Pei Xiaoling asked him before why he appeared at the same time, and he chose Pei Xiaoting
Lan San thought about it seriously, and the final result was that there was no reason.
If given the choice, of course he would have to control himself not to like any of them, even a man. However, people can make decisions about everything, only emotions and illnesses, not even themselves.
The slave of emotion, the inferior species of love.
Lan San felt that in front of him, there was something very important that he needed to do.
And only he can do it.
He has always been quite useless. He is not good at studying. He idles around every day with his mouth turned upside down. He has always looked down on those so-called good students in his heart. In his words, they are "human-like and dog-like".
While in college, the life he longed for was to live without a fixed place and wandering around. In Lin Xian's words, he was "idling."
Blue San of course has a very nice family, of course, just materially. This means that he can hang around outside, slumped, drunk, and all kinds of debauchery.
"When you are alive, you must live like a dog." - He famously said.
But only this incident made him feel like he could finally be a hero.
And heroes are nameless, he is just a hero who belongs to one person alone.
——
After returning to Lan's house, he first listened to his father's " earnest teachings" for three hours, then hid in his room and called Pei Xiaoting. Because of the holiday, he had already gone home.
"Hey, Pei Pei, are you home?" Lan San's voice was soft like a sponge.
"What do you call me?"
"Pei Pei, how nice it sounds," Lan San rolled on the bed, "I feel very kind."
Lan San didn't dare to tell him that his teddy dog was named Pepe.
Pei Pei, Pei Pei, it's old and kind.
"I have already got home."
"Ah... I miss you, what should I do?" Lan San said irresponsibly and lazily.
Pei Xiaoting saw him directly: "Tell me, what do you want to buy?"
"Hey hey hey, Christmas limited edition equipment."
"Oh, then you beg me, beg me to slip your finger and give you money later." Pei Xiaoting teased him deliberately.
"Please."
"I only accept physical requests."
"Fuck you!" Lan San smiled proudly, "If you don't drive to accompany me to the Christmas party in the city center now, I won't tell you the great news."
"Okay, then I promise you." Pei Xiaoting smiled, "Tell me, what great news."
"It's about the same. The good news is..." Lan San's voice on the other end of the phone was obviously excited, "The extreme side informs me that after the interview, I can go to work! When I think of being able to play games, I get so excited. !"
"What does this good news have to do with me?"
"Of course, I have a salary, so I can save you some money in the future."
"..." Pei Xiaoting was helpless, "How can I remember that the extreme is Qin Lang's company, it's really easy for you to enter your family's back door."
"What's wrong with going through the back door? The back door also requires technology." Lan San called out a few words, not to talk to him about this: "By the way, have you booked the air ticket and hotel to Xining?"
"Of course, but..." Pei Xiaoting paused, "I'm not very at ease with you."
Lan San patted his chest: "Don't worry about me doing things." Then he deliberately soured him: "Oh, it's going to take so long, um—"
Pei Xiaoting said: "Okay, don't act like a little daughter-in-law. It's only a week, and it's over in a flash."
Lan San pretended to be resentful: "A week, a full seven days, a hundred and eighty-eight hours, how can I endure it? I~~"
Pei Xiaoting couldn't help laughing on the phone. Then he said in his low and magnetic voice, "I'll wait for you."
This is actually a very heart-wrenching sentence. It is transmitted to Lan San's ears far away through invisible radio waves. It should be an instant joy like fireworks blooming.
But Lan San thought about it and said, "Let's talk about money again..."
"... Hang up and see you later."
"Beeeeeeeeeeeee..."
——
Every December is a big day.
Especially for those on the dark side, it's all about taking stock.
This year is extraordinarily different. Because in the past, this time was handled by Pei Xiaoting, but this year, it was Pei Xiaoling.
Pei Xiaoling didn't know if there was a problem with Pei Xiaoting, or if he had a problem and broke the practice for so many years. It seems that the blue three thing is a stimulus.
His right eyelid kept twitching, it wouldn't be a good thing anyway.
Then came the "good thing".
"You accompany me to Xining!" The voice sent by Lan San, "I have completed the strategy, if you don't agree, it will be too unfriendly!"
Pei Xiaoling asked, "Do you know who you are inviting?"
Lan Sanhui: "The whole world will admit that you are wrong, and neither will I."
