Just when you think life is hard enough, it's just small waves.
In mid-June, Zhou Hao, as an outstanding senior, gave an experimental class to senior students.
His condition is not obvious on the surface, he still shaves every day, eats on time, and cleans himself up when he goes out. In fact, the inside has already been completely festered and bleeding.
Zhou Hao led a systematic anatomy experiment, classifying the students by system and explaining them one by one.
During the whole process, he kept a blank face and remained serious. The explanation is very detailed and professional. For him, it is tantamount to following the scriptures without thinking too much.
If Cheng Zixu hadn't insisted on coming over to talk to him after class, he thought, many of the following things could have been avoided.
Zhou Hao didn't remember the specific situation at that time, but he only remembered that his hand seemed out of control, and he pushed Cheng Zixu, who happened to be at the stairs, and the man fell down because he couldn't stand firmly. Fortunately, the stairs are not long, but the leg was injured.
At that time, many students saw it, and they rushed Cheng Zixu to the hospital affiliated to the school.
Zhou Hao was also scared. He really didn't want to push that person.
Throughout the day, he was anxious, but he didn't ask which ward Cheng Zixu lived in? Is the fracture serious
In the evening, as usual, he got off work, cooked, ate, sat in the living room and watched TV dully for a while. There was nothing to watch, just hoping for some movement at home.
Later, when the door opened, Jiang Yuqian appeared in front of him without changing his shoes, staring at him with dark eyes.
"Zhou Hao, do you still have Wang Fa in your eyes!"
Zhou Hao rolled his eyelids and stared at the TV in front of him without speaking.
Jiang Yuqian was completely irritated by his ignorance, and walked to the coffee table to block the TV.
"A person like you is a disgusting person to live."
Zhou Hao finally raised his head, blinked his eyes, and looked at his former family.
"You really don't change your mind!" Jiang Yuqian left after saying those words.
Zhou Hao's gaze fell back to the TV again. He picked up the remote control and kept changing the channels. He found it boring, so he turned off the TV.
At night, he was lying on the bed, staring at the chandelier on the ceiling, and for some reason, he remembered the beginning of him and Jiang Yuqian. Today, with such an ending, he regrets, he regrets pouring all his love on a blind man.
If he had loved someone else, he wouldn't be so lonely now; or, if he wasn't gay, maybe he was married, and his wife had given him many young relatives.
Let’s start all over again, find someone to love and treat him as a relative from the beginning. But now he was too tired to move.
On the shining white light, a pink woman appeared as always. He closed his eyes and stopped looking. Then gradually, I fell asleep. When I woke up, the sun was rising and it was a new day.
It's a new day, get up early, brush your teeth, wash your face, eat and go to work. Before Zhou Hao left, he smiled at himself in the mirror. He wanted to live a good life.
When he arrived at the affiliated hospital, Zou Kai stood at the elevator entrance on the department floor, as if waiting for him on purpose. Behind the deliberateness is gloating.
"Zhou Hao, why do you still come to work? How about I ask for a day off for you, so you can go back and rest."
Zhou Hao brushed past him without even raising his eyelids. In the muddle-headed days, his curiosity almost disappeared, and he didn't bother to ask Zou Kai what he meant.
Zou Kai caught up and stopped him, "You don't know? The video on the school website last night?"
Zhou Hao's eyelids finally lifted up, with a weak expression that rejected people thousands of miles away, "What video?"
Zou Kai handed him his mobile phone, "Look for yourself."
It's a sex video, the protagonist is me, the key parts are blocked by mosaics, but I can hear his raspy voice in the video, "Husband, hurry up..."
It was taken by Jiang Yuqian two years ago, but the video camera was only aimed at Zhou Hao.
That video was recorded by Jiang Yuqian with his mobile phone, and only Zhou Hao's face was recorded. He thought it was a sign of deep affection, and even shouted louder in order to cooperate with Jiang Yuqian.
Now it looks like a joke. Ridiculous.
My "family" has been trying to calculate me.
"This is not me, the person inside is not me." He put on a haughty mask, turned and fled.
