The real life is always like the weather before the storm, the dull thunder is hidden under the thick clouds, the lightning is constantly piercing the sky, and there are catastrophic dark clouds all over the sky, covering the sky like the end of the day. Just as desperate.
I thought it was a shameful act to doubt my best friend, but I couldn't help but think so.
When Qin Lang and my car drove downstairs to Li Xingchen's clinic, I suddenly lost the courage to go upstairs to ask questions.
"I still don't think it's possible, but I can't explain it... My head hurts." I was very confused.
Qin Lang patted me: "Don't scare yourself first, but just ask. Maybe Li Xingchen accidentally told someone something? It's just asking."
Yes, it should be. I'll make this conclusion for myself first.
Until I saw a woman walk into Li Xingchen's clinic - Li Lu.
It happened to be lunch break now, and the little nurses went to eat. No one was disturbed along the way. We walked to the door of the consultation room. Before we walked in, we heard a shrill sound of breaking, as if something was broken.
Then I heard Li Xingchen's roar: "Li Lu! You're crazy! You lied to me that you just wanted to use Xiaomu's name to lie to Qin Lang to see you! You actually helped a deranged person kidnap? Did you know that you almost killed someone!"
My pores instantly opened up! The bones began to tremble!
It's really him, it's really him, it could be him, how could it be him
These questions are like venomous snakes, burrowing into my flesh, biting up and down repeatedly. If it wasn't for Qin Lang standing behind me, I might have collapsed in the dark.
At this time, Li Lu began to laugh, very sarcastic: "Li Xingchen? Are you stupid? I killed people? I just told Qi Tang about Lin Xian's weaknesses. As for what he wants to do, I don't care. Do you have it? I didn't instigate him to kidnap, nor did I get involved in such a terrible thing!"
"That's a child! How can you be so cruel?"
"I'm ruthless? Haha, hahahaha..." Li Lu laughed more and more arrogantly, "Li Xingchen, are you not ruthless?"
Li Xingchen's voice suddenly became deficient: "I'm not..."
"No? Oh, yes, I forced you. Have you been comforting yourself like this? I forced you to see a doctor secretly for me, I forced you to tell me about Lin Xian, and I forced you to tell the Lin family's parents. What happened to Qin Lang... So, you don't feel guilty, right? Oh, stop dreaming! Don't you want to do the things I did? Don't you want to break them up too? I just Just do what you want to do that you dare not do!"
"I never thought of harming Lin Xian!"
"But what you're doing is good for him? Is he either? Is he rare? Li Xingchen, you are just brainwashing yourself, borrow my hand to satisfy your own greed! Is it useful? Qin Lang has come together! You are worthy of accusing me now!"
"Shut up!" Li Xingchen roared irrationally.
And Li Lu's voice was sharper and crazier than his: "If you don't let me say it, I will say it! Li Xingchen, since the fire you set in "Yan" five years ago, you have been unable to wash it clean. ! "
It was like a thunderstorm that struck the head, not to mention me, even Qin Lang, who was behind me, froze.
Li Lu's words pierced his heart like a sharp blade, and blood gushed out along the blood trough. With steaming heat, he kept reminding me: Yes, this is true, Li Xingchen is the murderer.
I couldn't help but think of how Li Xingchen was kind to me during those five years in Japan. We drank sake together, soaked in hot springs together, stayed up late to do projects together, and watched fireworks displays together. It was he who helped me fight my paranoia a little bit, and it was he who helped me stand up slowly.
In those five years, I felt that kind of genuine friendship from my heart.
But you must know that the darling of this story has not been me from the beginning, so no matter how optimistic and open-minded I am, reality has long been lurking in an invisible corner, and it will give its fatal blow at any time.
I will not be sad because of Li Lu's injury, but I will be sad because of Li Xingchen's deception.
Because I have treated him with sincerity.
It was noisy for a while, and some things were smashed, and then Li Lu, in a rage, pulled the door out and bumped into Qin Lang and me all at once.
In an instant, the blood on Li Lu and Li Xingchen's faces faded. Especially Li Xingchen, he opened his mouth wide, full of panic, and the decay that came to an end. His lips seemed to say my name silently, but he didn't say anything, and took two steps back until he hit the table.
It was Li Lu who escaped, but Li Xingchen who had nowhere to escape was left behind.
What is he afraid of, in fact, I am more afraid than him.
I rushed up, grabbed his collar, and stared at him for a long time, for a long time. I saw him hang his head, and there was no hope in his face. Only then did I know that he admitted it.
"What Li Lu said is true? You... set the fire? Are you going to burn me to death?"