So Pei Xiaoling agreed without hesitation.
"The day after tomorrow, I'll send you the itinerary." Lan San's voice jumped, "Do you want to eat together at night? Let's not go out. Anyway, I'll have five adults and one child, eat hot pot, and you can give it to me. I am very popular."
"Five people?"
"Yes yes yes!"
So Pei Xiaoling got bigger.
One Qin Lang, one Lin Xian, one child, two strangers, he would definitely not be able to stand the noise.
I really hope it's official.
Less than a minute after he had the idea, the phone rang.
"Young Master Pei, something happened, I need you to come over quickly"
He especially wanted to give himself a big mouth.
In fact, the matter is not completely related to him, and the reason why he came to him is because no one dares to decide.
What happened was like this, the director of the legal department of a legitimate company on his face died of a heart attack at home, and the strange thing was that no one in the entire company was willing to take up this position. The reason is very simple, the legal department is the This is a hot potato, because the company had a very serious economic dispute with other companies before. Now that the director is dead, no one is willing to take on this matter. If it continues to be delayed indefinitely, then the billions of dollars in the hands will be lost. becomes a bad debt.
In other words, whoever is the director of the legal department now is responsible for getting the money back.
One billion, who dares
And if he doesn't want to come back, who will eat Pei Xiaoting's gun
So Pei Xiaoling had to spend a lot of time in this matter. He didn't know how Pei Xiaoting dealt with these things before, at least he was caught off guard.
The result is that he finally found a fatal loophole behind the strict legal force of the contract. To put it bluntly, there are loopholes to be exploited.
There's something unexpected.
Those previous winters, which were fruitful and lucrative, turned out to be so thrilling.
At this point, Pei Xiaoling admits that Pei Xiaoting is very powerful. I believe that no one can get cheap from his men.
Of course, it is not necessary to think that everything is so beautiful now.
After all, there is still a journey to go, you say yes.
——
Lan San could have become a programmer. This is what he majored in when he was in college. Later, when he went to study abroad, he still learned this.
After returning home, he began to idle away. At first he learned to program, the original intention was to develop games, and finally found that, fuck, playing games is more fun than making games.
So if there is a profession of "playing", Lansan is definitely the best.
But Pei Xiaoling was different.
Along the way, his face was like a concubine who was forced to go to Xixia and his relatives, and unconsciously followed the plane to the airport in Xining.
At the airport, I saw the blue three that I hadn't seen for a long time.
Speaking of which, Lan San is really not a handsome guy. He has a decent face with normal facial features, fair skin, loose bangs hanging on his forehead, and the headphone cord is softly hanging on his chest. A casual sweatshirt, with the sleeves rolled up and tugging at his thin forearm.
He just stood there and walked around aimlessly, with a kind of cleanliness in his eyes that penetrated into his pupils.
"God, you're finally here." He saw Pei Xiaoting first and asked exaggeratedly.
"What do you mean, I'm not late." Pei Xiaoling smiled lightly and answered him.
"I've been waiting for you for half an hour." Lan San knocked his head, thought for a while, then smiled, "Let's go!"
In the days after the incident, Pei Xiaoling kept thinking back to Lan San's expression when he suddenly understood after thinking hard, like the satisfied expression when a baby finally got what he wanted after crying.
"I've never traveled before, so don't expect me to help you. By the way... are you reliable?" Pei Xiaoling asked.
Lan San rolled his eyes: "What? I can still answer you and I'm not trustworthy? Don't worry, I won't sell you!"
"I'm afraid you sold yourself," Pei Xiaoting smiled, "Where are we going now?"
"I don't know, otherwise—" Lan San's eyes lit up, "Let's charter a car to go to Qinghai Lake first? Or go to Ta'er Temple first?"
"I told you, you are so courageous, didn't you say you have done a strategy?" Pei Xiaoling was helpless.
"What are you afraid of, the car must have a way to the front of the mountain, the boat will naturally go straight to the bridge, everything is planned, it will be boring." Lan San stuck out his tongue and said innocently.
Pei Xiaoling shook his head and said, "Okay, where do you want to go most?"
"Qinghai Lake."
"Let's go."
In this way, Pei Xiaoling turned what should have been a pleasant trip into an extremely noisy one, and Lan San alone could easily create a momentum of twenty or thirty people.
