "So you don't have to worry, I have them to take care of, it's very good. I'm tired, you can go."
I could feel his big palm on the quilt, touching me. After listening to my words, he didn't do anything, just patted it twice, like coaxing a child, and then the bed moved slightly and he got up.
"You are ill because of me, so it should be treated by me." Every word of Qin Lang was like a wedge, hitting my heart, unbreakable and undeniable, "Even if it can't be cured, it doesn't matter, from From now on, your delusions and reality, I will be the same."
Then there was a slight sound of footsteps, the sound of the door being locked, the door closing, and it was completely silent.
I slowly took my head out of the quilt and let out a long, long breath. He stretched out his finger and looked at his fingertips against the sun, where he just touched Qin Lang's lips. His lips seem to be so thin, there is a saying that people with thin lips are affectionate.
Such lips, what they say, can you believe it or not? LC