Zou Kai did not let go, and chased after him again, "Zhou Hao, I think you are not in a good condition, you should go back and rest."
Zhou Hao couldn't hold back, and punched Zou Kai, his eyes were so red that he was about to bleed, "You're going to be happy when you drive me crazy!? You're going to be happy!?"
Hysterical venting roar, I don't know who it is for.
Zhou Hao went to the inpatient department to check Cheng Zixu's ward number. He rushed up to the VIP ward on the top floor like crazy. Hearing the sound of pushing the door, Jiang Yuqian and Cheng Zixu looked up at Zhou Hao outside the door at the same time.
His former family members left themselves naked in the sun, but now they are soaking in honey pots with their little lover.
Zhou Hao was stimulated by what he saw.
All the questioning and insulting words were suppressed by himself, he closed the door lonely and walked out. He was wandering in the corridor in a daze, and Jiang Yuqian chased him out.
"Jiang Yuqian..." He froze in a daze and called out his name, "I..."
Without saying a word, he rushed over like a mad lion, just like in the past, jumped on Jiang Yuqian's back, wrapped his arms tightly around the man's neck, bit, punched and kicked.
Kill you bad guys, I'm crazy, I don't break the law, kill you bad guys, I don't break the law...
Jiang Yuqian silently endured Zhou Hao's venting. In fact, after the video was posted last night, he regretted it after just one night...
Zhou Hao's fists on Jiang Yuqian's body gradually became lighter and gradually disappeared. With scarlet eyes and lowered eyelids, he turned and left step by step. His back was slow and weak, and his steps were dull and heavy.
At this moment, Jiang Yuqian knew that Zhou Hao hated him.
Unlike the previous spiel and anger, this time it was genuine hatred.
He didn't like this ending, even if the man beat him up, he would feel better. He wanted to catch up, but as soon as he had this thought, Zhou Hao's figure had disappeared.
In the days that followed, Zhou Hao seemed to have evaporated from the world, and he never appeared in anyone's sight again. In the past, several sums of money would be debited from the card every month, and there was no bank reminder.
Jiang Yuqian wandered under Building No. 5 countless times, but his footsteps stagnated. He really wanted to rush up and say sorry to Zhou Hao, but he was afraid, and the groundless apology gave that man hope again. That person will stick to him like a dog's skin plaster, and he won't be able to shake it off.
The video was a turmoil for a while, and it was deleted later, and it passed quickly. Only those who knew Zhou Hao still remembered it.
Jia Lin also heard about this, he just felt that his best friend was too much, how could this be done by humans? Once he was free, he specially invited Jiang Yuqian out. It could be seen that Jiang Yuqian's mental state was not very good.
"Are you really planning to be with Cheng Zixu?" Jia Lin asked.
Jiang Yuqian didn't answer.
"Let's be together, anyway, you and Zhou Hao are impossible, you made people miserable."
Jiang Yuqian's heart skipped a beat, and only then did he realize that the mistakes he made were irreparable. That little lunatic won't come here to punch and kick him anymore, won't run away after teasing him, and won't blow his hair or make chicken curry...
"Jia Lin, I love Cheng Zixu." There is no other way, the only way is to love Cheng Zixu, so that he can get out of this mess.
Jia Linyi understood everything, smiled, "I understand."
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Zhou Hao took a long vacation, locked himself at home, turned off his mobile phone, and relied on takeaway for three meals a day. Listening to Sanskrit, chanting non-stop—
"I have often studied that resentment is a sea of suffering. The more you resent others, the sadder you feel, and you will either get sick or cause disaster. What is it if you are not a sea of suffering
Controlling people is hell, if you manage one point, others hate one point; if you control ten points, others hate ten points, what is it if it is not hell
It must be reversed. Only those who can lead others can pay off the debts of the world and fulfill the way of being a human being. Those who can save people are gods, and those who can become human beings are Buddhas. "
No one can save him, no one can save him.
He read and read, and read aloud over and over again, his mind calmed down, and his hatred faded away.
read again. read on. He wants to save himself, and he wants to live a good life.