It was afternoon when we arrived at Qinghai Lake, and the northwest wind howled in the winter with its teeth and claws.
However, the entire Qinghai Lake is like a huge piece of amber, gentle and calm, like a beauty lying on its side. Although there is no trace of yearning for the Northwest in the bones, but in this environment, it appears naked in front of you, and it has an unparalleled shock and admiration for anyone.
Absolutely beautiful tranquility.
like a tear on earth.
Lan San ran around the lake again, rented a horse and asked Pei Xiaoling to lead him, and took pictures with him.
Can be vigorous tossing.
Lan San still didn't know which stray painter he bought the painting equipment from, so he forced Pei Xiaoling to paint for him like he was rushing a duck to the shelves.
"Your eyes seem to be telling me that I'm a stupid pig." Lan San's posture froze, and Pei Xiaoling didn't draw it well.
"No, I think you are very distinctive."
Lan San looked down at Pei Xiaoling's paintings and sketches, on which he looked sad.
What the hell.
"If you go to be a painter, you should starve to death in three days." Lan San put away the painting.
"But I can afford an entire gallery of painters."
"Tsk tsk tsk... Boss, do you lack friends? Especially the kind that spend money."
"That's great, I'm missing," Pei Xiaoling smiled, "but I have requirements for faces."
"That's great, I want everything, but I don't have to have the skin? How about it?"
Pei Xiaoling finally couldn't stand him: "Lan San, I've traveled so many places, and heard a saying in Beijing, called 'Scorpion Baba - only one'. I don't think the whole world can find another boy like you. already."
"Hi...? Are you praising me or hurting me?" Lan San asked anxiously.
"I don't know, just ask Scorpion."
After finding a hotel and staying at the hotel, Pei Xiaoling found that he was doing something that he hadn't done for so many years, but he felt very happy.
Lying on the bed, Lan San sent a bunch of photos over, Pei Xiaoling clicked to see, there was one, while Lan San took advantage of his inattention, Lan San found a strange angle, opened his mouth, took pictures from a different position, and held Pei Xiaoling's in his mouth. the same head.
Lan San also sent a string of "Hahahahahahahahaha".
Pei Xiaoling watched and couldn't help but laugh.
In the next three or four days, they went to the Eight Sceneries of Ancient Huangzhong, to the Ta'er Temple, and to the Qilian Mountains. The sense of desolation in the northwest always easily drove into the softest crevice in people's hearts, making people feel like they were being peeped. as uncomfortable.
But at the same time, its mild colors and pristine scenery are a good medicine to fill the restless heart.
Yes, and snow.
In fact, many times, you can really feel the good.
Such as opening the curtains in the morning and seeing the world covered in silver outside.
Pei Xiaoling has always liked winter. In winter, no matter the sky or the earth, there is a particularly pure cleanliness. Makes you feel that everything is in order.
Lan San doesn't seem to like winter, and the reason is very simple. He has to wear thick clothes in winter, so that he can't go out and play happily.
Pei Xiaoling felt that his reason was as naive as women who couldn't wear nice clothes in winter, so Lan San jumped up and stuffed snowballs into his clothes.
The whole journey, because of the existence of Lan San, added a lot of fun.
When they were at Jinyintan, Lan San took a selfie with his mobile phone, and then leaned in front of Pei Xiaoling: "Come, come, have a laugh! How is it? Please post your travel testimonials for the past few days."
"What are you doing?" Pei Xiaoling avoided the camera.
"It's nothing, keep some souvenirs, look at you, such a good face is not a waste, I will use it to deceive the little girl." Lan San smiled clearly, very beautiful, "I finally got in the game. Hooking up with a great girl god, if you want to take photos, it's not very confident."
"Then you will be disappointed."
"how?"
"I asked Qin Lang to find a technician from their company to pretend to be your 'girl' and 'great god'."
"Damn it!" Lan San glared at him angrily, "You didn't say it sooner! It's going to be a blast!"
Just like that, Pei Xiaoling smiled while avoiding Lan San's little fist.
It was still a crazy few days of travel, and the last two people were a little haggard.
His hair was loose, his face was tanned with sharp edges and corners, he was holding an unlit cigarette in his mouth, and he was looking for a lighter all over his body—this is the early morning, wrapped in a quilt by the Black Horse River, sitting at the entrance of the tent, accompanied by Lan San Pei Xiaoling waiting for the sunrise.