"No, no," Li Xingchen said, shaking his head desperately, then grabbed my hand, "Lin Xian, Lin Xian... That day, I was drunk that day, I was really drunk! I was in a daze I heard what those guys said when they were out of the bar, locked in the toilet, Qin Lang, etc. I thought they were joking with Qin Lang and locked Qin Lang in. That's why I... I was really drunk Only then would I do such a thing! I, I didn't dare to kill anyone, Lin Xian, you believe me..."
With a bang, I punched him in the face. Because of the injury on the foot, I stumbled a bit when I hit him.
He fell to the ground and leaned to one side, his face flushed, but his face was resigned and regretful.
My clenched fist kept shaking, and Qin Lang didn't dare to intervene. I looked down at Li Xingchen, and my voice was cold: "Li Xingchen, you are a doctor. When you were a medical student, shouldn't you have sworn to be responsible for your life?"
"I, I was really... fascinated at that time! Lin Xian, Lin Xian, you know me, I'm not like that usually!"
I know, of course I know. Li Xingchen is a very good doctor. When encountering an injured person on the streets of Japan, he will immediately provide emergency treatment on the spot. When encountering a patient who cannot afford the high cost of psychological consultation, he will try his best to help solve it, and sometimes even sneak up on it. Make up for the money; treat a manic child, even if his head is beaten, he still speaks softly to him...
Obviously, Li Xingchen like this is the Li Xingchen I know.
With trembling lips, I squeezed word by word from between my teeth: "Do you know that the fire didn't burn me, but a child! Everyone thought it was an accident, you What? When sleeping at night, did that child have a dream?!"
Li Xingchen clenched his fists, gritted his teeth, and seemed to be patient, and finally choked up and said, "I'm sorry..."
"The medical record book you were so nervous about last time was Li Lu's, right? She saw you set fire to it, so she threatened you, right?"
Li Xingchen was very hard, very difficult, and nodded.
At this time, Qin Lang stood up behind him and asked Li Xingchen in a deep voice, "During the second year of high school, Lin Xian's father came to school to ask me for trouble. Was it your report inside?"
I froze again, stared at Li Xingchen, Li Xingchen raised his head sharply: "No!" After denying it, he lowered himself: "It wasn't me, it was Li Lu, I saw with my own eyes that she put it in Lin Yuan's mailbox. Anonymous letter! Only, but... I didn't stop it."
No stopping, another accomplice.
"Okay...Okay..." I said a few good words in a row, feeling like my heart was paralyzed, it tensed in waves, the numbness spread, and my eyes were dazed.
"You are indeed sorry for me, but you have helped me once. Then pay one back, but Xiaomu is my dead end, Li Xingchen, I can't forgive you for that."
"I'm sorry, Lin Xian," Li Xingchen straightened up and kept a kneeling posture, he wanted to grab my hand, but I took a step back and he grabbed the air, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry... I'm not worthy of being a doctor, I killed people, I'm still so irresponsible, and I was threatened by Li Lu because of this, I'm really afraid that you will know. I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."
I looked at the sink in the consultation room and said again, "I just remembered now that your cleanliness addiction only came about five years ago. Li Lu is right, Li Xingchen, your hands can't be washed clean."
Using all my strength to hold back the tears that were about to burst out, I grabbed Qin Lang's arm and turned to walk out. Li Xingchen, who was behind, said the last sentence: "...I'm really afraid, I'm not afraid of losing my reputation, and I'm not afraid. I will go to jail, but I am afraid that I will see your disappointed eyes, just like now, as if I regret knowing my eyes."
I stopped abruptly, turned my back to him, bit my lip, and it was bleeding, I replied, "I regret it. I can't afford a friend like you."
I limped downstairs, and when I came up, I was holding back my breath. When I went down, it seemed that my spine was interrupted. I almost rolled down the stairs several times, but Qin Lang pulled him back.
A lot of images flashed before my eyes.
In one scene, when I first arrived in Japan, Li Xingchen was the one who picked up the plane. As soon as he got up, he gave me a hug and said, "あなたを思います (I miss you)."
There is another scene. When I fell ill again, I made a mess of the house and sat on the ground sad and helpless. Li Xingchen came over, looked at me for a while, opened the curtains of the floor-to-ceiling windows, and pointed at the fireworks that were far, far away. At the conference, he put on a bright smile for me: "Lin Xian, look, are you beautiful? I will definitely cure you before the next fireworks conference."
He used to be so warm and calm, but it turned out to be a blindfold in front of me.
When I got back into the car, I couldn't bear it anymore in this small confined space. Qin Lang opened his arms, I buried my head in it, and burst into tears.
There seems to be too many tears recently.
The boundless hypocrisy and viciousness use their huge bodies to control the rotation of the world. Everything that exists will one day be pieced together into a shadow that covers everything, and then slowly swallow everything.
Many people have long lost their due kindness and simplicity, and I still hope that this is the last bottom line. LC