After that day, I haven't contacted Lan Wanduo, I think she needs a cooling off period.
Another weekend of chaotic work and personal life.
I made an appointment with Qin Lang to drink soup in the noodle shop across the bridge, and after drinking it, I exhaled happily: "The weather is starting to get cold."
"Where do you want to go on National Day? It's still warm in the south." Qin Lang handed me a tissue.
"Let's go abroad. How about going to Paris? A very romantic place."
"Would couples go to holy places? It's good."
"Speaking of couples, I remember..." I turned around and stared at Qin Lang, "Li Xingchen said before, you talked about girlfriends? Trick!"
"I recruited me," Qin Lang said with a smile. "It's a former partner of my company. She was pressed too hard by her family to get married. She asked me to put her name on it and help her out for a while. That's all, there's really nothing else."
I narrowed my eyes: "How can I trust you?"
Qin Lang is full of confidence: "Just a little bit, you can go check it out. Because she doesn't like men."
Oh… …
After dinner, I had to go back to the company, Qin Lang grabbed me and said, "I'm leaving, kiss me."
There were people coming and going on the side of the road. I was very embarrassed and pushed him: "Oh, you are too tall and I can't reach it!"
He put his arms around my waist: "I can pick you up."
I pushed him: "Don't, get nervous!"
He leaned down: "Then you can kiss it like this."
With a snap, I kissed his cheek and he was a little happy. Then several passers-by on the side of the road turned back and whispered.
Recently, it seems that he is getting more and more excessive and bolder. I am no longer afraid of the worldly vision, but before us, it is not all smooth sailing.
Autumn in Tongcheng is particularly dry.
I haven't needed medicine for a long time, and certainly don't need alcohol to fall asleep. But the feeling of falling in love with drinking can't be quit.
After talking about business in the clubhouse in the suburbs, drinking a lot of good wine, and seeing the moon so bright, I feel that I miss Qin Lang very much.
I don't know how long it took, but the effect of alcohol made me sleepy. At this moment, the phone suddenly rang, the ringtone that only rings when Qin Lang makes a call.
"Hey?"
"Li Lu has something to do."
I felt a "buzz" in my head, and Qin Lang continued, "It's being rescued now, so I'm not optimistic."
"What's wrong?" I asked him eagerly, a fine layer of cold sweat on my forehead.
"Suicide. She cut her wrists."
Tongcheng in this season is like a very hungry or hungry lion.
Li Lu was lying on the hospital bed, with all kinds of tubes inserted into her body, with a relaxed expression on her face. However, her face was pale and scary because of the blood loss. I stood in front of her hospital bed and watched her chest rise and fall because of the weak breathing, and I felt a lot more at ease.
"Let's go and sit outside." Qin Lang said to me, "This is the intensive care unit, don't worry, and the doctors and nurses are all outside."
There was a man outside the door, I didn't know him, but Qin Lang sent someone to stare at him and wouldn't let him go. The man looked up at me, his eyes full of fine bloodshots.
"Who is this?"
"Li Lu's last... boyfriend." He replaced the word "gold master" with boyfriend.
Then I saw the man scoff.
I put my hands around my chest: "Tell me, what's going on?"
In fact, when I just came back, I couldn't understand why things turned out like this today. Li Lu's illness has been improving, why did she suddenly commit suicide? In any case, dying takes courage.
"Li Lu, she, she..." The man hesitantly looked embarrassed and uneasy. This cramping and unease seemed to me a red flag that something serious must be in the midst of it.
"Don't hesitate, what's the matter?" I restrained my emotions and said to him.
Qin Lang grabbed the words and said to me with a serious face: "She is pregnant."
"what?!"
"For a month, she probably didn't know it herself. The doctor said she couldn't keep it. She took various psychotropic drugs for a long time, and her body was too weak due to anorexia, not to mention too much blood loss, which had just been removed in the operating room."
"She was pregnant, so she committed suicide?"
Qin Lang pointed at the man, and the man raised his head. He looked like a dead pig and was not afraid of boiling water: "I asked her to kill the child."
"What? The child is not yours?"
"Who knows if it's mine? Even if it's mine, I don't want it, I want you to take care of it?" The man raised his chin and stared at me.
I asked him meanly, "Do you think you don't deserve to be a father or she doesn't deserve to be a mother?"
"I have a decent wife, I don't need a bitch to have children."
"Fuck you!" I rushed up and was about to hit someone: "Do you think you are still Zhenlie's husband? Do you still want to set up an archway to give you an award? What a good man, don't be so happy when you go to bed!"
Halfway through the conversation, the man's cell phone rang. He took out his cell phone, glanced at the caller ID on the screen, and hung up decisively.
"Who called, your wife?"
He looked away.
When I think about it now, I feel that this man at that time was very much like a portrayal of this society. He alone has hurt many people. He has no blood on his hands, but the blood and tears of others are all because of him.
At this moment, I really want to grab his phone, call his wife back, and keep that poor innocent woman away from him.
I grabbed his collar: "Tell me, how did you force her to commit suicide! If you don't tell me, I'll throw you downstairs now!"
"Who forced her!" The man struggled and said impatiently, "I was just playing with her, don't pester anyone when I get out of bed! It was I who was confused and wanted to try not wearing a condom, so I won the lottery. Anyway, I don't know how to admit it, so I'm a fart! It's better to fight, at most, I'll pay the head office for nutrition!"
"You're fucking looking for a fight!" I interrupted him, "I tell you, you need to be clear, any decision you make has a corresponding price to pay!"
"Let me go..." Before he finished speaking, his cell phone rang again. He glanced at the screen of his cell phone and planned to hang up again. I reached out and grabbed his cell phone before him.
"Hey?"
"Husband! Why are you hanging up on my phone!" There was a woman on the other end of the phone, "Did that woman do the child? You won't come back to me after doing it?! Do you still want to steal?"
I hung up the phone and slammed the phone to the ground, torn apart!
At this time, the nurse came out of the room and told me that Li Lu was awake. I ran in and the first thing she said was: "Let him go."
I glared at the man: "Did you hear me? Go away. You'd better go away. If I see you again, you will be beautiful."
The man was amnesty and ran away.
"Why let him go?"
I saw that in Li Lu's eyes, there was a dim color close to the dusk.
She didn't seem to plan to answer me, but after a while, she still replied: "He's right, it's not necessarily his... Anyway, it's gone, it's boring to grab him."
But I think she is very sad.
"Then why did you kill yourself?" I asked with difficulty.
"Probably... stupid."
She raised her head, stared at me stubbornly, and smiled at me.
I am horrified.
In fact, until now, I still don't understand why I felt such a strong sense of fear at that moment, even though so many similar things happened later, even though I was gradually immune to this inexplicable feeling.
But the dread that was instantly refreshing at that time, I can still recall it to this day. LC