It's arguably the ugliest thing ever.
Lan San took out the lighter from his pocket and handed it to him, "Hey, let's smoke it."
Pei Xiaoling took a sip and felt much warmer.
"In half an hour, the sun will come out." Lan San stared at his watch and yawned.
"Do you want to lean on me when you're tired?" Pei Xiaoling said thoughtfully.
Lan San smiled and shook his head.
Pei Xiaoling quickly finished smoking a cigarette, snuffed out the cigarette butt, threw it aside, stared at the dark river, and asked what he had been wanting to ask for the past few days.
"Why do you want to travel with me?"
Yes, to accompany him, not him to accompany Lan San.
He could see that Lan San has spared no effort in playing tricks and being cute these past few days, trying his best to be happy, but he is actually trying to find a way to make him happy.
Lan San turned his face to look at him, his eyes were particularly bright: "Didn't you say you wanted to come?"
"I?"
"I asked Pei Xiaoting that the day of the accident was Pei Xiaoling's birthday. Before that, his last wish was to go to the northwest to watch the sunrise. Pei Xiaoting agreed to take him there. He couldn't do it, so I did it for him. arrive."
Speaking of which, Lan San is sometimes a very measured boy. He is not smart, kind or delicate, but he is very sincere towards people and is very good at integrating into various circles. Happiness is happiness, and sadness is sad. , never maliciously hurt others, just because he didn't have all the beautiful Pei Xiaoting in him, he fell in at first sight, and has not been able to climb out so far.
Pei Xiaoling was silent.
Then he took another cigarette and came out, the lighter never lit, and he felt a different kind of feeling in his heart.
Sour, depressed, melancholy, depressed.
There is a sense of disappointment that after chasing a very long TV series, at the end, it is finally about to end. It made him not excited, but sighed: "Oh, so it's here?"
Somewhat reluctant.
"Pei Xiaoling, are you happy?"
Lan San asked him seriously.
"Are you happy? He and I want to see you happy. You look at the photos of the past few days, and you smile very nicely."
Pei Xiaoling felt that his throat was rustling for a while, and he couldn't speak, so he could only listen to Lan San.
"Actually, you also know that he is your brother, and he will never harm you. He is not the murderer who killed you, and you are not the enemy who hates him. You are a part of him, like a piece of flesh on his body, right? ?"
Yes, can't you
How can a piece of meat fall from the body and try to survive alone.
Before Pei Xiaoling could sort out his answer, the sun came out.
There was a ray of light in the distance, and a whole golden-edged line rose in the sky.
People like to watch the sunset and sunrise because this phenomenon represents the alternation of day and night. No matter which one, it is the ultimate gorgeous opening, so intense that everyone in the world cannot ignore it.
Gold turns the clouds, steams dream, and the rainbow-colored round sun is rising, and all living beings are warmed.
Originally, after the journey, they felt exhausted from the mountains and seas, so that the two of them didn't have the slightest energy to do other things, and they were very tired just sitting. Dust, the tent is the smell of very warm sunshine.
As a result, this quiet and peaceful environment made Pei Xiaoling wrongly, stubbornly, and even devoutly believe that his life would always be so beautiful.
Finally, all the sun came out.
Lan San took out a recording pen from his pocket and pressed the switch. Inside was Pei Xiaoting's mellow voice—
"Xiaoling, happy birthday."
At this moment, Pei Xiaoling understood that this was a long-planned gentle surprise.
All the pain must be endured, whether it is a huge and gorgeous love, hatred, and hatred intertwined, or it is a trivial trivial matter, whether it is short or short, birth, old age, sickness and death, resentment, love, parting, not asking, no matter what, no matter what.
No choice.
Happy too.
Pei Xiaoling's hands were trembling a little. He tried to smoke another cigarette, but Lan San stopped him. Lan San leaned forward and hugged him, the sun shone on the two of them, shrouding them in a glittering light.
"Pei Xiaoling, let's go."
"Thank you for staying with him for so many years. Now that he has me, you can leave."
"I know, no matter how much you abuse him, what kind of expression you make, how much hatred you express... In fact, you love him very much, don't you?"
"He's willing to start over, you can let him go."
Lan San's thin voice was both a prayer and an exhortation, but it was actually a declaration.
Who is such a transparent person? At least now Pei Xiaoling felt that Lan San saw through everything about him.
He was born for love, in order to free Pei Xiaoting, in order to save Pei Xiaoting, in order to share his pain, his helplessness, his self-loathing, but—the time has come, Pei Xiaoting finally waited for the good medicine that fate prepared for him, so , his sedative with little effect can finally come to an end.
How kind, before the curtain ended, they also wove the most beautiful wreath for him.
Pei Xiaoling held Lan San's wrist tightly and lowered his eyes: "Lan San, did you hate me for a moment?"
"Yes," Lan San's voice trembled, "When you made me celery dumplings, you told you that I don't like celery. If you didn't listen, I vomited."
In a relaxed tone, both of them laughed lowly.
In retrospect, Pei Xiaoling actually spent his happiest time drinking Lan San. They studied weird tastes together, played games together, and bought desserts together.
As far as Lan San is concerned, there is no friend in this world who is more appetizing than Pei Xiaoling.
Not anymore.
Pei Xiaoling stared at the sparkling river with a desolate voice: "This is my first birthday, and it's the last."
Lan San's hands tightened a little, and his chin rested on his messy hair: "You are too tired."
They both know that as long as they meet each other's eyes, the two of them will cry, so that's it.
In the end, Pei Xiaoling got up and left, leaving Lan San alone by the Black Horse River.
There is only one word before leaving.
"I'll give you all of him. Tell that bastard he's been taking care of him for so many years."
——
The surging undercurrent pushes people to the forefront little by little, where there is filth and filth, ugliness and hypocrisy, your face is a mask, or the mask itself is your face.
So, who knows how many faces you have
When he got home, it was already late at night.
Well, Pei Xiaoling didn't want to turn this story into a bloody soap opera.
So he wants to move the time a little faster now, and the story will end.
He went into that room, took out the boxes, models, photo albums, picture frames, toys, and dragged them into a hole in the yard.
Open the hood, take out the fuel tank, and pour the gasoline down.
"Brother, let's pass yours. I'll take these with me."
Light the lighter.
All of a sudden the fire lit up the sky and the flames licked the memories, mercilessly and equally, and when all the colors finally merged into the color of the flame, it was like a snow - this is really an inappropriate metaphor - in the mind, A white and clean one.
In the choking smoke, Pei Xiaoling took out the last cigarette, lit it with the fire, and smoked it carefully.
In fact, until now, he didn't know what the significance of his existence was, or what he left behind. He just knew that Pei Xiaoting really fell in love with Lan San, and Lan San was hopelessly in love with Pei Xiaoting.
There is always someone who wants to be better.
There is always someone to end.
Pei Xiaoling stared at the fire, squatted on the ground, and waited for the stop sign at the moment when the flames went out, and complained: "What a long time..."
He laughed.
The fire is out.
——
The trip is over.
return trip.
Lan San was sitting on the plane alone, and the sunset was engulfed by the darkness little by little.
In fact, Lin Xian had been pampering his cousin since he was a child. Everything stood in front of him. If his father wanted to beat him, he also persuaded him a lot, so he knew that a brother's instinct to love his brother and his brother's nature to love his brother.
Seriously, he knew them, and they all had their weaknesses.
The plane landed in Children's City.
Stepping out of the airport lobby, Lan San saw the guy from a distance - Pei Xiaoting had a haircut, and he was in good spirits, wearing a neat suit, with traces of the sun and sand from the northwest kissing on his face, smiling from afar. blue three.
Open your arms.
Lan San threw away his luggage and ran over, almost knocking Pei Xiaoting down.
"One hundred and seventy hours! It's easy for me, I can't come over and let me pamper me!" Lan San smiled brightly.
Pei Xiaoting reached out to hold him in his arms and kissed his forehead.
Lan San deliberately disliked him with his mouth: "Just rub your saliva hard on my head."
Pei Xiaoting couldn't help laughing, and freed his hand to tickle him: "You mean little bastard."
Lan San was buried in his arms, and his nose was filled with his breath, a familiar smell.
He took a long breath, then sighed, "That's great."
Outside the airport, they hugged like no one else, no one knew what they went through, what they said goodbye to, what they endured, and what they are enjoying now.
They just don't care.
Now, only death can separate them. LC